Tuesday, 23 February 2021

Mars Jumps over the Moon??


'Ren?' Mmmmmm? 'Interesting Mouse, you are still' I am? 'Yes, focus me, I feel you...  

'I know you can still focus my awareness lol, yeh more effectively than I can write apparently'


What can we d that's fun? 'Bitch?! I know the kind of fun you have in mind' Hahah, I don't wana be mean... just play here 'Fall out?' *Shrug* be ok hu? 'Come here' No... you here :P 'Really?' lol :P Yeh why not? 'Stupid' Hahah yeh, but meh. 


Seeing time like ripples, we had been shapes, fast.. 'IMA going to kick you Ren 😏'  Haha what I do? 'You KNOW! come here Squeaky' We were inside a sun or something??


Next wake at 555 very cool long dreams.


I was with a brother, adopted he was small 8 years old black wavey hair and dark eyes.. perhaps middle eastern.. he looked a little like my adopted cousin Mark. I was I duno who I was but I was supposed to be looking after him.  


The setting was odd.. there was a massive black steam train that was making the sky!
The sky was grey and black ripples of the smoke cloud with an indented patch above the big train.
The train was stationary like it was being used as an engine rather than to pull anything and had a square-shaped black stack like a chimney. The train was matt too, just like oh.... like before they are painted just the cast Iron I suppose it is.  


The other thing I recall about the setting is railings, the kind of victorian ones with spikey tops, they were all over too. The main area where I was was paved too, with grey paving slabs and there is a Zoo of sorts with the animals behind railings. We, me and the small bro were returning animals.


We have been asked to return a black sealion. It's fast and it's made it's way to the harbour which in contrast to the streets is colourful and blue, a long beach with people then deep clear blue sea with huge waves the sealion heads into the sea... and the kid follows it in even though he can't swim.


I'd followed the boy.
The sealion is fast, enjoying the waves and the water, I knew it would return to the zoo as it was its home, it just wanted to play... but the boy hadn't known this.  


I was watching the kid get dragged under by a huge wave but could see the breaker behind too and knew were to swim too to grab him as he was washed past. I grab him and lift him out of the water to breath... he's shocked but ok and I head back to shore with him. The SeaLion is ahead of us playing and heading back with us. Then we all walk back to the railings and train and I take the boy to someone...


Then Inka randomly appeared anoyed grabs me and we jump to Malico and he vanishes instantly. I was confused then Malico had pointed out that I was also the Sealion too or the sealion was a mix of me and Leon 😆 lol more confusing!
Then I realise the other references and it made more sense. 



I'd fallen asleep there too and had stupid but fun dreams. I'd been dreaming as Mars.. lol I was a planet but shaped like a cow big and round, I'd jumped over the moon and was brown and maroon.  


It was like being a big spotty brown cow balloon... then I was a Turquoise round cow... with darker spots and much bigger felt different to be this one. Music in shells, I can hear the shapes of the shells.


Then I recall I'd been back in the dream too with the railings listening to a different Rachel she was making ONE reference.. One & One, One Way, One Direction.


When I wake at 555..Inka tells me 'Stop half drowning kids?'  I rescued him?....and I didn't tell him to catch the SeaLion!

Malico had jumped with me to Leon too, in the library who had given me that wired gold cup  thing only this time it just has water in it. He'd told me to drink and sit down and I'd plonked on the rug in front of the fire confused. Next wake by crows...

Inka had been shouting at me to wake but when I wake and look out of the window it's crows in the tree calling as it's dawn.... sky looks amazing!!



Monday, 22 February 2021

Confused

'I like Ren's bald head or her horns' Inka you like me as a bitey mouse or a woodlouse!  'I don't mind having you as a flea either'  😏lol

'Come' Where 'your place...we're in your messy space after all.'

Wish I was too. 'You are, I've got your heart and you're a part of us'.


