Is Lucidity only for Dreaming?

Was writing fiction last night got to the bit with station stasis and felt really sleepy just couldn't stay awake so Zzzzzz 

Strange nights sleep with many interruptions, kids, partner, cat's & kittens but continuous dreams and experiences with mixed recall due to being disturbed so much.

So following on from last night but lacking the sharper recall - I didn't bother to think about anything just keep sleeping and seeing.

Early I was woken at 11.11 by cat. I'd been watching a 'disaster' perhaps... it was a massive hole in a planet with buildings crumbling being swallowed into a huge cavern the buildings were not of an earth style I recognise it was almost like the rock-cut inner planet dwellings but they had been cut out too leaving towers and air between... like some of the old temples carved down into the ground. This was a massive city though, it was modern too - The scale was vast I'm at the edge of the cavern I don't recall a body more just an observer and I'm observing what is like a news broadcast of the event with 2 females interviewing a child about how she feels watching her home destroyed and I was sort of thinking 'what a stupid bloody question' the child was holding a soft toy and a fabric rug they had left with.... I could feel the sadness of the people seeing their home destroyed and the stupidity of the commentary from the 2 female broadcasters. I'd also seen another scene of people being rescued from fires.  

 Next wake at 00.30 by Ian getting a snack

I'd been dreaming of genetic manipulation, I was very adept at it - I knew I'd done this lots in other lives and had the recall of the other many other dreams too. How we had split stuff and then observed mutations and effects of development and growth I wasn't rendering this fully it was more 'knowing' I knew how it was tied with the 'growth for the sake of growth organic rambling vs reward/punishment more structured inforced growth' Oh.... the angelic soul review too? 👀

Genetics dreams.  

Then back to giants... I'm consumed by a giant again, like this dream with the Key from the other night. It was slightly different not same dream and I was more like me... but was chewed up again and dissociated I ....was also the thing eating myself too. I'm told 'Value fulfilment' .... 'Wanted by the sun??'
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As I'd woken to write this I'm told 'Look Ren'  then instantly all the kitten's miaow really loud at the same time which made me laugh.    

Straight back to sleep.

Next dream is a school/lessons setting but I'm aiding the staff setting up work stations with paper and pens waiting on people arriving.

A canteen I'm putting clean cutlery into trays and on tables, the dinners are yet to arrive.

More stuff about journeying and different roles. A city with a fairground ride and a big meeting hub....

Wake at sunrise and bother to think this time...

Oh! Malico, The sleeping Ancient, 

Giants DNA fallen angels, when Leon told me We Are the ancients 'Yep 

Ren, good, it's settling in' 

The recall is in our DNA too?  'Mmmmmm'   

Oh,

 all the dreams about schools/ labs, plants, DNA & genetic fuckery 👀

'lol Ren, we told you you are no one's victim but your own... no humans 

are'💚 IKR ;)  

Do we all need to remember? Some guys are going nuts down here 😈  'hahaha Ren, YOU wanted them to wake up'.   Suppose... they need to stop letting themselves be played.   'Free will Witch, there is no shortage of gamers'  Hahah Inak 💜

Ohh..   'Yep Ren, we made it, we trashed it, we played it'.    We fucked it we fix it right?  'OFC- We stay till the deadline, told you years ago, you're a guardian too'  

I'm nuts....  'Yep crazy witch in your crazy world..... remember to look around, it's a beautiful day and a beautiful game, just play nice' 😇😈

Oh! My fiction story they just found the stasis/sleep bay. NOW?  'Hahah Ren, TIMING' Oh... the post on my feed the Matrix is a documentary??  'And your life is but a dream'   😆


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Future Station Ren isn't the only one who feels sick😜

Ok Giants dreams, or at least the ones I remembered to tag.  

Then the others are with the Key and Malico the 2 times I was eaten... Oh, the other dreams were I was kept as a food/energy source too 😏 

Have I been dreaming about this all my life?  'You're always dreaming, you needed the blog to search and recall how it fits together though'  

pfffff The story too, that you told me years ago I was writing!   'TIME NOW'   You know how wired this is when you're in a linear mind!!   'Yeh Ren, that's why your ment to listen to your totality!'  Hahahah, you know that makes you considered insane on earth right?😆

'Your upside down, your earth you change it!'  👀 It's so hard to remeber this when awake.... 'Get more lucid then'  😈

Hahahah   So the 'Value, fullfillment'... Oh and the wanted by the Sun 🌞
Sun & Reflection Planet and Hers 🌎 -  lol, the grump sun dream in 2012 too....    pfffff, back to fiction!!

