Tree Me

'Plenty of time to wake and hone, your fucked up senses to lead you home'  

Home my Lord?  I know, the game youplay?  As I dance my being threw each day,




'Dance all you like witch, we hold your heart'

And you know I'll come back to the game in the dark. 

'Confused and tired?' Yeh I am a bit. I want to play and feel like I fit.

'Sleep then Ren we have games to play, much to do before your day'

Wake and it's still 23.23 I felt like I'd been asleep for weeks.

'😆 come'  Where? 'To us'  Hehe yeh ok..

Shaking the tree to see what falls 'It's you that fell into the illusion of all, that's what's grown, now follow your heart and weave your way home' 

Dreams are arranged like a big guillotine shape? Oh was that the tree of life shape I asked to be shown? 

I wake next at 212, A long strange dream, main dream area.

A car filled with stuff and garden clearing. The garden is filled with people they are outside and I have music I also keep having to step over a fence, no Gate.!!!!

Next up is a wired dynamic thing, a female has been taken prisoner.. she had been freed but wants to go back, there are 2 children too, then a strange egg thing and a ghost.  

It's an odd house in the country the woman is laying down and there are sprites/fairys too. I'm using the music to find an egg in the wall? Illeth was with me and then I find the egg and it's orange and I'm sucking raw egg yolk from a wall into a bowl using music? The others watch... there was a wired thing of catholic religion too.  

Next I'm inside what feels like orange/yellow egg yolk too.

Another dream, In this one I'm non of the people... just watching. A camper van, bigger this time but Fay and friend are in it with her friends Dad. There is a strange house/cottage to rent. The virus features and a scout leader whats to bring the children back together and a man wants to waltz many veiws offered and presented.

I speak to a friend Rachel who got burnt and ask how she is healing, she tells me of her lungs not her skin. 

Another person is showing the rooms in the guest house saying how everyone can be separate but people don't want to be. I can see people on a building high up. My Dad and Chris want to tell of about cults that few know of and I see the sky flickering in a way that others can't. I'm watching people select weapons to mostly men, this had a game/mmo feel.  

Woke to write/right 

When I go back dreams are hazy I know I'm with group but we are blended and merged just flowing awareness. Wake at 505. Fruit/farm?  'Sleep :)'  

Wake again at 707  'Hehe, you good Ren?'  Very.. hazy colours and weaving... 'You don't need to understand just listen and play - the game changes, we have the perspective REAL TIME' lol <3

The kids come in to tell me about there dreams (This has happened a bit recently Fay had had a dream about lovers and a room of roses the other day... then last night her and dot it was magic creatures and matriarchs/battles ) I gave the kids dreams again? 'We did Ren' wow.

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I feel so different, still quite, have I always dreamt through the deck so fast?  

 

'No, you would get stuck a while, you also only noticed the more obvious cards'

I notice the transitions?  'E motion' 

  

 The Queen thing... I didn't understand.  'You do now ;)'  Yes different archetype energy. Yes.   

 

The conifers are awake, 'Holly too' Yes I feel them. 'They feel you too'

 

The Chinese Zodiac... larger cycles bigger cogs?  Yes. The fire dragon therefor is more of my entity energy than my current incarnation.  'OFC' 

For this system rather than larger? 

'Yes Ren'  

 

Bipolar is Archetypes cycles?  'Yes, or stuck at a section repeating a loop'

 

 

 

We see the perfect imperfections, 

the cracks and the breaks, 

the flaws in the surface of mirror where we wake. 

The cycles the patterns like the ripples on a lake the texture of the air of the breath we partake.

In the still hear we hear the roaring of the waiting to be, 

in the dark wait the colours weaving forms to see.

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Why do I get this asleep and awake it's so fuzzy atm?   'Just where you're at, you're coming up again, or down - depending on your trajectory'   Haha TY, for the Syncs btw, 'NP Witch, you're with us here to playing'





 

A note.


 A shell (lol my name) ) 

I get a friend invite I accept....few days later they post this?

Leons words??  'Witch, you upped this once allready'  

'You know it's you that will burn?'   OFC,

The Recipe?  The big Red button?   12/21 & 21/12 same date flipped US/UK/AU... mirror?  'Yes Ren, symbols and pattern recog' 



Michael?   Like El?  this ties into the Elohim, Bible stuff too?   'OFC REN, your way down the symbolic, pattern recog plug hole'    WHOLE 😉  



13.13 that was from the Trump dream?   Why dose the Trump (Oh a deck? Archetype!!) Want me to do micro biom work up on a work up on a Leon/Lion??

