Confused

'I like Ren's bald head or her horns' Inka you like me as a bitey mouse or a woodlouse!  'I don't mind having you as a flea either'  😏lol

'Come' Where 'your place...we're in your messy space after all.'

Wish I was too. 'You are, I've got your heart and you're a part of us'.

 

The Jumanji film, the 1 eye, the bugs the rodents..... 'Yup, Ren 😈 come here mouse, to your house you know we are playing time.  Anyway, your versions better find it!'

 

Wake puzzled.. 'Symbols squeaky, patterns too... I'm with you we dream as 2' 

Ori? Scottish?  'Her energy Mouse?'  Oh... she won't back down, fearless and forward, she's funny and loud.  Friendly and loyal and loves to game.

'Quality you share mouse you're part of the same... find the dream with her too please'

Me as child boggart again? 'I was with you there, I have time for wild things Ren and now is then'  All now? 'OFC Ren, I'll show you how'

 

Oh.. you woke me 303... my recalls crap you can help?

Ohhh TW wow.

Dark and wild, I'd been at main dreamhouse but at a balcony.. Rachel and Ori in my parents room 'See the similarities' Yes.. they were with a partner who was a mix of people Dom/Roland & more

I'd arrived there by bus with them.
All the 3 front windows of the terrace were the same white walls and 2 small wooden shelves with a colourful painting. 

I was upstairs then, I kept opening the balcony window into a storm looking NE over and into the sea.... I was waiting for something. 

 

My bro was in the dream, our mother gone/dead we were supposed to visit and Aunt for food but preferred alone instead.... we were going to meet for chips

'Good mouse, back to your house'  There had been a shrine is some woods too.... here my soul tree, it was hung with beads and fabric Kelly was there.  I was trying to bring us all together, we would share the chips/food.  An adventure too skydiving or skiing's?  Sometimes exciting anyway.

'See how you're better at night squeaky?  Not distracted, can type and write'  Yes... Same in the garden, I like the world asleep.. My mind works better in silence 'Come back and dream here'

I'd jumped to the roundhouse at the start of the night... Malico & Leon were there too, I'd sat on the floor close to the fire and Inka.. I can't remember what we spoke about.    'Not much before you were back being a baby boggart Ren' 

Haha yeh...

 

That was new... 'You like?'  lol yeh, wyrd & chaotic but yeh.

 

I'd been fighting with Ian, I'd been fighting with lots of people!

In the dream I'd been booked on a holiday with Em... plane was 4am

Ian wanted to fight about eating meat, could get that to me the meat became part of me same as a plant and all was live.. Dog there too.

Oh linked to this dream 'Yeh Ren'

 

There is a dog with poop on it's paws and nose, I was trying to get it out of the building as it was making a mess... Em (Other way up me) was about to be expelled from school so didn't want to take the plane. 
I'd lost my passport and.. then Irean comes home (Not sure why I keep dreaming about her it's a unity/one thing I think)
Ahooo everything was a mess.  I'd been so angry at one point I'd bit a lump off a tooth.

Then I was flying outside the building and it's a cliff drop into a pool and a window that looks out.  I was seeing how my mood could blow holes in this ravine and make water shoot out and fall down... was very cool and beautiful looking... the dream was so full of emotion, lots going wrong, dream wasn't bad just my emotions were so strong and storm like :)
 

'555, Squeaky come?'  OMW... 'You should have slept downstairs btw the vibe would have been different'  lol it's ok, Marlean/Mary/Mag was in the dream too?? 'Yeh Ren and teachers, all annoyed at you 😈'  lol yep... again 😀

 

Another dream of many.. very messy.. but I knew we were one.  I was the one...

 

lol next I must have been listening to the recycling lorry as I was glass smashed and fractured into many... the same but shattered and apart.

 

So many more dreams but everything was so chaotic and blurred together and messy 'You're merging awareness with me Ren'

It's so tangled and scrambled.. A snow dance, A talent scout... someone had been headhunted for a role/job.   

