Earth Chakras

 'Trust you're not alone... no humans are'

A shape that's dancing inside of me.

A pattern of a light that I can feel.

A sound that moves, all that I can see.

I know to shut up and fall into me.

I wait so still.

Not big or small.

I wait to remember.

I'm not apart from all.

As I spread in time.

And I stay in place

And my being is.

The fabric of my space.

I call to you and wait to be,

Then I bounce from the mirror, of the you in me.

 

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Wake confused dreaming but had been woken by kitten feeding alarm, long dream integration of darkness... loved and known.. have light/bright too Fed kitten then slept.

__ Woken at 2020 by squeaking kitten.  

Me & Kaylo had been with Inka... no other recall sleep and then wake at 303 and I'd been back in the same place/space reconnecting/resetting.

I'd been having lots of long dreams, gritty vibe, but in no way unpleasant.  

A vet's totally unfamiliar kennel room, lots of animals feeding kittens that look more like sick bloated rats all white but sick and pale.
2 terriers come in healthy I cage them too so they don't disturb queen cat/rat and the other sick inpatients with the intention of finding the owner.  

Another dream of the masks and government rules... more and more rules till people go feral, masks like bandits smashing stuff and  I 'KNOW' I will burn it up.

'In or out though witch? ' lol Inka we'll see what's needed 😏

Back to sleep & wake at 0330... I'm a white male on a beach, I'm dying - the body consciousness thinks in Spanish but I understand it's dying laying on sand looking out to sea, it's not coming back to the planet again...   

Inka???  '😈 yep bitch'   Oh, had been so many mixed emotions.. including a resentment, sadness bitterness pain.. crying now writing this up at the time I was observing/experiencing I was removed from the emotion... I feel the pain now I'm jumped again (This happened later in the night/morning).

 Decided to feed Shadow the kitten while awake then bk to sleep.  

Wake wow.... should have written that straight down!

 👀 'lol Ren' massive dreams.. a huge conversation/exchange big responsibility.   respond'ability.
Really tricky energy.. following on from the rest of the week I guess. Many hidden motives. Several dreams I'm not certain of the order they happened in as I recalled all together. 

So dreams...   

So I was confused, I'd taken a vacuum cleaner to a beach I'm walking between rocky mountains to reach it over bumpy tracks... people watching me and I was thinking 'Oh, I can't vacuum sand.. why did I bring this to the beach' lol didn't occur how this was linked to the death on the beach as I'd already forgotten that.  

The other dream.. lol wow well.

I know I wasn't rendering this well but below is what I was 'seeing'.

I was again a formless observer mainly observing one male/demon who the others were coming too. lol it was like a meeting of devils/demons deep underground? Hehe

More and more were coming and there was a reckoning of sorts. They keep arriving all masculine energy.. so much power and weirdness. There is a strange demon/AI robot hybrid thing that 'reads' intention of each one. I seemed to 'know' all the entities too - they are presenting to Inka and the AI thing.   

One approaches Inak who is in his purple shadowy energy winged shaped with horns form. The AI calls/shows 'Threat' alarm as he approaches. This one is familiar too grey/white pearlescent bone-like horns, furs bones.. makes the air around him shimmer like Malico can. (Powerful wizard/shaman archetype feel). Almost like an Odin/Leon/Malico blend 😛

There is a psychic/energetic battle/exchange between the pair and I'm in that energy.... the whole thing is fascinating. It's being observed by amassed pan/green man / fallen angel/demon types and other stuff the energy/power was electrifying.  

Another dream - A house/home that has been obviously tapped but the owners don't know. There is a microphone in the house and a speaker outside I go in and remove the microphone.   

Another.

Fay is there she comes to me and she looks wired as I'm trying to work out what's up I notice one eye is crazy like the pupil is bionic but organic and the eye is sort of protruding and stretching with the eyeball all distorted. Like the pupil has zoomed out... It's disturbing I tell her not to touch it and I'll call for medi advice... as I get threw and someone answers it feels 'off' I ask if they are NHS 111 they say yes, but it's too silent for a call centre so I put the phone down and redial this time it sounds more typical but I decide not to speak to them either.

Next dream. 

Leaving a town again I'm observer, it felt like a sleazy seaside town, Blackpool perhaps peepshows and arcades very run down and trashy. I'm walking down the main street watching and a woman behind starts singing her voice is amazing, powerful and strong very loud too carries all over.. youths start joining in a sort of flash mob/practised way - they are acting out a play/narrative/story with the woman song. It's hurt/abuse/pain/neglect.   

2 pregnant females were going to be given a months rest, they were grateful, I was watching them leave and vacuuming fallen blossom from grass with another vacuum cleaner.  

