Another Penny Drops, and another.. The heart is the Jackpot!

So I didn't really dream. I could see scales, the Justice tarot archetype and realised this is balance... like the yin-yang. I knew they were inside the hemisphere's of my mind. Then I was just a tree all night.
When I woke I had more revelations :)

The cross, the sacrifice (Jesus) The cross is inside.
The ego self dies , and is resurrected into the larger life of cosmic gnosis (also tarot archetypes)

The cross is the separation between 2 half's of the mind. That stops the connection to the heart were our home is... the key to eternal life.

I always thought he was an example not a saviour well he's both and neither at the same time! Jesus he's the lover!! The triad! when we are balanced and connected to our source.

The cross (hanged man) is the veil that separates inside our minds that then separates from the heart. (The hanged man! So when he said no one comes to the father except threw me...


Threw love & forgiveness we re'member' and re intergrate our 'larger' self into gnosis. By balancing the mind and letting the energy flow to the heart, were our connected home is. 

Jesus could do miracles cause he knew he was a game master... The cross is the flat earth, he as a creator in his own flat earth tree!  

This probably ties into the kabala thingy too that I've never got round to looking at....  Oh yeh it's 3 dimensional shapes isn't it... So it's dimensions Monad up.....  the other dimensions must be inside our body too, or in the space around them.       ( Oh yeh that's star shapes- shit....  I really do 'seem to be able to tap into O.o    gnosis  lol       -  The 8th dimension is that   below....       That must happen when I sort out my wiring properly.     

Another tangent....  wow  haha   I'm not ADHD, I'm just multi dimensional :P 

Anyway back to the Jesus thing,  so I was laying in bed thinking this and I let my mind go blank...  I could feel thoughts blowing thew my mind and re'membered this

 I wrote in summer 2000    -
I watched it wash straight threw me, I felt it blow away....
The part of me that 'knew' has gone I believe I rejected it.
and now I'm hear and watching and floating on my own,
leaving out the 'others' I thought my mind would be my home.
But I want it to come back now the bit that really 'cared'
cause now I know there are others who are happy to bare,
the pain that comes from loving and the grief that's of our 'mind'
We need our hearts to be open to enjoy being part of man kind.

--- lol, I was in a dark place back then but I knew I'd left my heart home and separated myself of in my mind!
The heroes journal, threw the archetypes. (or the fools :P ) lol wow!


Synchronicity s  too...  My life is now like a lucid dream or being on psychedelics. 

More wired stuff too.... My life is getting stranger than a dream :D

My Dad is here atm. He brought me something he's been keeping for me since I was 3 years old, it's a really old silver bracer that was given to my Mum for me by her sister... My Aunty and Godmother.

It was her house that I drempt of when I was on another planet saying good bye It was in her house I signed my 'deed of inheritance' The timing is so odd.... I think it's the universe telling me I fulfilled that life contract. --- It's also an Aunty close to death (the one I dreamt of telling her she'd been a second mother to me)

My Mum had it, and my Dad's kept it till now. He gave it to me yesterday. When my Daughter asked at Breakfast what it was, my dad replied
'I've been keeping it for her, I think she's big enough now to take care of it' O.o Daughter replied, ' Oh you can pass it on to me now, and I'll give it to my daughter after' O.o


I had such a wired walk too... I was just thinking how the synchronicity in my life are making it feel like a lucid dream or a psychedelic trip... and then I found a small patch of magic mushrooms! I didn't pick or eat them.... round the next corner Josh shouted for me - there was a tree covered in lots of yellow ladybirds & lave all at different stages of transformation. It was the most amazing thing to see, there bodys were morphing and changing as I watched - becoming something else. (when I was a kid I used to think I'd been a red ladybird ) 

Next corner was a hollow tree ....  this is what I'm doing, widening the channel 'trunk' of my own flat earth O.o  My asthma kicked of again the same time as my lungs expand further.

lol Soooo I've worked threw a cycle and I find myself with only more questions :D once more I'm the fool, to start a new journey!   


------ I've a feeling Zak my 3rd child is here to help me remember telepathy - I've been thinking for a while he's from somewhere with telepathy and instant manifestation.


Sooo Next - check out Ladybird meanings... and Oh there's a poem I wrote last cycle that's coming back to me too.   It's relevant to now! lol and spell check kept changing relevent to 'reinvent '.....change (something) so much that it appears to be entirely new.  (The lady BIRD Morphing)


Lady.... Bird?   Ohhhh  I used to shap shift into a bird in some dreams  ....And tangent!!

Wow, Vission from the 30th that I'd totaly forgotton!
'Visions, a huge wall of ice!! Inside is a magic holographic light chamber a tiny 'lady bird' comes and lands on the ice wall. It shatters and falls away leaving the entrance clear.-

Looking down onto a stone henge type of building it's all rock and built onto rock... all grey.'  

anyway, the poem from around 6 years ago...    

Smashing threw the boundaries, crawling deep inside, Hunting for the answers in our deepest self reside.

Reaching for a limits, searching for an end, unravelling a spiral, tracing every bend.