A show, and play and a court case.  I was in the courtroom too... walking about the odd wooden seats and furniture watching.

 

Then I'd been paired with an unusual male and Penny was teaching him to read... Her father was the Harbourmaster.

Oh she was in another dream lately... then I recall a dream from the night before... Beds on shelves inside a building that had got progressively bigger and bigger, I could see the old roofs going up the wall like high tide lines going down a beach.

We had to float up to the bed shelves I was watching someone try and see one of the bed spaces high up.

 

They are just shelves with a thin mattress and a small shelf and some board to stop the dreamers from falling out.   I was renting a bed in this space. 

 

The seller was explaining that the building was never supposed to be a home, it was a customs/port storage warehouse.  'Mmmmmm' 

What's that supposed to mean Hahah it's 818 'You missed me Ren' Obviously though oof my brain!

'Malico's trying to defrag you ;)' 

Haha oh I recall you two arguing something about an octopus and a golden ???? I forget the other word it was an unusual term...  We had gone to the hunter's room. 

'Where's your head at'  lol the song?  'It's to do with the argument Ren'  Hahah I was happy dreaming.  Just watched the VID! 😝😆

 

Lots of Bizzar Entities.

Monday 15th.

Busy and jumbled stuff, like word/salad and fast too - felt wizzy.

Painting a door over and over in different colours.  Something about Gaddafi. 

The tabloids and washing people.   Brainwashed?  A girl making massive cats cradles.

Tuesday 16th

Woke very awake and looked at the time. 2.22
Then when back to sleep into an odd dream. 
It was a post or Youtube channel/chat that I was involved in.   An old post, perhaps a dream.

In the dream I'd gone to re-read it and as I was looking someone was commenting real-time and knew I was looking at it. 

They had drawn the dream, cartoon style but correct and abstract (It was energy flows) a big purple-pink tube thing.

I wanted to know how they knew what I'd seen. It was a really interesting conversation with lots to read.    and then 'Ian' is there with the kids and he's angry at me for talking online...and is butting in, saying he will take the kids if I don't stop talking/replying.  

I feel my attention pulled 2 ways and the chat is asking me about my dream. 

They have asked.. '...........Planetary stabilising entity, what system were you originally from?'  I know they are referencing the pink/purple tube vortex thing and I want to reply as I know it's part of a set, some make energy and others atmosphere and yet Ian is there trying to cause/have a 'fight' (only it wasn't actually him) 

I woke frustrated as it was a really interesting conversation I was trying to have... 

Oh odd, I was wondering about another dream which involved a social media thread I'd had lately and that night I also woke at 2.22





Next dream was an off-world/game.  It's fast and busy and there are 2 factions light-dark who are both pestering to recruit me even though I tell both sides over and over I'm not interested in taking part.

It was wired as I was being made to take part by not taking part as they were pestering and following me around to pick, but it was a dumb battle and both sides were the same.  It was similar to this dream in some ways.
Lame gold/bright godlike superheroes and then smoky insubstantial enemy but they are both the same.

It's a vast world with many types of entities most seem to have picked aside.    

I'm avoiding the recruiting factions while following them around this world watching their pointless battle.  At one point I'm on a busy bus/tram very modern going past a vast lake.  

On the bus, I meet another like me (We are tall, long-limbed with white/blue skin very sharp pointed small teeth.  Grey eyes and very fine blue/silver hair)     Almost like a more refined version of the Boggert I've been a couple of times.   We called ourselves  'Night Wraiths' 

He's in a uniform and he's arresting me but I feel his intention and I know I'm not actually being arrested, like me he's not taking sides.  He's just pretending to arrest me so we can 'leave'.     As we leave the bus/tram all the people on it cheer for us. 

Of the tram is another female we look almost identical and the male removes the uniform.   We walk together to a shingle beach on the shore of the lake, it's dusk and a group of various entities are sitting and laying around a large campfire.    It has a festival, celebration feels and the 3 of us greet the entities already there and then we lay down together and embrace.


