I always knew that all the answers were hidden in my mind, I told myself they were hidden for safety.... but I think it's safe to let them out now! I'd got to a point were stuff seemed to have stopped moving forwards and I started to wonder if we are a human race... what are we racing too? And were are we racing from.... So I've been errr going backwards for a while, trying to work out what I'm here for and were I'm from!
So suspend your disbelieve for a moment and come for a walk with me into the flat earth :P It's the land of games and magic, and it's inside us all!
By the way I duno if I've gone utterly mad or totally sane. (Oh the quantum thing! It's both depending on what way up to look at it, that hanged man again ;) )
Sooo I've been sleeping with various bits and bobs under my pillow (I got the idea from a friend who sleeps on crystals)
It's autumn and I can't help collecting pin-cones and acorns and feathers, So I started to pop them under my pillow to sleep on. I've always drempt ----why dose spellcheck want to change this to pre-empt - acquire or appropriate (something) in advance, Oh lol that's why :D
I think that's were the Oak Tree Story came from.... it helped me ground all the stuff in my head to help it make sense or non-sense, depending on which way up you are!
Sooo I wake up in bed having a horrible asthma attack again just after midnight.
I've been dreaming of roots and time, and trying to ground stuff.
I just can't get back to sleep cause I can't breath....
I come down stairs into the night air and it eases... I feel I need to sleep down stairs.
I collect a feather duvet that was my Grandmas, I'd got it from the airing cupboard a few days ago. I remembered how nice it was too sleep under it. So I brought this down stairs into the living room lit some candles and put on the salt lamp changed my pillow case to see if this would help the wheezing.
I also noticed a feather I'd picked up that morning on the walk, it needed something eles too, a Shell (My Sir Name) I got the one that popped into my head, I used to have 2 of these in my bedroom as a kid. I stuffed them both under my pillow and lay back thinking about shapes... and why the Giants Cause Way looked like skin cells.
Dream ?? Em- Brace
Embrace, These are lucid dreams... I'm not sure if dreams are the right words. It's more like layers of reality that I could go threw from False awakenings to dreams and lucid dreams.People keep coming into the room were I'm 'asleep' and telling me stuff, talking to me. First a Nurse, then a Dr they tell me about the womb - or was it eggs? It was something about babies inside, oh Russian dolls?? Like the layers of the dream?
I left the bed, my daughter Fay was with me, we travelled back and forth threw the layers of the dream... I had lots of control, magic and could manifest stuff.
I've made a magic bus, I know that I'm all of the dream characters but they don't know that they are me yet. I try to fly the bus with me and Fay in to get to the Moon. I can't as there is heaps of scrap metal all piled up that I can't seem to get round. (Male/Mars/Iron) I land the bus and me and Fay climb up the mountain of scrap in the moon light.
I wake up....
I get lots of images first, showing the layers in the dream.
It's this, an onion we had for tea and the Mandala that hangs beside our bed. They are layers of reality.
In another dream I was shown how they spiralise threw space creating the information we experience as time. They are rainbow too :)
I see the game. How it all fits, how we were the dot in the centre of the flower of life but we are becoming the ring. So instead of feeling separate we will feel connected, like I do now :)
I see the flat earth, the creation story, the serpent/dragon going round, them both.
I realise that my dreams are different sleeping downstairs away from my partner.... that must be to do with dream blending/co-creating. (I re'meber the guy in the dreamer who dreams you, mentioning his dreams were different next to his partner)
So I'm sleeping below him, like the roots in the tree story - there is more balance I have less Asthma. What Zak said about daddy being a tree branch pops into my head.
Next pops into my head the book I read ages ago... Men are from Mars - Women are from Venus..... this is a bit of the puzzle?
All these people that come together now make babies then separate.
I re'meber a dream about 2 ships in an ocean. I can't recall when this was I think it's at a time dreams were on paper rather than the web.
In the dream I'm in a boat in a storm, the boat is like a posh liner/cruse ship it's very fancy and ornate there are only females on it. Sitting round on pink velvet sofas.
I go onto the deck into the storm... I know some things missing. I turn into a Storm Petrel (Gul) and take off, I fly across the oceans in the storm very cool.
I see a navel war ship, it's were I am heading! I fly up to the bridge there is a captain there, I turn back to me..
The captain is my lover- (my male aspect) He is please to see me but also annoyed too, I shouldn't be there. It's not 'TIME' yet.
Hummmmmm I think. In tonight's dream, I was in the room down here and my partner was in the room upstairs. I slept on a black & grey feather and a shell... On a pillow with a blue bird on it! (accidently.... lol the universe has already told me once today, there are no accidents! probably why I can't spell the stupid word!)
Sorry.... So,
I've decoded me a bit.. I'm a Fire Dragon, and Aquarius I've gone back and re'membered lots of bits of me from con-current lives and I understand unity. Soo I wonder, is the Asthma coming from being close to my partner??