Up and out??
Or Deep within?
Missing the point were the whole thing begins.

In blindness we are searching, groping for a light, connecting with our renaissance the Hummmm that feels alright. 

A path to sure maddness?  A path that leads to sin? 
Grin and shrug of fear :)
Pull out all that's in.

Dose it just keep coming?  Your endless silly string?
What can you use it for? What answers will it bring?

You've tied yourself in knots now, and still no further on,
Put your questions in your head, ask your heart to sing your song <3


So of I go again, as the fool.... 

The Bracelet








OMGGGGG   The 2 last dreams here that I'd forgotten about! 9 days ago O.o  The Aunty & Lady Bird.. 


 The leaf pattern.     The fact I called her my Fairy Godmother cause she was my Godmother!  So my Dad thinks the braclet was my Great Great grandmothers...  but it found it's way to me, Gran had 9 children..  Ohh  9.

-  Also had another wired thing, this afternoon.  There was light reflecting of one window as we got out of the care earlier, it had the same pattern as the leaves,   I realised I need to do something with partner to help him 'Re'Member'  It was hug :P  lol  Just pulled a tarrot card, 9 of wands!   10 of wands :)   9 is the number of completion.



- When I was on the walk this morning I started to get bleed threws of other 'times'
A path I walk with the dog I always think of Highway men on it.   This time I could see them I was riding with them and hear the horses hooves!    My mind also flipped to a pirate life too, smuggling and packing stuff into a wet cave.
 

A New Soul Hunt, Rainbow Ribbons and yet More Dragons!

Recall is not peak at the moment, I guess it comes and goes.

I defiantly found another soul fragment though!  The dream scape was odd, it was almost like a large viewing platform over a world.   'We' the dream characters seemed to be a mix of species, almost hybridised animal/human forms bird and mammal hybrids from what I can remember.    
Species behaviour seemed to be determined by appetite and diet..... there was a wired tank there were we were growing types of edible moss in high humidity. 

I went to go to a toilet - the bathroom in the dream was really out of place, it was 2 small bright blue rooms connected together no windows (I used to dream about bathrooms lots!)  
Anyway as I walk into first room to go threw to were the toilet is something tugs my hair...   loosens the thing fastening it.    I realise it's a 'ghost'   (This is often how some of the fragments first appear... as ghosts pestering other DC's or indivisible things that slam into me)   I'm aware of the 'presents' of the other 'will'  and I greet it.  It's cautious, so I go to the loo :P   lol  me and the other 'will' regard each other, I think it tried to intimidate me but unsuccessfully it seems as I was happy to go to the loo whilst we contemplated each other. 

I left the bathroom, with the 'will' still in it.  Back in out on the world platform I was asking the others about the 'Ghost' in the bathroom, but no one seemed to know anything about it or had experienced it so I guessed it was there for me.


-  On waking I can see a soul fragment...  I'm not sure that's the right word!  It's part of me that's fragmented for some reason, the fact it's shown up or I've found it means we are ready to come back together.... wonder how long it will take and what it is! :)


Next a black dragon, this time I seemed outside of it rather than being it.   I have no body and am just an observer.  This one had legs rather than a serpent type.   It was an attractive looking creature in it's own way :)   I think it was sleeping.

Then in contrast to the black dragon the next dream was rainbow ribbons, and Triad me :)

In the dream I'm standing at a bus stop with an elderly lady, I notice she has a ribbon in her pocket and I start to pull it out, then another pokes out from her shirt so I tug out that.... then i spot more and more of them! 
We laugh as I pull all these colourful ribbons from places in her body and I realise she's an older me at that point not to be put out a younger male me appears (he's in the roll of 8 year old male school friend)  He grins takes some ribbons of my and starts to poke them threw his stomach into his body! 

Me and the older woman laugh and conclude that the male mind is wired :)

I pulled another card this morning too.  5 of crystals this time... SO I've had same card 2 times which was a Four, then Fives in 2 different Suits.   So seems the Elements are still playing too :)











----   Musings! Just after I finished this the phrase 'Fools rush in where angels fear to tread'  popped into my head.

The fool!   The seeker! Angles/Angles...  One int he same?  Angels/Dragons? The Yin-Yang perhaps.

I was wondering if anyone else considered it that way round and then found the lyrics for

