Holly in my Eye and a Disjointed Adventure

2 dreams from last night.

The first I had a sore eye last night....  when I woke in the night it was very painful felt like stye though nothing to see.     I whent wake into semi lucid dream in the dream I was examining my eye to see what was up and I removed a tiny dry holly leaf from the inside of my left eye.   I know holly is the partner to the Oak rulling the winter in Celtic Ogham law so I'll have to look into it.



My main dream was cool wired/sexual and very disjointed.  I was multiple people in the dream swapping and changing characters all the time.

I start as neither sex living with another young woman and her young female child who looks to me as a step/father.  , I'm scanned in a supermarket but I also work preparing breakfast for parliament.    The different factions in the house want there own breakfast room but I refuse saying they must eat together to come closer  - I'm preparing pineapple and Neapolitan ice cream. 

Dream swaps and I'm a young male, the person from the first dream is now female and is my friend.    We are friends she has a lover - as the male I'm a masochist and  she enjoys inflicting pain so helps me out so there is also a sexual element to our relationship.
I don't dream of that part - the dream is of a conversation we are having  both nekid (I just know that's our back story) 
She's found a woman/partner for me a friend of hers and is going to introduce us...   I'm excited then look down realise I'm covered in welts and bruises and comment....  'meby I should wait, don't want to scare her off.... then say, actually it's better she knows me'
The female gets annoyed and says 'no you must wait...  she won't want to see that... and any way when your enjoying amazing tantric sex with her you won't want pain'
Confused I ask her 'Why would great sex stop me wanting to experience a fuller range of sensations?'

I think after that I realised she didn't want our group of friends to know her part in it - or any connection to it.

Dream jumps, I'm the same male again nekid laying on a rug with a male lover we are painting together in a large heavy book  (It reminded me of a book of shadows/spell book)

Dream skips again and we are watching a procession threw a sunny country lane a young boy is being transported in an open rickshaw type thing - he is a witness to a crime/event and is being transported   to a case/hearing.

We pass a hippy man & woman being arrested by police the guy has dreds and both male & female are high... they have with them a 'plucked turkey space ship'  this is so wired.  It's floating and alive orange/purple/yellow - The guy has a strange tool kit and the woman is explaing how he made it when he was high and how it really flys.

We pass them and I'm back to a female again and a member of the crowd walking with the boy witness ..  I'm a 'seer' and see a young female girl jump onto the front of the rickshaw tipping her and the boy into a hedgerow and meadow where they vanish. 

No one can see the girl but me and a group of men  (she's a ghost/spirit)  they pull me from the crowd as I can see the girl too.

Dream hops again I'm a couple outside a dark brick mental hospital near a sewer opening me and the male are going to perform a ritual to summon a daemon from the underworld  (this is to do with the missing witnesses)  Inside the mental hospital staff and patients are pressed against the windows watching us.

We start the ritual and a black entity comes from the sewer washed up with lots of dark black water  It's sticky black faceless male. The black water floods much of the fields and we are floating in this black water the daemon has given us what we needed to know.    At this point a flatbed truck drives up to the edge of the flooded area.  In the back of it is a young black guy he's dresses in 70's style clothing with flares and an afro and he's waving a pair of flatted freeze dried lungs.

He's the best friend or brother of the male in the water with the female  I know he's telling us his lung cancer has gone and we are both overjoyed for him we yell at him not to come into the water but he jumps down wading towards us waving the flattened pink lungs.

Behind him we can see a deep stillness in the water and know the deamon is underwater about to take him, the male rushes forwards to push his brother out of the way but i'm in the females body now and move fast shouting to the deamon...   'you can't have either of them I love them to much' 

The deamon grabs me and kisses me and it's nice I kiss back then feel bad for the male who's my lover as I think this the female falls unconscious in the black gloppy arms and I'm watching the dream from 3rd person.

The deamon laughs and yells 'shortly, she'll be fucking Beelzebub on a flaming chariot pulled by the 9 hounds of hell chasing dawn across the back of the sky...  if that kind of thing will make you happy...(laughing) .. of course it will' 

I wake up.  


Friday 10th August... 

Hazy but in an outdoor vets making an order for someone - They had horses & Dogs. I'm ordering them lots of anti parasitics. 

Sat 11th
Wired woven shapes shiny string wrapping to make forms. 

