Root Ball and Symolism

I've got Zaks chest thing so dreams have been disjointed and woolly.

First recall is of seeing 100's of dream seeds and chatting with a friend about what dream and reason.

Threw out the night there was a reoccurring theme of a knotted root ball,   From outside the roots are bright white with a faint orange glow, inside they are like light windy tunnels with autumn leaves blowing threw them.    They were a little like time tunnels I guess but organic ones.


First dream is set on the lane were I live at least a wired dream version of it, I'm walking up to were the woods are and there is a massive modern tractor there... it is doing access work on the road there is going to be more comings and goings into the wood, there is a discussion about appropriate footwear.    ((Humm, I have a feeling this is to do with the grounding shoes thing that keeps popping up for me))

Next a wired huge old house, it's got open fire places, work is going on to renovate it.  It's a bit like a school/dorm we all have numbers long 3 figured numbers that are assigned to us, though I think they go up and down... we are all aware we are playing rolls and are waiting there for a new parts and songs, there are gifts to share but something about appropriate timing.

Then more of the tunnels with leaves.


Next dream I'm on a giant sandy beach with no sea in sight.   The sand is white and dry, up above us the sky is like a huge blue dome....   but it keeps cracking, like something's hitting it.     The cracks spread down the sides in a lightning pattern making the dome shape obvious but then they heal back up again so it looks just like sky once more.
People are worried it might break, I have a vision of it shattering and falling to the ground in tinkling parts.   It seems to be holding for now... I think I was working out some physics calculation and I was picking a new watch, it was to go on my finger not wrist.

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A strange unfamiliar house with a swimming pool in the garden, artificial green grass, below it is a impossibly huge new green and gold steam train, it has a gold whistle that 2 boys keep blowing and then running of giggling.

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This dream starts of a old science lab with long wooden benches, sunken sinks and cupboards full of glass ware, I'm making a prescription up for a dog. 
The dog requires 30mls of Mercury??   I have it in a huge brown bottle but I need a dispensing bottle so I head out side to a storage shed. 
the storage shed is a round brown wooden hut on legs, inside from waist hight up it's full of tired shelves floor to ceiling all round the room, the shelves are sectioned up and each compartment is full of multi coloured pick and mix sweeties   1000's and 1000's of them.   Under the shelves are cardboard box's full of brown plastic pill pots, I collect one I need for the Mercury.


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Next is set in a coastal village I'm watching a man who needs to learn the lesson of love.  He is fighting to see his son, when he gets access he learns the lesson but also realises he can't cope with the responsibility and runs away....  I'm looking from a hill in a village to a shore line, the sea is impossibly far out, 3 sand dunes have formed at the low tide mark and are filled with humans who are much to large...   I notice that quite a few of the humans are me (The crowd seems to be repeating)


(Mondays dream )-  Travelling on a spaceship, but we realise that the flicker rate is wrong and to slow...  we crash outside a house and the spaceship turns into a car. 
We are surprised because people can see us I walk threw a cafe, I go to walk threw a wall but realise it's solid and land on my bum :P   A nice old guy helps me to stand up.   - I wake up. 

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A wired city, the windows have all been covered with concrete that has been painted multi colours, there are no people outside though there are some in shops the shops are all full and trying to sell stuff that no one wants. 

What are beliefs.

Toddlers been ill so he's been sleeping with me. 

 His mind feels like a vortex at night, I really don't understand it but I felt like I'd been in a mangle when I woke up this morning, I know he has lots of nightmares but I felt like I was being sucked into a black hole... possibly a result of his fever. 

Anyway,  I was aware part of me was asking about the belief filters (Me and a friend were discussing this) ....
I feel the reply was more to do with belief's generally.... the odd part was when I woke up I felt like the answers had been coming from Zak! the 2 year old who was snuggled in my arms.


Sooo It's wired...   As I'm aware of my self asking as if in 3rd person... inside and out....   I could see the answer as geometry! lol and it's complicated but also simple (It made total sense at the time too)

So what I wrote was ' We have to ask, to wonder, to know...       -   What we ask and why, will determine the answer given.....   

Then from Zak


'A point of reference, beliefs are a framework structure within which we can wonder.....     (This is also visual in terms of platonic solids and such things) 


Archetypes are more fixed...  think pre-programmed frameworks that we can use'


It was almost like I was seeing structured and unstructured thoughts O.o   It was hummmmm like a geometric use of mind.   *shrug*



Soooo....  my thoughts on this!   Hummmm,  I'm wondering how it fits with my current understanding, as when I've created or manifested in dreams I'm aware I use intention rather than thought/mind. 
  
