Earth Time...

Threw the dark in the winter we fight with our will,
To return to our shadow, our quiet our still.

Fighting our nature to struggle for growth, when the night is so long and the earth calls us home.

No direction to grow in when the light is so low.

To rest, to reflect and then die into all.

The old and the new the in and the out.

The material and knowing.

In my heart there's no doubt that i belong in the earth now,
to sleep till our spring,
To battle my nature is no easy thing.

Lost in-between worlds, when being needs to rest......

The madness of growth when my earth knows what's best.

Mechanical worlds.

First thing I recall was being on a massive metal spinning fairground ride.   It was very fast and very mechanical..     There was nothing 'fair' about it, it was more like being inside a machine.  It's made of dark grey iron.

The setting on the machine I was placed in was flapping around and I could see a nut that needed clipped....  oh yeh, it was organic too as when I flipped the metal but to the clip the clip knew to catch onto it.    It was intense g-force on this thing....  and it was also something to do with marriage!    

The setting is in a underground city....   So we are in a huge industrial cave underground, the lighting is warm but low, quite natural looking possibly torches.   When the ride It stops I walked out of there into what seemed like a stone cathedral but also still underground, it had huge stone pilers and arches holding up the cave roof, old fashioned oil lanterns hanging from brackets on the side.   I was walking down the central cavern that was covered with cobbled stone when a small child approaches me and asks if I'm a vet nurse - he needs someone to help with his soft toys :)  So I go with him.

We port outside onto some grass by a road it's sunny, the kid has a picnic style soup kitchen for stuffed toys! I go and sit with him on the grass and we give plastic food to homeless teddies and dolls.

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Next dream Is very odd.
I'm at a posh venue and I'm on roller-skates serving drinks!   Attached to it is a school type office. 

This bit was wired as the people in the party were people I've not seen in many many years from high school. 
They were young like they were then...  there was a wired vibe about it all with some being elitist. (The vibe of the dream was one of inequality) 

I wasn't bothered for me (as I was there working/on mission) but some people were upset at the way the elite were treating them.    I knew there was a party that only a select few were invited to, I made a point of mentioning it in a passive aggressive kind of way to the birthday girl (who I think was playing the role of elite(due to the fact she's now loaded)
She kind of made a show of saying she'd forgotten to invite me but I told her I didn't want to go - which I didn't I was just mainly being provocative but also I was just wishing her happy birthday.    Then she burst into tears!   

The dream jumps to were the party is happening, I'm outside but I'm there as I had something to do in the building below..    I'm speaking to a friend who tells me he's going to move his family to Stockton...  I tell him Darlington is better and I show him a vision of burnt out council estates and housing and destroyed high-schools. (Which is odd, as I'm showing him a vision of another dream I've had when I was doing something around the burnt buildings- it was also linked to mythical lake, and a group of people )   

It was an odd dream set in a world like this but with much worse inequality. 

Body Stasis Farm

First dreams are disjointed a multidimensional painting...    It had a flock of small black birds on it... but there were people too.  Hard to describe.  Then I felt like I was very far away :P

Next dream, a new class is starting.  It's grey and raining we are in a dull tall building, it's made up of old fashioned communal shower rooms and cloak rooms... there are no bedrooms.   I walk down the stairs and realised its changed since I last took a lesson here.   All the colours have gone.   

I'm meeting people on the class, some of them are really upset with me and won't talk to me and I don't understand or remember what I did.   All they will tell me is that I made the same mistake twice.  
I remember feeling sad that I'd upset them but had no clue what I'd even done, but as I was moving on I kept going.   The course I'm on is for symbols.   This place is the halls of residence but I'm not staying here, my class is in a different zone.     I walk down spiral stone stair well and out of the building there is a small room with a fire in the hearth to the left.    It's the only warm/bright thing.

Next I journey across a city using buses and underground trains, all of the colours are dark they are red,green,yellow like the Rastafari colours. 

I reach the place were my class will be on the other side of the city, it's like my dream representation of Bailiffgate.  

