Sleeping Beauty and Has My Life Been a Fairytale?

Ok,   Sooo It seems you can decode your life like a dream! *giggles*   

I always knew that all the answers were hidden in my mind, I told myself they were hidden for safety....   but I think it's safe to let them out now!    I'd got to a point were stuff seemed to have stopped moving forwards and I started to wonder if we are a human race...   what are we racing too?   And were are we racing from....  So   I've been errr going backwards for a while, trying to work out what I'm here for and were I'm from!


So suspend your disbelieve for a moment and come for a walk with me into the flat earth :P      It's the land of games and magic, and it's inside us all!

By the way I duno if I've gone utterly mad or totally sane.  (Oh the quantum thing!  It's both depending on what way up to look at it, that hanged man again ;) )

Sooo  I've been sleeping with various bits and bobs under my pillow  (I got the idea from a friend who sleeps on crystals)
It's autumn and I can't help collecting pin-cones and acorns and feathers,  So I started to pop them under my pillow to sleep on.   I've always drempt ----why dose spellcheck want to change this to pre-empt    -  acquire or appropriate (something) in advance,  Oh lol that's why :D

I think that's were the Oak Tree Story came from.... it helped me ground all the stuff in my head to help it make sense or non-sense, depending on which way up you are!

Sooo    I wake up in bed having a horrible asthma attack again just after midnight.
I've been dreaming of roots and time, and trying to ground stuff.  
I just can't get back to sleep cause I can't breath....  

I come down stairs into the night air and it eases...  I feel I need to sleep down stairs.  
I collect a feather duvet that was my Grandmas, I'd got it from the airing cupboard a few days ago.   I remembered how nice it was too sleep under it.   So I brought this down stairs into the living room lit some candles and put on the salt lamp changed my pillow case to see if this would help the wheezing.

I also noticed a feather I'd picked up that morning on the walk, it needed something eles too, a Shell  (My Sir Name)  I got the one that popped into my head, I used to have 2 of these in my bedroom as a kid.    I stuffed them both under my pillow and lay back thinking about shapes... and why the Giants Cause Way looked like skin cells.

Dream ??  Em- Brace 

Embrace, These are lucid dreams... I'm not sure if dreams are the right words.  It's more like layers of reality that I could go threw from False awakenings to dreams and lucid dreams. 

People keep coming into the room were I'm 'asleep' and telling me stuff, talking to me.  First a Nurse, then a Dr they tell me about the womb - or was it eggs?  It was something about babies inside, oh Russian dolls??  Like the layers of the dream?
I left the bed, my daughter Fay was with me, we travelled back and forth threw the layers of the dream... I had lots of control, magic and could manifest stuff.  

I've made a magic bus, I know that I'm all of the dream characters but they don't know that they are me yet.   I try to fly the bus with me and Fay in to get to the Moon.   I can't as there is heaps of scrap metal all piled up that I can't seem to get round.   (Male/Mars/Iron)   I land the bus and me and Fay climb up the mountain of scrap in the moon light. 

I wake up....  

I get lots of images first, showing the layers in the dream. 

It's this, an onion we had for tea and the Mandala that hangs beside our bed.    They are layers of reality.

 

In another dream I was shown how they spiralise threw space creating the information we experience as time.  They are rainbow too :)

I see the game.   How it all fits, how we were the dot in the centre of the flower of life but we are becoming the ring.  So instead of feeling separate we will feel connected, like I do now :)

I see the flat earth, the creation story, the serpent/dragon going round, them both.  

I realise that my dreams are different sleeping downstairs away from my partner.... that must be to do with dream blending/co-creating.    (I re'meber the guy in the dreamer who dreams you, mentioning his dreams were different next to his partner)

So I'm sleeping below him, like the roots in the tree story  -    there is more balance I have less Asthma.   What Zak said about daddy being a tree branch pops into my head. 

Next pops into my head the book I read ages ago...   Men are from Mars - Women are from Venus.....  this is a bit of the puzzle? 