I'm also remembering a dream teacher telling me I was hummmm errrrrr   Oh that I -  'lacked discipline' .... which I laughed at in the dream as I'm pretty unstructured, I remember just shrugging at them :stuck_out_tongue: 


Sooooo  uumm,   So are beliefs a structured form of creation?????


Will add the rest of the weeks dreams here.    Not many as didn't get much sleep.

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Swirly Lines in sand,  some straight and some rings or spirals.  Reminded me of Zen sand gardens.

Last night, I still lept getting woken and was going in and out of the same dream... recalls not great as I was so tired.  
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There was a strange round wood building with lots of what seemed like catholic things going on.   It seemed a bit like a pirate inn atmosphere wise , but with people getting read last 'rites' and making deathbed confessions.   

It was strange but not unpleasant... many of the people were white Generals and there was a map of places they had taken over...   Like a world globe thing/or gaming map.

I'm an observer, or hummm I'm not sure what my role in the dream is.... I seem like an onlooker. 

So in this area there is a guy confessing (The DC is played by someone I know, but I think it's more a representation of hummm   upper-class/privileged white Eton boy)   ...  he's sad about stuff he's done.
He's played a role in domination of other country's and also abused others on his way up.  

He is dying? Or being reborn....  not sure which,  he's confessing as I think he was catholic.... the building is like a wood round house the people he are confessing too are unfamiliar in appearance and energy. 
A new experience is being arranged for this person and some are being chosen to play roles.   I volunteer  as I will be unaffected by abuse, in ways that others wouldn't be (I have a skill to dissociate and ground)    It's better I go as others are not ready for this, there is also an element of 'game' for me that others don't have.

I'm in a second dream inn  ...I am a prisoner with a male.    I have with me an beautiful carved wooden box, in it are tree seeds...   I can use them to open portals into other worlds.  

A Dragon Gives me Dreams.

I went into the earth again last night.

This time I was in caverns filled with huge crystals and pools of water.  While exploring I meet long black serpent like dragon, it's face is like a sea-horse with huge black eyes.     I think I'd been communicating with it telepathicly before that and it was guiding me to it. 

I go to it, and touch it's face as I do it presses it's forehead into mine -  Which sent me into a dream

The dream is set in a strange sunny town/village with the most beautiful lush bright green grass.

I'm on a central green area with a pond and well, around it are old communal housing buildings.

They are a yellow orangy colour and old pretty and small with exposed beams, but they have been unused and are crumbling in parts.  

There is lots of work going on to repair and update the cottages, the people working on them are descendants of the original builders...  the work is to make a new affordable communal living place.   The work going on is amazing as people are re-discovering the gifts and crafts that have been lost threw the ages.

I get a little lost while exploring and find one area that is ultra modern and kinda out of place for the rest of the dream, in it there is a youngish male.  
He is working on the gardens and helps me find my way outside... when we get there he starts clearing weeds from a pebble court yard exposing a beautiful pattern of swirling coloured pebbles, he is crying with joy as he dose it and is telling me that the stones were originally laid by one of his great great grandfathers. 

As I wake, I'm back in the dream with the black serpent-dragon  we still have our foreheads touching, I embrace it so our hearts are touching, and this sends me into a second dream.

This dream starts in a building...  in the building there is a beautiful unfamiliar woman she's got dark hair and eyes and rich soft skin, she has children with her..... 3, she was also one of 3.   Her family is estranged..     The father is missing but he's due back soon, I make them all cups of tea and leave them to talk.    Outside the room they were in is a magical world, I have no body and am flying round watching, it's a coast line with clouds rolling in.  It's like watching a film set but the story is being told with clouds, light, weather and nature... it's amazing to watch. 

Dream Hub & More Toilets!

First I'm dreaming of the 3D flower of life pattern it's huge...   the centre of each flower were it interlocks with the other bubbles is a heart.  It's a bit like VR  I'm inside the magic grid all & small.

Awsome dream. 

The setting is a wired hub, like an astral bus station or something also feels like a city in that it's a meeting place.

It's both organic and synthetic the floor is like the circuit board from the hive collective dream.  It's very modern, flashing signs and lifts made of soft grey material, it feels like it's in space it's open.
In it is my partner and another male and me, there is another female there but not present, she's a 'mother archetype' the main people are partner, me and this male... he's supposed to be American but sounds Scottish and I think he's called Schultz.  