'You won't quit Ren'  IKR 😏

Like I said last night 😛

I know my crew wanderer and play, in service to love we weave a day... though often apart in heart we are home, connected as one we will dance in earths dawn. I don't even care if I cease to be... in my life now I follow what I feel is more me.

So as I asked...

--lol  Random question, but is Leon filled with shards that have been exorcised or rejected?

 

Oh...  Yes then?  

People kept casting out shit in their name?    Oh is that the shaman name Kept?   Wow... Fuck, so the shit we Kept? 

 

My soul retrieval's?????

 

The fragments of self that are rejected, considered animal, dirty base? 

 

You told me I know how to find them and take them where they belong... 👀❤👀

 

I'm moving to Hermit or something I guess?  

I don't get why or how we are weaving every story/the bible/pantheons .. or why your quiet🙄

Likely to pin it on me???  But pffffff 😄

Ah ok!!... nice deep weave Crew, you are me and I am you.   and I AM swimming in the human stew, if it gets to hot it matters not,  as I'm only here as a flea in an ear!!  💜  😆

I'm well on my way to being upside down... 'Then once again you won't be, the only, Witch in town'   pfffewwww 😍

I'm on so many levels?   'No shit'  Haha   I can't even linier this in a blog.  How I can weave a fiction book. 

This is so hermit/   valk/..  Anat


Why the bible now?  'It's your final trigger'  I can feel your stupid snigger 😆 'Ride it REN, Your almost home... '   Do I get to remeber the name I own? 

'That depends Witch on how you play'   This is going to be tied to that new age Mer, kha, Bah stuff?? 'Who knows?'  

Grrrrrrrrrrr

'Down, Ren, were done with Bitch Totem'   😈

Symbols of Love

'Not done yet witch, we washed your shit. Kaylo into you, you into me we are going to find Loci to see what we be'  I'd jumped to the roundhouse, feet in mud Kaylo met me I apologise we hugged and took me into the water, I lay the burn shivering, letting the water flow around me. Kaylo and Inka there too.. A red blanket and fire and we all joined awareness. A keyboard but the keys are all pictorial symbols that I know.

Wow! Dream dust 'Pretty?' No shitty, 😍 Amazing depth weaving like coloured light and patterns but so fine too and organised.

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Wake at 202. Wow, I was 'In service, not done write and come back' ok

I was with Michel again, we had done surgery hazy but the vets and theatre is unfamiliar, The IV catheters strange and wired, I'd had to ask where they were as the packets were so strange and the colour coding different from what I'm used to the size I needed was coded pink, but I don't recall what we were doing surgery on. 

 (Not sure if it was the Leon cat) I was done for the day and had gone off to party.. this was also long, we dance, took pills, I'd gone back the following day to clean up the theatre (The surgery had been out of hrs and I'd just left instruments soaking as it was time to dance) 

When I get back Micael is there he's been on a massive bender and won't let me in another person too. I ask them to pass me stuff out to start with and they do I start to clear up. They feel crap and want to talk so after a while let me in they say to me 'No-one there hu?' I tell them it depends where you're looking. They listen and look and we sit leaning on one another on a swing. I tell him out mind is a matrix a hall of mirrors, but our heart is a home, when we use them together we are never alone, he cries I hold him.

'Sleep Witch'  

Next I'd been with everyone, all inside each other as a group felt like a big tunnel of being, warm and flowing. 'Up and right/Write a bit Ren' 

I'd got up at 4, still feels hazy I was emotionally raw, everything was still dreamlike. Was up for 40mins then head to sleep.  

Wake confused. 'Don't think just feel'   

A dream, I'd been at a strange school/show festival. It started with a square space.. I was in a production/show also helping to choreograph it. Behind me was a hospital too we had planted to some people to elicit reactions and the reactions were being monitored to adjust the program/care - people were starting to notice the 'plants' 

I move to another side of the square shape, there are makeup's lip balms nail polish with different colours and smells, I like the purple but it smelt of lavender and I'd wanted it to smell like grape.  

I could move threw the middle of the cube too but most people were round the outside.   

I move threw back to where I'd started with the production and they tell me 'you don't recall' I shake my head and they tell me I can move now and I know I head to a tent I know I have.  

It's on the other side of the cube and it's outdoors it's been raining heavily and the tent is strange, part canvas white, also dark blue and yellow heavy like old tent with plastic panels too it's been raining hard and the fabric is soaking and the tent damp inside, I'm opening it hoping I can dry the fabric a little so it doesn't get mildew.  

