Emma, a Bedroom and a Game on Stairs.

The night before last I was dreaming of a white canvas tent,   it was 2 domes with a  tunnel between...  one dome was open, the other divided into 3 bunks. 
My first dream last night followed on from this, I was set in the same place.... but it was to do with linking and patterns...   It felt like patterns and weaving a dream one colour at a time.

Next part of a dream I remember is a bakery deli I was being shown round by a European guy there were massive of ovens, new ranges next to ancient cast iron stoves...     I'd put on a wired white hooded robe, and because I was wearing it I was being taken to have the future read by someone??   The deli kitchen was full of cheese too!

Next 2 dreams have in an old school friend - she was my best friend and in the dream we are both as we were at 8 years old.  The first dream she has a large tall house, up in the attic is a bedroom, with amazing old-fashioned windows.    It's supposed to be her bedroom, but she is afraid to go there because of a ghost so she wants her elderly grandmother to have this attic room...      I explain to her that her grandma can't manage the stairs up to the loft, she struggles with the bathroom on the second floor...  I offer to stay with her and sleep there so she's not alone and afraid. 
She feels bad for her grandma so agrees, I bring other friends too we are all around 8 years old....  the attic is really large, and my friend Emma has a white wrote iron bed with patchwork quilt.  She sits in the bed but is happier and not afraid now that she has friends, I can see the ghost is linked to something, I think it was a bit of meat that was to feed to a cat. 

The next dream is in a similar tall Victorian house there is a central squared off spiral stair well, it's very big going up and down...    It's boarded by hand turned banisters and handrail with elaborate newele posts at each corner.  On the floor is a reddish wool carpet. 

Me and Emma are competing in a game/challenge it's taking place on the wide stair case... there are lights fitted to the side of each flight..   2 red lights at each side and a buzzer in the middle, we need to both complete obstical courses on each flight to turn our lights green..   (we worked all this out by experimenting)    The courses are set into 3...  So first it's 3 flights down.. we need to avoid coloured foam fish that have been placed increasingly closer together.   After than there is 3 flights up, where things are hidden and we need to find and collect them.    The same friends are there from the bedroom dream....  there is also something about food rationing, we have small bags of rice rations. 

Diffrent factions & Goverment Intervention.

Sundays dreams...

My recall wasn't good lastnight  -  In one dream Chelsea was with me though... and the pope!   There was an alien 'war' going on... but both sides were the same  - they had been mind controlled / confused into aligning with different factions but were basically fighting with each-other.    It was a hummm top down dream were I was observing from way above. 

Which is similar in some ways to the dream where we went in to rescue someone but they didn't recognise us, so we just went along with playing the roll of there enemy so we could get them out. 

There was also 3 & 4 leaf clover in one dream.

Last night.

First dream was a little hazy.... again it had a fire in it, I was lighting it I was chatting with people, I knew 'names' I shouldn't be able to know?  We were nearly ready to leave/go.

Next dream was similar but this time about forgotten words and codes... there was echo's too... I felt like I was jiggying stuff in my brain :P   Oh..... I also had a small red and black snake, it was nice but a bit freaky... in the dream it kinda exploded into 3 bits, it was icky!    I was also cleaning out a large toolkit for someone. 


- Last dream,

This was in my main dreamscape.

I grew up in a 'council estate'  So it was new build social hosing rented cheep from the government...  It was 'out' house in terms of you can decorate do what you want with it.   It was a big thing in the 70's in the UK... I was the first baby to move into the estate at 1 month old as it was being finished when I was born.  Priority was given to family's with kids so it was a fun place to grow up with lots and lots of kids!    Sooo In my dream last-night it was being renovated the dream was about the estate and not my house (So hummm my totality rather than my personality meby?) 

The whole estate had been flattened and was being rebuilt and modernised..   It was wired, as it was being rebuilt much more communally & ethically .. so we shared heating and energy.   There were fetchers like a laundry who provided washable nappy's professionally laundered to the houses that needed them... the dirtys were collected to be washed and seteralised to be reissued.    There was also shared communication and lots and lots of TV sets everywhere even outside on the buildings.   There was something a bit 'big brother' about it, but lots of care had been put into stuff to make it 'work'

In the dream is this larger than life red haired woman called 'Kathy'  she's humm  like a barmaid from East london a strong cockney accent and very direct.   I was chatting to her about nappies I was using as I was allready using washables...  she was explaining that it was good I was doing that, but the program wouldn't allow for return of the same nappies (mine were patterned)    There was a distinct lack of individualism.  I also had a young female friend in the dream who was pregnant.