We have met to 'watch a film' although it's nothing like watching a film at all, it's like having a brain shower or something :P
It's about messages from beyond the grave.   Our consciousness all join in this place for a info-feast, it's amazing it's really funny and very emotional we all laugh and cry together... there is lots of understanding and love.  After the film we talk and share we learn together.  My partner has made amazing spheres and layers of glass are working with negative space  - but they are information too.  People start popping in that we have experienced in life..  they are showing my partner how they are him too  one that I remember is 2 females, one is an old partner of his and another is a female fox hunter...    The 3 of them talk about karma / quantum entanglement. 

We are having a meeting of minds for a meeting of hearts.   I seem to be getting more and more lucid... and a little awake... but can maintain awareness of the dream hub and my life, I'm aware I can 'Ask Questions' in this place and that I'll know/learn or be shown the answers...  I duno what to ask though!
So I ask, show me :)
I leave the hub....  and I experience layers of 'real'  threw manifestations threw fields of light.... stuff I have no way of describing or making sense of while awake! lol  I'm vast...   spreading out and out.


When I wake it's that wired feeling of realising your way to huge for your body and you can only take a titchy bit back in to animate 'Andrea' :P  I'm also having an Asthma attach and realise I've been very deep.


Next dream

There is a pantomime, a show.   Also something about a safe with stuff in it, we have access to the key but the people who have the safe don't realise what they are keeping. 
I'm going to take part, it's outside.    There are lots of small horses/pony's there.  I'm riding on a small one with no saddle and bridal but I realise the horse is a bit to small so I get of and walk beside it instead....  I walk to try and find it a saddle.   The dream is set on a long green lawn area, to the sides are huge areas of wilderness that I want to go to...   Part of me goes there but I'm aware that male me doesn't want to go so I also stay in the central green area.

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Next is so so so wired!!  It's a poop race!   I'm watching a wired toilet contraption... it has 4 toilet seats and the bottom is glass O.o   lol
It's rigged up so that the person that poops fastest wins!  There is some poop chutes that the poop slides down to set of buzzers!!

(I'm sure the symbolism will be obvious in this when I get it :P  )   Wonder if it's the same as the DL speeds??

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Next yet another toilet dream... 

I'm in a house asleep in a bed, a strange man walks in and wakes me.  He needs a toilet seat!   I get up and take him to the bathroom and give him the toilet seat??? 

He's happy, he's also asking about some of the stuff in the house...   as he leaves I realise he's forgotten the loo seat he came for so I follow him out of the house with it, he's very grateful. 

Guessing these are linked to the new soul fragment in the bathroom


Sat Dream that I didn't write up.

It was a void experience of being shown time again....  different lay outs (I should have drawn theses when I woke...  it was to do with a planet too...   and the awareness of the planet making a time/info pattern, I could see cross sections threw DNA too something to do with a singularity and a heart...  oh and the DNA was tickly  and hairy :P    After that was a big blue hr glass type thing with energy moving in and threw it. 

A New Soul Hunt, Rainbow Ribbons and yet More Dragons!

Recall is not peak at the moment, I guess it comes and goes.

I defiantly found another soul fragment though!  The dream scape was odd, it was almost like a large viewing platform over a world.   'We' the dream characters seemed to be a mix of species, almost hybridised animal/human forms bird and mammal hybrids from what I can remember.    
Species behaviour seemed to be determined by appetite and diet..... there was a wired tank there were we were growing types of edible moss in high humidity. 

I went to go to a toilet - the bathroom in the dream was really out of place, it was 2 small bright blue rooms connected together no windows (I used to dream about bathrooms lots!)  
Anyway as I walk into first room to go threw to were the toilet is something tugs my hair...   loosens the thing fastening it.    I realise it's a 'ghost'   (This is often how some of the fragments first appear... as ghosts pestering other DC's or indivisible things that slam into me)   I'm aware of the 'presents' of the other 'will'  and I greet it.  It's cautious, so I go to the loo :P   lol  me and the other 'will' regard each other, I think it tried to intimidate me but unsuccessfully it seems as I was happy to go to the loo whilst we contemplated each other. 

I left the bathroom, with the 'will' still in it.  Back in out on the world platform I was asking the others about the 'Ghost' in the bathroom, but no one seemed to know anything about it or had experienced it so I guessed it was there for me.


