Primordial Soup

3rd June
Mirrors, reflecting and refracting.  Versions of you others hold in their minds.
Stories and roles, a cut and a pattern...

Like cutting fabric. 
 

I had lots of dreams but they are so hard to bring threw to waking with these meds.
Ships and subs, container ships and refugees like a flotilla.

The visual detail was amazing.  Leon chef was there too. 

A wooden chalet style safe in a glass tank or case.

A special chair in a staff room...

Militarised staff and an incoming storm.

The refuges were all female there sleeping area had no covering or roof.

'Come with me Ren.  You let Inka be your subject and you have learnt much'

Oh yeh, I'd forgotten we did that.

'In time, you will recall'

Malico takes me to his study and tells me I can sleep on his desk. I can be his study subject for a while.

'We give Inka time to change and grow Ren, you can remain in the house with Leon and I'

I was with Leon last night.....

'Yes Ren, after you became Inka's understudy we shut you in the library'
Hummmm I sort of recall Understoodie   - It's a play thing.

The undertakers understudy.

Oh! I recall the girl next door was called Alexandria!
You shut me in and told me not to burn the books, I just nibbled them a little.

'What are words worth Ren?'

Not a shakes spear? 'Byron or a Biro?' 

My recall and pattern recog is poor.

'I know, I'm only asking you to sleep on a desk'

Ok... You gave me Brandy too?

'A different spirit'

I've never drank Brandy
'You've had enough Teacher's Whiskey for now Ren'

Hummm Whisk eye, and one eyed win key... Goonies and one eyed willy. 

'Will he?'
We willy winky dream was in your house too...
'It took all of us to push you threw stories Ren'

Words....  'A Logos thing Ren, just come here and relax with me'
Hummm Logo's and logos  'Drama and words, Please Ren.  Let me help you dream'

Yehhh

'You have suffered enough under the 'watch' of your twin Ren.  Let him go while you both reconcile what you have gone threw, you will both change and grow'

Where's Leon 'Which Leon'  Hummm It was house Leon I was with last night.

'Yes Ren, look up last years dreams too'

Ok will tomorrow

'Now sleep here please'

 

Will He  & Will I Am 

Will I Am Shakes Spear

Will I Am Words Worth

4th.....
Wake 141 tap it, bang bang...  Inka and I danced this into the middle...  Need Leon to make a point.

I'd been in a pool.... Well surrounded by shallow water.  Sperm type cells like massive tadpoles and eggs.
Large like jelly golf balls.  Snakes or worms in the water too, was like giant primordial soup... Snakes were biting me.
Life and books.... Stories.
 

A room strange patterned fabrics, yellow white green.

An Elephant seal, was a female too... I'd taken it home to talk to, I was due to return it to the sea.  We'd been discussing stuff when it turned back into a woman.

 

Oh wow....Looked up the 3rd... Massive sperms again
https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2021/06/dna-dragons-and-currents.html
 

Medication and a Dead Dog

1st June.
Thailand dream.

A strange outdoor lesson place... Odd costumes and roles.

2098 we would meet again in Thailand.

A battle too in fancy-dress armour.

2nd June.

Dream of being locked up and medicated.

Staff just laughing cause they didn't give a shit.

I was so drugged I could hardly talk and I'd lost my shit with this guy grabbed his hand and sunk my nails into his skin.... Which was odd as it felt like a water balloon!

Next was my main dream area, a hearing.

My bro and his wife was there, pubs and landlords, beach parties too.
 

Last dream Sue & David and dogs, an odd floating platform with a dead tree.

A cat had chased a dog up the dead tree, it slipped and we watched the dog fall to it's death.

Was odd as the dog looked all ready dead, bloated and stiff as it fell.
Was also French provincial countryside and a romance story. 
 

 

End of May 22

 

30th
0220... Mixology.  Helicopter stunts.

An odd dream of lots of black cats.  They all had a live frog inside them.
I was trying to palpate their abdomens to get them to poop out the frog.
They were pooping human baby pop instead.

I knew it was representing Kek, Chaos magic and Egypt.... But not quite how.

Sedatives : Make up catalogue like Avon...

'Deliberate Accident Productions. '

31st
Quiet, Dark,
stone encased.
Below.

A seed not sown.

Scattered or fallen.,

But roots known down.

Clinging holding to unstable ground.

Ungrounded, uprooted,

Yet still alive.

Searching for water,

A way to survive.

Warmth or light

And away from what's bright.

Root first to grow,

But energy low.

Weeds, opportunists, natures parasites.

Survivors and chancers seeking ways to stay alive.
Take host in a ghost.....

A shell of what was.

Something discarded,

Yet familiar as well.
A plant that can't retreat to it's seed.

A being to vast to crush back into me.

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Crazy town, Vicky again.

Clothes shops and bags.. Mall's

Carparks party and magic shops too.

My cat shadow in a onesie.

Tried to help a woman who had freaked and dropped her kid.

A butterfly Man.

Viking game, avatar designs and field and a tent.

I had full assess to avatar sliders but was waiting on a new round.

 

Forgotton and Lost things

 

Stressy dreams all night.
 

Trains, underground network.  I was trying to visit someone but I'd forgotton the names of all the stations.

I knew I'd recall if I could look at a network map but there wasn't one.

I had to remember the names but it was really hard.

Jack was male me in the dream but not helping, he'd already bought a ticket and was on the platform.

Was made harder by the fact I had a laptop with me that didn't fit into the bad I had and I kept putting it down and nearly forgetting it.
I had in my fingers a ball of black tar, it was coated in what looked like breadcrumbs to stop it sticking to me and I was sqwidging it.

 

I knew I was a version of London too and the dreams it was linked too... 
The one were a train didn't stop at buffers... It was all the same logo/stations.

