Medic Facilitys and a Hawthorn Dryad

I'd felt crap in the evening hollow and horrible empty and needy... It was almost physically painful, I'd forgotten how horrible it was and I could recall that sensation from childhood.

I was told just to feel it and go into in sleep. So I did.

Wake at midnight and felt I'd been asleep for ages and it should be 4am or something.... feel ok again thank fuck, that was horrible. TY 💜 'Yep, Jump to us now Ren'   I don't recall where I jumped but when I woke again I'd had lots of long very detailed dreams very medical again.

First recall is a skyscraper medical facility looking down onto a city, it's very very modern I felt 'Canada' but don't know why.   

I'm at a glass window looking into a room, the far wall is all glass looking down onto the city below, it's evening/dusk and the lights of buildings stretch for miles. The room is a treatment room but it's 'different'. 

The medic is a white guy treating another white guy who is in only shorts and the treatment is taking place on a sort of reverse chair like a massage table crossed with a posture seat them things that you sit over the wrong way, but it has a high back to support the torso too and rest for head.  

The room has a lot of electrical equipment too. Walls are pale blue and the counters are filled with strange equipment and tech. At first, the treatment looks like a massage focusing on trigger points but then gets stranger as electrodes are placed all over on nerve endings all over the Males back, they are taped in place.

I can see inside the male too and the main branches of his spinal nerves going in and out from between the vertebrae and how they are connected to the fine white cables and then to the equipment on the side.   

I watched from outside the room at the glass window looking in as the nerves were stimulated with current from the machine... but the current was increased and upped until the guy looked very uncomfortable when the treatment stopped he was bleeding from one nostril and looked angry. (Reminded me of the wired embryos in tank dream)

Next recall

I'm on a track/train/tram travelling a flat landscape, there is a lot of 'security' in the place too.

 In the sky is the strangest thing!! What I was calling 'Weather Bands' they were lol, well like if you took fluffy loft insulation and rolled it out into a band in the sky. 2 wide bands one black and one white 

Hot/cold - Like bands of very dense cloud. They were affecting the more usual weather, clouds and wind.

I could also see what was like a mesh or net in the sky made of dense black smoke in parts it's tattered and ripped, blowing and fraying in the wind. There is a lot of strange security as we depart from the tram we are funnelled through metal turnstiles large like almost cage-like that you might get at a football ground??

I find myself in a strange area that was restricted I was looking down onto a replica model of the area we had just travelled thew. It's behind a high steal fence like you get round military places. I'm looking through the mesh fence at it and I can see signal points and the track we travelled.  

Inka the weapon in the clouds?  'Yep Witch, keep dreaming and paying attention'  fell back into the same dream? I've come out of another turnstile these ones looked like underground ones now there is only a small fence around the model of the area we moved threw and I can get closer I can see a small replica of the train we were on moving on a small gage track. I step over the fence but a male in a uniform tells me I can't touch the track or signal’s.  

At this point I notice my ankles were wired... They are very very wide like I have oedema and there is a line of crusty green/yellow puss in a ring round both of them. There was no pain or smell but they looked yuck and I figured I should clean them up so jumped to another medical facility.   

I was aware the place I was in all the humans were living in large communal places almost like my collage campus/ Uni dreams .

 I was in the medic area of the living zone.  

There were large communal shower rooms I passed through the place was huge but strangely deserted. The colour scheme strange pinks and blues, I was looking for a chlorohexidine wash to clean up my ankles so kept walking until I found what seemed to be a pre surgical space or prep area. And was cleaning up my ankles where the crusty puss had dried. As I was cleaning it I could overhear a conversation from an adjoining room about Corvid strains they were talking about strain E & Probable and discussing what disinfectant would be effective on them.  

When the nurse leaves her uniform is the same pink/purple as some of the rooms. 

 

 I was also with male me we were applying a bandage dressing this was strange too as it was like Yin-Yang and not a bandage 

- It was symbolic one layer we would apply was dark and compressive then we would add a layer of while fluffy bandage then more of the stretchy compressive layering it up.. This was also like the strange weather bands! 

 

 

 

Next I was with Malico jumped to him and the others and took them to the roundhouse. We built a fire outside Leon and Illeth sit by it - Oh lol Kaylo hated it, the whole space 😆
Was to damp, dark and dirty and he was floating for a while looking displeased with the whole thing.