-  On waking I can see a soul fragment...  I'm not sure that's the right word!  It's part of me that's fragmented for some reason, the fact it's shown up or I've found it means we are ready to come back together.... wonder how long it will take and what it is! :)


Next a black dragon, this time I seemed outside of it rather than being it.   I have no body and am just an observer.  This one had legs rather than a serpent type.   It was an attractive looking creature in it's own way :)   I think it was sleeping.

Then in contrast to the black dragon the next dream was rainbow ribbons, and Triad me :)

In the dream I'm standing at a bus stop with an elderly lady, I notice she has a ribbon in her pocket and I start to pull it out, then another pokes out from her shirt so I tug out that.... then i spot more and more of them! 
We laugh as I pull all these colourful ribbons from places in her body and I realise she's an older me at that point not to be put out a younger male me appears (he's in the roll of 8 year old male school friend)  He grins takes some ribbons of my and starts to poke them threw his stomach into his body! 

Me and the older woman laugh and conclude that the male mind is wired :)

I pulled another card this morning too.  5 of crystals this time... SO I've had same card 2 times which was a Four, then Fives in 2 different Suits.   So seems the Elements are still playing too :)











----   Musings! Just after I finished this the phrase 'Fools rush in where angels fear to tread'  popped into my head.

The fool!   The seeker! Angles/Angles...  One int he same?  Angels/Dragons? The Yin-Yang perhaps.

I was wondering if anyone else considered it that way round and then found the lyrics for

Jokerman by Bob Dylan!  :D

Standing on the waters casting your bread
While the eyes of the idol with the iron head are glowing
Distant ships sailing into the mist,
You were born with a snake in both of your fists while a hurricane was blowing
Freedom just around the corner for you
But with the truth so far off, what good will it do?
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
So swiftly the sun sets in the sky,
You rise up and say goodbye to no one
Fools rush in where angels fear to tread,
Both of their futures, so full of dread, you don't show why
Shedding off one more layer of skin,
Keeping one step ahead of the persecutor within
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
You're a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds,
Manipulator of crowds, you're a dream twister
You're going to Sodom and Gomorrah
But what do you care? Ain't nobody there would want to marry your sister
Friend to the martyr, a friend to the woman of shame,
You look into the fiery furnace, see the rich man without any name
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
Well, the Book of Leviticus and Deuteronomy,
The law of the jungle and the sea are your only teachers
In the smoke of the twilight on a milk-white steed,
Michelangelo indeed could've carved out your features
Resting in the fields, far from the turbulent space,
Half asleep near the stars with a small dog licking your face
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
Well, the rifleman's stalking the sick and the lame,
Preacherman seeks the same, who'll get there first is uncertain
Nightsticks and water cannons, tear gas, padlocks,
Molotov cocktails and rocks behind every curtain,
False-hearted judges dying in the webs that they spin,
Only a matter of time 'til night comes steppin' in
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman
It's a shadowy world, skies are slippery gray,
A woman just gave birth to a prince today and dressed him in scarlet
He'll put the priest in his pocket, put the blade to the heat,
Take the motherless children off the street
And place them at the feet of a harlot
Oh, Jokerman, you know what he wants,
Oh, Jokerman, you don't show any response
Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune,
Bird fly high by the light of the moon,
Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman

Songwriters: Bob Dylan
Jokerman lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

More Dragons and Dream Sharing.

First an experience last night with cards.
I pulled one before sleep.
The 4 of Hearts or Cups.
I looked at the image first as I do.   4 is the number I see as creation/illusion/reality
It's the first thing with 4 points (dots) that can be flat or a shape...   It can be a pyramid,  flat like a square or it can be tolled like a tube!

It's a solid yet flexible number :D  It's a water card so is dealing with emotion...  Hummm but then water in my dreams is also Unity.    A drop, or an ocean small or all.

In the card the 'One' is separated from the 'Three'  No an individual not trinity connected to the whole?

I'd looked at the book meaning of this card and it didn't resonate... so I reshuffled the deck really well fanned it and picked a card   and lol    Same card!   *High Five Universe*   So this morning I'm contemplating the traditional image for this card, also the 3 and 1 and the contemplation (Buddha under Bodhi tree)



Sooo!  Interesting, as I don't feel my heart is broken in fact I feel full of love :D    I doo feel I've been working with Earth though... so prehaps it's time to let emotion into the party too...   Oh, could the 4 be the Elements again?    Hummm,  Yes I think, I've worked with mind...  spirit and earth (see tonight's dream) so next is water!  Oh... the crying under the tree this morning!   O.o   *giggles*   Ok, it was the right card after all!