Darth V, Snowballs and partys.

First dream 1.30 was about nested reality's like layers of onion.

Second 2.30 I woke myself up laughing. 

The dream had a party atmosphere I had a big caravan and was holding a party, people from allover Europe were there.  Darth vader too (he was my Dad!)  he was a bit creepy and moody but was there cause he was my father.    The party spills out onto the street, we are on the outskirts of a city.   There is a big frozen lake and snow and we are skating and throwing snowballs... lots of kids there too.  

An ambulance arrives and we part ways to let it threw then keep playing, I wake up laughing when a snowball hits me in the face and goes down my clothes. 

Third dream.

Christmas party...  Dom x-partner is there, our GP Dr P (who in the dream is estranged from his wife and kids) Steve too.   The party is wired and kinda awkward no-one has much in common.   Leaving Steve gives me a lift... his car is wired 50's American but inside it's futuristic and it's self drive... also steering wheel is in the wrong place for the UK.   We are coming from the north into my main dreamscape   there is an amazing sunset (but the sun is setting in the east not west)   The sea is calm and is full of swan boats and gondelers with lanterns floating on the sea and in the boats
it's very romantic.     He wants to take Suzie so I offer to have the kids and take them all to the beach.  
At the beach I find a woman who's breeding bitch has been stolen and she's appealing for the person to took it to take good care of it. 

Connecting Tracks, Violent and Mass Death.

I had a completely different type of dream last night in some ways in others (3rd person and manipulating time) was similar.
I think I must have integrated that male aspect as all the DC's were men.      This was the last dream of the night.

It's set in modern-futuristic   I'm observing 3 men, tall hansom ruthless.  The city is very modern and the 3 men are part of a faction who are 'wanted' by the establishment.    One of the men had gone undercover but had been found out and had been torchered and interrogated and the 2 others were looking to release him.

It's more like watching a film from inside the TV...  I can go first person into any of the characters or observe them from above.   

The guy who'd being kept prisoner is a wreck, he's been totally broken and doesn't recognise us as we come to collect him.   The only way to get him to comply is to beat him up more and pretend we are the establishment too.  He's so used to being controlled this is the easiest way to get him to the safety of our faction again. 

He follows our commands as we lead him out of the building  (The other 2 guys are disguised too)     At the exit there is a shooting and fighting but we break into another building and leave that way.       They whole area is cordend with road blocks and security checks and everyone is looking for the 3 but they get out of it and back into the city. 

Next I flick thew this dream... like the pages in a book, I can flick back and forth (this is familiar I sometimes do it when I dream of a life/world game ending)    I stop at a scene with 2 men sitting on dirty red sofa in a smoky room, then flick a bit to where they have been shot multiple times the blood is pooled round the bottom of the sofa congealing.    I flick forward again to a city were something has gone badly wrong millions of people are dieing at once....   they are all out in the streets and dieng in agony  possibly chemical gas as they are all on the ground fighting for there lives with no obvious wounds. 
I watch them die and the moment their energy/souls start leaving there bodies...    I flick back and forth a bit here it's gruesome but I'm watching there souls leave then flicking it back and watching itover and over.   
I leave that and end in another dream with an Aunty who's dieing, (in the dream she is well) her freezer is leaking and I'm measuring to get it a new draw!

---  I realise this is the male 'devil' archetype and also same person as this bus dream. 


The first dream was wired...  Hazy (again it was cloudy) 

I was lost and I couldn't remember stuff I was being helped by the other DC's....  they were all being really nice :D

Another vague memory is of being in a class room...  a train-track is laid out round the outside it's all separated though and I'm with male me and a class of others.  We are connecting the tracks so that the small steam engine can move again.  They have lots and lots of separate boilers.

Ewoks Reality Bombs and a Clock Tower

First dream before 1am was wired...   a plastic world and I'm planting a plastic forest.  Sucking things up with a black plastic hose. 

Next dream..