 

The Jumanji film, the 1 eye, the bugs the rodents..... 'Yup, Ren 😈 come here mouse, to your house you know we are playing time.  Anyway, your versions better find it!'

 

Wake puzzled.. 'Symbols squeaky, patterns too... I'm with you we dream as 2' 

Ori? Scottish?  'Her energy Mouse?'  Oh... she won't back down, fearless and forward, she's funny and loud.  Friendly and loyal and loves to game.

'Quality you share mouse you're part of the same... find the dream with her too please'

Me as child boggart again? 'I was with you there, I have time for wild things Ren and now is then'  All now? 'OFC Ren, I'll show you how'

 

Oh.. you woke me 303... my recalls crap you can help?

Ohhh TW wow.

Dark and wild, I'd been at main dreamhouse but at a balcony.. Rachel and Ori in my parents room 'See the similarities' Yes.. they were with a partner who was a mix of people Dom/Roland & more

I'd arrived there by bus with them.
All the 3 front windows of the terrace were the same white walls and 2 small wooden shelves with a colourful painting. 

I was upstairs then, I kept opening the balcony window into a storm looking NE over and into the sea.... I was waiting for something. 

 

My bro was in the dream, our mother gone/dead we were supposed to visit and Aunt for food but preferred alone instead.... we were going to meet for chips

'Good mouse, back to your house'  There had been a shrine is some woods too.... here my soul tree, it was hung with beads and fabric Kelly was there.  I was trying to bring us all together, we would share the chips/food.  An adventure too skydiving or skiing's?  Sometimes exciting anyway.

'See how you're better at night squeaky?  Not distracted, can type and write'  Yes... Same in the garden, I like the world asleep.. My mind works better in silence 'Come back and dream here'

I'd jumped to the roundhouse at the start of the night... Malico & Leon were there too, I'd sat on the floor close to the fire and Inka.. I can't remember what we spoke about.    'Not much before you were back being a baby boggart Ren' 

Haha yeh...

 

That was new... 'You like?'  lol yeh, wyrd & chaotic but yeh.

 

I'd been fighting with Ian, I'd been fighting with lots of people!

In the dream I'd been booked on a holiday with Em... plane was 4am

Ian wanted to fight about eating meat, could get that to me the meat became part of me same as a plant and all was live.. Dog there too.

Oh linked to this dream 'Yeh Ren'

 

There is a dog with poop on it's paws and nose, I was trying to get it out of the building as it was making a mess... Em (Other way up me) was about to be expelled from school so didn't want to take the plane. 
I'd lost my passport and.. then Irean comes home (Not sure why I keep dreaming about her it's a unity/one thing I think)
Ahooo everything was a mess.  I'd been so angry at one point I'd bit a lump off a tooth.

Then I was flying outside the building and it's a cliff drop into a pool and a window that looks out.  I was seeing how my mood could blow holes in this ravine and make water shoot out and fall down... was very cool and beautiful looking... the dream was so full of emotion, lots going wrong, dream wasn't bad just my emotions were so strong and storm like :)
 

'555, Squeaky come?'  OMW... 'You should have slept downstairs btw the vibe would have been different'  lol it's ok, Marlean/Mary/Mag was in the dream too?? 'Yeh Ren and teachers, all annoyed at you 😈'  lol yep... again 😀

 

Another dream of many.. very messy.. but I knew we were one.  I was the one...

 

lol next I must have been listening to the recycling lorry as I was glass smashed and fractured into many... the same but shattered and apart.

 

So many more dreams but everything was so chaotic and blurred together and messy 'You're merging awareness with me Ren'

It's so tangled and scrambled.. A snow dance, A talent scout... someone had been headhunted for a role/job.   

A show, and play and a court case.  I was in the courtroom too... walking about the odd wooden seats and furniture watching.

 

Then I'd been paired with an unusual male and Penny was teaching him to read... Her father was the Harbourmaster.

