Where too now?

 

1/4

 

Odd version of my dreamspace where there was a building inland between Northsunderland and Bamburgh.  It was called the Red Lodge,  an amazing old building crazy moving statues of fantastical animals and creatures.

An odd older woman lived there with a younger girl.  The kid had bright white hair and yellow eyes like a cat.
The house was dilapidated but intreasting, a maze of rooms, fireplaces and antique furniture.

It was a part time brothel too, despite the condition of the house the woman was well off with an amazing new white 4x4 car/land rover thing, I was helping her take a cat to the vets, her cat carrier had blinking lights on :D

Other dream was a golf course, I was in a building looking out onto it.
An outdoor market had set up on the grass outside. 
Colourful blankets, cushions, quilts and rugs...   A wind got up and was blowing every thing around. 
I was laughing at the quilts that looked like flying carpets. 
The other thing I recall is drawing stylised eyeballs with a blue biro. 
They were like Eye of Horus type stuff.

 

2/4

 

Crazy dream at work...   Was really odd my Dad and Uncle Eric there... They were driving wheelchairs round really fast and setting all the call bells off. 
Reminded me of one I'd had a few days before when Mericel was on a rampage smashing up a kitchen!   These 2 were just causing chaos.

 

Then a second dream....  I'd been chatting shit to Joel in the morning in a sleep deprived state. 

Woke up from sleep and it was like the conversation didn't stop... We just switched platform.

We were trying to name I duno either the platform or our voices...  It was like MeWe which I've never used, but it was V We
Sharing images too stupid but cool stuff, one was a sort of Golum type thing in a screaming angles arms.   More stuff that was more mundane, images too.
And an odd convo where he was saying... If you tried to chain vape like I can you'd vom - lol  I didn't think he was wrong.
Hazy but I think we were discussing Nic Sick at that point.

 

Meditating at work last night after fox told me of his experiance..   I was so tired it was more like yoga nidra and holding myself in that hypnogoggy state.

Was crazy, at first like I could hear all the voices and echoes of the people in the space I was in, then it whent deeper.
Was like a being born experiance... Squeezing threw something... Only this time I was heading towards a sort or tentacle swirly purple smoky ball. 

 

Call bell flipped me from that...

On the second time, I was back in the voices, this time singing to me, tunes and languages I didn't know but was trying to understand...  This time what I was seeing was diffrent...   Was like driving in snow...   But passing threw orange glittery gold sparkles.  

Alarm woke me this time to get up n do shit....   (🤣   lol literally ;)  and not even my own!)

 

Got a prompt to check this too...
 

 

 

Weeeeee   Been a while since I seen it like this...  Is allways fun.   Just a shame I'm so sleep deprived!   'Unlike Mania Ren?'   lol Oh hey, you here 'Say again and I'm going to jump you' 
lol Jump me were?   '🙄/😈'   I should...   'Lay down, likely yeh'   I'm to confused to know what's going on....   I'ma going to put the bird feeder up!!
'Jog on bitch, I'll find you when you splat'

o/   'That was a nap not a splat...'  lol   Yeh,   Needed it 😋

 

'You need a new intention Ren'  Hu?   'Don't fuck me, ykw I mean....  You flew and way to close to the sun ;) '  Hahaha   ok right..

'Will help set your trajectory'   Mmmm  I wanted this space 'Also compleat'  What next?

Lol...  So I can't be content for a bit?   'Yep, but set a direction to sail towards'

 

Hummm🤔   Ok, connection bk full time but with a controll switch?  '😈'   Phahah
Fuck you Inka...   I've allways offered...  Yeh...   '2 head's bitch, tell me it's not true' 
'You've agreed by the way, but as you know I offer you warning and chance to change the stupid half of your mind'   Fuck off 😂

I'm in,   'But will you listen this time bitch?'   I'll listen, but I'll also still do what I feel like.
'Sooo, again?   Want to play?'   lol   I trust you, despite the fucking mental health, pie rat, shit rip, mental health trip.   
I'm in if you can guarantee I don't get injected with that shite this ride.

'ok, I'll get bk to you'   I've herd that before...


'I know what a fucking extremist you are Ren, your not an easy element to contain'  

Work helps!   'Extremist'  lol....   Yeh,   'You don't wana go nuts there Ren, your good at what you do'   So?  'You asked me for max'   Oh....   So,  'Yeh I can throttle your flow'  

And you have been?  'Obv Witch, your bod can flip the effects of the meds' 

Hummm...  'You thought it Ren and yes'   lol...   'I'm a way better driver after all bitch'   😂

No shit...  'You need to tell me where too though' 🤪  'I'd not suggest that'  fuck..
'Remember bitch, your supposed to be the navigator, don't smash threw to many reality boundaries unless you really need too' 
 

Ok...   Road trip of options plx?  'FFS Ren, you think we don't do that?'   Oh, errr yeh suppose we do....  Your 'Pushing you right NOW to decide what you want'   lol   Errrrrr  

