So
I didn't really dream. I could see scales, the Justice tarot
archetype and realised this is balance... like the yin-yang. I knew
they were inside the hemisphere's of my mind. Then I was just a tree
all night.
When I woke I had more revelations
:)
The cross, the sacrifice (Jesus) The cross is inside.
The ego self dies , and is resurrected into the larger life of cosmic gnosis (also tarot archetypes)
The cross is the separation between 2 half's of the mind. That stops the connection to the heart were our home is... the key to eternal life.
I always thought he was an example not a saviour well he's both and neither at the same time! Jesus he's the lover!! The triad! when we are balanced and connected to our source.
The cross (hanged man) is the veil that separates inside our minds that then separates from the heart. (The hanged man! So when he said no one comes to the father except threw me...
Threw love & forgiveness we re'member' and re intergrate our 'larger' self into gnosis. By balancing the mind and letting the energy flow to the heart, were our connected home is.
Jesus could do miracles cause he knew he was a game master... The cross is the flat earth, he as a creator in his own flat earth tree!
This probably ties into the kabala thingy too that I've never got round to looking at.... Oh yeh it's 3 dimensional shapes isn't it... So it's dimensions Monad up..... the other dimensions must be inside our body too, or in the space around them. ( Oh yeh that's star shapes- shit.... I really do 'seem to be able to tap into O.o gnosis lol - The 8th dimension is that below.... That must happen when I sort out my wiring properly.
Another tangent.... wow haha I'm not ADHD, I'm just multi dimensional :P
Anyway back to the Jesus thing, so I was laying in bed thinking this and I let my mind go blank... I could feel thoughts blowing thew my mind and re'membered this
I wrote in summer 2000 -
I watched it wash straight threw me, I felt it blow away....
The part of me that 'knew' has gone I believe I rejected it.
and now I'm hear and watching and floating on my own,
leaving out the 'others' I thought my mind would be my home.
But I want it to come back now the bit that really 'cared'
cause now I know there are others who are happy to bare,
the pain that comes from loving and the grief that's of our 'mind'
We need our hearts to be open to enjoy being part of man kind.
--- lol, I was in a dark place back then but I knew I'd left my heart home and separated myself of in my mind!
The heroes journal, threw the archetypes. (or the fools
:P ) lol wow!
Synchronicity s too... My life is now like a lucid dream or being on psychedelics.
More wired stuff too.... My life is getting stranger than a dream
:D
My Dad is here atm. He brought me something he's been keeping for me since I was 3 years old, it's a really old silver bracer that was given to my Mum for me by her sister... My Aunty and Godmother.
It was her house that I drempt of when I was on another planet saying good bye It was in her house I signed my 'deed of inheritance' The timing is so odd.... I think it's the universe telling me I fulfilled that life contract. --- It's also an Aunty close to death (the one I dreamt of telling her she'd been a second mother to me)
My Mum had it, and my Dad's kept it till now. He gave it to me yesterday. When my Daughter asked at Breakfast what it was, my dad replied
'I've been keeping it for her, I think she's big enough now to take care of it'
O.o Daughter replied, ' Oh you can pass it on to me now, and I'll give it to my daughter after' O.o
I had such a wired walk too... I was just thinking how the synchronicity in my life are making it feel like a lucid dream or a psychedelic trip... and then I found a small patch of magic mushrooms! I didn't pick or eat them.... round the next corner Josh shouted for me - there was a tree covered in lots of yellow ladybirds & lave all at different stages of transformation. It was the most amazing thing to see, there bodys were morphing and changing as I watched - becoming something else. (when I was a kid I used to think I'd been a red ladybird )
Next corner was a hollow tree .... this is what I'm doing, widening the channel 'trunk' of my own flat earth O.o My asthma kicked of again the same time as my lungs expand further.
lol Soooo I've worked threw a cycle and I find myself with only more questions:D once more I'm the fool, to start a new journey!
------ I've a feeling Zak my 3rd child is here to help me remember telepathy - I've been thinking for a while he's from somewhere with telepathy and instant manifestation.