All these people that come together now make babies then separate.   

I re'meber a dream about 2 ships in an ocean. I can't recall when this was I think it's at a time dreams were on paper rather than the web.

In the dream I'm in a boat in a storm, the boat is like a posh liner/cruse ship it's very fancy and ornate there are only females on it.  Sitting round on pink velvet sofas.  

I go onto the deck into the storm...  I know some things missing.   I turn into a Storm Petrel (Gul) and take off, I fly across the oceans in the storm  very cool.


I see a navel war ship, it's were I am heading!  I fly up to the bridge there is a captain there, I turn back to me..  

The captain is my lover- (my male aspect)  He is please to see me but also annoyed too,   I shouldn't be there.  It's not 'TIME' yet.  




Hummmmmm  I think.  In tonight's dream, I was in the room down here and my partner was in the room upstairs.  I slept on a black & grey feather and a shell...      On a pillow with a blue bird on it! (accidently....   lol the universe has already told me once today, there are no accidents! probably why I can't spell the stupid word!)


Sorry.... So,

I've decoded me a bit..  I'm a Fire Dragon, and Aquarius I've gone back and re'membered lots of bits of me from con-current lives and I understand unity.  Soo  I wonder, is the Asthma coming from being close to my partner??

So
He's a dragon too, an earth one..   he's also Gemini a twin!   His Sir name is Faichnie..  (It's Scottish for man who can change into a wolf also associated with Raven)

The kids are parts of us both...

I think back, I had a picture with Ian in 5 or 6 years before I ment him, it was on a CD cover in my record collection...    Akashic record pops into my head?  What is that??

It was an Album..  'Re-claim the Streets'   My dream.. the first one in this blog 'The streets are paved with shirts!' 


Wow, this is wired... 

Do I need to re'member Ian, or dose he need to re'member himself?

HE says his self, he's been cut of separate, doesn't fit here.   Zak saying he's a branch...    

Oh!!  I think....   The spell!  Woops!

Now, I duno why I did this, it was just one of them wired impulse things (ADHD) but when we first moved to this house about 15 years ago I did a spell.......

Never done one before or since.



I didn't consider myself a witch or magic... I was just in a book I'd bought and It seemed like a good idea at the 'time' :) 

It was an apple split in half so the 5 pointed star could be seen, in it I twined up some of my hair and his, spread the apple with honey put it back together tied a red ribbon round it and buried it in the garden beside a rose bush with pink and white petals, then forgot about it.


Oh.... shit I think,  I can see a round world/flat world both with serpents round them, eating there own tail.....      I see the holographic  picture in the Elohim dream with the scales, tree and frog in it.  I re'member the dream of rebalancing the reality's, I came from the Nephilim, Elohim branch     

The hair, DNA! The Apple, the Dragon, the Garden of Eden....    errrrr WTF!!!   WOOOPS!   O.o 

Next into my Mind Pops Sleeping Beauty, Snow White and the Apple story...   Am I in a fairy Story??

The Apple from the Tree,  The Witch who casts the spell, True loves Kiss??  What dose this all mean....    My head is spinning!

The Spell, I re'member now it came from a book,  Earth mother Magic.... I still have it!   I leap out of bed to the book case.... lol I couldn't spell this so looked it up  - The descriptions spot on!!  https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/opposite    -  I am now upside down. 

When I get to the book shelf my eyes pop out of my head!   There is the book, next to it is a book 'Re'membering your dreams and then a book 'The Celtic Shaman'   Faichine?  MY partner??

These books are all impulse things, I've started but never finished, lol  my attentions fickle/quantum.

WOW  OK,  so I pull out the book to find the spell.  Instead the page opens at Transition Animals
There are 2 of them.  lol  Snake & Raven, bloody would be wouldn't they....... you can see where this is heading :P

Sooo the Spell I'm wondering at this point???  I flick threw to find it.

Wow,  woops   I some how entangled me and Ian big style!   But I re'member  I bought these books and the CD's years before I met him?? 