Hahaha 😜 I offered to make him into a crow but he got annoyed turned into a cat and shifted to another layer.  

Inka appeared and asked if I wanted to go dryad for a bit before dawn, I joined him and we turned into a hawthorn dryad! 

Was so different to the Oak or Pine form. Spiky and Dark my perception was so wired everything had a sharpness to it, and berrys/blood! Crystal like light angular - I was annoyed had to wake up!

Want to go back to that 🌳

 

I did pop back to say sorry to Kaylo, but got told 'Go away Gray, I'm not coming back to your smelly feild'  😄

Wow....  Inka TY nice DL  I get this dream now.   'NP, Bitch. You'll forget again soon'  I know that's why I'm putting it here 😆   'You'll still forget Ren'.   You'll remeber though😛  'Yep'   Why do we forget?   'You forget cause your memorys shit Ren and you drink to much'  I ment Humans...   'I know you did'  Thanks 😂  I forget anyway I allways have....  'ADHD mind, you live for NOW' 

Roundhouse & Old House

Moon and Mars - They look great.   

'We feel you Ren, jump where ever we will find you'   Ooooo, I could!   'Hahahah sure, create whatever you want just don't make Kaylo into a crow though - not yet anyway' 
He'll be ok?  'OFC Bitch, he dosn't need to see you die though, that's your shit, Ren - you feel'   
Ok,   'Trust bitch, we will come and find you... fly's to shit remember'    Hahah ok,  'Sleep then!'

So I'd decided early in the day I kinda wanted a roundhouse, old-style one Inka told me to just make one and I realised I can do that now... It may have crossed my mind Kaylo would make a good crow 😏. Anyhoo, I wasn't sure where or how but felt that my main dream area would be best place to put it but wasn't sure where was pondering when I fell asleep.  

Wake at 00.55 felt like I'd been away asleep for weeks.... I'd had a long dream? 'lol Ren you don't recall? give it a mo' Ohhh, was with you guys and oh! I made a new space! 'Hahah yep, Come to the hut on the station now Ren'  

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So I'd tried a few spaces I manifested it onto the beach first but was too windy then I tried the dunes but the grass was spiky and the view was spiky and then I knew!   

The bottom horse field with the burn flowing threw that had the wired vibe.

As a kid, it felt 'Ancient' like I needed to 'ask' permission to go there. I used to go alone sometimes at dusk taking apples for the ponies, some days it wasn't welcoming.  - I recall I'd gone there one night alone on Acid too.
 

Anyhoo the field had a 'presence' lol I'd forgotten that bit till now! and I was just thinking about how I could go get younger me's and take them there!!! 👀 Hahahah  

'You've been doing this shit all your life Ren, you're just starting to remember it more'  

Anyhow the field was perfect.
It was the glowing purple dusk and the horses were in the field with me it's a little boggy in bits as I'd recalled it from school and I remember walking with the infant school when I was 5 there to collect frogspawn for the classroom... I could experience that too in the dream.

I manifest the roundhouse by the small stand of windblown hawthorn trees but at the end, so that the horses can still shelter there.
I'd moved sand from the beach but I'd done that in old hessian sacks for some reason, they were heavy... I'd put the sand on the floor to help with the mud and damp and the marram grass to I'd piled up, to make a bed sleepy bit... needed animal skins.   
lol I felt like I was there for weeks, at first I'd just been manifesting but I started to enjoy the process of just collecting and gathering bits and bobs. I know I was collecting driftwood too but that bits Hazy. 

Also in another bit...

I'd been playing a game in god mode looking down on a wired world it was like a farming game and I'd been on bug squash and harvest.... I'd been surprised at someone who had taken me for 'government' 

'Ren. Meet me at the station hut' Ok.

I'd fallen asleep quickly again and Jumped to Inka at the hut.. I split here into 2 dreams.
Inka is standing waiting to take me back into the house dream and threw the portal we entered last night (It's the re-entry into the knight's templar/blood ritual- soul retrieval from years ago)

Still not sure how the house stuff is supposed to fit into the story!