Sooo Next - check out Ladybird meanings... and Oh there's a poem I wrote last cycle that's coming back to me too. It's relevant to now! lol and spell check kept changing relevent to 'reinvent '.....change (something) so much that it appears to be entirely new. (The lady BIRD Morphing)
Lady.... Bird? Ohhhh I used to shap shift into a bird in some dreams ....And tangent!!
Wow, Vission from the 30th that I'd totaly forgotton!
'Visions, a huge wall of ice!! Inside is a magic holographic light chamber a tiny 'lady bird' comes and lands on the ice wall. It shatters and falls away leaving the entrance clear.-
Looking down onto a stone henge type of building it's all rock and built onto rock... all grey.'
anyway, the poem from around 6 years ago...
Smashing threw the boundaries, crawling deep inside, Hunting for the answers in our deepest self reside.
Reaching for a limits, searching for an end, unravelling a spiral, tracing every bend.
Up and out??
Or Deep within?
Missing the point were the whole thing begins.
In blindness we are searching, groping for a light, connecting with our renaissance the Hummmm that feels alright.
A path to sure maddness? A path that leads to sin?
Grin and shrug of fear :)
Pull out all that's in.
Dose it just keep coming? Your endless silly string?
What can you use it for? What answers will it bring?
You've tied yourself in knots now, and still no further on,
Put your questions in your head, ask your heart to sing your song <3
So of I go again, as the fool....
The Bracelet
OMGGGGG The 2 last dreams here that I'd forgotten about! 9 days ago O.o The Aunty & Lady Bird..
The leaf pattern. The fact I called her my Fairy Godmother cause she was my Godmother! So my Dad thinks the braclet was my Great Great grandmothers... but it found it's way to me, Gran had 9 children.. Ohh 9.
- Also had another wired thing, this afternoon. There was light reflecting of one window as we got out of the care earlier, it had the same pattern as the leaves, I realised I need to do something with partner to help him 'Re'Member' It was hug :P lol Just pulled a tarrot card, 9 of wands! 10 of wands :) 9 is the number of completion.
- When I was on the walk this morning I started to get bleed threws of other 'times'
A path I walk with the dog I always think of Highway men on it. This time I could see them I was riding with them and hear the horses hooves! My mind also flipped to a pirate life too, smuggling and packing stuff into a wet cave.
When I woke I had more revelations
:)
The ego self dies , and is resurrected into the larger life of cosmic gnosis (also tarot archetypes)
The cross is the separation between 2 half's of the mind. That stops the connection to the heart were our home is... the key to eternal life.
I always thought he was an example not a saviour well he's both and neither at the same time! Jesus he's the lover!! The triad! when we are balanced and connected to our source.
The cross (hanged man) is the veil that separates inside our minds that then separates from the heart. (The hanged man! So when he said no one comes to the father except threw me...
Threw love & forgiveness we re'member' and re intergrate our 'larger' self into gnosis. By balancing the mind and letting the energy flow to the heart, were our connected home is.
Jesus could do miracles cause he knew he was a game master... The cross is the flat earth, he as a creator in his own flat earth tree!
This probably ties into the kabala thingy too that I've never got round to looking at.... Oh yeh it's 3 dimensional shapes isn't it... So it's dimensions Monad up..... the other dimensions must be inside our body too, or in the space around them. ( Oh yeh that's star shapes- shit.... I really do 'seem to be able to tap into O.o gnosis lol - The 8th dimension is that below.... That must happen when I sort out my wiring properly.
Another tangent.... wow haha I'm not ADHD, I'm just multi dimensional :P
Anyway back to the Jesus thing, so I was laying in bed thinking this and I let my mind go blank... I could feel thoughts blowing thew my mind and re'membered this
I wrote in summer 2000 -
I watched it wash straight threw me, I felt it blow away....
The part of me that 'knew' has gone I believe I rejected it.
and now I'm hear and watching and floating on my own,
leaving out the 'others' I thought my mind would be my home.
But I want it to come back now the bit that really 'cared'
cause now I know there are others who are happy to bare,
the pain that comes from loving and the grief that's of our 'mind'
We need our hearts to be open to enjoy being part of man kind.
--- lol, I was in a dark place back then but I knew I'd left my heart home and separated myself of in my mind!
