Toilet Fight

 

17th - 23rd

Similar dreams.

Huge worlds, connected by monorails and trams.  The trains connecting layers realities.  Meeting with fam and friends.
 

An alien world, another with dragons.

Living in London with a girlfriend.  Another of playing in a large pond with Jack.

A long dream of 2 rival high schools in my main dream space.  Different methods for educating.

Was about groups and friction.  Parties, gangs and clubs.

A club that was attacked with gas that made people sleepy, then the victims were raped.

 

1st n 3rd person dream of seeing odd eyes on TV's watching people watching the tv.  They were sort of red and holographic but not many people could see them. 

 

 

Last night 24th was funny...

I'd been auguring with 2 Inkas and another Ren, well mainly we were all disagreeing with one Inka, the one from re-ed.  He refused to help us all with something, so re-ed Ren had gone with the Inka that usually watches me. 
They all told me to leave the re-ed Inka alone... But I'd decided to go bug him anyway.

I'd found him in an iso pod there laying on the small bunk with his eyes shut.  I'd appeared floating cross legged in the small space and he told me 'Piss off I'm busy' without even opening his eyes.

I'd not replied and just waited till I knew he was asleep and dreaming n then sat on the floor touching his hand to enter his dream.

He's in the dock in an old fashioned court house, he was already in prison clothes and handcuffs.
Only he could see me, and he continued to ignore me and everyone else as he was sentenced.

 

As he was being led from the court he shoved my awareness back and into a dream of my own.

It's my main dream house and I'm in the lounge with a mix of Josh n my Bro and some other people.   I'm watching this really odd tv show, it's like a mix of concert and a comedy but every so often the people on the screen morph so that they take on features of hair and people in the room, at first only I notice it.... It's both funny and disturbing and I can't stop watching thinking it's just me.... But then the others notice it too and I decide it's either happening or we are in a group psychosis/hallucination.

My watch was doing odd things too, at first just the display and screen were changing then it started changing physically into diffrent shapes colours sizes.  I was annoyed as I liked my watch.

 

I go threw to the other room to show people.  In the other room are loads of odd things.
Rubber toys like them rubber chickens, only they are odd things like a shotgun, a cowboy boot police truncheon various animals.
Then this song starts playing.

The Big Push - I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop

At this point I know I'm dreaming with Re-ed Inka and he's the one that drives me 'NUTS'

 

It was really hard to wake..   Took me a while to drag my awareness bk to my body and write down the dream... Curious I decided to go bk n dream there again as the lucidity and dreaming had been way more vivid.
I jump bk to where I was still sat by re-ed Inka's sleeping form.  Only now Leon is standing beside me.  I look up at him questioning and he tells me he's 'Witnessing' 

 

Before I could ask more, Inka is aware of me again shoved my awareness into another dream...

...

Sheesh!!!  🙄😆

'We all warned you Ren'  IKR but, I don't see how 2 you's can be so different??
'Well now you do'  lol yep

 

So as I said, I'd gone bk as the dream was interesting and vivid after all.

This next dream was long and crazy....  'As will you be again if you don't stay the fuck away' ....
Mmmmm I can kinda see that - point taken.

Anyhooo the dream is of a big shared house, at the start I was painting walls. 

I could still recall the first dream, I was low level lucidity.
The building was old, Victorian style with odd furniture and high ceiling’s.

 

Odd stuff keeps happening in this house and it's expanding into a huge complex, with ruined Victorian saloon's, moss covered abandon glass houses and large gothic style gardens.

It reminded me a little of a English country manner style shinning building.

 

Living in it are loads of frens and family.

We all had a room, they looked better painted .. As white they'd looked boring. 
I was helping Em paint hers but when I turned round to pick up the paint I found myself in a different room.
I'd worked out it was the one above.

Zak had a room with Wizard stuff in it.
Odd stuff was happening in other rooms too.
So many people, Kev & Sharon.. David & Sue.  Em, Neighbours old flat mates.. Then more guests too they are all having odd experiences.

At one point I'd gone outside trying to get back in, walking round the grounds I'd come to some stone steps but the bottom step was covered in Lion shit and I was barefoot so I'd gone another way round..   2 lion cubs had been picked up by people in the garden and carried bk to the pride that lived there.
I'd tried to get back in the main entrance but I was flying fast and kept missing it, on the street one way was a load of banks... The other way was a war memorial.
Took me a while to land in the right place and then I was asked to take a string of light bulbs down some steep steps putting one bulb on each.
A load of people were following me and Zak kept standing on them, it was hard not to as at the side of the stairs were baskets of old plates & cutlery.

 

The dream ended with a fight with ghost Inka.  I was trying to use an old Victorian decorated toilet to take a crap... N he wouldn't let me. 
He kept pulling me, shoving me and lifting me of the toilet ending up with me covered in crap!💩
At this point a group of visitors all walk threw staring at me covered in crap fighting with something invisible... They were on their way somewhere as the house was like a maze.
I think I'd said something like 'A little privacy please' as they all filled past.