When I look outside my tent is pitched next to land that is washing and crumbling away, below is a rift, like salt flats or pools.. white chalk cliffs with pools of very blue water a thin silver metal wire has been put around the edge at ankle height.  

Then Em is with me and the tent has changed into the blue sky blue VW camper we used to have, it's still part tent and it's hanging half on of the cliff, I know it's going to fall and I float up out of it watching it fall into the rift male me is watching and he lights a match and chucks it down after the VW that lands upside down, I know the flue will catch and the bus explode so Em/ME & male me move away from the edge waiting for the pop and after we go back to watch the rest of the van on fire. 

Then I remembered before the dream I'd been cold like Ice, even though I had tones of blankets I'd jumped to the others we were huge all inside each other joined and merged awareness and emotion flowing and sharing. 'You feel?' Ok I guess.

'You squashed us Ren, Like I did to you yesterday.. it's healing'  

The hot/Cold? 'Ice & Fire' - The Camper Van? 'It was the flame to ignite'

Lovers to Chariot? The show? Strange square? lessons that's hazy? 'Symbols - Square, the elements were on each side square' They were? 'You started on mind/sword/air.' . Oh disks was bottom? 'Yes' Errrr, the rain, water cups... and then the fire exploding and burning? 

The 2 cards both have red cloaks that was the wired red blanket. 

Wow. 

'Dosn't have to make sense atm Ren, just keep dreaming and trusting 💜'   I see the patterns repeating and the stuff weaving The bits I keep going to find. 

--- Could you show me the tree of life in 3d again plx?   'Yes, Ren'   TY.   We are on chariot now?  I'm just quietly confused😉

 

Chewing Gum for my Fractured Mind.

Dreaming a world that I don't fit within. Then sleeping to wake in, the whole that I fit.  In my sleep I'm awake, in my day I'm away from the place that I love, pushed to weave in the day. And I know I should love the form that I have and I love my surrounds and I really am glad, but I'm sick of pretending this body is me and hiding the bit that they don't like to see. A fire to dream by, a wind to ignite, a dark to get lost in and use inner sight. Water to flow with the stream to a sea, I surrender to flow what I think I should be.

😊 Wake at 121 No recall but I feel whole again.. 'Come here Ren'

Next wake at 313 at first no recall... Inka?  'Come here, if you want recall take an ego'  Hahah I split awareness part merging and instant remembering of many dreams'.

One dream was a very vivid version of my main dream area I wanted some chewing gum, it's the end of the day and martin was closing up but the door is still unlocked. It's the newsagents again but different, more wood and the layout is flipped I recognise it from other dreams in this version though, in fact I realise this is another probable version and have lots of recalls here.

I go and get the gum, he's cashed-up so I leave 21p on the till for the next day I chat to him opening the gum. I've picked the fruity one that I don't really like and he's telling me about a friend of his that hates me. I listen, it's something I did and a Christmas jumper and something I'd done? I jump up and sit on the counter listening he shows me an image in a fabric bag of what I'd done and the image is moving so I jump in. 

I'm in a strange film that I'm supposed to have choreographed and yet I have no recall of doing so, the things I am viewing are vaguely familiar.

I'm seeing a young version of me my hair is deep red like it was when my Mam died. It was a collage or had a education/fun vibe.  I'm with Clair we are on a rugged mountainside..my view is that of a bird and I'm watching that me (Bird of prey as I'm fast and powerful) and I'm high and swoop low over the other me and Clair and I'm the perspective of the scene after I fly low over them I move around and up a valley where there are vegetable beds and cold frames and the rest of our class?? We had been gardening and the view was of the others waving at the bird view camera and playing with the hose pipe.

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Another dream

I'm in an unfamiliar white kitchen, it's small and there is a matching one threw a wall it's got our next-door neighbours in I need to get outside threw their kitchen and I'm waiting for their daughter to finish her food... she is eating of the red-tiled kitchen floor. I leave the floor is greasy and sticky, outside I wander with another friend Niki around a huge ploughed field, the earth is a warm red clay colour and dry. The distant field borders are dark dense and old woodland and there is a waterfall, tired pool that we are heading for, the scene is stunning and the water bright blue and sparkling.

In another dream, I'm with my neighbour who struggles to walk but she's different and healthy and in her home, with an Aunt and another female we are waiting for her nurse she is walking, I'm talking of concurrent timelines and just moving to a better one, the others are trying now too. 