A game in a world with multiple species...  I'm part of their family's.  I change form dependant on who I'm with... sometimes I'm formless.   The main ones I recall are Ewoks we are small and furry and upright like teddy-bears.  (The teddy-bear avitar from Sundays dream perhaps?)
They live in what is like a cross between snow and a desert..  it's barren and cold, but overcast and there home is a bender built into hill side, the front is open and it's covered with old thick coloured fabrics...   lots of bits and bobs of tat inside and hanging from the supports. 
The living area spills out of the front onto the sandy ground, the floor is dirty coloured matting. 

There is a mother type Ewok and I'm one of her offspring too I'm visiting and it's good to see her again... we hug alot (it's furry :P)     She tells me 'To linger in our home is to perish with neither sustenance or light' she sends me away with a gift and a mission.   She goes to find the gift from the tat at the back of the bender.

The gift is a bottle of sterile saline the kind for infections inside is a hamster in clothing.   It's floating like a specimen in formalin.   I put it in my pocket and wish them good bye.... they tell me to return when the clock is at 6.   
I walk away from the camp and to a coastal bay,  on the shore hares and badgers appear running to greet me.  I smile and stroke them.

The bay is small and surrounded by rocks, underfoot is shingle and small pebbles.   I wade out into the water until it's up to my calves (not deep cause I'm short and furry) 
The water is full of starfish with trailing tendrils from their 5 points, the tendrils contain a psychoactive substance that causes hallucinations...   I can see my vision fragmenting into coloured fractals --(at this point a local friend appears on the shore and says you need to come out your getting stung) but I grin and go deeper into the trance. 

As the trance and hallucinations fade I'm in another world with another family, setting is a dark building this time tall green skinned orc like (not dissimilar to the Bogart I was a week or so ago)  the are bulkier though and taller and green very familiar.  It's great to see them again, I'm in a wispy form with no actually body.   They give me a 'reality bomb'   (I know these from many other dreams :P there fun!)   I've only been subjected to them landing on me, but this time I'm being given one to set off! :D      I'm instructed to use it in a town/city for maximum effect.   They show me a clock and tell me to return when the pointers are at 12.


I wake with the message  'The 'future' will be here in a second'  which makes me laugh.    

I bobble in and out of HH's for a bit...  there is an 70's looking school in Russia.  It's very basic, the floor is blue and I'm being asked what disinfectant to use to clean it.... It gets more dream like and one of my green orc friends appears to say goodbye.   Next 2 men come in wearing only thin black tights and start Cossak dancing I watch then cheer, we talk about communism and politics for a bit then left and right duality and balance...    There is a game of 'before time began.. and elder races'   I woke myself back up here coughing.

Last dream.

Another game....  this one starts with us entering the dreamscape from the front.    Like dolls placed into a toy town, me and male me split as we enter.    We have a potato man too he's at the top and is like a life bar!   Every time we fuck up the potato man gets kicked, beaten up, abused or eaten, it's game over when he's mashed.
Me and male me go separate ways the dream is split so I'm seeing where he's going and where I'm going like an overlay, but I'm also looking at scene as if I'm outside it looking at us both as dolls.

The dreamscape is like a town there is a path going up and one going down, male me sets of up and me down.   He's walking a path between neat houses with gardens and hedges going up and up.    I'm heading down into a harbour waterfront area of a seedy town.  It's rundown dirty there are grubby shops tattoo parlours, take-aways, taverns and cheep shows.... it's like a old fishing town turned tacky seaside town.  
I lose the vision of male me and potato man and get absorbed into the dream. 

I take a job as a make-up artist doing stage make-up for a drag type show.  
My ward/employer is the 'dwarf character I asked to marry me, I 'know' him by his black eyes and he 'knows' me...   but we stay in character for the sake of the game...    In the dream he's tall dark and sleazy he clearly fancy's me - I let him know it's not happening but when I put on his make up looking in his eyes is intense - and there is an obvious attraction but not the current game body.    Near the end of his life (he smashed his spud early on) I'm putting blue face paint onto him, the flirting becomes more intense.     He dies on stage. 

Out of work I leave the waterfront area and head towards the area where I know male me is.  It's a long way up and as I follow his trail it's lined with white fluffy feathery clouds...  the game world becomes dark and as I get higher I realise I'm moving threw dream layers and becoming more lucid...

I find male me outside of what is an epic looking building, its hyper real and almost cartoon like.  