*Wake up but go back into same dream*

I had these 2 dreams in that area lately This class room one, and  this ice spire one.  This time the class room is library like still with long windows set in green grass land.    I'm going to the symbols class I remember I failed it last trimester (cause I never showed up to class)  I recall taking the exam in another dream and I didn't know the answers... I don't think I ever collected the results. 

I go down and in, there are some bits of paper and pens and I almost get to my seat when I remember Zak was somewhere and I won't be able to concentrate if he's wandering around so I excuse myself and leave again!   Outside there is a large sand dune, I decide to walk to the top as will be a better view from there.    As I get near the top I forget about Zak, and the class and lay down in the sun.    It's a beautiful day and I feel like I might have a sleep here.    I'm looking at the white rippling clouds, I notice an area in the sky is glitching.  

It's small and round the clouds are spiralling there, I wonder if it's my eyes but it seems more like a glitch.   I press my palms to my eyes and am surprised when my closed eyes display an interface!   On it are words, symbols and images that I recognise.   One of the images is a pyramid status pod - I place my hands onto the interface and it's solid...  I instinctively know how to interact with it.  It puts me to sleep and wakes me up.
Anyhoo, I'm much more lucid now and I know I've left a body that is now sleeping on the sand dune dream.  
I set of to find my body in this new dream layer.   I know one of the symbols on the interface was for stasis pods...and I remember that this is a 'body' stasis layer.  

The place is all white and I find my body in a room with others bodies in a crude wooden pyramid hung up by its feet.   (I realise in dream that I'm not rendering this place as it actually is and that these are crude representations of what I'm doing! ) 
I move the bodys till I get to mine and start to unfasten/and wake it.   A caretaker appears, he's a kind elderly man...  he is surprised to see me and tells me 'No dear,  don't do that... don't wake yourself'
    
I ask him what's going on as he tends to my sleeping/stasis form..  cranking it back up so it is aligned. 
I ask him were I am, he tells me one of the overseer's is on there way and they will answer my questions. 
I'm both excited and nervous as I wait, I wonder if the overseer will be an insectoid.  (duno why I wondered this) 
When the overseer arrives he is rendered as a tall male, very tall close to double my hight.   He reminds me a little of our family GP when I was a kid wise and gentle. 
He knows me and welcomes me, he knows I have questions so we will go to talk.  I readily agree but tell him I don't know my way round here. 
He places a hand on my back to guide me and we take a lift to another large white room - there are vents in this one.

We sit down and he takes out a pad and paper were he starts to draw for me.    He draws in 3D like he's making objects from the pen in light.  The pen changes colours.
The first is a symbol object with equal and opersit energy flow spiralling round it's self in a ring it has 2 shapes interlocking shapes inside it too....    it's pink and orange and inside is more layers symbols.   It's glowing and quite beautiful.    
Next he draws/creates the energy body & stasis pod with the flow of energy and between the body and pyramid frame... showing how the inverted position is optimising the blood and energy flow. 

I ask him which is real... was the sand dream the real world (As I don't recall I'm 2 dreams in/out)  he tells me not really. 
I ask were I am, he tells me it's a world too - he says think 'down on the farm'  he tells me it's beautiful outside and as he describes the end of the valley that we are in I know it from other dreams and I know it's layer in an area I'm familiar with.  The room we are in is quite busy now, people are teleporting in and out and materialising/dematerialising from other realms/layers.  

The Overseers is the only double hight person, he motions to a young Asian boy sitting close to us and introduces him,  'This is Loci - he knows his way around' (even in my dream I could see this was punny :P )  Why not go and talk with him'

I thank the tall guy and go to chat to the young guy, he's friendly too.  I ask if is here deliberately and he tells me yes, one of his bodies is due to be beheaded in a few hrs and he didn't want to wait there.

He shows me how he taps his wrist to leave and re-enter, he tells me another dream needs him now and he taps his wrist and vanishes.