A young girl having a cake sale  -  She lives up a lane in a big house next to the house is a ruined red stone castle.    I enter her house to get cakes but ask to go to the toilet first in the bathroom are 9 baths places in a square shape..  the final 3 baths are joined and have water jets. 

Sunday 12th. 

Friend had written a book about my father being Autistic and too Moral...  There was a maze in water.

Also stuff about Brexit a total fuck up/mess & automaton singing pigs.  

Mid July till early Aug 2018

Sunday 13th July

I didn't write last nights dreams...  they were hazy.      There was a battered old hard back copy of' The Wind in the Willows'   I think I was then back in a memory from my 20's in a rave with an old friend and DJ who I knew.  Then a roe deer small - a baby. 

Then main dreamhouse ...   the loft room was there again,   my parents room.   It was a revisiting of old dreams.

Tues 17th July
I had a dream about a hummm feild in the sky??  It seemed like the old feild in my main dreamscape there are horses in the field and then then this kind of rock formation,  cube like rocks but natural all the same, I'm not sure of the name of them.

Like that

https://www.alamy.com/stock-photo-dverghamrar-dwarf-rocks-volcanic-basalt-columns-and-cube-jointed-iceland-84603313.html

Anyhooo  nesting on the rock coulombs are 1000's and 1000's of small black birds - they were behaving like starlings but felt more like blackbirds.    (Reminds me of the dream with Roz with flocks of birds) 

I was up on the rocks with the birds looking down,  way way down below was a coast line with white sand.    In the sand was the remains of an ancient castle with 4 turrets.. most of it was buried in sand the turrets toppled. 


Another dream,   my main dreamscape playing outside at night it's snowing and the snow is fresh, we've made snow men and have decorated the area with frozen yellow ice (it was peed on snow)  but had been moulded into star shapes so was like star shaped frozen wee.

Wed 18th July

First dream I'm in the countryside with a neighbor I know now we are both young in our 20's  we have drugs,  something wrapped in paper to snort so was like speed or coke.

Next dream is main dream area but built up..  2 gay friends are having a pool party it's nekid and being held in a hotel after midnight.   In the first bit of the dream i'm getting some Zzzzz's as I know it's going t be a late night.    It's tropical theam. 

I'm at the party but it's over fast and I seem to be the person clearing up, I've swept the whole area and am leaving it like we found it when someone tells me we need to move the haybales that were beside the bar area...   these get dragged thew and I have to resweep everywhere.  Dream shifts so I'm outside in a huge open grass plane and I'm still sweeping.

Friday 21st July

First dream, I'm in the countryside in the dark in the back of a horse box with an old school friend.   Were travelling in the horse trailer with the doors open at night.

Her horse is with us,  we are trying to get somewhere she feels we need help and we go into a 'horse people' type area.   (Stables/Gym duno cause i know very little about horses and polo and hunting) 
I offer to go ask for what we are looking for, but Clare knows I'm better with small animals and the area she's going to is full of highly strung race horses so I wait at the door of the trailer. 

She comes back and tells me she has back pain and she has a 'bum bag' could I fill it and give it to her for pain relief  -  Confused I start rooting round the back of her horse box, but all I can find are dirty pants...   after a while I give up and go back to sit at the open tailgate.

There are different groups of people milling round beside me I notice some hunt sabs, they wave at me and I say hello.     Then someone in the horse crowd blows a horn and yells lets hunt.  I think, err hunting not illegal   (but also know these people are outside the law due to money)  I remember the hunt sabs waving at me and making so much noise that the hunt would be disrupted anyway.



Second dream is a pre-historic earth like planet  -  I'm on a cliff looking down onto a low river valley lake bed. 
I'm neckid and Zak is with me also nekid he's a baby.    I have him attacked to me with stips of leather in a sling type thing.

I jump from the cliff tops into some of the high trees and am climbing down threw them like a monkey  - when i get stuck now and then I unsling Zak and hang him from a  branch while I climb lower and can lift him down. 

When we get down we are looking at this amazing river basin from above  then I'm along and stuffs high speed... there is this agle that takes the whole lake. 
It's toxic to all life and blooms over the top of the water till it covers the lake - then as soon as it covers the lake the water evaporates leaving just this algae.  Then I'm watching these small frog and large fish  (Bit like big black catfish but pre-historic) eating all the algae... It's wired as the dream is so visual - it's like  watching a nature film    these small mouths munching threw all this lush green slushy stuff.