I was aware all of these dreams were in a place with a yellow heart centre and I was trying to tell green ray is the heart where I am from 😜

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I check the time after writing and it's 05:50 I felt really wired. 

Big Strange emotions from all I'd seem & felt. 😛  'Back to sleep Ren more to see' 😈 lol ok Inka, I know it's something to do with what is considered fallen angel from knowing.

Woken by squeaky kitten at 606... I ask what I was being shown 'Not done yet bitch, come back'

 👀😆 ok lol.  

As I'm falling asleep again I see a strange inverted pyramid symbol Myan? Inka?  'Look it up tomorrow, now come back NOW please'. 😈 

Lay back and focus heart and clearing ho'oponopono.

Then WOW body was floating/tingling/trembling glowing I felt like I was glowing light felt amazing lol

'We are moving you back where you belong Ren 💜💜  -- Oh, this is all tied to when I  volunteered to help in 2016??   'Yep💜'   My body feels very wired lol the sun is rising out of the window it's dawn.  '

Than you, Ren'💜 

So lol wow... I check on Shadow who is now latched back onto his Star Mama! and go and put on PC to find lol an image of sunrise in the Andes and the question on the screen about Santiago... It's dawn here too.

'lol Ren, symbols'

Oh... It was 'Good morning Santigo' you told me! 'Look it up, Witch' lol as I'm told that it's now 707.

I log on to my PC and first thing I see in my feed is this! lol!  Nazca lines dream &  Lake Titicaca





Finish typing and this track playing......... Because Love wants to feel everything 💜💜💜💜

   

So Nap sleep at 14.14 😛 lol I'm learning the game I wanted to go out into the Sun, but didn't want Star to carry kittens and then dump them into a place too small to feed them all again so stayed with the other Mama.

-- Amazing astral sleep.... All sensation.

Felt like every cell of my being was dancing to the same tune!!  Tingly and wow... like the best MDMA / Ecstacy / Orgasm rush but lasting for ages... holding floating and being in it.💜💜💜💜

Was loving the buzz when the crew interject sarcastically.

'Your welcome, Ren.......'  Ooops lol, thank you guys 💜 I still want sunshine too....    

'Greedy Bitch 😈'  Hahaha Inka fuck you 💜. Wake and it's 14.41  

Odd Guest House

 

So tired from kitten feeding and broken sleep 😴😵

First nap b4 9... pulled home.. but got woken up again by the door.

2nd sleep with sick kitty,  3rd sleep wide & dizzy vast and wizzy. 💜 Sleeping with Shadow Kitty was nice as nice floaty wide astral formless.

3.30 feed.  I'd been floating and wide again and there was a dream too with Kaylo & Malico.  Malico was like an odd  mirror of his normal.  White hair very pale eyes he's gay in the dream and has a home/house human too... just knew it was him.   Me and Kaylo are male me n me there was another male too Jack I think.  We are in the dream space for a lesson, there is a monument in the garden of the house Malico is in and we want to study it, we have other things to explore in the dream space too.   Malico rents rooms in the house and Kaylo and I are staying there for convenience and as we need to learn stuff.  He's wired and has lots of rules/rituals that we have to agree to to be allowed to stay it's convenient though as he's an amazing cook too so we agree to his house rules.  On the first night he has cooked fish it's soal/soul :P  lol it's lovely cooked to perfection with a covering!  hahaha

After that Mama take of the Shadow to cuddle...  Inka made me laugh by pointing out that 'Star' (Who they told me the name for when picked up nearly dead)  was hugging her Shadow 😛  They reminded me a star is a sun... Sun-loving it's shadow 😏

Last time I woke the sun was making a cat shaped shadow on the wall....  lol 

Found this this morning too someone shared, made me cry with how it fits.....   moon crone/spinners/webs 💚 the old stories/narative. 

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spider_Grandmother

So much to See so little Sleep

Get up at 444 couldn't sleep again after the 3.30 kitten feeding... 

Before bed. 

Bring me back to hear and now, together as one were we share our power. The lapping of love at the shores of time a self-stretching into divine.

The home of the heart, the beat of life's drum, inhale again something to become.

We play in creation, the wind knows our name, we are loved and worthy we are welcome each day.  

Sleep time...

Wake suddenly with a jump at 12.12. I know I'd been chatting in astral, Inka Leon & crew.  'Come back Ren, now Hurry' 

Woken at 1 by squeaky kittens.
Had really long dream.
Was with Inka in a strange town, we are not liked, hated in fact and wanted and hunted. In hiding but not, as there is a building we pass each day to be 'seen'. We kept moving/showing. There was an us & they hummm who was the they. They were very like us too, us/them very similar almost gangs we battle and fight for something 'unseen'. I was 'cooking' I knew the setting had a strong undertow of anger and resentment between all of the people involved... yet I was more of an impassive observer than wrapped up in any emotion. I could feel it though it permeated the dream scenario.   