3rd dream is an off-world school/uni learning setting.  It's very busy and I'm struggling to stay awake there. 
I was again a strange entity one that is not normally humanoid and I was struggling with the form I was in, and it was making me very sleepy and the dream very hazy.   Mostly the dream I just recall being curled up watching or sleeping in strange places, like in bookcases or under desks.   I was small, with wired characteristics.








Other Boggart dream from 25th May 18 (On a page with lots of other stuff)
Very long dream..


This dream was one of them that is years long  (I think it is the start of a dream/life from another dream
Boggart

as I'm an infant version of the same kind of blue creature.)  I'd forgotten about the other dream until waking the on waking realised it was almost the younger version of this thing. 

I'm non-human small with very long limbs, blue grey skin small abdomen with a pot belly and pointy teeth, hairless all over...  As the dream starts with mainly humans  I know I'm 'different'
The starting dream setting is an 'orphanage/school'

It's a group of old stone buildings set in forest woodlands the world is primitive and many different types of entity exist there. 
The orphanage is mainly human children with some half breeds it's run by a half breed man (hes got green skin thick set taller than the humans with pointed ears and teeth not as exaggerated as mine)

It's this male who is a primary contact as the older humans at the orphanage find me unpleasant  ( I was told I was found as collateral damage in a battle and as I was small and helpless brought here but the orphanage is all I remember)
I'm taught and fed communally with the other children there but they consider me stupid/simple. 
  
I'm confused...  I'm struggling to fit in and keep up with the other children.  I'm incontinent and can't learn or talk like them (I can't make the right sounds with my mouth to speak or hold a pencil)  I can understand them though. 
I'm bullied and teased by the other children as I smell, and wet myself .. and while I'm not 'abused' there I am beaten occasionally and humiliated by being made to wash my nappy's (that don't work well as I have a tail) the harsh treatment is mainly in an attempt to 'domesticate' me. 

The Green man is not usually unkind to me when I see him but is frustrated by my lack of any progress  - while other children are growing fast and learning I'm still unable to talk/write/not wet myself) 
There are communal bedrooms with wooden cots,  but I'm kept mainly in a small room with a wooden bunk bed alone to stop the other kids picking on me and for hygiene reasons..  ( I have no bedding or lights )-  it's lonely and confusing.

I'm taken one day to see the head of the orphanage he's with another green entity this one larger still and his skin thicker and a deeper green (I recognise this type from other dreams)   there kind of fantasy orc types  if I had to describe them. 
The Orphanage head explains that I'm leaving with the new male that he knows where my species are and he's travelling that way.

My next recall is travelling threw forests with the orc type entity.. he's taken and thrown away all my clothing, I'm much happier nakid and outside as we travel he explains things to me about my species  (draws images with sticks in the soil and mimes things too, I understand a little of what he says.

He's taking me home to my forest, my type are usually solitary and live for a very long time and spend years as 'infants'

As we travel the woodland changes the trees and colours until the trees are changing colour and getting thicker and bigger...  They are grey blue/purple like me, the bark is the grey bit. 

Soft thick dark blue wet moss covers the ground.   The light is different too there are kind of glowing lights in the trees but the canopy's is so high there is no sky to speak of so it's darker and the air is warm and very damp. 
I know it's home... i fit perfectly into the habitat.. my long limbs and claws are perfectly suited for climbing the trees and being bald and nekid the water runs easily from me I'm the same colour so camouflaged, though I felt totally safe and at home there.  There was also this amazing fruit on the trees thick skinned but soft and wet inside. 

Wake up at that point.

Middle Earth?

Strange... I didn't feel I was dreaming for much of the night - but I knew I was doing stuff.   I slept upstairs, then downstairs same busy sensation but no recall and then loads of recall all at once!

I'd been awake and asleep all night

I sleep again...   

I need to go to the dwarfs show them the axe and make them an offer??