'Same shit bitch, limitless potential and stupid directions'   Fuck you...   🤣
'Yes Bitch, most sane people just want more money and a bigger house n shit like that' 
What the fuck is sane?   ' A game you'll never play'  
 

I should think small?  'I'd advise it for now'   I duno, it's like a wish, I'd just wish for endless wishes!'   'You  did that ass hat, deal with it' 
 

I want my dreams and lucidity back  'Why?   It serves a purpose Ren, with no trajectory is it meaningless'   ........   'I can't belive when I say think small, you wana fuck with weather systems again' 
I like sun and warm!!   Ok...   Yeh, I recall....   I 'We' could shift clouds bk and forth...  And yup, it made me fucking massive 'And unseparated from all'   I like that.... 
'Ok, so hone your trajectory'  I need n easy focus....   Ok...   Hummm

To slide between the winds, of where I've been and what I've seen,
Glide, ride, above, lifted by love.

On the shit that dragged me down,

While at the same time,

I keep my bolt hole underground

In the dark, and the deep.

I can reset in sleep

 

'Be fucking easier if you just wanted a pay rise Ren'   What would that serve?

'Another question we will get to in TIME' 

Your showing me value, worth and time on an old time scale?   'Ren, that will do for now, you'll need to hold it in mind'   Ok... 
'Repeat it and tell me'

 

Ok...   'You comprehend what your asking?'   Eye in 2 worlds shit?   'Yep, and your not great at that yet' 

I don't really have anything else I want right now?   '🙄'   I'll listen! 
'I know you Ren, way better than you know your self.....'
Hummm.. 

'How safe do you feel right now'   I duno, I don't really care about shit like that...

'You are on the radar of many who do'   Oh..   Yeh,   I forgot.

 

Ok...   'Yup'  I set my trajectory...  'I'll throttle you, choke you or slit your throat'  Phaha, 

'Don't fight me Ren?'   Ok...  A game?   'I'd advise not if you wan stay sane'  Sheesh..
'It's a fucking wire you wana dance on Ren'   ok...... I'll behave 'Not in your capacity Ren, it's why you need dragged bk in line'

 

Puds n Hubs

 

 

28th

A strange place.  Big stairs, large white sitting platforms.  With smaller stairs between the larger ones.
I was sitting with Em and Marie....  They were looking at my phone with me where DarthD kept taking it over remotely and locking me out.  They were freaked out about it, but it wasn't bothering me as I knew it was him.

I was working split shifts with the others...  Taking it turns.   (Hum, Mirror me and middle me) 
I'd gone up to a kitchen step platform.  It was communal and as I start to make an omelette when I'm joined by Ddad in a odd form....   He was a bald, chubby middle age guy.
I knew it was him.. He was freaking the others out (we were young) They though he was coming onto me... But it wasn't that he was just visiting, we made omelette together while chatting.

 

Other odd people too.  Nicola Hogg, and a guy called Barry Irving who I've not seen or thought about in years!

 

 

Next dream I'm  looking up at a block of flats with glass windows, people I know are inside clean the glass of their rooms.   Odd stuff like Ghostbusters monsters and Godzilla all cartoon style. 

 

 

Last dream was long,  a residential home, hospital.   I was working and living there.

Scribble was with me and had broken one of his back paws.
Odd thing with a reception desk when I walked past a display of sweets and they all started wobbling and jumped of the shelves.  I was laughing and helping a friend on reception clean them up.

Then it got odd when 3 women arrived to medicate me, by force if needed.   I was confused, they wouldn't belive I wasn't on medication....    I woke by the sun in my eyes before they pinned me down.

 

29th

Really long dream.   Set in one of them odd mall places.   Suppose they are like giant hubs, with people working and living.
This one seemed to be in a sort of tower block.   The commercial places were mainly for drinks or food...   Well specifically deserts! 

Stalls with the most amazing looking cheesecake type things, both individual and large where you could get a slice.   They were like art!   Beautiful colours, creamy white stuff with deep berry sauces, and stuff. 
I tried a few samples but mainly just enjoyed looking at them.
 

I bought a drink from one of the drink stalls.  A cacao choc drink, was warm and frothy, tasted spiced too, really yummy.

I was wandering about sipping it when I came to a frozen yogurt, icecream stall.
Again these were incredible looking!   Some were allready served in wee glass bowls all garnished and presented to look perfect.
I'd stopped to look at a coconut matcha ice, it was bright green in a wee bowl, with chocy wafer swirl and a dusting of coco or something on top.
As I was looking the owner approached me.  
A young guy, dark hair and eyes...   I was a similar age.   He wanted me to sample things but I was ok with my warm drink.   He was happy for me to sit at the counter and watch his customers come and go.
He served frozen ice fruit drinks too, and margarita style cocktails. 
I must have stayed there for ages as it got dark and I was still there when he was cashing up and cleaning the refrigerated counter out.
I realised he was really close to me as he cashed up.  His leg touching mine in a very familier way.
He didn't make me uncomfortable, there was something easy about him.  
I'd said goodnight and made my way to one of the sleeping hubs.