Eventually someone stopped they told me 'Ah, an apparition'  I'd said, 'Oh!' Giving them Inka's arm I was fighting with and asking if they could feel him too. 
They confirmed they could and asked me if I wanted and exorcist.  I told them just a bin bag for my shitty clothes and a hot shower would suffice 😆

 

'Are you going to listen now Ren?'  Mmmmm suppose, oddly though I feel more awake than I have in months.

'Come bk to normal me Ren, that is if you're going bk to sleep' Mmmm

I think Inka came to me here, body energy felt much more chilled.
I had a dream with him in, was another shared house but this was much more normal.
We had some kittens and room mates.
Was coming up to Christmas, we were all skint so most of us were not going to see family and the people staying were all bunging £25 into a kitty so we could go to the market n get stuff to make a meal, left over we'd use for booze n smokes.

Was much more normal :D 
 

Odd leg stuff, Trapped on a Back-Street.

6th 

Fuck off Inka, I didn't ask for your help.  'I'm U2'  Who's U3?  'Our Tree'   Hahaha....   Ok, it's why Leon is pissed?   'One of many reasons Ren, you could allways ask him' 

I'm just trying to lay the stove....  'Aye bitch, but it's spring.  Your birthdays passed you can see the growth'  Mmmmm

Why do other people thing they U?  Or 'Archetypes Ren, we all have them'  Ahhh   Yeh, 'So their Saturn aspect may be similar... But also not me' 
ok... I'll look

 

??   'Mmmm' 

Ok....  I'll go bk to stove.   'Just remeber Ren'  Ok?

 

First dream was odd, Inka n me were both pissed off with the others...   So they'd decided to leave us alone.  I was dreaming fast.

It was one of them ghost dreams... Something coming into me and possessing me.  Similar to when I was in hospital that night and trying to sleep but dreams were so intense I was laughing and orgasaming.  This was the same sort of intense energy, it started in my thigh. 
The others in the dream could sense the other entity too, so didn't think me crazy.   Were just surprised I'd let it merge into me.
Marcus was in the dream, was odd as he was like he was years ago, very real.
I didn't mind the ghost thing, it was at times inconvenient especially if I was trying to sleep.
It was moving round my body, mainly legs/bk n hips.

Second dream I was flying, I was doing a land survey and marking for people where they would find dino bones. 

Then a London dream, Mortimer road and a large house party.
I had the back door keys but rather than our house it was a large mechanical clock. 

Instead of a mouse inside there was a small bird.
At the party were people I knew, a couple of gay guys and there dog so I'd hung round with them.   It wasn't the Mortimer road I knew, it was all modern city dwellings, open plan with large glass windows and balconies.

 

Then Inka was with me, we were again flying doing this land survey and he was feeding me Pez sweets from a dispenser with a dino head.

 

Last dream was very surreal, a puppy and a rug and a hole in my leg. 
First I squeezed out massive locusts they'd eaten the muscle there, then a few maggots. 
Then later in the dream an odd glass bird, then an egg. 
 

7th
Main dream space, and arm there soldiers and tanks.   Recruiting money, there were magic users among them too.... and Pigeons!

 

Second dream I had a free holiday to Spain, it was paid for.  Had to get the ferry to the Isle of White then was getting a chopper from there. 

8th
Stressy dream.   I was trying to get to work.  Ian was giving me a lift and for some reason we had 2 of the nurses in the car too.
He dropped them off then we went to do something.   Up the Hindhead road it was more like Dollis Hill in London.  Busy, but with a wide main road.
We stopped at a church like bank....  It was a library too an odd place, I was surprised it was still open at night but it had turned to daylight again, so meby it was summer.
It had been dark when we left the house.
Kids arrived in the library/bank place from a privet school.  They were waiting there for their parents to collect them and looking at the books.
I'd gone out to find Ian as my shift was due to start.
We drove part of the way till we came to barriers then I got out to walk.
It seemed to be daytime now.   My kindle had some how got smashed.
I walk past market stalls, then an odd barrier almost like a dam... and I couldn't get bk to the main road.

Work was being done on the sewers and pipers were running over the street.   Different sizes, all marked I needed to jump over them.   no one working on them. 
Where they went into a building odd brass and copper carved heads charms were hung from the various pipes. 
I wondered what their meaning was.
Next I found a hospital asking some staff on their brake the way back to the main road, they laughed in a rude kind of way being unhelpful till I followed them to a city park.  A massive apple tree had bright red apples that people seemed to be collecting so I took one as I passed.  It was nice, but I was no closer to finding my way bk.