Anyhoo Inka changes my avatar back to the elder form and ports me bk but I split and stay hut too and dream there.  I was there alone as others are in the portal in the house, I'd already checked out visually from the portal dream and knew my awareness there was free form floating in the others so I didn't bother focusing much there as I knew what was coming. 

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The dream I'd been in was my main dream area I'd revisited the series of templar dreams I'd had there. My first recall is of being where the old grocers were.. it's all wood, old fashioned looking and I was selling bread & newspapers. The dream space is still very busy lots and lots of people.... I was splitting with my elder form too so I was there with bright white skin and tall with long fingers.  

The street was like it was in them dreams and I was with an old school friend Aggy, he was angry and upset we were in a building that was possibly above the bank.... I was hearing people. I'd flown along the coast it was different like the frog/Elohim dream. Swamps, lush, dolphins many people swimming in coastal pools and bright too sunny.... I was crying at the beauty of it as I flew over and above it.  

Woke suddenly looked at the time it was 616 and venus in the window - lol morning Venus.... Inka?  'Yep Ren you good? We killed you again and drank your blood 😈 - consensual this time so no fragmentation, just further entanglement'   Oh... ok 😆 Hahah that's fine then😜   'All part of each other, alive and connected'   The cave dream where you all died inside?? 

Is that why I was back in the other dream?  'Yes' Where is Ren?  'lol in you!... Just reform when you jump 💜'  Ok, thanks and for taking me.  I want to see Malico.  'Jump to him' Is Kaylo awake? 'Jump back to house now Ren, fast B4 morning we are all here'  

Jumped back but am Ren out the story again Grey alien/hybrid.  Inka not there.  Saw and hugged  Leon & Illeth and Kaylo. Then Jumped to Malico too to check in with them all before I had to wake gone 7.

_  The Blind Woman no Teeth Is this an even older me???  Time now... so wired perspective me?? 

_ Oh... the dreams from that whole Month are wired is that the 2017 7 year cycle?  'Just dream Ren, come back soon'   💜

I want to go back to the Round house & go wolf.     'Remeber Ren, all symbols all narative... Your dreaming, you all are'  Oh Leon? 'and Malico now too'   Oh  👀  Heya 💙

Ohhhh   This one too???    Blughh... I want my sleep perspective! 'Your Learning Trust Ren, and patients'   lol,  still not focus then 😆
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Less Conflict

Inka? Bitch? lol 

I'm so chilled since I died!  'Hahah Ren, Yeh death dose that when you have death wish'  😈

TY 'YW'    💜

'Consecrate that space Witch' ??? What does that even mean?   'You know'... Duno the word meaning... 'that's causing your memory is shit Ren'

 Religious? Alters?   'Closer'   lol Ohhhh that's dyslexic for dissociative shit!! <3 <3 hahahah 'Spells Witch..... you're upside down.. keep going' 

Altar - sacrifice....Hahah at least you're staying on point 😛   'One of us has too witch'   The bath in that dream???   'Yep'  👀 Oooo

We are wired, WTF are we?   'Fun' 😏 Just loo

ked up consecrate! 'Sacred is supposed to be fun'  I believe you! 

Yesterday I'd only had one dream it was a large busy city unfamiliar people and entities all colours types had roller skate and was skating on smooth smooth stones looking around. 

Last night back to busy.
 

The first dream I'd been playing a puzzle game with Kaylo, was fun tricky and mind games working out who tricked who where, how, why. 

Then a few hrs of the same thing formless voiceless discourse. Was exchange, agreements, offers, time, play or can cash out/check out waking at once point I had the sensation of powerful back legs... hopping.  

Oh lol, flea! 😆 What are we talking about?? 

'Us & Them... This & That...Mirror fun cause we know we are one! 💜' 

Oh was that the emissary thing??  

Get up sort cats.

Falling like rain away, away, 

Absorbed into earth to play, to play.

Moving threw Trees, Breathed in the air.

Held by time, embraced with care. 

Then separated and lost to far, 

forgotten the whole don't recall what we are. 

Hunting ourselves, Fighting to BE.

Looking at you knowing you are me. 

Missing our home in the darkness of love,

Called into the light to remember above.