Monday 23rd July

I'm on a huge grass plain and I'm with Andy (This is a friend from my early life)  we have  a teepee type of tent but it's has a slight raised platform we are neckid and have face paint but it's more like tribal marks.   I spend lots of time stretching and dancing nakid out on the grass (Like balet/yoga)  We are going on a mission,  we need to visit the 4 elements.

Before we do this Andy makes this kind of milkshake/Sunday thing in a glass with cream and cherry's.    He brings it while we go on this mission to collect something from Earth/fire/water/air  (I think they were dragons we met) 

When we have 'attuned/completed' our missions with the elements we need to access the underworld 

This was a kind of 'interact with rock with energy/light' and we are absorbed into a cave/cavern system  there is a giant crystal guardian/troll thing that we pass.. it's friendly.

We go deeper and deeper until we are meeting with hummm avatar of the planetary consciousness.  She's beautiful beyond words..   old and vibrant, sexual but wise and motherly like a fairy of sorts she glows.   As we approach her there is another male there,  Jack.  He's sitting alone as we all arrive she tells Andy to give the Sunday/shake to Jack.    Andy is visibly hurt but passes it over.   The planetary mama thing looks at me,    I feel the pain of Andy and I tell her,

'I know what you are showing me.....

But how am I ever to love a man when I'm already in love with You'

 She was surprised by my reaction -  and the fact I knew her intimately ...then  Ian's alarm woke me up. (edited)






Monday 30th

My dreams have been hazy  though I know I'm dreaming.  Last night I was getting married to my old school friend we were still young.  I was worried about her, she was tired and I was making food her her.  I was rubbing her lower back and making soft boiled eggs in a cup with toast fingers.   I'd asked if she wanted brown or white eggs and she told me I couldn't ask that. 

I was puzzled and picked to of the white ones,  they wen't shaped like normal chicken eggs.    They were more pointed on top and bottom and wide low bottom like a smooth white cut diamond shape.     I plopped them into boiling water.

Wed 1st Aug

I had an odd dream this morning,   Ian's mum who died just before Christmas was in it. 

It was set in my Grans old house, my Gran wasn't home and there was an old fashioned Iron stove / fire place in the corner.     The kind that warms the room but you can cook on too.

Ian's mum was in the fire, and she was telling me she'd been there since she died and didn't know how too  (I can't recall the words I was using)  In the dream I knew I was dreaming and wanted to write the dream down so I didn't forget it so I wrote what was happening on the tops of a pile of old newspapers that were there. 

After a while Ian' s mum was standing in the room with me -  we talked about death and she said why are there some orange angels and I asked her if she'd met any purple creators yet.

8Th Aug

Last nights dreams were first of leaving a residential school.   It was night and dark, I'd been there for 7 years if I remember right.  I was angry and didn't want to leave (It was a home to me)
Then I was with male me, over stormy seas in a helicopter we kept landing on islands and making love there.    One of the small rocky islands had a small pool by a very basic cottage/shelter   - I was given a key, it was for the cottage and told I could use it for as long as I wanted.

Last nights dreams my main dream area,  I find 2 guinea pigs in the corner of my room.... there water is empty/has spilled and they are very ill and dehydrated  - I feel bad and give them water and they quickly revive.

Last night,   9th August

First dream is of a prison inside a mountain.   It's either off world or very futuristic.    The sky is very black and filled with bright stars.   The landscape is baron dark dusty with a huge mountain the only feature.
Into the mountain is a huge opening/road  into the mountain and hovering vehicles pass in and out.  There made of a dull purple/ grey metallic substance and have glowing neon lights in pinks and purples and lime green.      I'm a prisoner in there I can also see 'Ghosts'   other prisoners who've died in there  I think it was like a mine on the inside.    It was an odd dream were I was in it but also observing it from a 3rd person overview.

Next dream I'm with a friend who's in the form of a beautiful red haired cat - She has spots on her like large white heads there raised and have puss in them, she also has flea dirt in her hair.  I gently squeeze the spots letting the puss out of it, some of it drips onto and into my hair which in the dream is also red.

Last dream I was outside watching falling stars and meteors in a dark sky  (Could be the perseids meteor shower on atm) It was very cool to watch.