Sooo  I went down a rabbit hole, landed in mirror world and now I've put humanity to sleep too??   OOPS   I'm really sorry about all this?   lol   

Is this what I've been re'memebering is this why 'I AM HERE NOW'  To re'member?  

At this point my middle boy comes down stairs and sees me sitting on the sofa looking like I've just landed from another planet!  
I tell him I think we are all in a fairy story....    I tell him about what's happened.

He says, 'I don't think I want to be in a story, what about the apocalypse' I reply, Fairy story's are Happily ever after.  We go back to the book case, Next to the Ian book & the me book are 3 more things.

The Fairy Oracle -   Humm  our first daughter we named Fay.
Next Diablo 3 - reaper of souls,  lol is this middle boy?   Oh, this one is a game not a book, me and Josh burst out laughing!
Soo what next...  
Child 3, that's Zak...  Minerals, Rocks and Precious stones??    Hummm  Intreasting??  So I think the story goes on.    The new Acorns!!

There's is also a first aid kit on this shelf...  with plenty sticking plasters so I think what ever 'we' did, didn't do or did or didn't dream...  it's all going to be ok ;)

Before I could fully Re'member, I had to forgive myself and love myself...  the more I did that the more that came back.  

Oh I do use one more spell - it's the
Hawaiian -  Ho'oponopono  :)

I'm Sorry,
Please Forgive Me,
I Love you,
Thank You,


I've always thought I had a mission I was ment to be on ;)  They say lots of us do... I think it's balance... to reconnect the sides of the brain our good and our bad..  to forgive, to love, to lighten up and remember to play!

I'll add all my dreams from 2012 too...  I feel I need to let all this out now and ground it here!


---  Later thoughts, 

Ian asked me if I was going to sleep down stairs again tonight.  I said yes,  I thought it was more balanced..  *shrugs*  When he asked why 'Queens Chamber* popped into my head.   The Pyramid thingy..

lol  What the heck is going on?  When I showed him this we both just laughed..   

I can't help thinking about the blue bird thing too.   DW kept talking about Blue Avians??   

It's all kinda exciting though, I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas :P

Thinking in pictures.... As within So without.

 I'm just going to go with pictures..  cause that's
how I see stuff :)  

Skin cells & Giants Causeway. 
 

 

   

Tree pose Virkasana 

 http://www.pharmaceutical-technology.com/features/featurehow-rebuilding-entire-immune-systems-could-be-the-key-to-curing-ms-4999167/  --   An article on the Immune system.

These are cells,  the bottom are stem cells. 

http://www.businessinsider.com/vagus-nerve-stimulation-2015-6?IR=T

 Nerves and our Galaxy

Soul Retreval, Game Masters and Humility

Filled 14 pages in the dream pad....    Number 14 again!!

First part of the night, is thought confirming dreams, I'm a wave and a line. A bridge connecting reality's. Real-I-Trees.

I wake at just after midnight and get visions....

I see the dragon round the tree of life,  that's me - spirit of the age... born as a fire dragon.

I see a symbol,  I laugh...  hidden in plane sight!   It's been staring at me all my life!  :D
The 2 snakes, the heart wings from the regression that went upside down...   I didn't go anywhere I brought they universe into me.

I'm upside down!!    The eye in the pyramid and it's it's refection.  The dragon the serpent.... infinity, eating it's tail. 
DNA, the tree & the cosmic carrot...    Inside and out. The Totem too!

Back in June I was told in the dream I was Zeitgeist = The spirit of the age. I didn't understand it then, but there is only one spirit we are it, share it breath it, are made from it...   it's the connection and I've moved out of the way to let it in to me. 
Fire dragon, fire is spirit...  I was also born as Aquarius.  So lol  Age of Aquarius..  how very hippy!   It's brought me to experience the Unity.

My PArther is an Earth Dragon, but he's still in separateness.  

Heart song a ...... You + ME Verse.  = Universe  unity. 

As we re'member we are one we can co create harmoniously.

I wrote a poem about this in 2010 but didn't 'feel' it yet.