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I'd fallen asleep again and I'd woken as Inka was putting a single earing into my right ear, it's an amber flea! lol we were blue. A flea in my ear now 😆

I'd had disjointed dreams I'm not sure of the order... might have been all at once.

I was walking over a long wide bridge over an estuary, the road was deserted but for me and the guy I'm with.
The sun is setting the tide out and golden sand of the estuary bed is reflecting the pink sky, I can see it from person perspective or zoom out from the bridge too to see all. 

I'm walking with a man he has what are classed as learning difficulties we are walking together to collect something the walk is companionable and there is a feeling of mutual help.

In another scene, I'm in what is possibly the quarry field of my main dream area but it's different there is a garden centre selling plants and pots but it has a system of caves under it - We were allo

wed to go an explore them but we are not attuned to swim in the Iron yet. I decided to wait until I can, there is what is like an old town well/spring instead of water bright liquid iron is flowing. 

Last scene I'm in a small silver car with a female driver a passenger I'm helping them they are driving and I'm going into places collecting things for them as a runner.. They have a disability but can drive - the car is full of stuff. 

We stop at one place but I have a large orange goldfish it's flopping around in my hands and I'm trying to put it back into a bucket so I can go collect something else. (Think this is to do with my neighbour) 

As I'd written the dreams I'd also realised the Amber Flea/Goldfish and there was also a purple portal and I could see how the portal in the House was also linked to that dream in Dec, pre-cog about Trump/Bog roll cleaning stuff.... That was another me I was talking too! I was talking to myself again! 'haha Yep Witch, now come bk' WOW!

Pink/Orange? The Red?? Celtic Chakra spiral?   'Bk, plx, Bitch' 

Lots more dreams but jumping about.  

I'd jumped to Inka in a world, he looks like crap again. He's really tired and I give him a very dirty blue hanky I have.. It was a hanky I do own, but it was really grubby. He tells me 'Weapons in the clouds. I won't be fighting this time'  We hug before parting.

A time tunnel/vortex it's like sand coloured of pale brown smoke like a brown whirlwind.

A long dream I'm in a house I'm cleaning a large old ceramic bath, the ceramic is old and discoloured with age and cracked in parts, a guy had had a bath and it was really dirty I'm cleaning it... it keeps morphing as I'm cleaning it from a bath to a soft-top car to a bed. The car I'm sewing the roof cover... the bed was inflatable and I'd let the air out and as I had there was a queen with a litter of kittens all different ages some were tiny like mouse pinkies and other were newborn hedgehogs. I realised I'd disturbed them letting the air out so I reinflate the bed then it turns into a normal bed, I remake the bed but the hedgehogs have got too cold and are dead the queen leaves them and puts the others back. There was also a shelf field with candles and crystals. 

Other dream had been Zak and one of his friends - we were outside a venue and the boys wanted to go in but they were not allowed inside unaccompanied.  Another female was with me who I don't know. We agree to take them in. As we do the boys run fast to sod off into the male-only area to fight... I'd been in that situation before and I teleport fast baring their way and telling them 'Not this time, I'm tired of your crap' and I lead them back out of the venue taking the other boy back to his mother too. 

Another dream of an old battered Tom was tired sort of more of a small wild cat sand/brown. It was dying.   

Woke still sleepy.

I'm happy to kill you if you want Inka?  'I know Witch... I don't mind dying, you usually keep me company anyway'  Oh.... Fox? Beach? Train? Story?  'and the rest' Oh, recall of the deaths... so many deaths.  'Come bk'.

Sleep again geometry... 

Flower of life over and over I'm the fabric that makes it and the space that cradles it.  

Still sleepy...  'Dream more'      Haha I'd fallen into a vision looking at a version of me!! lol a fancy-dress witch looking really dishevelled in a bus station late at night waiting for 'the last train home'.

I had deep purple messy tangled hair untied shoes and a ripped and stained short green silk dress.... I knew there were more of us. All the different colours I'd bogged off on my own again and was going to be in trouble when I found my way back! 

Another scene of filling a pet water bowl with clean water 100's and 1000's of them all breathing in and out different bowls and hands all filling and being placed on different floors.  

Last one I'm looking at a long text on a pad it's not my writing I read...