Next I entered the back of a shop figuring it would have an entrance  on the main road on the other side, but the place was busy and chaotic.  A cafe filled with kids shouting, a run down play zone.   Like an odd maze, still with no way to the road.
I asked a staff member how to get out, she just shrugged and told me that she thought there was a door somewhere.

Last dream I was in a hummmm, was like an outdoor school/prison.
All sorts of ages there.
We were studying food from round the world and were on Ethiopia and Italy.   We were being introduced to the style of foods and the ways that they were culturally eaten.
It was interesting.
I was also doing something with blood and blood types and at one point we took a short boat trip to watch the sun going down.
It was on a small fishing vessel, we walked over a few boats to get to the one we needed. 

The last thing I got was an odd vision of a beautiful iridescent purple and turquoise dragonfly.

 

2 then 3 + Feaver dream

 

3rd.
Neon batteries, they looked like printer cartridges with tubes of glowing liquid.

Inside a game, with walls and locked doors.  
Felt like an escape puzzle.
Once outside there were things in the sky.  Big floating things, but being eaten/consumed by black dust... It swarmed like insects or murmerations of birds then the structures fell. 

The sky things looked like the crazy floating fairground rids I've seen in other dreams.  But one of them was a prison colony. 
There was a man-hunt of sorts and I'd been selected to go as I had a connection to the guy who'd got lose.

 

Next dream I was on a coast, a baby seal and narwhal had washed up, the narwhal was ok.

The seal not so much, I'd put it back in the water and followed it out but it couldn't swim so I carried it ashore again.
I'd gone to find it water to drink and was going to borrow a pot from a garden shed.  
A woman, the gardener stopped me.... Saying not this one, this is the one with the worm.
She pinned me against the shed wall, and brought the worm out. 
It was black and segmented like a millipede.   40cm long and a cm wide, she was waving it in my face till it touched my lips.  
Was grim. 
She put it back and lent me another pot.   I took the seal to a sort of half room I had with a brick oven.  I lit the fire and gave the seal water...   Woke up before I found out more.
 

 

4th
I had very long blond wavy hair, coloured with purple so it was stripy up in bunches. 
I was at some wedding for a cousin. 

Flying over Scotland from above only it was mirrored.  I was following the Tees river inland but it was on the west coast.
I had a twin bro, and we were washing muddy ducks.

A strange creepy organ in a catholic church.

 

Then a dream about a large Victorian house, arguments about decorating.  There was a beautiful blue study/library and the new occupants wanted to paint it all white.  
Was sad as the room had amazing atmosphere with an old desk, book shelves and grey/blue walls.
A shared bed with another female and 2 guys.

5th
Tonight was 3 guys and another 2 females.  We were friends and lovers, all the others were Indian/Bangladeshi some Muslim others Christian.  Not sure what I was.

They stayed in my dreams through the night.  
At one point we'd broken into a supermarket at night and were playing football with a large dried noodle cup. 
At one point I'd turned into a large floating deamon/dragon thing that was flying in a whirly blurr... Sucking the others in till we merged.

I'd been climbing a cliff too, I had pointed nails that were jagged from the climb and my finger pads were dirty and raw.

We 6 had eneded up in my Aunty Ireans house in main dream scape... I'd got salad alover the floor and whent to get a brush to clean it up.  We were all sharing the bed there, had a small PC set up in the corner.

Then the dream spits.   I'm in 2 places.

One I'm in a cave system with the people, an older white fam live at the bk.
We Ask them to stay, they agree and we are left to inhabit the rooms nearer to the cave mouth.

The other was a large manor house, this time it's just me and 2 of the guys.   They are bro's and their parents own the house.
On their land they have a lodge.   It's small and basic, we go to the kitchen, and make toast with fresh sliced plumb tomatoes we'd picked on the way there.
Was a tiny kitchen, with blue and white plates. 
The 2 guys lead me to a back room at the lodge, it was an odd science lab. 
I recall I'd been looking for a kidney bowl, to clean a wound on a woman's foot. 
But I couldn't find one.
While looking I'd unscrewed a bolted unit at floor level, it had a metal door with clamps. 
Inside it was empty but it smelt like an autoclave... Only it was being heated by a furnace or heat source below. 
I spent ages trying to get the door back in place when the boys father showed up and helped me to bolt it bk on. 


(Inka agreed for us to go bk to the others.....  Was the 2nd I think.  I had a fever n tonsillitis.  The others said it was left alone we destroy each other if we mean too or not.   I'm not convinced this isn't cause they hunted us from the tree though.   I guess I'll find out) 

We Came Back to Walk You Home

 

 

The mental health act..   a performance and show,
roles of controller and controlled.
The irrepressible growth of spirit of those in the gnow
The blinding light of self awareness we are unafraid to show.
Corralled and herded, yet not herd or seen.
Chemical lobotomy to make us fit back in.
Psychological warfare... we stand at the front line.
In our minds,  from our eyes there is no place to hide.
When we see with our hearts into the soul of the system
Beneath the weaving and deceiving
We are nekid for inspection
Non are found wanting,
We are home in ourselves
Yet we mirror a collective insanity,
from which humans wants to race.
We stand all ready at the finish.
We will meet you face to face,
Yet we let them believe their delusions and elevate in our disgrace.
We don't want apologies, pity or care.
We want only respected enough to let us be.