So
He's a dragon too, an earth one.. he's also Gemini a twin! His Sir name is Faichnie.. (It's Scottish for man who can change into a wolf also associated with Raven)
The kids are parts of us both...
I think back, I had a picture with Ian in 5 or 6 years before I ment him, it was on a CD cover in my record collection... Akashic record pops into my head? What is that??
It was an Album.. 'Re-claim the Streets' My dream.. the first one in this blog 'The streets are paved with shirts!'
Wow, this is wired...
Do I need to re'member Ian, or dose he need to re'member himself?
HE says his self, he's been cut of separate, doesn't fit here. Zak saying he's a branch...
Oh!! I think.... The spell! Woops!
Now, I duno why I did this, it was just one of them wired impulse things (ADHD) but when we first moved to this house about 15 years ago I did a spell.......
Never done one before or since.
I didn't consider myself a witch or magic... I was just in a book I'd bought and It seemed like a good idea at the 'time' :)
It was an apple split in half so the 5 pointed star could be seen, in it I twined up some of my hair and his, spread the apple with honey put it back together tied a red ribbon round it and buried it in the garden beside a rose bush with pink and white petals, then forgot about it.
Oh.... shit I think, I can see a round world/flat world both with serpents round them, eating there own tail..... I see the holographic picture in the Elohim dream with the scales, tree and frog in it. I re'member the dream of rebalancing the reality's, I came from the Nephilim, Elohim branch
The hair, DNA! The Apple, the Dragon, the Garden of Eden.... errrrr WTF!!! WOOOPS! O.o
Next into my Mind Pops Sleeping Beauty, Snow White and the Apple story... Am I in a fairy Story??
The Apple from the Tree, The Witch who casts the spell, True loves Kiss?? What dose this all mean.... My head is spinning!
The Spell, I re'member now it came from a book, Earth mother Magic.... I still have it! I leap out of bed to the book case.... lol I couldn't spell this so looked it up - The descriptions spot on!! https://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/opposite - I am now upside down.
When I get to the book shelf my eyes pop out of my head! There is the book, next to it is a book 'Re'membering your dreams and then a book 'The Celtic Shaman' Faichine? MY partner??
These books are all impulse things, I've started but never finished, lol my attentions fickle/quantum.
WOW OK, so I pull out the book to find the spell. Instead the page opens at Transition Animals
There are 2 of them. lol Snake & Raven, bloody would be wouldn't they....... you can see where this is heading :P
There are 2 of them. lol Snake & Raven, bloody would be wouldn't they....... you can see where this is heading :P
Sooo the Spell I'm wondering at this point??? I flick threw to find it.
Wow, woops I some how entangled me and Ian big style! But I re'member I bought these books and the CD's years before I met him??
Sooo I went down a rabbit hole, landed in mirror world and now I've put humanity to sleep too?? OOPS I'm really sorry about all this? lol
Is this what I've been re'memebering is this why 'I AM HERE NOW' To re'member?
At this point my middle boy comes down stairs and sees me sitting on the sofa looking like I've just landed from another planet!
I tell him I think we are all in a fairy story.... I tell him about what's happened.
He says, 'I don't think I want to be in a story, what about the apocalypse' I reply, Fairy story's are Happily ever after. We go back to the book case, Next to the Ian book & the me book are 3 more things.
The Fairy Oracle - Humm our first daughter we named Fay.
Next Diablo 3 - reaper of souls, lol is this middle boy? Oh, this one is a game not a book, me and Josh burst out laughing!
Soo what next...
Child 3, that's Zak... Minerals, Rocks and Precious stones?? Hummm Intreasting?? So I think the story goes on. The new Acorns!!
There's is also a first aid kit on this shelf... with plenty sticking plasters so I think what ever 'we' did, didn't do or did or didn't dream... it's all going to be ok ;)
Before I could fully Re'member, I had to forgive myself and love myself... the more I did that the more that came back.
Oh I do use one more spell - it's the
Hawaiian - Ho'oponopono :)
I'm Sorry,
Please Forgive Me,
I Love you,
Thank You,
I've always thought I had a mission I was ment to be on ;) They say lots of us do... I think it's balance... to reconnect the sides of the brain our good and our bad.. to forgive, to love, to lighten up and remember to play!
I'll add all my dreams from 2012 too... I feel I need to let all this out now and ground it here!
--- Later thoughts,
Ian asked me if I was going to sleep down stairs again tonight. I said yes, I thought it was more balanced.. *shrugs* When he asked why 'Queens Chamber* popped into my head. The Pyramid thingy..
I can't help thinking about the blue bird thing too. DW kept talking about Blue Avians??
It's all kinda exciting though, I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas :P
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