It's like a mix between a church/clock tower/night club.   There is coloured flashing lights at the tall arched windows and banging techno, the building is black bricks with purple woodwork and the tower is huge going way way up in the air.  
It's set in a large area of grass like a neatly kept garden, and the building is lit from the grass by up-lights so it glows in against the blackness of the night.
I walk towards male me who's white and fluffy/feathery looking like the trail he's leaving... he kinda glows a bit -  too he shouts to me 'Did you get us killed then?'    Before I get close to him the door to the building opens and out walks the black eye guy in his new body!

He's an upright pirate dog, ginger furr and peg leg, a black hat with a purple feather poking out of it and a patch over one of his black eyes.  I laugh out loud when I see him he grins his dog grin and growls 'I knew, you'd come!' 
He picks me up in a cradle hold and carries me over the threshold like a bride  into the creepy-party building.   Male me kinda rolls his eyes and follows us in.   

Inside is also hyper real, there is a raised dance floor, lasers a long bar against one wall.
I'm plonked on my feet as black eye guy sweeps his hand round and gestures to the room.... he leads me to the dance floor introduces me to 2 females dancing and heads of again.    The dance-floor glows and the building is way bigger inside that out, it's hard to make out the purple arched rafters way above,  one of the women I chat to is a business type woman (it could possible be the same one I killed in a dream a while back)  Another female is intoxicated on the laying on the dance floor.  

Dog-guy appears around and wants to show me round, I tell him 'fuck of I'm dancing' but he's amendment.. so we float up to the celling.   We are up in the rafters, below the clock tower... above us the tower goes on and on, and below us is a hole too the same square shape it's impossible to see an end to either.

I tell him I know what this place is, it's the same as the 3 prisons side by side in this dream I had... It was a prison full of drugs, sex, games..  I flash a picture of it into his mind, then I show him the security around the buildings we are in.    He laughs, and flashes a picture into my mind of large red beds on a loft landing overlooking the dance floor and tells me 'We can fuck here too'    I laugh and  tell him 'Perhaps, you have to catch me first though'   
I drop, free-fall like a stone down the hole.... he laughs and follows...   we free fall for ages picking up more and more speed I let myself dissipate into a smokey form.. he copy's and we mix neither of us solid... just black shadowy smoke we pull up short of some lava at the bottom of the tower and start to fly up again, twisting in round each-other like a spiral whirlwind   - So fast, as we fly threw the church/rave we start to dematerialise that too so its falling away into nothingness    finally all that is left is the outline/skeleton of a massive clock and below it the outlines of cogs and a giant swinging pendulum 

I wake up. 


 I had a wired card experience later that day in the evening.   I felt like I should pull a card before bed, as I was shuffling I was thinking about Aleister Crowley  (It was to do with what the LLO books say about him over identifying with 'The Beast' archetype ect.   Anyway, I was thinking about the darker male aspect I've been working with over the winter as he's the 'devil' archetype in some ways   (

Last nights dreams was these 2 cards together.......   The clock tower in the dream too was also 'The Tower' card.   Which follows the Devil card.   The devil aspect was a dog rather than a goat but his was the animalistic side of desire.

Low and behold out of the 52 cards..  I felt I should pull 2 next to eachother.  One was 'The Devil'  only in my cards it's 'The big bad Wolf'   

Anyhoooo  It was really bang on, how threw integrating and accepting our darkest aspects is an important step on the path to love....  :)   and another reminder that I dream my self threw the hero's journey threw the archetypes each time a little deeper than the last!

Mountain-top Flight and Hybrid School.

First dream was around 1am

Setting was on the side of a small but steep mountain on a lovely day, there was an old school 80's bus parked on a track up to it and lots of people around.  Their guides too it was a busy mountain!    I was flying in the sky and trying to get others to join me. 

Some people wouldn't get of the bus, others were talking with their guides, some were clinging to the rocks terrified and I was chucking myself of the mountain and zooming around. 
I went into the bus to try and get some of the other DC's out and I broke the skylight open for them a few followed me onto the roof to try and fly I was showing them I could so they understood they could too and a few joined me in the sky.    I was also helping the guides too I think, I rememberer sitting with someone and manipulating time showing them 6months either way of their 'now'  depending on what they do 'now'.  I was talking with a guy who was concerned about 'protecting his investment' as something that looked good was now shakier.  I was scrolling time back to 6mths... then forward 6months so we could view 'past' and 'future' 

Second & 3rd dreams were also like school field trips.. 