Back to sleep at 101 as not feeding time 😸 but when I was woken soon after by kitten feed alarm I'd had an experience like lol light bulbs all popping along a line with no circuit breaker bang, bang, bang, bang. It reminded me last night of the heads/minds on the web?? 'Wait and see Ren 💜, sleep b4 kitty feed!' lol Inka even in dreams where I hate you I still love you 😏 'lol Ren, can't be any other way - we are each other'.

This was from the first dream where we'd been a team but with contempt and dislike for each other, lol when I re'memberd him there was so many 1000s of dream experiences so many times we killed/harmed/healed/helped. 'lol, Ren wait till you remeber the rest'  👀
After this I get a vision of a white queen... this was from the first dream somehow. Also a rag & bone man on a cart on a track. 

Sleep.. then Cat wakes me scratching the floor at exactly 2.22 lol I'm sure I've been here before deja vu.

Next kitten feed alarm was 3.30..  

Dream was long, with different bits... my main dreams space with Inka but no real recall beyond that. Roz & Kelly and women and energy, how we feel it in our body and transmute it physically.. move and change it.  

There was a dream world game-like, a flying puzzle chase that I still couldn't haven't done but it was already underway as I entered the dreamscape and it's to big and strange for me to solo so I'll need to wait again for another group attempt.  

Last dream I lived in a cave lots of cats and dogs around, I'd gone to follow one of my cats and as I followed it into the sun there were people waiting for me, they had come to collect stuff from me but couldn't see me till I came into the light. I guide them back threw to collect the stuff for there dog (It was healing well) in my cave I had potions and medicaments.  

Woken by the alarm to kitty feed. 'Another one of your Witch lives Bitch' lol Inka.. I need an eye roll, I guessed as much... oh, the people wouldn't come down and couldn't see me - I had to go into the light to meet them 😆 Hahahah

'Symbols Ren, we see you!!💜' Was that one of the lives I was burned/killed?  'One of many as a Witch/seer shaman'.... didn't put you off though' - gives you a death wish when your empowered though!'  

Oh, guess that's why I was so scared of myself for ages, though not as a kid, oh as a kid I wanted to die too..... point taken..... lol so spending my life as vet nurse then setting up the website for babies with eczema, dance and poetry!  'Might stop the party but you can't stop the future'  😈
So I still do me no matter how aware I am, 'keep telling you, we have always been with you'.   lol, yeh I remeber the people in my head.... you were louder pre internet and as a kid!   'Less distractions'   😆

Blugh... nearly 6, may aswell make packed lunches and nap after kitten feeding.  😴  Hope my shadow runt latches back onto Mama soon or next moth is going to be 😵😵😵

Family Fall Out

Internets borked and is later now so recalls not so sharp.

The first part of the night feels like weaving long and wide - ideas... woken by kittens then crash again.. woken by kittens hr and a half later.

Was having a strange dream/lower astral experaince of a young boy/girl felt almost like a soap opera reminded me of the start of this dream.   Also the duality dream where I lived a life lasting generations in a pond with the water people (till it was drained). 

Also the duality dream where I lived life-lasting generations in a pond with the water people (till it was drained). The dream was just running swimming, the Male threw streets and woods, the female threw ditches/sewers and rivers.  Male/female parts of self (Last night the dream of contracts & male me) when they are as one again..and dreams followed on from last night too)

This track pops into head on waking :)

 When I'm with you, I'm a kid, I'm an animal
Taught me how to love, where we're from, nothing else to do
But live it up, we were kids, we were animals
Runnin' through the woods, now I'm tryna get to you again
When I'm with you, I'm a kid, I'm an animal
Taught me how to love, where we're from, nothing else to do
But live it up, we were kids, we were animals
Runnin' through the woods, now I'm tryna get to you again

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Wake bang on 303

I’m in a dream with all the dream/story characters but we were just chatting/sharing… lol subjects were last night’s dreams/shamanism/aliens/dryads…  tree spine spaceship brain type stuff so symbolic but also all very interconnected and woven with story & narrative – Back to sleep for 313 but wake again at 333 very suddenly after an odd astral experience where our minds had been connected like the like the dew drops on the spiders web :P   lol  It reminded me of a mother duck leading babies  all in a line. 

Went back to sleep to wake bang on 444 after a really long fascinating dream – it was multi layered and fits with the other stuff from the evening and last night, my recall was hazy but for a few parts that stuck… which is annoying will try a dream re-entry tonight to try remember more.  