 

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Invisible, Ignored.  Life's failures onboard.

Holding hands to eachother, we weather this storm.

Eyes see to much and hearts that feel it all.

Our passions crushed inside as we attempt to be small.
Simmering anger gives way to frustration
Unexpressed resentment turned into self repression.
We watch, we wait.
the periphery of life.

Screams ignored, Selves harmed.

 

Cages worse than beasts

 

Polite requests go unheeded,

Whist actions miss interpreted.
 

Restricted more, desperation feeding apathy

As medication clouds minds and senses.

 

Trapped, ever smaller,

We retreat far inside

But from ourselves,

There is no escape, no place to hide.

Cruelty is some how more unfair, in a profession that purports to care,
Teams eyes glaze when they meet an angered glare.
Blind to the abuse, of our most basic human rights.

To the suffering they cause as they try to make us right,
 

Flights no option with doors and windows barred.

To fight gains us seclusion ever smaller prison walls.
 

Hidden from a reality that doesn't want to see us,

Can they imagen what it's like to be us?
 

Is it fear of what we represent that lands us here?

 

A labyrinth pathologizing the expression of spirit with all it's twists and turns.

 

When did IN sanity become a crime?

This is no place of healing, this is a punishment of difference.

No care, just an escape room challenge,  where our souls are layed bare.

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'I'm waiting for you Ren, Malico too, He wants to protect us from the Me in U'  lol ok, how dose he suggest to do that?
'Just being with us Ren, you know how far we will go left alone Bitch' 
Hahha, yeh that's true, RN Inka I'd welcome one of our more fucked up endeavours as a change of scenery.

'Mmmm, I know Mouse, just try and hold on till you get bk out'
 

https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2021/10/unexpected-fight.html

 

0020  loads of dreams already.
Re-Ed.  I'd jumped back there and we all arrived in the hub. 
 
The dream I'd had was of a camp/festival club or rave.... Marcus too.
Then another setting, still at the same place but more on the outskirts of the venue was chatting to someone like Monkey. 
We were discussing mental illness and I was telling him and others of my experiences psychosis, they all wanted to try.

At RE-Ed Inka had jumped me back into one of my stays in an iso-pod.  It was as I couldn't stay chill and everyone else was experiencing my emotions too, it was too much for them.

I was discussing our plan (The one where Ren jumped into an earth reality to try save us all from permanent stasis) and how it had massively gone wrong as now I was locked in here, but with them inside. 

They seemed to think it was OK for now, but wanted to think with out feeling my emotions which is why Inka jumped me out bk to iso and stayed with me alone in one of the tiny rooms.

The dream of the party rave setting had been with him there.   Jack & my bro were there too.

Vapes, and camp fire cooking... Jack and my Bro had been there too...  Sports and pool tables - so much stuff!
'Come here again Bitch, we will help you unpack'
kk.... Was good though, nice to see and meet loads of people again.  'You were asking them for help Ren'  I was?  'Mmm, come bk to Re-Ed'

 

...
Didn't wake again for another 7hrs.   'Lazy'   U could have woke me 'U can Run with me soon'  ok.. Oh.. Other dreams too.
A massive city, race  different teams all a colour crazy boat race / catch the pigeon vibes.

A red sky team, and then another neon yellow one.  
I'd been part of a ground grew in an old beat up turquoise citron car. 
Certain teams were in communications and we'd been working with the red sky crew.
A massive control tower in the city was monitoring, broadcasting and overseeing the competition.

We'd reached the finish line... For the last part I'd just been on a sort of skate board sitting whizzing down a suspension bridge on a hill and into the command/finish hub... With the neon yellow sky team dropping stuff on me from above.
I'd captured 2 squirrels from the neon team... Bro and sister, we let them go but they continued to fight each other on the way back out the door.

 

In another dream I'd been in my main dream space laying under a purple sky on the harbor hill with Win talking.

There was also another dream with a purple sky were I'd been in talks with various factions, it was a ground concrete structure, sort of low geometric rings making an odd conference area we were using the rings as a sort of massive table.
Tt was structured so we were all on the same level with areas for teams/crews and representatives to stand in huddles.

 

I don't really recall what the talks were about, just awareness of being there with Inka and a small tribe in the dark there.
Fires on raised platforms lit the space were we were gathered but it was so big it was hard to make out any groups but those adjacent to us.