End of a Line

You are a stubborn bitch Ren'  I've had to be, I'm just giving you space.

'You can talk to me you know'  I wish I could hear you more.

'You are cutting your self off as you are afraid of being medicated?'  Oh... Am I?

I'm not sure tbh...  I just got used to how shit it felt to be alone again.

Inka...  'Yeh Ren, I might not always come back in the way you want or need' 

But this?  'Lessons, for the both of you' 

And?  'All'  could you help plx?  'Yes, I can' 

You need to be more clear what you want Ren, you don't change unless you are medicated.

Pffffffffffff I think I need Thursday.  'Tell me what you really need Ren' 

I don't need too.   'You make this shit harder on your self you know?'  

Likely..  

 

Why on your birthday with the node conjunction?   'Timing Bitch' 

I duno Inka ...  'Good, meby you'll be a bit less reckless'

Ok...  'I told you Ren, I have your back... Doesn't hurt to let you drift a bit'

'Idiot' Mmm so can I dream with you tonight?  'As you wish?'  My space?

'k'  Thanks

Crown flow - Nice...  'Be good Ren, I'll help ok'  :)

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'So mouse, what have you found?' 

Myself, then lost it over and over again.

I can feel again... 'Good, as I promised Ren this time I'll help you to behave'

Lol thanks Inka, but you know me! 'It's why I can help you my amusable friend.  We both know what you don't want'

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Compassion feels like straw on a concrete barn floor.... 'Who's compassion Ren?'  I duno, I don't wana be in a barn.

'Come to me at my hub' kk

Hummm I was finding myself in dreams, to work with me here.  All angles.

A busy train, I was a passenger but also helping with the buffet cart serving hot drinks and laundry.

It was a long journey but Hurworth was the end of the line.   I was waiting at the station for the return journey.  Uncle Alan was there, I had a chat with him though I don't recall what about.  I knew he was dead.

Next Inka and Malico were with me in the roundhouse.  The dream I had was a school or guild on a bus... We were moving around but learning as we went. 

We were meditating and one of the group commented they liked to meditate under Saturn and looking up Saturn was visible and much closer white and a similar size to the moon.
It was giving of white light like a full moon.

I was clearing up dog shit...  We'd been at lessons at desks but I was trying to get an achievement instead that involved swimming across a bay and then a jump onto a ledge on a bike. 

Some others were attempting it but they were working as a team with the military watching over them, I was a solo attempt. 

I was confused as the tide timetable seemed incorrect.  The tide that should have been low was high up in the bay.... I'd swam across anyway.