The last one that was just visual physical just energy like iron fillings but more like black birds scattering..like when Inka had jumped inside a cloud of my awareness scattering it using the repelling polarity. Like the pink birds, 'Yes Ren, you want colours find the team' Hahaha ok.... Also the word Lord and or Adoni ?? 'Find tomorrow'   Ok.. all referances strange also last card? Pink birds too, and crow and Jim/Jude all symbols hu?   'Yep Witch, ride the wave of your emotions' 

I jump to Leon's islands next then a wired thing I'm filling a whippy ice cream machine with the liquid icecream mix. The ice cream is white it felt like the cox's icecream from home where they make there own ... Oh yeh, when I'd got to one of Leons island I'd gone to sleep and dream with Illeth she'd been relaxing on the grass there, Kaylo had been sleeping beside her... I think she might have been laying on a checked rug again but I can't recall well.

The dream with the Cadburys caramel bunny? Ok.. Hahah 

I'd had another dream of a dead cat, It was Pixel Ian's old black cat that a fox killed but in the dream, I don't recall the cause of death, I was burying it and then I realised after I'd buried it in black plastic and that was all wrong as the chemicals in the body were now trapped in the bag, I realised I needed to exhume the body and wrap it properly in fabric, I didn't much want to do this but the longer I left it the more unpleasant it would be so I was looking for the fabric.

A dream.., I was talking to my gran only it's just her awareness I'm in an unfamiliar kitchen someone has left out food and I'm putting it away so it stays fresh for their return... I felt it was my gran's house but it's not familiar and then my godmother's awareness joined too and they are both speaking to me they are telling me about 'Seeing' also about soul shards, how shards/fragments can enter me and I can take them to where they belong.  

In the other dream I'd been in a field with lots of other people we are all young and the field is wide and green we are in strange fancy dress and it feels like school sports day. 

Some penguins, dinos, witches and fairies.
I had big boots, black and white tights and multicoloured rainbow hair and top, gold and silver are woven into the top... it's a top I owned as a kid and fay found and put on the other day, it's made from patches of recycled fabrics. My hair was in 2 bunches rainbow coloured but light not like the dark rainbow colour from this dream. Other friends were in Dino and dragon outfits and we were taking part in different games in small teams.   

It felt like school sports day mixed oh like the old May week/Beltain celebrations, fun and competitive in a silly way 😆  

'See why we stay in role Ren? We need to hide from each other to make the games fun' lol I guess...  'Get up'  Blugh really... it's 515 'You'll be glad you did'  pffffff ok. 

--  Nap later...

10mins
'I told you, you would need to write'  I duno what that was 'Another wall' and I - 'Did what you do Ren, if you can break it or get round it you become it'  Wow.. 


10mins later...
I wanted to come back and 'fight' you said 'no' lol   You 'contained you Ren, and squashed you'  I woke but ... didn't wake wondering where I was... You said, 'Inside me, now stay still'  That was... 'Healing' Errr I was thinking vibrationally wibbly 'Same thing, you can fuck off now😈'  lol 😆 💚

The John thing?....  'Confused Witch?'  Very!   'Good' 😏  Hahahaha

Also the Gospel according to Nate on the Quickening is the funniest thing I've read in ages.. TY  😆 'YW crazy witch'  

Off script, 'OfC my Witch' 
Then I play my lord, though I will never obey.
 
'I'd expect no less from a hidden queen,
Standing on the boundary,
Weaving reality's unseen.

 We are playing lovers?
'As we stand apart'  
An attraction unrelenting when we live from the heart.

Then I drag you ever down inside of the earth,

'As you know so well.  With death, comes rebirth' 


'GG witch' CBA to read the card..  to many kids.. O.o 
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'A space away?'   I don't want to play
'Then your game is done?' If I'm not having fun? 
'You tell me queen?' You know where I stand, a foot in the water a foot on the land.

'You're sick of the noise you can't help but hear?'
and I'm stuck with your bug of some sense in my ear.
'Yet your world tells you your crazy, when the voice in your head

tells you don't try to teach them, 

chill out in your bed'

Intention,
'you're big'
The noise is to loud.

'You should not drink you get sucked into the crowd'
But I don't want to go bk there, I don't want to be that shell of a being

they think that they see. 

---Zzzz

Suck me in and chew me up and when you think you've had enough you will spit me out and I'll start to sing from a noise that I can make I will start to begin. Leon? Matrix, is mind?  '????? and we told you you're with us till it's broken'  👀 yeh.. it's fucked mate 😏  '💙 good rx then soon then Ren'  Oh? Kids Time? it's 2112 O.o  'Yep'   

The we have a new recipe?  Why dose sleep make more sense than waking?