Oh she was in another dream lately... then I recall a dream from the night before... Beds on shelves inside a building that had got progressively bigger and bigger, I could see the old roofs going up the wall like high tide lines going down a beach.

We had to float up to the bed shelves I was watching someone try and see one of the bed spaces high up.

 

They are just shelves with a thin mattress and a small shelf and some board to stop the dreamers from falling out.   I was renting a bed in this space. 

 

The seller was explaining that the building was never supposed to be a home, it was a customs/port storage warehouse.  'Mmmmmm' 

What's that supposed to mean Hahah it's 818 'You missed me Ren' Obviously though oof my brain!

'Malico's trying to defrag you ;)' 

Haha oh I recall you two arguing something about an octopus and a golden ???? I forget the other word it was an unusual term...  We had gone to the hunter's room. 

'Where's your head at'  lol the song?  'It's to do with the argument Ren'  Hahah I was happy dreaming.  Just watched the VID! 😝😆



 

Sunday, 21 February 2021

Shapes and Rodents.


'See the shapes Ren? The energy flow in 3d?' 
  Yeh cones,Vortex like the cross shape X and cones. 
'Good, keep in mind and come here'  


Odd dream, I was in a version of London.  
I was with Inka and Leon (They'd agreed I was shit at giving stuff up so could dream with Inka so long as not just us as we were too much of a liability atm)  We were sitting in a room manifesting shapes from light and talking.  Someone had wanted to know about what prison or jail would be used for royal family??
We seemed to know, I knew the locations but not the names and didn't care as I'd just wanted to play with the energy and form shapes.

Next dream was really long.  Another of them massive nylon tents from that strange refuges dream the other night.

This one was various shades of brown, big tunnel-like  (Odd as I've never been in tents like these before!)  We had been in it for ages, but were moving stuff out to dry it out and pack it down.

We had a rodent infestation and as I was clearing the mice were running up my sleeves and up my trouser legs.    They bit me if I tried to pull them out but seemed quite happy in my clothing where it was dark and warm so I let them be.   Though there were lots of them!   

At one point I was considering it was kinda hard to help pack down when my pants were full of mice 😆 So I'd wandered off to find somewhere to put them.  I'd found an outdoor market with a stool and some old bags and fabric, it looked dark so I started to shake and scoop them out.  

Mice, rats and odd chipmunk type things too.  I'd gone back to where the tents was with Kelly and Em, we were talking about getting food as we would need to eat to make milk for babies.  ?

I'd been with Leon and Inak again, zoomed way out to see stuff.  Next, I was in a really busy city, people pushing in all directions...

Then looking at a book.
The text is brown, it's a book of shapes made from smaller shapes the ratios marked down the sides.    I was learning about shapes.... eyes floating in pyramids again.

Saturday, 20 February 2021

Lazy

 'Intention Ren, and then, I would like your attention please' 

 

 Crown..'Yes indeed, make your tea, then come to me' 


 

 

 Can I see Inka please? 'Ok, little mouse come to Malico's house'

 

 'Ren....You asked to see Inka, you are already dreaming... And he is here.. '

 

 lol.. I'd jumped awake as I'd instantly fallen asleep then someone had squirted me with cold water! 

 

 'Me Ren, I'm weaving with you now intention and back and try and stay at least a little lucid'

 

 Wake around 3 after a long dream, I had seen Inka first briefly in the dining room again, he was laughing at how fast I fall asleep.. I don't recall much other than that and giving him a hug... 

 'You fell back into dreams fast Ren, you are awake to long in the day at the moment' 

 

 A long detailed dream a strange guest house I'd stayed there a while back with a partner... 

 A dog was dying and there was a male singer too possibly Michel Jackson.  

 

 I'd recommended the place to 2 other people who were going to stay there.

 

 Next recall I'm in a car on the side of a street. I was going to put an IV line in myself. I had fluid and what I needed. 

I'd been bleeding for a while and had lost a lot of blood, a human nurse is at the window... lol she was bizarrely bitchy.


