Sunday, 7 August 2022

Mansion and Cafe

 

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What is it the collective taps into Inka? 

 

'Collective Ren or the maladaptives'  wtf dose that mean?   'Look it up bitch'

 

OK...   but there is the fact we likly do not want to adpt to stupid conventions

 

'I didn't ask what you wanted'

 

OK.  sorry.  'Think carefully what you are asking Ren'   lol I can't help myself hu?

 

'No bitch you can't and I promised to help'

 

Thanks.. 

 

Kk... I suppose I do know what it's like hearing voices and experiencing stuff others don't :P

Inka...'I know Ren'  meby in dream?

'We'll see' 

 

I did i polarised negative 'no Ren'  you just told me I'd never been here before

'What is here?'  Now?  

'Close enough'

 

'Our relationship has changed Ren, we have both grown'   mmmmm

'Just let me help you for now then?'

Kk thanks

 

Hummmm 🤔   'Ren, I will show you. 

I have shown you.  I can tell you the last thing you need right now is to explore the mind of a psychopath'   and...

'That makes you want to do it more'

Wow..thanks what was that

'Me sitting on you'

OK thanks

'Chill Ren'  kk

 

First dream was of a huge mansion, a house or hotel.  It had belonged to a famous writer my Dad was in the dream with me, but we were to pretend we didn't know each other.

Someone took me to a shop too.  It was the most expensive shop I've ever been in one kids toy operating table cost 2million.  It was sewn with soft fabric and had toy fabric instruments.

What's with these operating tables?  'You should have asked me last night'  

I know I'm sleepy atm...  'You like experimenting on your self Ren' 

Mmmmm  'Keep dreaming for the moment, it will fit into a pattern later'   Ok.

 

Next dream was a beach resort, a busy beach with a cafe, miss matched tables and chairs.  I'd gone to wait for a friend who was working there alone and started to help by filling the dishwasher.
The plates are the segmented ones you get in canteens in schools and prisons. 

While I was doing it my friend. Marie (middle me) told me It was my shift now. 

A guy would be along to help me.

 

The guy was young and blond.... The cafe was way to big and busy for just 2 staff but the customers didn't seem in any kind of hurry.

 

Each table had it's own order pad and each was different.  I found a lady an order pad and then went to take an order from a table outside that was so big I had to fly up to it to be at the right height.   They were taking ages to decide what they wanted and the order pads were all filled with writing all ready.   I'd found a clean ish page and was keeping tally of the teas.  

They had ordered 2 teas, a mango and guava squash 1/2 pint of beer but there was still many more people at the table to order.  

Another woman wanted cake and I showed her were to go look at the selection of home baked stuff.

 

Last dream I'd been doing something in my main dream area.  Looking for a kind of paste that was needed for a magic trick/demonstration.   I pulled a thin strip of parcel tape out of my nose.
Mathew was in the dream again and Zak.  Zak had had a dream about him going missing.

We'd taken a bus ride inland slightly... The coach was old and strange on the way out I'd been looking at giant animals in the countryside.  

We reach a storage shed were I'm still looking for the same paste but Judith is there too.

Mathews mam.. She asks us if we know where he is, as he went on a bike ride and they'd not herd from him. 

Zak did... He'd drempt it, a house in Asia that he'd going into with a gate and a glass chandelier.

He was being heled there.
On the coach on the way home workmen were storing tools under the coach seats.

Women and children were getting on and police stopped the bus to question one woman.

She refused to get off and phone call from her husband seemed to placate the police officer who got back of this odd bus.   It was red inside with red velvet seats. 

Pressure Ballance


 

Half my brain an attack like cartoon ants.  Only half going for it.

Making orange ice lolly's... Heavily pregnant.

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Rest of the dreams all continued from this one.   I had a group of kids I was looking after one way young but old at the same time and he'd got annoyed with me for making him wait while I was changing his nappy.

He was so annoyed he ran off.... 4 kids in total but only 1 was mine.  A mix of ages.

The setting was a massive mal/hub city thing. 

I was hunting all-over for them.

The lower section had a station with large square shape pale blue trains. 

It turned into Zak being the kid who'd run off and I eventually found him but he's lost all the other kids.

I was trying to report them as missing while hunting as their parents needed to know.

-Stitch up at Easter..  Cross stitch  - Kings Cross? 

 

I go back into the same dream, this time it's more school like with different sections of the school offering different lessons. 
one house was sawdust on the floor and people flopping about.  I was trying to locate the parents of the missing kids so I could apologise to them.