I'm unsure if I want to wake up yet... and I see a group of females so I go to speak to them.  
They are going to take a class..   I didn't realise there were lessons here too.  I ask them if it's easier to learn in this level, but they aren't sure.    I tell them I'm not good at spellings and symbols, they tell me it's a different series here a word that rhymed with fairy. 

I decide to wake up, but instead of being on the sand dune but I wake up in my bed, feeling really excited :D  


So the first 3d shape the overseer drew with light, was an orange & pink twisty bands that floated and moved flowing in and out of each-other, in the floating in the middle of them was a pointy angular interlocking start that pulsed.

Married to Trump :/

First remember is in a small room with a fridge I'm a dealer of meth and crack!  I'm also a medical student.  

The authoritys are aware of me but so far haven't found evidence of what I'm doing... I keep having to hide stuff, and I'm leaving it in places to be collected.    In the first scene I'm hiding stuff in an old freezer and then I go and sit with a group of male students talking about quantum mechanics...   specifically the correspondence principle.

They mentioned this too Hilbert_space  ?? I duno what this is but in the dream it made sense. 

Dream jumps to a halls of res bunk room, the room is behind me and I'm looking down into a light 'town' it's not really a town it's like a circular game board floating in a white void.....  
There are people on it, family of the students and they are making their way across the game board to come up these huge shiny white concrete stairs.  the people on the game board are weirdly big for this strange board.  

I'm at the top of the stairs waiting for them, but I know I have no family visiting.   A woman with a male and female teenage child is struggling to manage the stairs but neither of her children are helping, so I go to help her - she's great-full when we get to the top.   (They look native/tribal hair is black and white and woven )

They come into the 'bunk room' it's a large dark cave / cavern under ground.   
The lighting is low a few industrial metal lamps and sound is muffled.    There are hollows carved into the cavern walls were we sleep round the walls.  (I guess it looked  like a burial chamber)
There's a blond haired guy in a bunk over from me smoking a meth pipe... like me he has no family of his own who will be visiting.   We are connected and we know the police are closing in on us....

Dream swaps to a street I can hear threw a wall I hear a family in a house.   A step mum is yelling at a 10 year old daughter, she's had a new baby of her own and the relationship with her stepdaughter has become strained and bordering on abusive...... the father isn't doing anything to protect his first daughter and I wonder how there relationship got in such a mess. 

Jump again, I'm married to Donald Trump!  I'm repulsed by him, my male aspect is there too we are young 20's ish.  My male aspect is dark haired, we are both scruffy and unkempt looking.    

He's waiting outside the house I've just moved into with Trump, there is a tight spiral staircase to the upstairs bedroom and Trump has bough a big new white bed for us.   The house is modern and clean.

The bed is  heavy and unwieldy and he's trying to get it up the spiral stairs, I'm hoping he has a heart attack trying :P    He's sweating and struggling to get it upstairs and I'm speaking telepathicly with my male aspect we are coming up with a plan to get me out of the marriage.  
Trump gets the bed upstairs and lays it down....   I shudder, I kiss him (which is very icky) and then make an excuse that I need to go out for a while but will be back later. 

Once outside I meet my male aspect and we walk threw the town we are in, it's 1920's style.... everything is grey dirty and cold.   We both have large black fluffy coats.   

We have a small illustrated handbook it is for a rehab program at a temple in the town... it's to turn you into a monk....the images are cartoons.     I'm planning to go there become a monk instead of going back to Trump.
We go into a small shop to ask about it.    It's all wooden and dark inside and the monks seem really dodgy - they refuse to speak to me at all but chat to my male side, he pretends it's him that wants on the program.  They clearly fancy him and we realise they are all gay, and females aren't allowed on the program so we leave.  I still have the book with the pictures.

I decide I'm sleeping rough and not going back to the house so I cross a street, I leave male me at this point and my dog appears.  

