Entity Synthesis

'Breath deeper Ren' 
Mate...   'Breath' 

'More, same as when your running, deep n slow'

I'm not sure I breath slow when 'Shut up and breath Ren'

'Pause, between in n out'  You teaching yoga now? 
'lol, you know your breathing can knock you out?'  Hahah  lol yes.
'Just do as I ask Ren, you wanted fucking help'
Not really...

 

'Have you noticed you hold your breath when you argue with me'   meby now you made me think of it.
'Breath, please bitch'   lol   I'm sad about my cat...   '🙄'  lol that looks like your unsympathetic you know.  
'Think I give a shit Ren? You know me better that that'  
Want me to count too?   'lol, I'd not expect as much from your attention mouse... Just pause at the end of each in and out'   Paw's?   Lol...   Don't just shake your head.  

'Why, Bitch why?'   Eh? 'Just breath, I can't be arsed with your side track mind right now' 

'You can argue with me Ren, try doing it with the same breath pattern'  lol I can't 

'I'm still here'  I know
'Go'  The stops feel still.

'MMM'  errrr..   ;Lay down and do what I told you'  kk

 

'Yeh you'll likely fall asleep,   It's YOUR natural state'

'Back to me now Mouse'   Inka..   I'm tired..  'I know, going to infuse you'  Hu? 

'Wait up..'  

Eh?  
A mature ego will resist collapse and go on to create it's own entity??

KK what's an entity?  Lol.... And fuck off with I've told you before.   Remind me now?

'Why me bitch?'  you're deflecting?

'And I'm advancing your perspective'  

Grrrrr 'Your sad Ren'  Mmmm I know that, but curiosity you know.

 

OK, what's your perspective of an entity..  'A current egos collective integrated awareness' 

Lol my head feels segregated...  'I'm trying to show'  So not the current outer ego?
Inner ego then?   Feels like someone dropped a stone in a pond? 

Kk I'll ask Malico, feels like you just scooped me up on a spade btw.

Malico??
'Ren?'  Heya  'Yes it has been a while?'  Lol you sound like a priest in my mind....  'You Ren, still sound like a child'
lol  ok...  I errrr 'I dislike your scattered mind Ren, and the fact you can't even recall what you want'

Meby shut up and let me think enough to ask...   You know I forget this shit unless I write it down.
'That's intentional Ren'  Why? 
'I'd suggest you focus one question at a time' 
Pfff  I can't argue with that.... Kk

What is an entity?  'It's a collaboration of compatible'looks like a dandelion flower in 3d?... The words faded away.
'Yes, I struggle to understand how Inka suffers your constant interuptions' 
Sorry, I just see what you lot show in piccys too... 



'Lay down and allow me to show?'   I'm sleepy, I'll likely to fall asleep.....
'We have all night' Could I 'Bring who you like Ren, if it will help get it threw to your useless mind'  Sheesh.. 

 

As per Inka's suggestion I go see Malico. 

I knock on the front door with it being a formal house n all.
He greets me with a sigh, shake of his head then we hug. 
I follow him threw to the back lounge, the room he took me to after he made me take a bath.

I lay on the sofa and then all this stuff came out.
like shapes... I duno, out of me and into the fire.
It felt like the sofa was a roundabout and I was on spin with stuff being flung out.

'Recall Ren, The mediator between you and your ddad' You offered me a halfway house.
'I did, and prepared you for what was to come' 

Mate, I got sectioned 3 times!!

'Do you think you're crazy Ren?'  No... well, depents on who's terms.

'Then I'll ask you to trust me once again' Errrr

'Your answer to your entity is part of you and part of me,

It's the aspects you have synthesised and personalities you stand beside' 
Eh?  Synthesised?

'Relax Ren, you're on a journey some place else'

I'm sad about my cat 'We all feel that'  Ummmm ok

Inka appears on the sofa and starts to smoke. 
I'd looked at him and he tells me.  'He's a mediator, I'm an instigator'

And I'm tired and confused 😣

Wake 313 

Didn't recall much, felt like I'd been in a really deep sleep. 

 

The other 2 were complaining I was taking up all the space on the sofa so they shrank me and I went into a dream.

 

An odd hub,  A female who was sort of like Alison my cousin and a guy who in her dream was her partner.
Aunty Sheila was there too.
At some point I'd started to kiss her hubby..   Was an odd vibe, with them all wondering why I'd do that.
I was confused too.

There was another room, that had been set up for someone with a physical disability. 
Keycode door locks. 
Kids sleeping on the floor in blankets in a nursery.

Then an odd thing with a guy who looks like a young keifer sutherland again.   He was in another dream not long back. 

This time though he was with a group of others where they had cardboard silver wrapped musical instruments in their hands??

Last dream was really odd.  I was dreaming with Inka rather than Malico for this one.
Was a puzzle game, I was inside.  
Inka was outside in a room, but following what was going on inside via a vid on a drone.

The puzzle was collapsing with me inside.  I needed credit to complete something, and I knew Inka could lend me it, but I had no way of communicating what I needed.

It was odd, as I had a multi layered perspective too, able to leave my dream body and observe it laying on the puzzle box floor... Kinda flying with the drone, but also see Inka standing behind a large white viewing screen in a small white room.

 

Hummmm. 🤔