Being with Child Me.

Dream was set in Germany I was visiting a friend there in the dream she had a daughter the daughter was me when I was about 5-6 years old.  I knew it was me and was spending lots of time talking with playing games and taking care of myself.  

Outside were we were was a large muddy dig site, archeologists are there and they are excavating bits of wood and treating them like bones, brushing and labeling them - the soil is deep and rich and dark warm brown.

Last dream was an older Muslim guy I think i was Muslim in the dream too I was also an older and younger person again, girl and woman.  

Beltain and a Yin-Yang fish dream.

I've not been dreaming much, I've not been sleeping so much been to busy!   

I did have a lovely dream last night (I had opened myself up too dream before I went to sleep)

I was with my cousin he's a little older than me, a married guy with 2 kids we grew up close buy spent Christmas and holidays together don't remember him ever being in a dream before.  

Anway I was with him, and he was making sexual come on's to me.  I was confused, telling him he's my cousin and his married  I was a bit wired out.  The dream pottered on like this like an average dream until the point he changed 

He changed into a white fish like a lovely Japaneses fancy koi and I was like 'OH!'  How stupid I totally get this now it all made sense it was male me - I instantly transformed into a matching  black fish where we swirled and joined/mated like a yin-yang as the ball faded I was sitting naked in a dark pool and the water around me was full of tiny black and white tadpole like creatures clinging to me.    Very real and magical.

March 19

7th March

A huge beach or desert an aboriginal woman and living smoke  sort of wispy soot sprites I've seen them before in dreams sort of think and changeable very black.   The foundations of something new being built.  Plants being planted and grown.

8th March

Aunty Betty,   bread baking lots of different loves and a large grass garden,  feeding the bred to small birds on the grass the birds are singing.   

10th
Zooming in and out dream, threes planets waterfalls.  Sun setting the trees are wired very different. 


11th

Small Spare room at Aunty sheilas Vacuuming up bits of metal lots of iron fillings and unused staples drawing pins and paper clips  they are covering a floor.    I'm using our yellow Henry  he's upside down and too full and the lid comes of and stuffs going back onto the floor again. 

Feb 19

I've had lots of dreams threw Feb but days have been so busy they fade before I keep track.

One was a dream of Aunty sheila and a silver sword.  A spaceship too A hall of res and a room on the 6th floor lots of artifacts. 

House moving again... packing up and cleaning before going.

A dream about shirly and her passed mum also 2 dogs...  2 dogs to women all at night.

One weekend there was a flying car  it was robotic and magnetic like a transformer.   Emma and Jack with me we are flying over the UK the car keeps reforming.

A dream with aunty Betty and Fay, she is looking over and after us. 

A dream of many females  underground doing handstands.

Night before last.  

A  house in a valley rolling winter countryside around it.   It's a strange house many things at once.   Old young/social/horrible and wonderful all patched together.   At first it looks ugly and falling apart but it's changing all the time.  There is an old cottage aspect very old and a huge wrap around panoramic window with a wrap around veiw.    It's full of antiques and a old leather sofa filled with giant caterpillar type of bugs.  There is an old antique breakfast table layed for 7 people.  I float around in the dream watching and looking.


Last night. 

Underground big dark city station end of the line type of place....  it's dirty and grubby late at night, dark before dawn time.
I'm with Dom and and someone else.   We have been dancing all night but are to tired to dance more and are heading home.   
In the station we climb down onto the dirty old track...   walking down it, we can see lights coming from the train in the tunnel and hear it.    We laugh and head back towards the buffers to climb out   when the train lands it's a space rocket and it lands in a pile of ice on the track. 

We are in trouble for the ice and  us being on the track people are annoyed that the time table is wrong now and departure delayed.   - the security is a theater crew and opera singers they are looking for us so I make us invisible. 

I leave there and find a coach  I'm heading north to main dream area.   It's a night journey  out of the windows I see packs of dogs all different ages breads and sizes but all brown.  Fox's too in groups the bus is driving on grass tracks and trails sometimes hitting the animals. 

When I get to my main dream area.... the bus goes all the way there right to the house.  Zak is there in an ambulance he has iv lines going in and out of his limbs -  I take him from the bed and remove the IV lines.  I carry him away from the ambulance and he gets down onto the grass where he vomits and poops clear white liquid thick like jelly.    I carry him into the house and breast feed him I remember wondering if I'd still have milk but I did the milk heals him. 

Woke up there.  

Jan 2019

1st Jan 19

A communal house that I was opening.  It's in an old pub/inn in a rundown dark city.  The inn had been closed and I was opening it.   Separate bedrooms and then big communal lounge and kitchen, kitchen was a bit like a school cookery room with different stations and cookers. 

The main room had a fireplace dark wood and tartan blankets wood floor to roller skate on communal spaces and quiet booths.

2nd Jan 19.