'You know now what you have been doing all night?'   Yeh, hunting using emotion.... 'Yes, there was no need to remember any dreams'   Ah  

In the last one lots of bits were coming together. 







The people with me are old school friends again people who use as male me &  crew members.
We are in a dream hub, it's a wired 50's/60's style wood-panelled room with wood framed beds.  

They all have matching old-fashioned green flowery bedspreads on and there are wooden nightstands around the room.   
On mine, I'm keeping a jug of water with some blue cheese in!  The jug was grubby with some black mould and I was cleaning it and refreshing the water before I set off.

We are meeting to get ready for something  We are at the edge of an entrance into vast underground systems... Inner earth spaces.   They are all connected, our destination is a space that I was in in a dream so so long ago!  
Our group have space inside, I can visualise it from memory.

It was like a carved cavern wide low, old with a sort of chest/vault that is apart of the structure.   A massive red and gold woven rug on the floor.  Thin channels of glowing molten something run threw the floor lighing the space.   Like a gringots vault meets a lost tresure film.
Access it is protected and restricted to us.  Em mirror me had set the access it's guarded by pumpkins! They had lazers in their eyes😆   I could see her doing this as an overveiw.
We are preparing to re-access the space/vault there.   I'd been hunting collecting soul aspects.  

There was a sign on the wall above one bed.
It's black with neon yellow/green and I know it's for the architects/Logo's  DJ  - He was still missing.... the word began with a V though.  

The others had gone ahead I still had dreams to dream. 

There was an elderly female dying, 6months left to live we were with her as she faded.  

A gate, chickens and I was taking a photo, I didn't know the people in the photo they asked me to take 2.

A dream I knew was important too I'd met Lena - We had a journey to take over frozen mountains to find/take something.
I'd brought a picnic and she was telling me I shouldn't have collected it yet as we had to walk to the far side of the mountains.
I'd asked what was there and she told me 'The Sun'  that was where I was to take the 2 headed axe to the dwarfs.   I told her I could carry it, she was surprised at my speed and we made good time.

Football match again??  Anyhoo for some reason, I was playing in a guys team atm, and not very good at it.... 😂

I was with Malico too in the house... I don't recall how I got there meby I'd been there all night... Oh, yeh.  I'd been awake for ages yesterday..and I'd gone to find Inak and we went to see all of the others ending up in the house.

I was with Malico but the surroundings were not really formed was more just our awareness - He sees something different in me than the others do.  

We joined heart awareness and he was showing me the dreams we share.  Elder & Fae dreams, also
The rock-cut ruins dreams,
Trashing an Energy grid
The destroyed city... wow 💜  Wanted by the Sun.....  Leon!!!🌞
Also the kids in the base that escaped lockdown?? 'Symbols Ren'  WTF 😲😲😲 'See why you're a liability bitch 😆'  Hahah that was the day after the last Solstice!! Just wow!!!


The part in the story too?  'OFC- Feel a bit more Ren then get up'


Axe double-headed?  'You have had a dream about it Ren'  If you say so 😜

Oh the foundry too?  And the Elf tower thing?  Yes..   Both foundries... 'You melted down a train' 

Another train and female family  WOW!  lol  Ok.......  😲😲  Fire water, more

I'd fallen asleep but it was the destroyed underground city dream.. this time rather than watching the girls I knew I'd lived there too and was feeling the pain of losing our home.  😢

'You should have stayed in the dream longer' Hurt, sadness... like the avatar film.. the boggart forest too, the lake home too 😞 
'💜symbols Ren, many worlds, many games'

I'd asked Malico if we could make more tunnels below his dream house and connect them and he reminded me of the portal there!   It was going back to the other tunnels one of my earliest soul retrievals/possessions 😆 That we revisited.
Also a big underground network....  'told you to write it Ren!'    Yeh!  'Who has the perspective?'   lol not me it seems😏



Tolkien middle earth?  Middle way? Like Middle me?  the 'Fine, fucking line bitch 😈'   Yeh, then why do we play both sides??   'Games Ren, service and catalyst... multidimensional ones remember?' 