 

The hunt for kids continued and there was an odd thing almost like fantasy football leagues but with dreamers.  
I'd moved up a league but the people who were in charge didn't want me... It was an elitist type thing as I was from the lower leagues and they couldn't be bothered to train me up to their standard. 
A machine looked medical in nature, or was in a medical room - It balanced steam.  Was pressure balance.
I'd been dreaming all night with Inka and Malico they felt like they were holding me still, was taking it in turns to dream with one then the other.

Last dream was main dream house.  Outside was a huge steam transport hub, pipes and trains and inside was a ghost, or many ghosts.  It's a while since I've had dreams like this.
I couldn't see the entity but it was very powerful. 

I'd been in my brothers room and when I returned it had almost flooded everywhere. 

The room was strange with a bed, and a large window looking out on the transport hub wich is dirty and grey.

The walls of the room have red and blue white boards that were more like computer displays and in the centre of the room is a single old fashioned operating table.

 

It was a pressure and balance dream too  only this wasn't subtle energy it was vast flow and force.  I didn't mind though, i needed to get used to it.  The house also contained painted stuff that looked like it belonged to a travelling show.  Tickets were being issues that were bingo cards but they only had one square each and everyone was guaranteed a win.

 

Thursday, 4 August 2022

Jug of Baby Birds


Inka, I'm the jelly fish...  Caught and dragged by a net of my own making only wanting freedom but stinging and harming as I look for a way out.  'Construct, Ren'  Hummmmm?  'You are more than a jellyfish.  Ok. 

 

 

Wake at 414

Matthew again.   I'd been at a party in my main dream area.   It's crowded and dark, at one point I'd noticed the door way a guy walking in....  He has 3 sets of horns, like spikes on his head.  Not everyone else can see them and he grins at me when I notice them.  The reason they were visible was to do with the light.  

The moon and sun were low and the moon was in front of the sun was it would be for a partial eclipse.   They both looked close but not to bright. 

I'd crashed out at the party and at the end of it wake and bump into Mathew again as I'm leaving.  He's with Duncan and he says to me 'Congratulations on growing up' I say thank you.... And he continues 'growing boring'  I sigh and explain I told him about the medication thing when we last met.  (Monday)  
The dream was following on from then.  I wasn't lucid enough atm and needed to be carful, Duncan was more sympathetic and then a female showed me an image of a brain scan.
I left the party and walk up the dark main street which is filled with market stalls.  Then I feel like I'm in a vehicle going fast... I was aware my parents and bro would be home and I wondered if they would wake up as I had no house key.

Next recall is being pulled from a vehicle, it's tangled in a bush it and 2 other cars have been involved in an accident.   I didn't seem hurt but I didn't recall driving or how I got into a vehicle I did feel it was my responsibility though.  

 

I'd been dreaming with Inka and Malico again.  The dream reminded me of this night I'd gone of alone with Inka and ended up in an alternative version of London where I'd crashed a car and he was mad with me.

He wasn't mad with me, he wanted me to experience remorse and learn from it.... I was dealing with long forgotten emotions and actions.  I was recalling the night I did crash a car, I'd not wanted to take it out as I'd been drinking but some friends of my Bro's drove themselves home and I was stuck there and had to get back.

Next dream is very vivid..  Again at night.  A city London but not as I know it.
There was a large green park it was like Trafalgar square but with a green park.

I'd been carrying a large glass jug with a little bit of water in it when it was suddenly filled with blue tits that had jumped down into it for a drink.

As they flew back out one was left behind.  It was a fledgling with down still all over it and it was to few to fly.   I was holding it in my hand blowing it's feathers and it fell asleep there so I was just holding it.

The square was busy for night.  Homeless people and family's, I'd sat down against a wall and a young male toddler grabbed the head of the bird - I was telling his mother to get his hand off it, but she didn't speak English.  They looked Spanish.... It took her forever to realise he was going to kill the bird if she didn't intervein but she eventually did. 

I stand up upset but the bird seems to still be ok.   I look about for the rest of the flock and they swoop about me landing on a ledge and then more and more baby birds are falling at my feet.
Tiny ones like baby wrens, they can't fly and they are going to get crushed by the people moving around.
I call to people to stand still for a moment but they are distracted by some kind of explosion or shell that went off  on the grass area.

 

After this I'd taken some toy/ attraction train ride to look around, I was wondering how I'd not noticed any explosion but it didn't seem a big deal. 

A glowing mono rail / roller coaster ride was running along side the train.  I could recall having gone on it on another occasion and how it felt.  Now I was on a slower train looking at a larger perspective.  The tracks were close together at parts, the sky filled with glowing gliders.