One drop in the ocean, one flight in a wing,
One note in a chorus, in a song we all sing,


A rainbow heat of oness that holds us all like glue,
For the now is in the everything, 
They're all a part of you. 



Next was the medicine wheel again, how this fits with the tarot and the disk, alchemy, and the whole -  this is coming together   I'm not quite there with this yet, I know it's inside & outside.

Next it was the story of jumping mouse.  Someone shared this with me when I kept dreaming of mouses...    lol,  that was the frog I was chasing in the Elohim dream, and integrated with the dragon.
The flood bible storys quantum too... it's was a flood on the round world, it's a flood into our bodys from the universe when we sacrifice the ego to the spirit.  

Seems dream mouse still has more dreams to go!  

Next thing that pops into my head is 'A space man came Travelling song' I've always loved this song.

I'm seeing the EYE in the pyramid, the illumanaughty..  we are the bit missing, we have been looking at 1/2 of us. 

Reality.....   real it tree....    The tree inside, the flat world/round world.

DREAM

This dream is awesome, lucid..  It's a WILD (WakeintoLucidDream) It's soo real.

It's about putting bits back together, a future a past a game.     A home!  A game I play with friends...We are multidimensional ones were play hide and seek, have races to find stuff do stuff all across space and time.
We have finished a game I'm a tunnel running threw pages of a book the pages are worlds/times/possibility's/ 
A Grey tunnel with doors opens in front of me, I step in.  It's got instructions and telepathic messages but I know the protocol I've done this lots.   I step in close my eyes.
It's like superspeed elevator going up and down at the same time.....  St-reaching then wooshhhh --- Then robotic telepathic voice says , 'Extracting consciousness now' ......    BLISS!!

I'm in a light body, on a space ship, it's grey with  a red glow...   There is a broadcast....  it's telepathic the vibration message goes to mind. 
'Good game everyone, lots of reds this time, then goes of to read codes and download speeds'  

We all have coloured lights in our hearts...  many peoples are pure one colour but mine are mixed like a yin-yang.... I can see it reflected onto the wall rather than in me.   It's Pinky/Red/Purple/Blue we are also given a DL speed. 
We are discussing different creations and ways to create.   I recall I'm a bit of a maverick 'here' I work alone,rather than with a team.... I believe in growth naturally for the sake of it.

I can see and remember  1000's of creations and reality's lives/games I've played.   

The lucid dream I had with a robot and the VR robot demo for the vive are all reality's.  
The dreams I've had that lasted years are all real too.  We are all in a locker room waiting to de-brief, I can't wait to go again there is lots of humour and friendly competition. 
It's like we've been DL'd from an MMOLRPG  --  ( Oh, these are taken from 'inside' too  O.o   lol)
I come back....   This wasn't like waking up, it was like coming back :P  

I'm back in bed lol and the time is 3.33!! 

The experience is amazing vivid so real, so so real.......but my emotions are disappointed, my DL speed wasn't fast enough.... I'm judging myself!!

I realise this is another me in a con-current life (as there is no time)   This reminds me of my Daughter role-playing a game when she was 3 with a friend... they'd been killed and were waiting in a space ship to be born into another baby body.  She told me about it in the way home cause she didn't want to be born again and have to ware nappies :P  (She also used to tell me that the aliens were watching us on TV)

I'm still disappointed, feeling I should have been better and  DL'ed faster. O.o    I'm recalling the Penguin dream that lasted a lifetime..   (I know I play lots of games at once .... the hive mind & CG hollographic dreams Time hopping .   )

Soo recap - I ask the  question and the answer comes....

Spirit took me there for a reason?  (YES) ... Oh  I'm judging myself there too!!  (YES)  I'm divided, I have an ego!  .  My ego separation was there in that reality... I wanted to be faster..  That's why my colour was dual! (YES) 
This is also my competitive streak that comes out in gaming :P (YES)

This is a lesson??  (YES!!)   Is this 'Spiritual Pride' (YES) lol  ok..... Sorry :P
 
Ok,  so I need to balance this??  Forgiveness of this multidimensional aspect of self.   I need to re'member that bit of me...  do I need to start collecting soul parts from outside earth reality's?  (YES)

Ok....  feeling calm now.  I need to forgive and reintegrate this, I need to learn Humility!!! 