In the sea of grans house were the school was a B&B staying in the B&B with Zak then floating over the sea a city of sand under the water still sea and lots of lights lighting up the sand city.


3rd Jan. 

Large castle/world  with a group of people male me is Mathew and there are more of us, we are taking a hallucinogenic plant.  

Bark/leaves and berry's are all chewed up we are outside large castle walls and tripping hard talking to each other it got wired when there was a book I'd written of what was happening at that time and I was reading it like a recipe.

Second dream is a running game, we have bags and run and sleep.  there is a wired evolved insect it has extra pink wings and can fly allover the world. 

I take peoples bags, we are going to run along then sleep on the shore... sometimes we sleep in dunes out of the wind. 

4th Jan

Im at a learning place and it's exam time very soon.  I'd not been to any classes and couldn't really remeber what subjects I'd taken.  Religion?  Philosophy?  Physics/maths   I wasn't sure how to find out... then I kind of fell into story telling.

5th Jan.

Sleeping on hard concrete then a wired drive  the car keeps searing one way.   We driveing up an frozen waterfall.  Found a group of young kids making a film.

7th

Long hair pink space pig.

8th

dreaming of wvw I'm my scourge and playing with sand, good fun.  Something with a funeral and world celebration.   End of the dream there was a big outside kitchen but dog poop allover. 

10th
A fighting game..   team on team.  I have a lump in my left arm, it's getting bigger and then a clear ball/egg emerges it's clear at first then has a tiny dino in it blue and yellow.    After it's hatched the egg trnes into a gem.

12th
A large shared house with lots of other women babys too.  The baby's are sugar addicts  boob milk high and lows.  I'm working a garden growing mushrooms and asparagus.

13th

Main dream area, newsagents there is a boy 7 for adoption.    Lots of people living above it and singing too.  Jack has applied to adopt the boy.  him and cousin Ian are running along the beach.  I have a bag with frozen fruit and there are socks with holes at the heals. 
I work in the shop, it's old fashioned with wooden counters and cubby holes. 


15th

Wired world.. with Dom and I'm having his baby.   There are female teachers they are teaching us a martial art like kungfu  big temple type place we will be there for years.

17th

Mevagissy  I'm lost in Scotland I got out of the car was with Ian and then wander off no phone. 
looks amazing mountains some of them have eyes.  Vallys too and rivers very color saturated.  I'm asking people for directions go into strange town halls in villages there is a religious group too like mormons. 

19th

Main dreamscape, Northsunderland where the horse fields are.  There are farms there and lots of fields and horses.  I sit on a large horse and it sits down I get of and rub it's nose.    I walk down a long track people are cycling on it at the bottom it opens into fields. 

I walk in the grass it's very very green and waterlogged but not at all muddy.  My feet are wet I notice a bright sliver and realise there is train track layed there.   New and shiny very sliver the water covers it -  at first I panic a bit as I'm standing on the track and I remember the recurring nightmares from so long ago then I remember the time lines and my other dreams..  I walk a little ways up the hill and sit down to look back down onto the sunken track thinking but Zak woke me up.


20th

A prison though it's not like a prison there is a huge swimming pool more like a sea pool part of it seems wild caves/rocks and other parts are clear and blue pool like water.   GDS are there with the wardens

We have made a game for the prisoners a hide and seek type of game.  We have hidden tags deep in the water and the prisoners are coming to find them one is there already and she's doing well.  

I'm in the water too neckind and swimming I dive to the bottom and when I push of to go back towards the surface I realism I'm bleeding menstrual blood it reminds me of a jellyfish ink squirt...  the bright red blood clouds and disperses into the blue water it's mesmerizing leaving a trail behind me.   I wasn't embarrassed but I was worried that the prisoners might not be allowed to play the game as I'd contaminated the water. 


Second dream

Large bus a sort of coach trip I think, large area with tents and people outside too.   I had a dog with me a black lab so we wen't allowed onto the bus. 

I walk into a garden/field and find a pond...  small deep very full of life It was tidal and the creatures in it were millions of years old so colorful too the moss was so vivid and green, the water so clear and the pondlife so colorful.  Big pink sea slugs were slimming over my bare feet that were on the wet rocks around the pool.  

21st Odd 'soap/kefir' factory in main dream area.  Mix of scratchsleeves, kefier and makeup.  Cows in the lab.

23rd

Ian in a band at a festival lots of 'marshal' stuff.   Jack & Chloe on a very very muddy path.  Big feild with grass, was sunbaked but growing again green...  pain in foot stepping on wet muddy bit and finda silver razor blade in my foot. 

25th

I've moved to a new city  clearing out a house and taking delivery of food some of the veg is bad so I refuse it.  Out side at a bin area big communal bins and recycling very full.   I have a really heavy black rubbish bag struggling to lift it onto the waste bin.    Lots of displaced people too an eastern European lady wants to get her sister to help me but when they arrive I've climbed up onto the rubbish and am rolling the bag.