I walk up into a small grey court yard ajoning a  grotty70's apartment block, everything is very grey and hard...   
There are some tired concrete steps and a few other rough sleepers there already, again all male.
The courtyard is at the edge of the town and I can see and hear the Sea....  I pick a bench so I can lean on the wall looking down onto the grey stormy sea below, my dog tunes into a black and white punchbag and I hug it and wrap my coat round me to fall asleep watching the sea.  

Falling Planet and Bird People.

A dream in my main dreamscape last night.. it was the first dream and I woke at 3.33 having had it. 

I'm in the house, in the room were the 2 birds came in last time but at the window and we are looking up into the dark sky area.      The dream is set at night and there is a planet we are watching.

It's getting redder and bigger, we are excited! We know we are using it to remind ourselves.    We have been waiting for this sign... in my mind it was Venus but it is behaving like a dieing sun.    We know others are seeing the same sign but are surprised as once the reaction starts it's going much faster than we expected....       We were expecting the planet to gradually get bigger and redder and move slowly   - but it's all happening much faster than we though, the planet is getting closer and closer very quickly and we are happy cause we know it's a reminder :D

I seem to be waking at around 3.30 each night again at the moment.


Next is a vision, it's a paper full of symbol writing, it's looks a little like Sumerian but it's with pencil rather than indents it's very beautiful and detailed....   I can't understand it. 

Next dream starts in a room, with a person who pulls a tarot card he tells us it's a sign to move now.....   by moving we fall asleep.

The dream we go into is a grassy countryside and we are in a small indent shape in the earth.  It forms a small ring.  The male who pulled the tarot deck has changed, he's wearing grey bulky cloaks and now has a shaved head in the style of a monk and a hooked nose.  He's a seer, and is communicating with the elders of his group.   We sleep in the green ring earth work, he wakes us again and tells us it's time to move on again as he's had another sign.    

At this point I wake up again into a different dream, I'm in a street next to a car.  Over the road there are a group of people and George Michael is there he's young like he was when he was in WHAM  and he has a small group of young females around him.   I look at the car I'm standing beside it's a sliver Mercedes and on the bonnet is a small indent that is round....      I climb up and curl into the hollow to go to sleep -  I seem to be small like a cat.     George Michael comes over, it's his car he apologises to me for disturbing me but wants to get something from under the bonnet before I fall asleep again.  I jump up and he gets what he needs.   He leaves again and I curl back up on the car and fall asleep again.   

In the next dream I'm back with the baled headed seer but he's changed again...   this time we are up in the branches of a giant tree.    We are in a round shape again, and he's even more bird like his cloak is grey and black feathery  - his hands claw like like grey chickens feet.    Nose is more hooked and eyes smaller,   he tells us we are getting closer and has a small stone basin as a scrying bowl.   He pores into it some sliver water and we all jump again.  

This time we are in an obvious nest,  and he's a giant bird person!   His clothing and stance remind me of the Skeksis in the Dark Crystal  but his face is slightly more human looking and not decomposed like they are -  he dose have a beak now though, I'm aware of a network of bird people seers   -  they are all in touch with each-other.

Woken by an alarm clock.   

Scotish Accent and a Dwarf.

One long dream - that I kept going back into.

It starts in a tall featureless white room, I feel we are high up as I'm aware of stuff happening below, I think some vehicle is being repaired.    I'm making a vegetable soup and the floor is a light wood colour.  It's covered in black hair, that I'm sweeping up.

People come in and out of the room to get the soup, they are working below.  One of the people who comes in is small...   but not young.  He's one of the old races a dwarf or half-ling he dances with me, and I ask him to marry me?!?!   He leaves again but we are betrothed now.

Zak wakes me so I go settle him...

Back into a dream were I'm still betrothed to this strange bloke.   This time the setting is different, I'm in a lower ground floor of a tall building...  Ann (vet) is there, and the room we are in is large  and very busy.  Some people I know and others are strangers but everyone seems to know someone else in the room.  