Jokerman by Bob Dylan!  :D

Standing on the waters casting your bread
While the eyes of the idol with the iron head are glowing
Distant ships sailing into the mist,
You were born with a snake in both of your fists while a hurricane was blowing
Freedom just around the corner for you
But with the truth so far off, what good will it do?
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
So swiftly the sun sets in the sky,
You rise up and say goodbye to no one
Fools rush in where angels fear to tread,
Both of their futures, so full of dread, you don't show why
Shedding off one more layer of skin,
Keeping one step ahead of the persecutor within
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
You're a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds,
Manipulator of crowds, you're a dream twister
You're going to Sodom and Gomorrah
But what do you care? Ain't nobody there would want to marry your sister
Friend to the martyr, a friend to the woman of shame,
You look into the fiery furnace, see the rich man without any name
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
Well, the Book of Leviticus and Deuteronomy,
The law of the jungle and the sea are your only teachers
In the smoke of the twilight on a milk-white steed,
Michelangelo indeed could've carved out your features
Resting in the fields, far from the turbulent space,
Half asleep near the stars with a small dog licking your face
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
Well, the rifleman's stalking the sick and the lame,
Preacherman seeks the same, who'll get there first is uncertain
Nightsticks and water cannons, tear gas, padlocks,
Molotov cocktails and rocks behind every curtain,
False-hearted judges dying in the webs that they spin,
Only a matter of time 'til night comes steppin' in
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
It's a shadowy world, skies are slippery gray,
A woman just gave birth to a prince today and dressed him in scarlet
He'll put the priest in his pocket, put the blade to the heat,
Take the motherless children off the street
And place them at the feet of a harlot
Oh, Jokerman, you know what he wants,
Oh, Jokerman, you don't show any response
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman

Songwriters: Bob Dylan
Jokerman lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Heads, Shoulders, Nose and Toes

'Just come Ren, we are waiting’  hut?  ‘Yep will find you if you don’t land there’

 

TY, todays been wryd.  ‘Mmmm, just come stuff we need to share’

 

A long dream with Shirley, fallen goddess. 
I was cleaning for her and making her pop corn.

I’d had to go out and collect the children,

It was back in this dream from here.

Oh... tha'ts the all day freaking leg back pain... O.o n stupid sausage referance!

 

Francsis Bacon??  Eh?? ‘Stay awake there a little longer Ren, can jump here but stay lucid as long as possible’

 

Wake at 404.. I’m confused?  It’s strange?  ‘Chill a mo, checking some stuff, mudras and relax’.

 

Hummm??

 

I’d gone to visit 2 other planets in this system 😂

We had left to them in a ka Car…

We’d gone to have a look at how things were similar or different. 
They were both surprisingly similar,  Jupiter's science was more advanced… on arrival we felt really sick and commend a bit while we acclimatised.

There were oddly like earth… I was being shown system-seeding from a central sun, all planets were following a similar style of evolution. 

While I was away my queen ‘Star’ had gone into unproductive labour…… home had suddenly felt to far away.  I was thinking oh no, but I’m on Jupiter and I came in the car 😂hahahah 😁

Oh yeh...  You guys had kept me in the hub... We were all dreaming in a heap 😜  Inka, Loci, Malico, Kaylo and me.

One of the guys I was with was reading a science publication...about recycling and energy creation.

We had all been given small sim card like chips to hold?  They were for our journey home??

Oh before the dream I'd seen a Grey Lady Bird...   (Lady Grey? The Grey Lady?)  👀  the ghost from childhood memory??

There had been trouble at an intersection, as someone didn't think WE should be there. 
But we waited, showed our clearance and moved on threw.

Hahahha Inka!! 'Bitch😈'  Pahaha you were showing me ... Images!!!
 

First you showed me Sis as in Sister... They you flipped ship up n round and then you poked me wide awake..... and it's 512 Hahaha

I was back with You n Malico but you were showing me different systems..

I go back to sleep again... This time it's the 2 snakes...  Shaped like

 

The i is my spine with a head.. 2 wiggly snakes ... On the top is a 12 point star...

 

 

Oh.... Lol Sis Star 😛  Like Star Ka??  🤣  To silly 😏

We were flicking fast threw different system architecture and symmetry

You were showing the different layers were you wake me,   202 212 313 303  Butter fly/bee that's the 303 313    Snakes dancing, spines entwining... Trees and tadpoles bugs n code. 

The ea too or the ae  etymology, this systems a witch :P :D  'Spells better than you 😈..... Come back here'

Next up Cat's birthday...before that I'd been checking on portals O.o the ones I'd already opened. 

I had in my pocked Salt and Pepper in globe like cut crystal shakers.

Also some silver ear rings... Ringing ears again??

I also had a bunny hare/hair band??   With long floppy purple ears 😆

At Cat's party everyone got up to dance... For a remake of a tears for fears track?

I'd followed them threw as I thought we were singing happy birthday,
then I realised how I was wyrdly out of place here.......

The people at the part were all well posh,
then I recalled I was here threw a dream share with a homeless guy!

I'd taken him an egg  Sand-witch?? Sandwich I'd been visiting twice a day...

It was late and I was tired and I'd sat down for a bit with him.

He offered to share his blanket and I'd slept with my head on his knee...

Where I'd landed in the posh cat dream.

I didn't want to stay for long ... But I'd say around to sing happy birthday for her.

-
Oh another layer too....
A large formal patio.

An older guy on an outside sofa.

This older man lived there and he was telling me how the sun moved...
Where was bright and were was in the shadows.

Then he's laying down to sunbathe and I can see right up ups nostrils :P O.o

But looking up one, then the other,
there was something that didn't belong there.

2 plastic/black rectangles blocking a foramen.

 

 
Oh the other Cat dream was exactly 1 year ago! 👀