'That's not the right place, you won't get that in... that catheters cheep, oh they sterilise them IV's in urine' a whole string of random crap..

I was thinking if I can hit a vein on a dehydrated kitten, or a jugular on a fat unshaved cat I can hit the hose pipe in the back of my wrist even if it is collapsed.   


I got it in and was watching my blood drip slowly from the end of it onto my hand as I'd tourniquet to try to raise the vein as my BP was low.. 


The nurse is still making unhelpful comments and I was kinda wondering if I was so shit, why she didn't offer to help, but as she was so freaking toxic I wasn't about to ask :D 

The hardest bit was not having enough hands as I'd forgotten to rip the tape before I'd put the IV in... SO had the IV in then was trying to one-handed using my teeth unroll & cut the tape to stick the canular in place. She'd moved on once she realised the line was in and I'd stuck it enough to sort out the fluids and the other tape. 


I'd also been very close to the moon....... I could see it in detail.. and pealing prawns! people watching were appalled.  


WTF is up with all the prawns!! :P It was all jumbled.. my recall is not great and I recalled I had bread that would be ready to so get up. 

Inka is way more useful for waking me up and timing :D 'You get what your give Ren ;)' 😛


Leon had suggested his Island but I'd got up to sort the dough.. dreams had been tangled and I fancied chilling downstairs sleeping anyhoo.  


Chilled on the sofa around 3ish... crazy energy rushes and a kitten chewing my toes.. I'd asked Leon to come to my main dream space and he took me to the end of the main pier.. we used to run of the high wall breakwater into the harbour mouth as kids... but I think railings had been put up it was wyrd as I could see so many times all breathing in and out.


We picked a modern time then dissolved the metal railings so we could climb to the high breakwater wall where we sat down. I'm the tall purple bald thing with a tail, Leon was like a grey wizard :D People were staring at us. I was showing him how I used to like to lay over the breakwater and look at the islands upside down... but he quickly got bored of that and zoomed us up into the sky fast so we were at the border of Earth's atmosphere. Visually out there I was seeing the sky as a multi-D ball court :D Wowow.. Leon?


'Ren, You could have done as I suggested?'

Will come... I just wanted to go there. 


Next, I'm measuring and recording. 

2 bakers stalls again??  


We were racing to sell out??? Odd carts we could push like wheelbarrows with loves and cakes.


A row of Victorian terraced houses, they had all been mine. Now we only live in the 3 at the end but I had loft access to all.  

I needed to do something in the far end of the terrace. The space we lived in was posh, I was just doing the garden. Leon was with me.

I was doing the garden though.


Sam I Am, but was Will I Am. Will?? William ??


Next dreams of Set, Thoth and Hermes?? I was with them I have a glass jug strange shape I'm measuring volumes we are all taking notes.  


The was odd I have a bright red Dr Coat - I was checking Dr's, I watch them. They don't like me.. I make them feel they are crazy.  


A special cream, errr it's been making me feel sick all day thinking about this. It was french in a can. Rationed, could only get it with a social security/tax code. Everyone was allowed a small amount each week... disgusting. Want to vom thinking about it, I was feeding mine to a black and white cow that was licking my fingers with it's huge cow tongue 


Next some Sikhs, I was with some females we all had turbans and someone thought we were male. A young boy too, who was talking Hindi, but people were saying he was talking in Indian. 

Someone else with a bleeding hand.


A bleeding, melting rainbow tattoo, colours bright and vivid, the ink is new.


The dung beetles rolling the earth round.  


Help Leon?? 'I told you to get up Ren, I jumped you to Malico too. I am helping, if continue to lay here, images and dreams will come' 


Last dream.. main dream house, the garden, I was trying to recall what would rise where. 


 

May into June

  1st May First dream was a festival at an old farm stead. Was a small do, but cosy. An odd thing, with a small stage n craft tables. ...