My next recall is of bumping into him the following day. 
This time he had a sort of hand cart, pushing his frozen things around for sale...    I'd met him by a stair well.   Foam on the floor, where someone was cleaning up and had pushed the soapy water down while mopping the stairs.
This time I was more lucid, he was suggesting we had sex and while he wasn't unattractive the concept made me laugh.  
He kinda clocked my lucidity so suggested we go walk.   I was up for this, so we headed up the stair well that had been recently washed. 
It got sureal here and really amusing! 
We were walking past full length steamy windows or steam room's saunas and communal baths.
Nekid people, relaxing, having sex or just chilling out... Only as I was observing they were getting more and more wyrd, there bodies and faces twisting and warping in unnatural and absurd ways...   This set me off giggling 😂  The guy seemed amused by my reaction and I woke up laughing. 

 

Next dream also relaxing.

It felt like a mash up of places from my main dream hub...   It was a house like my main dream house but in reveres like the other Andrea's house or Em's the kitchen was facing west not east.
Yet it was also a little like the back window of the paper shop.   A sash window, filled with shelves.
Kerri was in there.  
It had been Christmas and she's filled the window with the families gifts.  It was an attractive display, looking like stuff for sale.

Outside the window was a wooden patio, with a wooden slatted rocking lounger.
A small open wooden shelter too. 
I seemed to spend my time in the lounger rocking and watching the sky.
Syed was in the dream too.  He wanted to know if I had any dresses I didn't use as he wanted to wear them.
I'd had a hunt and picked him out for Kawaii style stuff.  Dresses with bloomers and PJ's he seemed pleased and had headed of to try them on. 
 

Working Weekend

 

23rd

 

Odd dream at work.   Was a little like an MMO in that I was a spell caster.. Working with another to take down some invaders. 
Only once I closed the gap I chose to pick them up and strangle or break their necks.
After we took down the invaders the other caster took me to meet his cat.
The cat was a fan of Hitler!  The guy had filled the cat's room with Hitler posters, and also a Hitler paddling pool filled with balls for the cat to play in...   V odd.

 

 

 

24th

 

Dreams in dreams...  Was with an unfamiliar brother and dad.  We were going to get my bro shoes.
I was distracted though by the foundations of a group of Victorian towers.

Huge structures, but below were terracotta drainage systems.  The foundations looked unstable and it felt like the towers would fall.  But there was something amazing about them too...
I was trying to remember them from dreams but my Dad n Bro were trying to hurry me along.

I was irritated with them as wanted to dream there.

 

Spring - Awakening, journey to grow.  A season in the sun making seeds to re-sow.

Under winters sleep, gestate in nights grip.

Nourished by what fell away and died.

Decay, a food, a pattern, all connected ever repeating.

Yet always changing, never remaining.

Sleep in the light, work in the night.

Dark in my heart from all that's died in me.

Decaying to feed a newer seed to be.

 

 

25th

 

Long dream, I was leaving a shared home I was in.  Seemed to be the house Mathew & Andrew used to live in.  The big guest house.. I'd had a room there with Judith & Jim.
My 10 year tenancy was up.

Wasn't sure where to go when a guy rocked up to take me.  I was being recruited of sorts.  
A strange military feel but  not.  We left in his car, he helped me pack my stuff and we arrived at the space his recruits lived.  
Again seemed like main dream space... Dunes in from the south beach, not far from my roundhouse.
It was in the open sand dunes, rows of various 70s/80's looking divan double beds separated by old fashioned mismatched sofas. 

They were all in lines following the natural curves of the dunes, facing in with an open area of shorter grass and sand in-between. 
We got a bed each and sofa.   Most were taken but the odd one was free.   I was climbing the dunes looking at the way the sun would rise and set before picking where I wanted to sleep. 
I was annoyed I couldn't use my own furniture but realised there wasn't room.   The bloke would sell it and keep the cash on my behalf. 
As a new recruit I was answerable to them above, the people there the longest had smaller bunk rooms of only 4.... But we slept in the open.

 

Very structured timetables.  We were to compete in VR type games.  A board held a league table, lessons too... All our food / laundry / cig needs were taken care of.  Coloured jumpsuit things, we just took a clean one in the size we wanted from a store.  Jack was there too, we sat smoking on the sand, I'd wrapped my blanket round me...   Talking and flicking ash into an old heavy glass ashtray.
Was a sense of it wasn't what I wanted, but it would do for now.

 

Other dream I was with Dad, Sheila and Eric again.  Eric was lucid and talking to me, he had a small gold hoop earing. 

The dream jumped around alot...  At one point I was standing at the back of an empty seat less blue bus, watching the road below. 
Odd small reptiles, jumped onto our clothing and clung.
A fire work show over a river estuary..  Starry skies and 2 huge wooden boats like arks.  One belonged to a queen..   I flew over these, then was drawing them for someone, showing the layout.