So 2 Dreams.   

First is a Dragon dream  I'm not sure if this would have happened anyway or if this was brought on by contemplating trying the 'Earth Dragon' meditation as a dream.


Mid way threw the night I took the form of a long black serpent dragon wrapped round the world,   I climbed into it and kept swallowing my tail until I kinda of rolled myself inside out (like a rubber tube) shedding a dead grey layer of triangular scales & skin as I did...
This was a wired sensation.


(It's not the first time I've had a dream like this but I've never sheded scales before)   I also often dream of being a tube/tunnel

I felt very 'heavy' on waking (This could of been cause I also accidentally dream shared with daughter though)

I've been for a long walk and sit under special tree, and felt some energy shift in me and work up.   So feeling awake again now less heavy and more like I'm in the land of the living :)  

This was what I mentioned above,  I felt really 'heavy and sleepy on waking'  Like I couldn't wake up properly so went for a walk to  I was sitting with soul tree this morning it was beautiful and the sun was just peeping from round a tree opposite.  It was so beautiful and I felt so happy there...   I felt an 'energy shift'  lower left stomach and work it's way up & out I was crying a bit just cause the morning was so beautifully perfect :)   After this I felt much more awake.

Ooo, it's afternoon now I just pulled another card...  5 Swords, So if the cards were going round the medicine wheel Elements. , that fits with what would come after 4 cups!   

So my other dream was the dream share one.

It was wired, for some reason we were getting rid of Fay (Eldest daughter) I don't know why..   the dream was wired, anyway I'd suddenly realised that we couldn't get rid of Fay and I had to do something about it.... a woman was coming to collect her.

As I got down stairs, the first thing Fay said to me was 'Mummy! You were in my dream,  I wasn't wanted and was being sent away......   but you were on my side! '


O.o  

Dreaming Sharing with Others, a Pattern and a Dome.

I'm dreaming of dreaming....   my awareness was split between several layers of reality/waking/dreaming

I'm with others and we are learning dream sharing.  

In the 1st dream in,  I'm in a bed with some others, there are 4 or 5 of us, it's dark and I'm holding hands with the dreamer next to me as we all sleep into the 2nd dream in (We have no forms in the 2nd dream)

We are aware of both dreams too, part of our awareness is in the shared dream scape world and part is aware in the dream in which are our body's are asleep dreaming together.

(I'm also 'sleeping' very lightly as I keep waking to take notes and write them on the dream pad in the dark, I can easily re-enter the dream's in fact I think I might be aware of them still slightly while awake and taking notes.)

We all seem to be quite new to this, it's very good fun though and we are learning together.   

Non of us can quite get a handle on who's doing what :P   and we can't work out how to turn the lights on so it's quite dark in the dream :D 

The dream scape we are sharing is a void type 'sand box'

The kind of void that you manifest stuff in with your mind.
It felt like experimental team work, we working together to try and sort ourselves out and make something work.

In the dark dream space we have drempt up a kind of track... it's shaped like a figure of 8 I think, it's black and magnetic...  we have a small 'vehicle' (It's more of a hovering container)  It can travel round the shape, it's held in place magnetically and can trace the inside and outside of the infinity shaped track easily and quickly.

I was aware that we were trying to 're-invent the wheel'  lol :P

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Next was wired,  or weirder ;) 
I'd moved out of the dream 'structure' so I was outside it looking into the dream void.    The dream was contained in a kind of web that looked like an interference pattern.  It's  larger like a dome and the holes have fallen away leaving a lattice type energy.


I think we all might be outside now.....  we are playing with what can best be described as 'puppets on strings'  On the outside of the dome shadows dance.

I remember at one point wondering if the dome was my skull...   I also recall that it was 'stereoscopic' 


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Thoughts on this dream, I'm wondering if the 'people' I'm with are the Elements again?   (Hummm  I'm going to say yes, as everything in my reality just 'swivelled'  a bit...   lol  -  It's like everything around me spins slightly, it happens when I get more lucid in life) 

They were the ones trying to lay down together in last nights dream I was telling them it was ok to touch.. 
So I'm now wondering if this is my 'team'  that I work with in dreams...   I often am aware I'm working with a small group...   Fire is the only one I regularly meet and talk to at the moment, the others I'm aware of but I never see there faces or remember talking to them.... just that they are with me, Oh actually the moon crone that's earth.   I wonder if the animals are Archetypes or elements?