'Visions are fleeting, burning up in the first rays of dawn. A deeper connection a tangled weaving gives us coherence, binding us to ourselves' 

'Better'💜 Wow TY! 'When you going to learn to trust us?'  Sorry 'Guilt is like worry Bitch, solves shit. Jump house again quick before morning'   

Jumped back to the house, the meal before we are going to go back into the blood ritual dream - lol I duno if this is book guys?  'Told you Ren, no such thing as fiction 😏 Or fact.. think Symbols/Narative and keep writing... put the house chapters in OneNote for now'   Ok.

Death and yet more Blood

The first part of the night just wanted to chill so went to the Tree hub. 'After Arguing' Shhhh 😏Didn't argue, told you where I was going 💚

Dreams had been hazy strange version of main dream area one that is familiar but that I've not been to in what feels like ages! I recall other dreams here it's the buildings seem way to big like they did when I was a kid/small.   

A dog that didn't want to walk and I was trying to get it home.. to heavy to carry, spaniel on a green slip lead and a posh woman shouting directions. Ohhh wow, I have wired recall of other dreams in this space, a concert hall and a railway line running past the main dream house... feels an age since I was in it though. In another dream I had white/black orange long hair I was combing out knots. 

Woke gone 3. 

Inka?  'Mmmmm'  Come play?  'Tree Hub'.
Sleep instantly and jump there, I jumped to the room I'm familiar with dark cave with fire and rug, Inkas there but we are made from the earth not wood. We have no faces same as Dryad, lol was a bit like being morph made from red clay.. moving earth form. 

Inka reaches into me and takes out my heart and then I take his...we swap them they are also soft clay-like earth. Then he takes me down into a room below I've not been in before.. it's kinda hazy as my lucidity wasn't high and it was visual but not using eyes more of a floating awarness and tactile too.

The room is also dark and warm the place has a red/orange glow like candlelight, though I don't remember any light source.

There is a wood bench growing from the earth in the center its the only thing in the room. I lay down and he kills me with the knife with a blue handle that I found in astral the other day. I turn from clay into blood. I run down the bench and into the earth soaking into it. There was so much blood... I am it. Warm, red greasy soaking into the sandy orange earth leaving just a greasy stain on the floor and the bench, was there for a while just flowing and changing. 

Wake up... That was unexpected!!😆 'Hahaha, Ren... you've been dreaming blood rituals all week death comes after hanged man'  😈 Did you kill you, or me?   'The same thing'  Haha suppose.
Was still surprising 'We wouldn't be wild if we were predictable' 😏 Hahahaha.

Jumped back to tree hub to sleep the normal room, I sleep again back into main dream area. 

Long dream I meet Em's Mama and she wants to take me for breakfast male me was a jumble of bro/dot. We arrange to meet her, Em joins us too. Hummm, so symbol wise Em seems to be Me reversed...  I have been given care of an older woman too and I also had a role in a
birth unit but the births are not human, they are all kinds of hybrids
& entities. Strange buildings too with glass fronts was taking blood & tissue samples to check.

(lol like Ren from the story?) lol brains and symbols are wired!  'Yours certainly is bitch' Haha thanks😏

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Fuck Inka! That thread.... On the insect & plant entitys👀

'IKR bitch, it's fun though'  💜💚💜

 Pfffff I'm no teacher, leader?  'You don't need to be Witch. We just play.... play nice this time bitch... Symbols, roles masks'   😈

'I notice you didn't tell them about' ... Pffff do not go there!  'You can Ren'  

I will, just one step at a time. 

Reality is wibbly....   'Yep Witch, only going to get worse if you want to fly'   I do!!

'Hang on then, we got you... Don't expect them to like you Ren, you know how this shit pans out'   lol PAN!! 

💜  'Yep'  I'm still all in! 

'Planting seeds, Ren... We are all with you too!' Like reality bombs but less fall out???  'Your getting this shit bitch'  

 But the burn? The Pop?  'Trust. We are playing'

 Oh.... Some of them see??   'They are us too Ren' Oh yeh..... 

The heart anger?... That's new. 'To you, yes... energy centres different in other aspects' Ok, TY. Does it fuel the violet flame?  'Burn Bitch, and keep jumping till you burn purple'   lol, I will but I'm right? I'll take that as yes 😆