The heroes journal, threw the archetypes. (or the fools
:P ) lol wow!Synchronicity s too... My life is now like a lucid dream or being on psychedelics.
More wired stuff too.... My life is getting stranger than a dream
:DMy Dad is here atm. He brought me something he's been keeping for me since I was 3 years old, it's a really old silver bracer that was given to my Mum for me by her sister... My Aunty and Godmother.
It was her house that I drempt of when I was on another planet saying good bye It was in her house I signed my 'deed of inheritance' The timing is so odd.... I think it's the universe telling me I fulfilled that life contract. --- It's also an Aunty close to death (the one I dreamt of telling her she'd been a second mother to me)
My Mum had it, and my Dad's kept it till now. He gave it to me yesterday. When my Daughter asked at Breakfast what it was, my dad replied
'I've been keeping it for her, I think she's big enough now to take care of it'
O.o Daughter replied, ' Oh you can pass it on to me now, and I'll give it to my daughter after' O.oI had such a wired walk too... I was just thinking how the synchronicity in my life are making it feel like a lucid dream or a psychedelic trip... and then I found a small patch of magic mushrooms! I didn't pick or eat them.... round the next corner Josh shouted for me - there was a tree covered in lots of yellow ladybirds & lave all at different stages of transformation. It was the most amazing thing to see, there bodys were morphing and changing as I watched - becoming something else. (when I was a kid I used to think I'd been a red ladybird )
Next corner was a hollow tree .... this is what I'm doing, widening the channel 'trunk' of my own flat earth O.o My asthma kicked of again the same time as my lungs expand further.
lol Soooo I've worked threw a cycle and I find myself with only more questions
:D once more I'm the fool, to start a new journey! ------ I've a feeling Zak my 3rd child is here to help me remember telepathy - I've been thinking for a while he's from somewhere with telepathy and instant manifestation.
Sooo Next - check out Ladybird meanings... and Oh there's a poem I wrote last cycle that's coming back to me too. It's relevant to now! lol and spell check kept changing relevent to 'reinvent '.....change (something) so much that it appears to be entirely new. (The lady BIRD Morphing)
Lady.... Bird? Ohhhh I used to shap shift into a bird in some dreams ....And tangent!!
Wow, Vission from the 30th that I'd totaly forgotton!
'Visions, a huge wall of ice!! Inside is a magic holographic light chamber a tiny 'lady bird' comes and lands on the ice wall. It shatters and falls away leaving the entrance clear.-
Looking down onto a stone henge type of building it's all rock and built onto rock... all grey.'
anyway, the poem from around 6 years ago...
Smashing threw the boundaries, crawling deep inside, Hunting for the answers in our deepest self reside.
Reaching for a limits, searching for an end, unravelling a spiral, tracing every bend.
Up and out??
Or Deep within?
Missing the point were the whole thing begins.
In blindness we are searching, groping for a light, connecting with our renaissance the Hummmm that feels alright.
A path to sure maddness? A path that leads to sin?
Grin and shrug of fear :)
Pull out all that's in.
Dose it just keep coming? Your endless silly string?
What can you use it for? What answers will it bring?
You've tied yourself in knots now, and still no further on,
Put your questions in your head, ask your heart to sing your song <3
So of I go again, as the fool....
The Bracelet
OMGGGGG The 2 last dreams here that I'd forgotten about! 9 days ago O.o The Aunty & Lady Bird..
The leaf pattern. The fact I called her my Fairy Godmother cause she was my Godmother! So my Dad thinks the braclet was my Great Great grandmothers... but it found it's way to me, Gran had 9 children.. Ohh 9.
- Also had another wired thing, this afternoon. There was light reflecting of one window as we got out of the care earlier, it had the same pattern as the leaves, I realised I need to do something with partner to help him 'Re'Member' It was hug :P lol Just pulled a tarrot card, 9 of wands! 10 of wands :) 9 is the number of completion.
- When I was on the walk this morning I started to get bleed threws of other 'times'
A path I walk with the dog I always think of Highway men on it. This time I could see them I was riding with them and hear the horses hooves! My mind also flipped to a pirate life too, smuggling and packing stuff into a wet cave.
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