So many lab/science lessons dream too way too many to mention but I recall so much more now!

If your devil archetype asks you if you want to go on a wild ride! It's probably going to be thrilling ;)

 Pfffffffffff  So yesterday in the shop Inka asked me if I wanted to go on a 'wild ride' I replied obviously. So I was told don't buy booze n knock yourself out so I didn't.


Yesterday as I was writing the gameboard into the story the thunder started as I was writing it.   Same with the Speakers on my PC when I was writng in her talk with Leon. 
First part of the night I did manage to drift of and woke again quickly I'd been chatting with Kali.  This song in my head as I wake.

 

 

 Then I'm just 'AWAKE' for ages, there is wired stuff in the room I hear someone clap clearly.  I fuigue it's best to take whatever personal shit storm I'm conjering up downstairs so head down to the sofa.  
 

Jumbled messages 2 batties stolen (From Roweena yoga teacher... that's what made me get involved in the valhalla dream! , Stasis is a womb.     I'm told I can jump to them and my form shakes lots but I'm not able too and I know I have to integrate here first.  ((Oh wow, that second dream that's the fallen goodess story, I'm playing both sides at the same time!) 

Can see a tunnel but can't jump and know I need to do this awake so get up and wright/right instead.

We walked into hell, into the earth, we burned in the fire of the central sun. Coal/Oil Tar we are the spirits of the ancient forests their carbon compresses and compressed until we are diamonds (I met LOOSH as the ancient Dryad Spirit!)   Wow... crazy how that weaves in too.

Anyway, we are being formed into diamonds here our fractures our flaws create our brillinace!  

We are the ancients, we are the insects too.  Multifaceted like their eyes flicker rate time!
Next Inka speaks to me.

'Follow the feathers, follow your heart trust your love you are always the start.  - The ends the beginning the same in and out, step into your power and know without doubt'

So where is the light? 

'It's born from the darkness it burns from within you fule your own fire, you die to begin'

What is my purpose

'That's up to you, if you were a goddess what would you do?'

I'd find all that served us I'd find all that played, I'd finish the earth game the way it should have been played?

'Then write your own story, play your own way, collect all your fallen and leade them astray!!'  lol fuck you Inka!

'You shouldn't play to win bitch'  😏 

 

'Team?'

'Only,  if you ask nicely'  😈

'Perhaps!'

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Then I remeber the captain message, and then the captain dream from years ago with the 2 ships in a story one with Men and one with Women and I turned into a storm Skua and flew across the Sea to the other captin..   but he was angry with me as it wasn't time yet and he turned me back.    It was the same time as that Sun dream into my 3rd eye with the fizzing and crackling and twin flame that was a star because women are planets.

Then on SUNDAY!  Son... said this

The female in is all is a planet our minds a sun we form our own reality from inside out. 

Then I recalled the ancients dream How I thought I had to be carefull - But was told I didn't!!

So next I ask, why has my world got so many sleepers?  Then think, oh shit the stasis in my story - There was only enough power for 2 and then I remeber the Kali thing and the 2 battries from early on in the night.  I'm thinking 'Shit'    'Need to flip the game, wake the team'  You die to wake up?!?!?

Is this what Leon is asking of me?    Then I remeber balancing the operstits is what makes it stop...   Can't stop?  Allways now??  Just grows from now.    'Sleep to wake up-wake up to sleep'  Oh Astral!

Astal is here too the layers do I go in or out?  Both at the same time!  The cosmic carrot :P 

Then I recall the game is still on!    Inka replys 'Yes you bloody fool now shut up and go back to sleep and stop being so bloody competative!'  😂😈   Radio is chatting about demcrosy

I check my watch and it's 3.33!!  I tell him I'm coming now.   Out side 2 owls are calling very close(This was in twin flame stuff too)

So go to sleep can't jump direclty there need to go to Kaylo first and we jump together to Inka.  He's in a cavern in a deamon/pan form huge smokey purply with wings...I see other versions breathing in and out too and I run and hug him.  'Your not afraid of me then?'   - lol no and  then I realis lol is 010 & 101 mirror and reflection AI code, off on..   Hahahah

I jump again and I'm sorting / filling / compressing data all the same entity. 