Oh, kind of   The boggart forest.. Leon telling me I'd lived way fewer lives domesticated 😆


 'You have a very low tolerance for work and slavery Ren'  Haha. everything else learns threw play!  'Humans do too and should'

'Write Ren, your memory is crap when yu jump so much' lol! that had been so real!! 😍 'It is all as real as it isn't, layers of games and dreaming'

I'd been in the fae dream again, a Pixi thing hahaha there were so many of us!!   We wanted to play and weave threw the day, elementals.  I'd been chatting with a grumpy gnome and then his face changed and he winked with leons eyes and grinned at me before going back to grumbling 😂

Bugs n Epic Dance Shoes

Errr...  what 😳

'I said or take the game to another level'

 

Perspective plx...  

 

Sophia represents our co creative aspect here now?  'Close enough mouse'

 

The inherent wise dom of this planet?

 

Oh...   we each have our own!  As we pick the moment, time entry of our birth!

 

'Close enough for now...  don't try to share it Ren, what you learn ripples out'  so I see, I'm jumping reality layers...' yes but you're a big bitch too, you have a few hangers on'

So we all need to learn to level our own planet up!!

 

'Or get a hook'  Hahaha what if I want to go down?

'Then your vessel needs a bloody good anchor'  Hahaha 🤣

 

Pulling down is hard too,  'molecular level'

 

We don't want to rise alone..  and some of us 'will not leave fallen'

 

Oh human racing !!!  

'Yes mouse'  wow 

 

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Wren 'inbetweeners, Holly cutty Wren for a reason mouse, just as the same as your Mama shoved you under an alter/altar'

 

Which DNA line oh  🤣

We are the weavers that pull the nodes bk together!!

 

'Inbetweeners,  your working bigger now ok'

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It's like I'm invisible?  'Good bug'  Hahah  'A parasite should tread light, don't want your host to know you're onboarded'  lol whatever

'Remember what I said Ren.  Scoot... We avoid eachother for now'  

I could meet you fast first?  Plx? 

'KK quick bitch.  My space fast'  TY

 

SHIT!  'Yes!'  What is that!  'Magnetic' 

I jumped to Inka and fuck....

Was like standing in front of a black hole!  ... All my energy nodes were going crazy!
He gave me a hug n we jumped straight to Darth D as Inka told me he was best placed to close the energy flow down.
 

I was errrrr  'Isolated'  Inka vanished then I'm awake confused as to what just happend.

'Ok, now fuck off to the others?'  lol Yeh, ok.

'We both defuse, I'll find you later'   Ok... I   errrrrr

 

'Just go to your hub Ren n chill there for a bit'  

2323  Systems, ????????   & contract navigation.   I 'Caused trouble' 
Was like copper telecommunication's we have a new high tide line?? 
I was in copper wire ...     'You're in shit Ren'  🤣  So what's new!

 

Another big stage production, we had done a performance already and were tired.
We were sitting in the wings n back stage, lots of children and animals.

Red velvet curtains the wings were big we could see the stage I was with my back to a wall watching the performance.

My lucidity was low falling in and out of dreams easily but recall and details more hazy.
I'd moved myself to the sand east of my roundhouse and was laying there just watching the tide go out, but mainly dreaming.

Racing plankton  😋 
This was odd like a tank, reminded me of snail racing but I was repelling them. 
If I put my finger into the water they all moved away from me, so I could sort of steer them. 
'Sheep Dog Ren'  Hu... Oh the gates n herding?   The magnetic thing with you, was like the opersit of when I was a wren bird above your leg?

 

'Yes, you've stuck to me before too....'   I vaguely recall.  'Find later'  kk


The other dreams were game like, Kaylo and Loci had joined me on the beach.

lol they kept playing with my tail 🤣
The dreams were game like jumping from a university/school place.

 

A wall of doorknobs all shapes and sizes and then some with keys that were like a pink/silver colour.  