Next is a sick dog pinky hair its very sick dying.  it's been cut stitched down it's sternum high up the wound is open and inflamed and leaking.  Dog also had V&D and dehydrated.   
I carry it to a vets and go in but it starts puking/leaking pooing alover my bare arms I carry it out to avoid the mess and it dies in my arms.  I go back in and ask if they have a body bag as it's gone now.   I put the dog into the bag and ask if they have any valency as I'm new here  they don't but we chat about were I've moved from.  

End of Dec, solstice time.

19th Dec. 

Dreams of being many women...   the men on the planet had gone crazy.   Abusing and raping women treating them badly and blaming the women for it.  

Women were all turning gay wanted nothing to do with the crazy men.  A train too but not safe,  telepathy men invading thoughts. 

Nov 2018

Oct 23rd..  first there was a ghost/shimmer anomaly that only I could see... then it changed into a black crow and then a woman...  it was kind of all 3 things/   crow/woman/shimmer   it landed on my left hand.

It stayed with me, sometimes could turn into a pen with witch I could write and also a carrot.     I was walking with the bird down a long hallway on the walls were pictures and each picture was a painting from a scene in my dreams.

Oct 25th one dream was of being in a bay/cove  there was a huge shallow sandy bay with bright blue sparkling water in the water were 100's of dolphins all different types  more that I've ever seen.... different sizes and colours.  There we a few sharks in the water too.    At first I was watching from one of the dunes/ cliffs to the right side of the bay looking out to sea.      The bay was filled with people too enjoying the water with small craft, sailing or surfing.

I walk down to the waters edge the tide is high in and the dolphins are doing a sort of swim past coming close to the land and swimming past us.   I'm with lots of others on the land lining the waters edge and enjoying the interaction.

26th Oct
Last night I was a bit rubbish about writing anything to remind me what I was dreaming.   One thing I can recall is a big residential building but instead of bed/dorms there were kitchens.  Corridors lined with doors leading to small kitchens 1 person to each.  It was busy and hot,  hectic not natural light or windows and the kitchens were old fashioned   with built in shelf like dressers filled with the occupant cooks ingredients and equipment.  -  Each small kitchen had a 'distinct'  personality of the resident cook.

We were leaving too - it was a bit like my communal dorm school dreams but I've never had one with kitchens rather than bedrooms :stuck_out_tongue:

My kitchen was messy, very full and a bit old-fashioned and grubby - It had so many ingredients elements I wasn't sure how to shift it. (edited)


4th Nov
 I was dreaming of chewing on some wood.... like a chopped log.   I chipped my teeth so called a dentist,  it was in my main dreamarea and the dentist was where a bingo arcade used to be.
The dentist try's to put me of saying it's to stormy but I tell him I'm close will come anyway.

When I get there all the enamel from my teeth have gone so I just have the pink dentine left.  It's not painful  and I'm not bothered by it,   I'm waiting for my dentist to arrive and chatting with other people there - it's very busy in the place.

5th Nov
I'm in a department store.  The displays have moving walls the area I'm in is a baby thing/  very modern cots and stylised baby clothes I keep getting confused as the walls move closing it in.

There is a woman who's dad is a famous actor and she's showing us images of him in shows and on a stage - sometimes acting, sometimes dancing ballet.

Next I'm taking acid with some friends from now and past... we are sitting talking and playing with bubble wrap - the dream experience was very much like being on acid.

Next buildings on fire... very old buildings like a whole town.   It's been a dry summer and the straw roofs and big timbers are dry and the fire is spreading from one roof to the next.

Last dream,  I'm getting the London underground but it's an above ground station the train is wide and flat and open more like a cattle carriage  I struggle getting on and once on sit down on the floor leaving the friend I was with.   It's a late night train and I'm heading into and returning to the city for dawn.   I chat with some men on the floor who have been to a gig they are still in work suits and shirts from the day before.     On the floor are 'spots'  there like white heads but filled with like pva glue I pop them while chatting to others in the carriage.

The guards are announcing that the train is very full and people should make full use of all carriages at the front and back of the train to find space.   I stand up and move to the carriage side looking out onto pre-dawn London.   It's misty and smokey  kind of smoggy as it was years ago.   I look ahead and see I'm right at the front of the train and the guard and driver are just in-front of me.   I decide to get off it's not my stop but I want to walk.

On leaving the train I wander threw dark damp streets, the light is blue and black shiny.    I bump into someone who is a mix of 2 people I know  (both are similar shy, small quiet spoken females)  they are in London visiting a dying mother and are upset I hug them and they cry on my shoulder for a while, I walk with them to the hospital.