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Go back into the same dream were I'm now at a house party.  It's a house pink castle of a house along the riverside.  The party is themed rooms with children and adults and has been a bit trashed.  There are people there from all over the world.

It's at the party end and people are crashing on the floor. 
I have a daughter who has cut the back of my clothes at the shoulder and then hit me.  I'd hit her back and then felt bad as I was stronger than I realised. 

 

Wednesday, 3 August 2022

End of a Line

You are a stubborn bitch Ren'  I've had to be, I'm just giving you space.

'You can talk to me you know'  I wish I could hear you more.

'You are cutting your self off as you are afraid of being medicated?'  Oh... Am I?

I'm not sure tbh...  I just got used to how shit it felt to be alone again.

Inka...  'Yeh Ren, I might not always come back in the way you want or need' 

But this?  'Lessons, for the both of you' 

And?  'All'  could you help plx?  'Yes, I can' 

You need to be more clear what you want Ren, you don't change unless you are medicated.

Pffffffffffff I think I need Thursday.  'Tell me what you really need Ren' 

I don't need too.   'You make this shit harder on your self you know?'  

Likely..  

 

Why on your birthday with the node conjunction?   'Timing Bitch' 

I duno Inka ...  'Good, meby you'll be a bit less reckless'

Ok...  'I told you Ren, I have your back... Doesn't hurt to let you drift a bit'

'Idiot' Mmm so can I dream with you tonight?  'As you wish?'  My space?

'k'  Thanks

Crown flow - Nice...  'Be good Ren, I'll help ok'  :)

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'So mouse, what have you found?' 

Myself, then lost it over and over again.

I can feel again... 'Good, as I promised Ren this time I'll help you to behave'

Lol thanks Inka, but you know me! 'It's why I can help you my amusable friend.  We both know what you don't want'

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Compassion feels like straw on a concrete barn floor.... 'Who's compassion Ren?'  I duno, I don't wana be in a barn.

'Come to me at my hub' kk

Hummm I was finding myself in dreams, to work with me here.  All angles.

A busy train, I was a passenger but also helping with the buffet cart serving hot drinks and laundry.

It was a long journey but Hurworth was the end of the line.   I was waiting at the station for the return journey.  Uncle Alan was there, I had a chat with him though I don't recall what about.  I knew he was dead.

Next Inka and Malico were with me in the roundhouse.  The dream I had was a school or guild on a bus... We were moving around but learning as we went. 


We were meditating and one of the group commented they liked to meditate under Saturn and looking up Saturn was visible and much closer white and a similar size to the moon.
It was giving of white light like a full moon.

I was clearing up dog shit...  We'd been at lessons at desks but I was trying to get an achievement instead that involved swimming across a bay and then a jump onto a ledge on a bike. 

Some others were attempting it but they were working as a team with the military watching over them, I was a solo attempt. 

I was confused as the tide timetable seemed incorrect.  The tide that should have been low was high up in the bay.... I'd swam across anyway.

 

 

Tuesday, 2 August 2022

Jumbled Stuff


Lost yet whole.

Probation from my life,

the axe of mental health hanging over my neck.

Fighting my way to the surface again threw the haze of the medicated mental hell.

Scared of my power, scared of my fun.

A gimmped way of living this path I've begone.

Still no space, in my space no still,

I need an area to be and a place to fit in.

 

Argument... - Sell out and blow the lid of something massive. (blocked with milk?)  Something had had to be fool proof and it was now only hanging by a thread.

Ireans house.  There alone, I was waiting for others to come home.   Making bubble and squeak while I waited. 

 

A toddler male.  Asian looking or mixed, in a sleep suit.  I was taking care of him and one nostril, ear and eye were all infected.
I was telling and old guy who was his guardian he needed to get it checked out but I was cleaning and comforting the kid in the meantime. 

A dog with human teeth and a rat having sex with a mouse.

Strange outfits I was trying on.  People had asked me why I bought them but I didn't recall if I had.  The head dresses that went with them were making my head bleed..... Sharp and scratchy like a crown of thorns.

A dark room like a box.  Leon, Malico and my uncle ken.  I was filling the room with experience. 

 

My Dad taking a supplement or medication that was making him sick... I was telling him to stop.

Strange beautiful glass equipment with blue and green water in it.  The water was glowing making beautiful patterns.

The same kid from earlier.. He was older now.  Rude to Christine, I'd asked him not to be.

What was ok with his friends came off rude to people who didn't understand it and I was trying to explain that to him.