I disconnect and lay back and see another dream entrance, so go in. 

I meet the girl with the red/orange hair the one that made the dragon on my palm, she's helping me make sense of the previous dream... she can see me and help me, it's the amber fire.   Is this the chakra below yellow?  (YES)  She is me too.  

This will stop the fire in my Yellow Ray if I re'member this too...  I need to find my lots Orange soul shards.   I start looking threw my dreams..   Bathroom dreams!  lol the ones were I'm on the loo :P  HAHAHA   Ok
I find the ghost in a bathroom, it's invisible too.  I can see the light cord movement and vibration that lets me know it's direction.  I feel it coming back into me with a WHOOOSH! :)  It's so bright!!     I can see a group of lives associated with it.   A woman, A few Men and a young boy.... I see them all before me, they have been feeling bad & guilty about things.    They have various clothes on from threw the ages one of the females seems Russian?  She can dance the Charleston (So 1920ish) :P  Some of the men look like they are from the 1800's.

--  
Wake again.

So wow!   O.o     I've a feeling the boy in the dream had something to do with Zak (my youngest boy)... We've had some wired quantum entanglement thing/karma/soul group stuff going on.   He seems to have nightmares as I'm doing stuff.   Wonder if this ties in with him yelling 'no don't take it back mummy' and nightmares about me eating his lolly, and being scared of birds??    When he was first born he wouldn't 'look' at me for the first 4 weeks. 

This morning is the first morning he hasn't woke up screaming and shouting and demanding things.. he was just laying in his cot smiling and giggling!

This is all quite mind popping :D  

Oh how odd....   O.o   Zak kept saying to me.   'Mummy I got a good idea'       'I got a good idea in my dream'  He's kept saying it all morning....  

When Ian appeared he said it again.    'Mummy I got a good idea in my dream,  Daddy's a tree'   
'Daddy a branch'  O.o       Hehe  Ian's had to admit that that is fairly wired :D 
I also keep finding stuff round our house that I don't remember being her before. 



SOo the pond dream.

The Duality Penguin.



Summer  2011 some time. 

I had such a beautiful dream last night. It felt like it lasted a lifetime...... hence it's long

I was myself, human and I lived naked in a large deep lake were I was able to breath in the water.
The pool was in the most beautiful setting, surrounded by light forest with perpetual low sunlight that shone on the surface of the lake.

One day a black & white penguin appeared in the pool - at first we just imitated each other, but with time we learnt to interact and play together. Our favourite game was fetch, with a pink bath toy.
During a game diving deep for the ball, I happened into a tribe of human like 'people' living at the bottom of the lake.

At first they were a little unsettled that I had found them - I felt that I knew them. (Then realised this was a memory from a future, and that I would know them)
With time they accepted me and I grew especially close to one of them, years went by I lived with them and learnt there ways.
With time they gradually faded out of my visual sight but I knew they were with me still and I could always talk with the tribe even though I couldn't see them.

During this time the other humans (ones similar to how I had been) had taken over the area where the lake was situated. Eventually all that was left of the lake was a small dark deep pool.
The water there had become very polluted, the pollution didn't harm me as I'd become part of the nature of the lake.
The water was harmful to the other humans though, they wanted to dig out the pool and replace it with a swimming baths so that their infants could play there. I agreed and left the lake.
After the lake had been turned into a small swimming pool, I tried to find the lake water.
I found where they were channelling the lake water too - it was now flowing in a dark underground canal, the water was now black and thick and was being pumped fast threw massive turbines.
I could feel the tribe were with me though I couldn't see them..... I could hear them telling me. 'Don’t be afraid, don't be upset'
I left the canal and the dark water and found a small stream I followed into wild grassland.... I think by this time the tribe member I'd mated with had materialised to keep me company.
We came to a small metal shed on the edge of the grassland, inside the shed were 2 children working several computers. The tribe member I was with asked about the door way.
The children smiled and said they would help us in a moment.
After a small wait they asked us to open a cupboard and press a blue button, when we did so a doorway into another scene opened.
Looking through the doorway, I could see the tribe ‘people’ there.
In the distance there was a small beach set in a rocky cove and beyond a huge bright blue ocean.
I hear them in my mind saying to me ----- 'you know how to swim now, next you have to learn to swim in the ocean'