On leaving them I'm heading to a place I remember, I visited it the first time I arrived in the city...   I want to watch the dawn there :slightly_smiling_face:
In the dream I've been to the place before (It's a place in my dream London  my dream London is mainly based on the river)

The place I'm heading for is a bridge in the city the river flows under it then falls down below at a wired angle   sloping down hill in a way water only dose in dreams :stuck_out_tongue:  I stand on the carved stone bridge watching the river flow under.

It's a hazy autumn dawn  orange threw the mist. (edited)

9th Nov
Last few nights dreams have been like my brain defragging.

Snippets of stuff from the day smooshed together.

Night before last it was pear sorbet that they just made at the local icecream shop (With pears from the community orchard) There was also a duvet cover... it was lovely a light brown colour with bright turquoise mandala type print on it  - turquoise piping round the edge.

In the morning there was a dream about my watch battry bursting and getting battery acid allover me  (far more than would fit into a watch)    Also a large room filled with people who were going fox hunting.

Last night was sort of hopping on stuff in space  like big stepping stones.

10th Nove
Last nights dream was cool   -  It was last being on a planet scenario.   I'd been there ages alone.    I'd rigged up 2 ways of making power it was to do with tapping something deep into the planet.    It was a planet that had been inhabited by humans or something similar.   there were houses and plumbing/electricity but everything was different to here.

The other beings found me and wanted to stay as I had made a life there.   There was a wired thing were I got into a bubble and had to pop myself out of it.    I wanted to help them but there energy brought back this sinister AI robot things   (in the dreams these were what had destroyed the original being on he planet)  They were a bit like the ANSIS in Mannings books - that crossed with a cool robot thing.   They had weapons and tracking and saw human/bio's as an infection.     One of the new beings that arrived got instantly killed and I was on the run with the other...    Heading in and out of buildings I knew,   I seemed to recall that I needed to get somewhere quiet and 'shut down' till they went away.. was like a meditation, deep sleep thing.

Woke up around then.

22nd Nov

In one of my dreams last night there was a really interesting moment when I walked out of a door.   A small dark moth flew down and landed on my hand and then almost immediately a robin flew from a near by tree landed on my hand and ate the moth.

I remember thinking, oh I need to remember this bit of the dream.... and I did :P


Didn't sleep Friday night as we were driving up North...   Sat was Zonked.

Sunday  25th Nov

I was with Male me who kept changing playing some kind of game in a group with other people.  My Aunt and Uncle were there too and they were moving to Japan on a buss, I was helping them to pack up there stuff.   My old cat was n the dream too I was hugging him again, all warm and floppy.    There was also a weird grass valley where the ground/grass/Turf was like jigsaw bits all put together to make the hills.

Monday Dream 26th

Sacred geometry  and Escher style art  -  very visual.  In the dream I had a false awakening and went into the kitchen were the radio was debunking patterns and geometry and I was thinking, hu.... that's odd.

Travelling with a bunch of DJ's in a city going from venue to venue... then venues are wired no gravity so people are floating dancing, one is made of smashed bricks another small white pebbles and tiles.   I have a female lover she's small dark skinned we are both young.

I was also running threw an industrial city, a friends black and white dog was there being chased by a boxer dog, it lept from a balcony but it's lead was trailing and it caught and was hanging by it's neck, I was trying to climb to it to get it down.  Wasn't sure if it was still alive but woke before I got there.


4th Dec.

Huge glass biomes,  looking at fossils and trilobites -   Also massive tree ferns still living... as tall as big redwoods.  There was also a jumbel of stuff about tide coming in/ control and forgetfulness and a prison/jail break.

6th of Dec.

One of them visually wow dreams.   First recall is watching 4 suns setting across a desert, I go to a room where there is a huge open window a 5th sun is setting on a rainbow mountain range.   It's made of different colored sands and rocks  - I can see energy we call them microwaves rippling I think they've caused the wired effect on the mountains.

In the blown sands and rock faces there are old crumbling and ancient buildings carved into the mountain sides.

Jumps and I'm in a valley in the mountain range at dusk, we are walking up to one of the crumbling buildings... we climb up onto what is a flat roof and open a trap door.    Inside is totally different and I laugh with recognition,  metal stairs deeply patterned and lazer cut lead down into the metal interior.  There are markings all over it's a language I have forgotten how to read.     I recall how the dwellings were built on old spaceships and we are inside of one now.

In the ship are people I know and people I don't -  it's very eccentric and eclectic - it's been made into dwelling areas.    I chat with a old gent with white hair who has an area like a junglow study,  old red chesterfield sofas, loads of potted plants and walls of old fabric bound books, he makes tea for us.   Other people are there too, we are waiting and excited as it's nearly time to take off.

Dom is there and is excited about music he's bringing  -  The aliens arrive back and are powering up the ancient ship it's alive too with lights and humming.   Last bit I recall was walking down a huge long corridor deeper into the ship.