A woman in a 'mother care' place was talking to me of charity and increasing need.  Was Durham or that area, they had more and more mothers and kids in need.  

They wanted me to meet their lightworker.

 

An old lady feeding birds.   Lots of seed, she was the one who had taken me to mothercare.
We were looking at a white lurcher dog, it had an ear missing and 3 legs and was covered in cuts.
I was helping to hold it for an injection.   The dog was already covered in stitches were someone else had patched it up.
I was asking if the injection was domitor and the lady said no and gave me another name... So I'd asked instead is it a reversible anaesthetic as the dog was losing consciousness as I held it.  It was.

An Ethiopian tribe, shaman I was being shown a name written down It had alot of s's and I's Their shaman were very long limbed un naturally so and a mix of tribal to modern with futuristic cosplay outfits. 

 

Monday, 1 August 2022

Eye Rings


Dreaming with Malico for recall. 
 

Main dream area, in a house on Mayfeild.  At the bottom.
There was a kind of house party and I was there with Matthew we had got everyone stoned and then unlocked the door and ran off together.
The place we ran to isn't familiar but we passed a group of witches dressed up for Halloween. 

We wen't sure if they were late or early celebrating Halloween but they didn't want us to watch their ceremony so we kept running till we got to another house.
There was a feeling of fun and escape.  We were hugging and I was recalling he was my first friend, I had really clear recall of us playing as toddlers and a toy doll I had called Amanda. 

 

Next dream is a village like you'd see in a kids TV show all painted houses and kitch.   I was entangled with a shop down on the dock, it had been selling tickets for a local cinema but had come under investigation.

2 guys were going down for a while, one for ID theft and the other cigarette smuggling.  It wouldn't be to long, I was going to staff the ticket booth instead.

There was a rave party I was going to as well, my hair was white black and pink curly too.  Looked great I knew the drug seller there he was at a market stall and I was running for him too.

Inka appeared either before or after this dream...

He removed my eyeballs so they were just floating and then put a ring round each of them so they looked like planets.

Then he put them back in and left again.

The dream sort of followed on We had woken from the rave in an old teaching hospital.   It wasn't immediately clear if we were staff or patients.

We had the recall of the rave but not how or why we were in a large medical bay.
Mira was there and jack was male me.  Nicki an old friend too.
It seemed we were staff as a matron type woman had came in and told us to get ready or we'd spend the day scrubbing out incinerators and waste chutes.
I'd gone into the bathroom there surprised that my hair was now all black and when I came back out I was in a different ward. 

It took me a while to orientate but the beds were different and there were way more people in this room getting ready.

I didn't recognise any of them and non of them knew me so I decided to see if my ward was next door.  

Find myself in a large blue and metal corridor with metal double doors but non of the other wards are familiar looking out of a window in a stairwell I see the complex is vast looks more like a giant factory of some kind. 

A room I was exploring was filling with people, many just laying on the red floor and they looked relaxed.  A lecture was going on already in a similar room opposite so I decided to see what it was on and work out what was up.
Sitting down at the back next to a pile of donated food and a group who look like friends I'm approached by someone handing out fruit. 

I took a few of something that looked like overly long yellow grapes but the cat woke me before I got to try them.

Last dream the strange matron woman is still around and I'm now with marie (middle me) I'm in an old fashioned nursing uniform the stiff cotton dress that's overly long and heavy with a more modern black hoody covering it and we are in a northern city.   Leeds I think.

Our base was 2 old fashioned caravans and I'd broken the shower curtain in one...  Only I thought I'd been opening a blind like shutter on a closed up shop.   I'd been doing it with my eyes closed and it had gone wrong.

Marie soaked me with the shower and that annoyed me but she had cleaned out the pink caravan that served as our bathroom.  I'd shoved her into a wall for making me all wet and the matron was keeping and eye on me.

 

Sunday, 31 July 2022

JellyFish


30/7

A building set out like a department store with floors and elevators going between.
Filled with young parents and kids.....  'not making same mistakes'

Vets surgery I was in a full kennel room with more patients too house.

An odd eclectic mix of strange and just bizarre rodents and cats pets and wild animals.
 

Hurworth a family farm house.. Just out of the village and we lived there.  It had hidden rooms at the back, but the lightbulbs had gone.

We were showing people round and I'd decided to go get some more.  3 of us would walk there with a list.
The building was odd at the back was fields with dairy cattle inside a large barn crystals were being made in moulds, by a couple of guys.  Sheila was the only one I recognised but all were family. 
I'd gone to a strange shop for the lightbulbs, old fashioned with everything behind a wooden counter the store owner knew me and was happy for me to help myself.
Oh I'd tried to enter threw the window but he showed me were the door was.

