Walking with your Dreams.

Wake after a wired space dream, what was that? 'Wait and see' Room looked strange like there was a person made from liquid sliver sitting on the shelf. 😛 The dreams were very visual but just small scenes. 

I was making a cough medicine - Mediterranian herbs infused in honey, pouring it into amber bottles and labelling it.  

I'd had a long dream about a ship, could only remember parts it was a medium fishing vessel type, there was a cupboard and we all had a box and blankets but the box was small cardboard the size of a shoebox and the 'blankets' were just bits of plastic to keep water and spray of us... I don't know who I was in the dream non of the people with me were caucasian or female.   

Someone is showing me a map and pointing to an unexplored area that we should head for. There was also an odd temp house, it was like an old pre-fab.
Painted blue inside was midcentury wooden furniture and the walls were dark. No personal touches it felt like a motel/holiday stay. Ian's Dad was inside and he's smoking? In this dream I was female I'm wearing a long black woollen coat/cardi type of thing it comes to my ankles.  

--- I also had a strange knowing I'd been in the back-end of the dream too, helping to manifest/create and stabilise it. Need to find the other 'back end of dream from years ago'  

Another dream that was like baliffgate or my Auntys house? I was moving, finding my way threw a huge building.  

Anyhoo it's all stripped wood light like pine. It was noisy and busy inside like my school/lesson dreams. I'd got threw the building and I'd fallen asleep. I was woken by Jack who was male me pushing me away telling me to just give him a break which was odd as I'd not even known I was with male me. I move away and take the blanket to go back to sleep, but then they poke me awake showing me their newborn baby girl. They are changing her nappy and asking me if I think she's had enough breast milk. The baby looked healthy and happy. (Think this is yin-yang type dreams the born of each other? As gave birth to the baby boy 2 nights ago)    

A massive 'thing' lol this was like a Me/Inka Kali/Pan type thing in each hand it was holding a wooden dryad form/totem. Reminded me of that thing with a snake in each hand. Oh just found it, Minoan Snake Goddess - Oh associated with the ancient Greek, Etruscan stuff too. And sacrifice, lol why do I dream and remember stuff like this! 'History & Symbols Ren, your learning' - Oh is this tied to the Ancients stuff? It's the Temperance and Devil card too. God & Shadow/Goddess & Hers. The subconscious. The balance between flesh/spirit male/female shadow/light... only it's been unbalanced 'It mostly still is'  

People don't want to identify with the darkness in them? 'Yup' Ah, the projection the mirror the 'scapeGOAT!!' 'Mmmmhmmm'   

Why the sacrifice?  'The denial blocks the flow'  Oh love as dark, loosh concept?  

Oh some of pre 2000 poems   'We'  I know telling me this shit all my life 😏 I do listen sometimes...    'Bitch' Hahaha I want to find the fall one?  'Try your blue book with the photos'  Oh, with the Benny one too?  

Wowowo, You were right, and the other stuff I couldn't find??  'Yes, that was us then Ren, when you couldn't find stuff before 😏 The DL in the garden with the pink dragon, then you knew'   Ok TY 😛 lol for the fish!!  'Hahaha' 

Mel & Benny - I feel wired. 

'You guys blew the doors of your perceptions, but it takes longer to integrate properly, Even 2010 you were still afraid of yourself'   IKR, always knew I'd blow the doors.... .   'You all did, You still had to face yourselves'  Deep 👀   '💜' 

Oh last dream. I was in an unfamiliar kitchen with this massive stove cooker. It was freaky powerful lol the rings were like flamethrowers and hot but the kitchen round it was in a mess, it was being updated and I was being asked about it. Oh... Is that the metal stuff from yday and the??  'We aren't done playing yet'  lol  

This dream I found yesterday too.... I'm starting to understand and to feel really wired, 'Haha, yep... let it filter in, were here all day ;)   Dharma will help, and talk to us - write/move DL & ground it' 

Oh and the 2016..'Yep, still us.  You just hear & feel now'  💚

From 2017



My Poem Last Night.

Something Inside? Something around?
The shape of a smell or the colour of a sound?
The noise that we taste when we feel with the mind.
The future we think when we're looking behind.

We turn inside out and we fold up our doubt and then blow it away as our hopes fall and fray.

Swallowed by NOW, squashed into HERE.
What is there to love?  What is there to Fear?

Can you catch, onto your self?
Is there anyone else?

We dive off the edge of what we thought there might be and we free-fall eyes open to see what we see.
When the colours have gone quiet and the shapes have run dry, we find a wayback to ourselves and sit and wonder why?

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Safe Onward Journy to my friends who checked out early 💜

Dream Re-Entry & Choice

Went to sleep early as was so late-day b4. I jumped t the station and knew it was Leon who was calling so then went to sleep to the Island where I re-entered a dream that was before the book but still on Leon's islands. Oh wow, thanks... hehe didn't realise how relevant that was! :)

The cats work me again after my first recall I was back with Leon, we had been chatting everything was big and flowing, narrative and story... I'd agreed to help. 

Also this track below and vid - I was playing it bk and forth in my head.

... Oh, looking at the comments on the vid it fits with the first dream re-entry. 'She wrote Gunshot straight after a meditation. It represents the moment in a relationship where you’ve fucked up and some things you can never take back.'