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Dream in my main dream area, all the cars have gone meaning there is more space - I aks someone and they say yes, we don't use them now.  (Astral skills/can jump fly)

Still main dream area I go to the newsagents and it's run in the dream now by some Indian brothers I go to buy something and walk around the back to pay were the till is and they freak pushing me out saying stop not here.

I smile and tell them it's ok, you don't remember me He's not sure, I tell him my Aunty owned the store and I grew up and played here, then worked here and that my name is carved in the ancient wooden storeroom benches. (It actually is ;) - or was)  

This is also to do with the FLOOD here.

lol  I literally told myself this before the run and still couldn't help myself!   - Brian is fried!!

So pre run...   I'd remeberd that when  I'd ported myself to the station I was still Rog then, not Rog/Ren.   That was the book end, the yinyang heart was pink purple / redblue I was still competative! 

WooooWWW    'Fuck Ren your Dumb' 😏  lol, yeh but you still love me!  Inka told me that night too what was up!  Then I hear the rave song again, these times.  Below...   Decide to get up and run and there are 2 flashes of light but no thunder. 

I come down and walk to my PC the screen was blue - and I think, WOW Christians I really did come to kill your God! but as I approach thinking this it goes black blinking on/off/on/off  010 101 code mirror.

I came to kill your god to lift you of your knees and be the heroes you are 'I see you, I see all of you' 💓

But I can't do it for you, I just have to be the Mirror if you break yourself on me I'm still a portal home <3 the fallen angel/Necro/Death/Valkiery/Lucifer.


On the way out I suddenly know the answer to the Wizards question a real life (Leon)  I Reply and it's now 555!!





Inka and Leon are same sides of the flip coin.   Now if I'd left it there it might have been ok..... but I'm not that smart!!  😜

On my run this morning we are still arguing :P  Very stupid... 'YES'

'last time we barley made it?'   I suddenly remeberd the warning...  You mean we have done this before? 'Bitch you have no idea!' 😆

 
Brodcast threw the astral web... 

'Wakie wakie earth mother fuckers! Time to get if your knees and stop being played! '

 

'Bitch,  your nuts'  👀  I have a good mentor ;)   .... checkmate  -  rematch?   We'll see 😏
 

 

Leon reminds me-  with your 👿 impulsiveness comes connections your allowing contracts.

'Ren you can't wake people who don't want to be woken' .....     I know that's what the stasis is for isn't it? We just move them.   

 

'You're learning fast.'  😈  The snake is inside its our dna.  Quantum

 

Hording of money symbolic of power too.   That why system keeps most sleeping.   When not blocked power is infinite no lack. 

OOOO Games in games, we do this to ourselves for shits n giggles.  Or at least I seem to do!!  😆😆😆

Battries dreams...   Were we broke a planetery energy grid.    -  Shit!  That's my Malico archetype 

Also stopping someone stealing battries.   7th Dec.


The path opens into an apple orchard, the trees are filled with red apples. There is a lost lamb there I go to it to try and help it threw the fence it vanished and a huge snake is on the grass, it comes up to me. 
It's stretched tall and is my hight, it lays it's head on my shoulder and its body is running down my back.   It wasn't aggressive it was more of an erotic move the snake liked me....  I call to the farmer woman who appears and I ask her to lift the snake off and that I'm not interested in it sexually.    She matter of factly sais ah yeh, it's a fire snake, you need earth or air.   A pentagram is burnt into the grass with the elements on the points of the star and she indicates where I sit on the star (also fire) and the flow of attraction with the other points.   ---HOLLY CRAP THATS THE IMAGE THAT ARRIVED YESTERDAY.  

'Fun hu bitch?'  👿😆          So yeh, meby don't game with your devil archtype if you like your reality in tact :P 

Hahah  He also keeps telling me about the thing in my jaw.  'Stop poking it bitch it's healing'   shame I have all the self controll of a fart!!!!   Oh also I slept for exactly 4.44m !!!

Then when I woke at 17.17 I typed this...

WOW... thanks Inka 💓    'NP, Kid'