 

A large tarantula and a kitten having a fight.  The spider looked like a soft toy it was paralysing the kitten.
 

Bus journey with a group of females, we were friends and the bus had beds for sleeping. 

'Hold it Ren'   Ok....

Inka...   'Yeh Ren, I know'   OK


It's why I need away from here.....   'And your own space' 

I'm a shaman too  'Obviously bitch' but I duno how to do it?

'We are trying to teach you.....  As you do it' 

Thanks makes me wana cry....  'Do, it will stop you feeling dizzy' 

 

It dose...  'Still'  Yeh.  

 

31/7

Recall is better with an aspect.

'That it is'

So I'll meet you ask you ask. 

First dream were doing a deal that goes wrong.  A young person gives to many shits. 

Again there is a bus driver, herbs too for healing and sleeping. 

It was sort of funny for us who were trying to sort it out.
Things had been blown well out of proportion.

A long phone call with my Dad.  We were just chatting about stuff the phone was odd in that it had 2 handsets and a mouse attached.

 

Very long dream, I'd been looking after a bunch of kids and people and was cooking a meal.

Kelly had left her kids too and her third child way young but large.  He was difficult.

I'd started the meal but we had gone to another venue in the village we were all in.

The venue is busy, some people I know and many I don't. 

 

I go to walk back and realise I duno the way so head back in where I ask some people to wait and walk with me.  I also realise I should take Kellys son back with me. 

I'd been trapped by a male and female in the hall way but I just tickled the female till she let me go.   The vibe at the venue was changing as it got later, groups were forming - political, religious and cultural and some areas were getting kinda seedy. 

 

I knew I was responsible for all this too.. I'd started a ball rolling but it had snowballed fast and was now well out of anyone's hands. 
It was frustrating as I didn't know the name of this tall difficult kid so I wasn't sure how to ask for him.  I just had to look.  I spot him at an arcade machine down a stairwell but by the time I get there he's moved on.  I head threw dark hallways were people have started drinking in some.

 

In some rooms drugs are being used and I'm aware I need to get the kid back to where the meal is ready but he's vanished into the groups of people now.   As I go back into the main room it's now filled with clowns in the same patchwork suits they are holding a rally and don't want me to enter but I shove in anyway ... Wake up here realising Kelly only has 2 kids, that's why I couldn't recall the name of the 3rd.

For that dream Malico had joined me at Ddad's hub and we'd gone into the vr room.

Next dream also long.   A large residential learning place, like a mal hub too.
I'd been lending a swimming costume to someone and also wandering round a shoe vending place.
I was hanging about waiting a consultation appointment I had and so I'd headed back to our room.  Was like a staff room for our crew.. It was messy cupboards and had cats and rodents in.
 

As I'd got there 2 police officers were there.  Not uniforms I recognise but they were law enforcement doing a search.   I realised it was me that was being checked out.   I was guilty of what I was being investigated for.  Drug running I think, but I wasn't worried about them searching as the place was clean.

 

I'd gone in to find there sniffer cat... A huge black puma thing checking out my locker. 
I'd asked if I could get something there were piles of miss matched crockery mainly cups...  I was trying to get one without knocking the others over.

I'd asked to say hello to the cat and it put it's massive paws onto me and was sniffing my mouth.

I wasn't bothered about being under investigation in the slightest. 

Star my cat was there and she was being attacked by a bald rat.  I was trying to work out who'd rat it was and it seemed like it was Em's so I was calling for her to grab it before Star did.  We managed to separate them.

 

Opposite the crew room, that has a large counter like window is a sea.  It's dark over the water and a guy is in a small green rowing boat, following the boat is around 8 seals and his wife is in the water with the seals.

Last dream odd lucid and visual.

We had been clearing out a large dark attic like space with no walls.  

As we had cleaned it the plastic toys that had been in it dissolved into a clear oil.

The oil was flowing out and onto sand below.

The sand is hummm orange and fine,  the sky darkish and the water transparent. 

The oil sinking into the sand.  2 pink and orange jelly fish look like they are flying and I call to Mel who lives close to hear who moves closer to look at them.

They attack her spinning and hitting her with their tentacle's. 

 

I wonder if I can distract them so move closer behind a rock... This bit is very lucid one of them comes over and floats above me it's tentacles hanging down touching my face and scalp.

I was trying to relax into the experience which was really odd cause it was making me trip!


I could tell it was tasting me and my reaction to it.  

 


 

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