It's a vet surgery/hospital again white featureless and bright.    Ann is the mother of my betrothed but also runs the hospital/vets we are in, I work there.    There is talk about a cardiologist coming in to do a talk on resuscitation and people are putting there names down to be present, but also social arrangements are being made the room has a large white island table in the centre and white continuous sofas round the outside.   Groups are lounging and chatting and one person is walking round with a huge blue cuddly giraffe toy that has 8 legs.  

Everyone is very very surprised at  the betrothal of this guy 'David or Dave'  as he was so 'different' it was assumed by all including himself he would never marry.    I'm surprised to, as firstly I don't like/agree with marriage! and secondly I've no idea who he is.   He has siblings too and they are all slightly suspicious of me.   

Dave and his parents go into a side room to talk about me and the betrothal - my shift is over and I want to know if I'm on the rota for the following day so I go to the room too and knock.  It has one of them wired eye/peep holes in it and I can see Ann's eye looking at me.   I can also hear them telling David he needs to ask me to dinner and get to know me.

I shout threw the door I need to see the shift rotas, they  unlock and open the door for me.  As I enter David smiles at me politely but then his father jumps in front with a box and says 'Do you want money?'  I laugh, as say 'Doesn't everyone but I'm here to check the rota to see when I'm working'  
He has a small old cardboard box filled with fake money.   David asks me if we can go to dinner - I tell him yes and he offers me a lift home.  
One of his brothers leaves with us and we get into a dirty wired car, they sit in the front and I get into the back seat but for some reason I refuse to sit or ware a seat belt and lay down along the back sear... 
They are annoyed and drive really badly intentionally trying to get me to fall of the seat....  I'm totally indifferent to them and I'm laying down so I can look up.  Up above I can see amazing ancient tall buildings with 1000's and 1000's of tiny pains of old fashioned leaded glass..    They look like a mish mash of ancient and modern... like if Tudors did skyscrapers!   The light reflecting of them looks amazing...I arrange to meet him at the exit to an underground train station later that day. 

  

I don't remember anything until I next see him....   He's standing at the top of an elevator across a street I decide to get there via a short cut threw a university building. 
Again these are multi story buildings..   I plan to go in one building up and a cross and then down another to get across the street.   As I enter the first building 2 blond guys come up to me and ask if I want to come with them to a party, I politely refuse and head to the stair well.   I seem to be a residential halls building it's consists of small comfortable rooms with only a bed or comfortable chair in each decorated with coloured cushions or bedspreads. All the rooms are arranged round a spiralling stair well one small room on each landing so all the people are in the stair well.   It's a squeeze to get past them, the rooms and stairs are filled with beautiful half dressed young females getting ready to go out... there are also a couple of dogs too a Dobermann and a ridge-back.  It's all quite distracting as I squeeze past them all but I remember I'm in the city to meet someone.   So I make my way up first one stairwell go along and then down another.

It takes me ages and I remember it's freshers week, and my short cut wasn't short at all.  I reach the elevator but David isn't there so I enter the cafe were we were heading too...   I look around the tables but don't see him anywhere - I'm quite late now.   I notice him sitting on a sofa in the corner and go over to apologise for being late.  

I kneel down by the sofa so I can see him, and start to apologise but stop cause of the way he's looking at me.   He's hyper real, serious and intense he speaks to me and like the guy in the cafe last night his accent is Scottish. 

He says.   'Now then, what's all this? If ye want ta ken what I'm thinking, just look me in the eyes' 

His eyes are amazing....  very very dark warm brown almost like portals..      I wake up! 

More Rainbow Hair, Serving Food and Mending Things.

First dreams were odd, kinda telescopic.  Box's in box's and things folding and collapsing in together - really nice woke up feeling loved up.... I think this was to do with male and female energy flow.

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Next dream I had rainbow hair again, there was a bunch of cafes and restaurant in an open old fashioned city square were people were having food.  The buildings are stone and the tables spill out onto the sunny paving stones.  

I seem to be one of many people who served the food places as waitresses, all the waitresses seemed to go to and from the same kitchen.  

I start the dream getting ready for my shift, I'm putting rainbow stripes of colour into my hair. 