- I woke up then :) It was such a rich beautiful world and it felt like I'd been there for so so long..... literally a lifetime!

--
Hummmm   Sooo much makes sense to me now!! This dream from below too, it is inside & outside us!



This from 29th 6th 16.   --
Really amazing insight from this dream.
The setting is a huge high security science complex, it's quite futuristic really clean and white, with huge cooling systems and miles of corridors.
I'm in there on a mission, I know I've 'done' this before.... I also know I'm 'winging' it but I instinctively know all the people I need to go to to help me, and also know how past all the security systems.

My mission is Crocheting - the thread is unbelievably fine and organic in nature. I've got a pair of hooks they are a size 7.
I pass threw the security un-noticed and I'm cleared for the bio security too. I'm connecting the few people I know in there who can help and getting things from them. When I get into the place I need to be, I realise size 7 hooks are to big, and I need 6.
I remember someone who can crochet leeks and that she has the 6, so I find her and bring her to the work station. I'm watching my team work, they are making amazing tiny molecules and shaped with the thread.
--- As I wake up I realise that rather than coming back into my body awareness from outside, I'm coming back into my awareness from inside me.
At that moment I realise that the complex was representing my body, the 'helpers' were cells the security was my immune system!
We were making cells molecules and DNA! :P
I've just quickly googled number 7 & 6 and 7 is intellect and knowledge spiritual awareness and 6 is balance, love/care and connecting above and below.
How cool!! :D :D
I'm now going to reconsider other dreams I've had in lab/medical/factory type setting

lol   that’s without the awesome vision I had   

Hummmm  One below too - I think this relevant to something too.  

30 - Oct-2012

Me and Ian both had mad dreams last night, his was about a telescope that was taken by of worlders and he went back in time with American Indians to get it back.

My first dreams were about a cottage near a railway junction in beautiful agless countryside, the house was full of ghosts and demons.
It was some friends of Ians that lived there and they'd invited us round to get our take on it.
I found the ghosts funny, they did stupid things like lifting up skirts or playing with children's toys.
There was all kinds of weirdness outside the house too - big moving shapes.

I sat with Ian at the door, there was this huge skeletal zomby thing running at the house looking fairly mean.

As it got close up I held up my hand and shouted stop! It did.... I then held out my hand to it and I asked it what it wanted and if I could help.
It smiled at me and said 'stay safe' then vanished.

After that some portal opened outside the cottage, there was an alien metal road and Ian had decided he was going to steal some of the road to sell.

The alien people were going to kill him, I asked them not to as our kids would miss him.... and I told them they could have me instead.

They seemed content with that, but they told me they wouldn't kill me I had to take the road metal but accept the corruption that came with it. I agreed... after that I joined some wired alien group that were doing interesting but not entirely ethical things.... It was kinda fun.

The 2nd dreams were about volcanoes erupting outside an elderly relatives house, they were like 3 mini volcanoes the ground kept shaking and they kept spewing hot stuff, there were also dogs everywhere.
This one didn't have much story line it was just kinda cool and very real.




I duno :P It was like glowing metal path made of tiny metal pebbles... but they were all shaped to fit together and polished. It was very pritty.

Some of them had markings on, and others had holes in. It was like an iridescent purple metallic color.
Cause it was made of small individual bits and it was so cool looking Ian had prised some bits of it up to take.
They were the bits I had to take of him and accept there corruption