 

Also a dream of vets and back alleyways Berwick/Northsunderland I was revisiting it but I'm not sure I've ever written the first dream up.

404 woken by birds yelling both in and outside.

Next dreams were leaving a bag in a version of Alnwick and my cards being taken....   I couldn't be arsed to cancel them but knew I should.
I'd found one of them laying on the ground discarded as it was out of date.
The market square and fairground rides.

Also Sheila and Erics... There were old and Stirling Moss was a historian.

The dream was the house and the one nextdoor as antique shop.
They still lived there with dementia.
The historian and me were trying to remeber.
Amazing old things, a tall pink glass pitcher and an engraved egg.
 

Love & Connections

26th May

Wake 303

Hu?  'Mmmm Squeaky'  😆 I was dreaming 'With Malico & I'

Wow I have no words....

I liked it though!  'Good, we did too'  lol

Was like some insane life review, reality show, relationship competition that encompassed my whole life 😵

Hehehe it had got insanely out of hand.......

The lengths I'd gone too, to get out of one thing and then landed head over heals in something else.

Was a love story to rival Shrek.

'we' were trying to escape with out love child that was an emmmmm I duno wtf it was but I loved it.

'lol Ren'   It wasn't quite human.... Nor was my lover.... But it was also so human and real.

There was so many twists and no one could believe my motive was love till right at the end.
 

🤣 Our escape plan involved a mother in law, cigarette smuggling and a church.. Police and customs.

People in it were astral versions of people I know 'and crew Ren'  Hummm Leon was there too.

'We told you we were coming to you'

It was like Jeremy Kyle, Shrek and Cinderella were the ugly sisters get it on with the pumpkin!

'Come here again Ren'

I'm seriously stranged out....   It was like I'd birthed my pet cat but it was a deamon too.

'Ren?'  Oh the dream where he cried a dragon or something...

Here
https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2020/10/careful-what-you-ask-for.html

I miss Shadow 😢 'He misses you too'  I believe you.  'About fucking time'   lol

'Come here'  Yeh ok

I'm awake 'Good we're coming back to you anyway, will help recall' 

 

If I was prone to paranoia 'You'd not be where you are'  Haha I like crazy people 'and they like you too but you don't belong behind bars Ren, however open they are' 

Mmmm I know.  

'Good, they only bar you tend is so fucking low that anything's welcome there'

I loved 'Everything... We know Ren, it's why we're stuck with you'  Now, lay down n shut up'

Ok...

That dream it literally was shameless 'Faithless and blameless too'    Hahah speaking of faithless where is DarthD? 'Far enough away for you to sort your shit before he's back'

Haha ok.

 

Wake again 404  tweeting twitter birds 'Spreading the word'  

27th May

Didn't wake till gone 4.  Had been dreaming but recall rubbish.
There were blue speckled fabric eggshells allover... Things had hatched from them.

A missing friend.
I'd also been waiting ages for a connection or collection. 

Music and crowds too. 

Another dream was long too I know there was a huge massive borehole going down into the earth.

Witches / Shaman at a rave too.   We were contacting each other in sleep.

Ancestors too and a place with lots of hot air balloon parts.

 

Afford

 

404

Dawn & Birds

'Sociable ones or bity bitches?'  lol Inka, I've been well fucking tempered mate.

'Getting there Bitch😈'  TY for keeping me company.

'Come bk to me'  ok

Can you help my dream recall please?

'Not easy Ren, you're behind a firewall atm'

Sounds hot  'We're cooking'  lol ok.....

 

A ford  Afford.  
The car ford logo change to the Iron alchemy sign.
Female, Fe male Iron Lady.

A ford.... The crossing over water / emotion

 

Don't need to part the sea, or make a bridge...  Just find a ford. 

 

 

Crowds of people. Confusing all rammed together.   Lessons like karate and yoga but gated by pay and grading.

Not wanting this others had started to learn there own way.

 

In-between frequencies feeding from the energy. 

This time last year I was on instant... Now long way home.
I'm being shown 'non reaction'  it's like a complete surrender to circumstance.
 
Stupid meds make my connection so fuzzy.
I do recall last year though
https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2021/05/floating-cubes-and-vaulted-ceilings.html

 

Night before that too where I was part of a shield.  

Compression

As more is taken less remains.

diminished,

yet in shadow, the same.
 

Echo's of the whole.

Reminding what is, of that never lost.

 

Contracting, rigidity,

Momentary form.

 

Dropped, spreads to flow once more.

Cascading, Fractal

Ripples that sway,

Blowing separating, scattering away.

A part, seed

A start

Then more

A recall of recognition gives trajectory for growth.

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Swimming a long dream.

Boats, sea, fishing and ports.

A swim babe.

 

I'd been paired with something going threw a crazy storm.

The woman I'd been paired with was 'changed and wrong'

 

I was being asked 'do you want her'

I was thinking...  I've been fucking her.  (This was more than sexual)

I was asked again...  'But, do you want her'  

I'd replied 'In relation to something else?'  I woke there as I was asking.

It was a feeling that sometimes anything can be better than nothing.

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Authenticity.  Testing ping rate.

Back to the self diagnosis too....

I was checking other people were genuine.

It was a familier data sorting and compressing.... Only here it's wyrd.

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A prisoner

Guilty of the crime of exploring my awarness.

A crime deemed as dangerous to society as working with my dreams is considered dangerous to my health.

Detained indefinitely.

Pending cooperation and desired displays of normal behaviour.

A punishment not a treatment.

A push back into the box of what other people find comfortable, normal behaviour.

Like a jack in the box or a worm in a can....

Being 'good' while quietly waiting my moment to pop myself back out.

Services only strengthening my resolve to break once more from the norm.