I enter the square by following 2 females in there matching outfits out of the 'kitchen'  (I've no idea about this kitchen though it's hazy)

The 2 females in front are dressed in formal black and white uniforms with tidy hair and bows... they head into a large building.    I seemed to be rainbow coloured and a little tatty and was serving in more of a street cafe.    It's busy and I start with taking an order from a guy at a table.

The table had a red and white checked cloth and the man had a Scottish accent and he wanted a deconstructed sandwich and a bottle of beer....  I remember being a little baffled by his request and it took me a while to establish he mainly wanted bread and a blob of filling on his plate. 



Next think I remember - I leap to a large broken sun umbrella, it's broken but I know how to mend it...
I take it apart and a  young person is painting a beautiful picture onto it's fabric while I'm busy  mending the frame and finding it something to support it....   We finish mending it so my father in law can use it. 

Next I'm on a very sunny long sandy beach, the tide is far out and sea is shimmering in the distance.
At the back of the beach in front of the dunes is a row of kitchen appliances, we go to sit beside them to watch a show.. my male aspect is back and he is with me.   (I'm not aware of his point of view though, and we don't know we are the same person in this dream... we are more friends working as a team)

He's sitting on the open door of a big stainless steal dishwasher.  I can see he's bending the door so I support it at one corner to stop it breaking all together. 

When he gets up the door is buckled and won't close properly, he pushes it to try and shut it but this makes it more wonky... 

I can see the broken hinge and think I can fix it but there are sparks when I put my hands in.   I ask him to turn of the electric for me but he doesn't know how.....    tells me me can't see which one to unplug.  

I'm trying to explain he just needs to follow the power back to it's source (plug) 


Interpretation........

First bit....  that's just the fun as usual, it's when I connect more and depending on how balanced I am depends on how much I recall.

The feeding people dream....    I dream of feeding people a lot, at first it was just myself.   Sometimes it's rooms full of people and often I'm trying to do that while also being on another mission :stuck_out_tongue: 

Blugh....   ok, my dreams, guidance, regression, visions all tell me I'm here for connection/service.   A little like a healer (more like a worm)  ..  I came in service- but in actuality it is  balance....    I'm likely balancing all the energy of group where we seriously fucked shit up too :stuck_out_tongue:     (all in the name of learning and all the game) 

(I deny this constantly to myself, as I'm scared of inflating my ego/logic side but my dreams constantly tell me it over and over :P) 

In this dream specifically...  I'm serving my logic side, we fell out a few nights ago and 'he's' been missing from dreams since.    We are making up :wink: 

'He' want's a deconstructed sandwich...    My logic side is trying to tell me I duno what's going on or what the fuck we are doing, break it down.    - I finally get the message and the dream shifts.

Hummm   Ok, the sun umbrella...  so this is a shade from sun, the masculine the direct energy the more thinking stuff.    It's broken,  so I'm not filtering my logic male side adequately.   I'm repairing it for my father in law... so Guy logic!  This is an old logical belief I have that's having a hard time readjusting, as it want's shaded from the new incoming insight direction.     I am aware what needs to be done and can do this in dream time...    I'm trying to weave and filter my understanding and filter it to make it more palatable to the logical mind. 


Next the beach dream....   

I'm thinking sea..  way out, but visible.    I'm not currently in touch with unity/love but it's insight (it's the tide so natural flow) 

I seemed to make friends in the other earlier dreams with my logical side and he's back...... but we are not working as one so are not quite on the same wavelength again yet.

Sooo  dishwasher door...

Seems creative is attempting to compensating for my logical sides clumsiness/careless. 

Dishwasher...   an invention to clean/time save, stainless steal....   highly refined earth.    -  this is something that can be beneficial if we get it functioning. 

Then the power thing... hummmm  in the dream I was trying to give my logic a job to do... but still having to walk 'him' it threw it...      The statement 'follow the power back to it's source'    Seems to be telling logic/ego me in frustration telling me to go inside and connect again.