In one we are in a large group on a big night walk around cliff tops.... we are a large mix of species, humans and reptiles and all kids of variations & hybrids.  We are testing who we can get on with and who we don't.    3rd dream was hazy, the main bit I recall was that we had 'consciousness' in a perti dishes  and were examining it :P

Game Dreams.

Sunday nights dreams were odd.

I had dreams about being 'Me' in this life which is quite rare... 

In one....  I met 2 elderly relatives that I love like parents..  It had been there 60th wedding anniversary end of last week and I'd been really upset that I didn't get to meet them (or see them much now cause I'm 100's of miles away)   
In the dream I was in my yoga class and someone who looked like a young version of my Aunty Betty walked past the door... I excused myself from the class to go look.   Outside my elderly relatives Aunty Sheila and Uncle Eric were sitting in at a table, I rushed up to hug them and congratulate them.... It was so real. 

It felt like I'd met them all in astral :heart:

In another me and Ian were in bed... he'd woken me up as he'd read a live report about an alien invasion in a place called 'point pier' in Durban   (I'd had a dream before this about swimming in the sea in Australia)   we were looking at his ipad at a google earth type of map and had zoomed right in.

There were police launches and then we saw a lots of 'alien's' coming out of the water.  Long limbs glowing... with green bobbly brains.     We were totally transfixed then the channel cut out with a government screen-saver message and we looked at each other thinking...  'wow, did we just watch that?' 

In another lucid dream I was face to face with a cartoon horse/dragon..    I was very lucid and was challenging it.....    It was odd we were trying to deconstruct each-other??

Last-nights dreams.

Set in a cottage in a forest it's windy and rainy outside but we have the windows open, we are around 4 people and packing up to leave and sorting things into box's   -  I know I'm in a world in a game... and that it's also a book - we all have wired amount of eyes... some one and some 3.    I have the book, it's already written I've not got to the chapter called 'Ren' yet but it's not far.  I'm trying to decide if I should read first or play first but I don't want spoilers!    Both seem to go together so I decide I will play a bit then read a bit then play a bit.... the book is like a fairytale.   There is a fairy-god mother among the archetypes.    I'm keeping 2 small fires burning one in each of the 2 downstairs rooms, a friend Angus has just arrived out of the cold and I'm banking what looks like an old bread oven with a metal door...   I leave it open to let the heat into the room and another friend makes up a bed for Angus to rest in.    The fire in the other room is just on the floor, not even a grate or anything.   As I wake I have a wired thing...  I was ment to pick pick an avatar for something there was 2 choices but I thought of 'Teddy-bear' instead. I wake with 'first teddy Avitar' in my head :P

I felt wired when I woke and meditated a bit....  my crown and feet were buzzing and tingling, it was not unpleasant at all and I chilled out and went back to sleep. 

Next was visions no body... it was like watching being clouds interacting, dark ones and light ones.... It was like being in something balancing...  like if you poured hot black water into cold white water, I was swirling to reach balance.  

Last dream,

I'm in a futuristic grey metal city...  people are looking for each-other, there is a glowing temple hidden in a kinda multi-story car-park thingy.   It's made to look like something else like a fast food restaurant but some of us know what it is.   I can get in and out of it but we are not supposed to.... It recognises me and I can pass all the security, the floor is covered in orange dry fallen leaves   but there are no trees anywhere in the city.

I'm called for a meeting in a big building, it's full of work stations and classrooms.   At the desks things are being built geometric shapes mainly out of magnetic things.   I don't walk I float a foot or so above the ground... I'm talking telepathicly with the person I'm going to meet, I'm admiring the deep green carpet...  (it connects everyone and everything in the building to one network)   (In the dream I know this is like the hidden circuitry in this dream - When I reach the meeting it's with a guy I know, he is in the control room of this building I'm looking at the feed from the carpet. 


-  Hummm, Part of my thinks these dreams are influenced by reading 'The Game series' but my intuition is strongly telling me my dreams came first.....   I was chatting to friend this morning about body stasis dream I had months before reading the game books.  I realised chatting to her that the energy flow in last nights meditation matched the upside down triangle thingy from this body storage dream.