Next dream was confusing... with Trump who's not been in dreams for a bit and Surran a local councillor and neighbour, and then another person again. My main dream house was full of cats. Trump tired and moody and was waiting for calls on a special telephone. There was a pregnant woman. Trump and Surran were in my Aunty's main dream space looking out of an upstairs window they have locked themselves in. I think I was me/em we had crossed the road and people were annoyed with us for crossing the road. I was cleaning again, that was my role in the situation and another woman was with me, petite with warm brown playful eyes she looked Polynesian.  

None of the dream made much sense as I was waking I hear 'If you're going to go animal go bird'   

'Not you though bitch? you're a dog right!' haha, Heya Inka... this is from last night too the choice of 2 totems canineWolf/corvidCrow.

I'd picked dog again... 'Better the DEVIL you know!'   Oh, next Tarot card to dream threw is Devil! too 😏 The big bad wolf 💜

'Come main dream hub, you can take me for a ride' 😈' Hu?? lol.
Back to sleep...

I'd jumped WILD into main dream area and back to the roundhouse losing a fair bit of lucidity as I enter, it was daylight for the first time, grey cloudy non discript the place looks muddy and messy, the outside fire smoking.  😀
Leon, Inka & Illeth are there chilling by the bonfire. I change my form into a puppy... a cross pointer type thing, flat coat, big paws wobbly lets and a floppy ears which gets a laugh before swapping to the more familiar grey/white wolf thing - Inka joins he is just like energy running up dog me's spine, tail to nose heat too lots of heat.

Am told 'Run, Ren, Run' lol.   I get lost in smells on the air, the feel of the dog shape, paws, claws the strength in the muscles in the shoulders, how it propels and gives momentum, the feel of claws getting purchase in the earth and the easy rhythm & stride of 4 paws on the ground and the stability of the metatarsal bones.
Aside from the wind in my fur and in my open mouth, there is that familiar feeling like the body stays still and the earth gets tuned below it.. I ran south threw the scrubby pasture before I am lost to the dream. 

I'd had another dream too.  Long also with trump in it! It's in a strange and unfamiliar seaside town but waking now I have recalls of similar places from other dreams. There were cafes, junk and antique shops and a large football stadium. 

I had a newborn baby again (The baby from earlier and I'd given birth last night) The baby is prem small birth weight and that overly pink skin - It was only slightly smaller than when Zak was born and I was wishing I'd kept his prem clothes as the baby was naked and I felt I should cloth it to keep it warm... also it was a wired looking thing as human prem babies are like bald skinny monkeys. It was warm and healthy though and very with it mentally, like a much older babe, it was already smiling. It's dark eyes mischievous and playful like Zaks. Josh is there too, he's with 2 girls who live in a cafe that their parents own it's a wooden building painted white with tables that open onto the street one girl is named Star there mother Daisy, both the girls have braided hair, they are friends with Josh and he's gone on ahead and I'm waving to him know I'll look around. I visit a market stall and buy a selection of hair accessories to take to one of the young girls. Next, I'm in a football stadium with Trump a guy who was Trump's brother and their father... It's a dream about inheritance there 2 things a football club and a presidency and they are waiting to see which son will get which, it's tense.

Trump comes out with a football top on he is number 13 and I know he's got the club job. (He looked wired :P) The kit was dark blue/black strips in the dream the clubs was Manchester United I think this represented that it was a big club known lots of places around the world.   

Initially, I was thinking Trump had got the raw deal as the club manager can be sacked then I realised he was the club owner instead.  

My attention is grabbed by a young boy in the team kit running, he's maybe 13.. He's jumping barriers chased by security so I take of after him to see what's up. Follow him threw narrow streets he's fast and I can hover so we lose the security easily and we are walking on what is like a crazy golf/pitch and put green, still in the seaside type town. A park Pavillion is to one side - The boy in the kit has cleared off and I notice a nurse friend of mine chasing a grey-haired couple. I ask her what she's doing and she tells me she just hiding/teasing/playing I wave them all bye-bye.

Get woken here...  

So lol so many dreams I know this is linked too. Also what you told me about Zak, Inak. Ancestors stuff. The links to football and then that thing about baby/babies. Pffff time to Run!! 

Hum, search functions borked again and I can't find the football dreams, there was the one were I was excited about the allfemale match then the one were I was made a reluctant captin of the female team

 
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Wired Nap, Wild to main dream as falling a sleep was still light stumbled into the roundhouse and crashed out fast was having a wired dream when alarm woke me.  I was inside something that felt metal, I wasn't me.  Was like being a err meby a pinball in a metal turbine 😛


Oh the song lyrics...    Like the sacred female/earth/material/planet/ our body....   allways longing allways loving while everyone gazes at the light. 

[Verse 1]
I am longing for your poison
Like a cancer for its prey
Shot an arrow in your harbor
Where you waited in the rain
I am siren, I am ivy
I am no one, I'm nobody
I am longing for your honey
I am longing for your love

[Hook]
And the shot goes
Through my head and back
Gunshot
I can't take it back

[Verse 2]
Lay me down in your ocean
Carry me and my burden
I was dreaming about you, honey
I was hoping you'd save me

[Hook]
And the shot goes
Through my head and back
Gunshot
I can't take it back
My heart cracked
Really loved you bad
Gunshot
Never get you back
[Bridge]
And I ache, while you're not here
Feel you aching
Wide awake, while you're not here
I can feel you firing straight into my heart

[Hook]
Goes
Through my head and back
Gunshot
I can't take it back
My heart cracked
Really loved you bad
Gunshot
Never get you back