Racing games that we were playing in a class room, I didn't win any was to slow.
All the games had these white glowing loot box's.

People kept getting the same epic.  It was a purple pair of shoes called 'Dance'
I was pleased for them, but I preferred to dance barefoot.

An odd dungeon crawler too the same purple shoes kept dropping from these glowing white box's  one person got 2 pairs. 

Oh yeh the school races,   I'd been in a lift too we all had a uniform, grey and school like.
Someone was telling me 'you're dirty' I'd been squirted with soapy water. 
I was saying it's ok, it's just soap?  I duno I was confused. 
Or may be they meant me! 
Astral me's often far from clean!! 🤣

Last bit was odd,  I was still just on the sand.  It was overcast but still and we were just chilling then Inka arrived with a freaking big whip thing! 

Was like a glowing Indiana Jones thing... I'd watched him at first he was dark purple n smoky.  The contrast of the sliver white glowy was interesting.

It reminded me of when I'd been in the ink drawing underworld and found people trapped by white light bars.

I was thinking about that when he hit me and said 'Come on.  Let's fight bitch!'  🙄

We don't tend to use weapons and I didn't have one so was a bit pissed at the unfair advantage. 

Then I realised that whenever he hit me it changed the skin there to a white pink glowing line!  😂

As I was chilling in my purple Boggart form it was making me glowy zebra stripy!!  'Kaylo had laughed at me and said you'll be able to add the pink silver to your purple flames now Ren'  😆 
I'm sure there would have been a different way to learn that!!  But the glowing pink silver zebra stripes do look kind of funky ... Next time I'm manifesting something long n poky!

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Oooo Pink stripes and pink checks??
The pink checks, like Gate's trews that had tickets on.

 

Also that was the colour of the shirt that guy had on that tried to rape me, when I was still blue Boggart form?
 

How come my dragons not the same colour as my Impy thing?  'Catching up Ren'  Haha  my dragons not stripy either...'Yeh, she's less fun to fight with!'  😛

Can I revisit that inn?  Who were them modern people??  'I'll get back to you on that, Run for now' 
Hummm  Blue, Pink, Yellow.  This is to do with the tesseract cubes andhyperspace?  The colours are the different folding layers???  'Will show in sleep'  kk

Ann too another sister, she was in the dream... She took over and collapse the cabin? 
Another with Dementia they are mainly in the astral 'Yes' 
'Run Ren'  kk
 

'Nice Ren, now the heart shaped coin  dream'

 

I had no neck... jaja the hut.. jabberwocky  - dementia too...

All them Aunties Christened in the vorpal blade Church. 

 

The dream with the castle n coach 'Inka bus 😈'  Hahaha

I thought incubus were ment to have sex with people not stuff them on questionable coach trips!!
'Wishful thinking Bitch'  😆

People were being given one of 2 weapons..  oh the females were!

 

Weaponised emotion?  'You were on a different mission'  3 pronged attack stuff? 

Trident - 3 eyes...   what the glass in the mental hospital?

 

Duno need to look it up it had a diamond on.  Oh the door locks were crown pound?  The gate on the 2 copper penny's? 

'Next level mouse, keep running'  kk

 

 

707

 

The track im listening to we fly free like a paper plane, plane directly above too.

Bowing 707 ? A plane? Bowing..

 

'Getting your geomancy back Ren?'  Hahahah at least its not pizza rock 🤣

 

Malicos hub..  he told me house of the rising sun.  I'd asked which one.

Its current? 

Always moving like the land at the top of the faraway tree? 

 

My space hub is Aquarius?

 

'Recap the dreams Ren, you need to recall more awake again'

 
Oh the 2 Pennys dreams, it had them masks my bro was waring the other night!  And Darth Dad teatching another Ren!  

Oh the doors in the psych hospital were tridant too!


Along with Crown pound! 


On a ward with Inka a few doors down and an Elizabeth oppersit  The Em, she'd just left 🤣