Starts of in space a battle/war with 2 main factions and many other involved most allied with one side or the other.   (This makes me think of the dreams with stasis and serial numbers)

I’m on a GREY ship lol  :P   ‘Symbols Ren’ 😉 Was some epic space battle but our ship had been ostracised from our own faction too so we were on neither side and instead hummm I had a feeling we were like a clean/up crew… scavengers we certainly were not under the command of either faction and distrusted/unwelcome by both sides, though we were tolerated rather than attacked. 

The next part I recall Is earth like.  I’m taken to a massive posh country estate/manor one of them UK stately homes, it’s modern and is being used as a wedding venue at the time of my visit there are 100’s of people there we see guests in the garden.  (Wired recall of being a guest in the garden too in another dream years ago).  I’m not a guest, I don’t like there and I’m not staff though it’s the staff I’m mainly interacting with and using the staff areas.   Along with the ceremony and the guests and celebration I’m aware that nothing and no one are what they seem… there are layers upon layers.   So many games in games and agendas – it was boggling and even while in the dream I was amazed and astonished, the staff there and the other people in the dream all know me – but I don’t recall them or that much about ‘me’ :P.  

Inka is Male me though telepathically linked / separate. 
He knows the score and I know this is linked to these dreams too. 

My Grans house and me siding with outcasts)  - and then these 2 dreams with Inka too off world controll
Setting fire to stuff.  Oh the Gran dream was on the same day as one of the others too 👀




There is another layer to this too…   It’s played as we split from the house.  We are there with others in this massive house taken threw to a hub, meeting place waiting on a mission/game start.   While waiting Inka and me have split into another dream/astral layer to close portals.   They have been opened and we are closing them down again, were elemental and Illeth meets us there too I think she was water, I was fire and Inka air, he closed his with lightening – we were depleted though and tired it took our joint effort to close the earth portal then we dropped back into the other dream we were splitting from. 

It’s a hub inside what appeared to be the massive estate.  It’s typically hubby large white entity’s coming in and out all the time   (On waking I realise this is also linked to the stuff from this Feb/March--- where I realised the Rog character came from in my story).  We are waiting on the ‘next move’ and assignments.  It’s not our turn….  There was something about weaponised insects … I wish I could recall better as it was totally fascinating.    Drugs/Cigarettes my actual bro was there too…. Lol just remembered he actually did get tattoo with a barcode and serial number years ago :P     

Oh the Organics v humans battle dream?    Anyhooo dream jumps and we are taking outfits/uniforms roles.  My uniform is more like underwear like shorts and a running bra but made of the weirdest stuff it’s almost reminded me of fly paper rolls :P    or thin sticking scraped animal skin… It was a little like the sealed confession from the Yew Are Accused… also the insect type armour in other dreams?  The stasis on and then another one in my main dream area?  Lol but this was more like fly tape.    Oh guess could fit with one of my Trump dreams… were I was clearing out a house with the Duality recyclers :P  Anyhooo at that point I was just alone there My bro, Inka had different roles I was going to get changed and wait jump/port.

So I’d woken at exactly 444…..   Mind was O.o   pulled back to the astral convo from before the dream with characters Inka, Leon and crew – we are chatting about the dream and they are explaining free will/shamanism agreements games different things people want to play with and experience.   The whole night was totally fascinating!!

Woke at 6.30 but was to late to go Run dawn ☹ as I had to sort pets/kittens and packed lunches so run as later.    I know how this is linking so many other dreams.  

Oh on run had that wired DL/ recall, the battle and the boggart dreams, the baby bogart found as collateral damage in a war…   Also that strange dream with a woman withlong hands, I knew these were all connected too.. Trump & Honey


Oh wired... The Serial number one Nov 17... lol also upside down ;)   The dream wiredly similar, Goat too!.... 'Ren, just keep re'membering'  And the other.....   Stasis & an overseer

These ones from Jan with Rog that started here... Or meby night before

 DL was direct to root chakra O.o   lol  most odd never had a DL there before  hahah well not this kind >,<     ‘Ren’ 😏 Heheheh  Inka 😜 

Soul Agreements

Strange dreams hard to bring back but so very real while in the space. Like a conversation with no language just very familiar and close.

Wow... wake later with what was a language of shape and light, geometric and patterns colour too I was the language was in the language and could see it too weaving and moving in all directions. I could feel Leon. Also new this dream was connected. Oh, wow... the towers from last night, was that Leon?? 

Woke at 211 by one of the new kittens squeaking and told was going to jump astral at 212.

Woke again bang on 303. Again, I was just coloured light yellow/blue/red all very straight.    felt like I was with another me/mes? Was told you will not understand.. think form colour...  Humm makes me think of a very old Architect dream too, wonder if I can find it.  Cool, I did leon too didn't find him though.   

Orian constellation was rising in the east looking pretty..  more floating in colour after that.. until I have a burning gnawing pain at my yellow centre.  Felt like when you were a kid and going to vom, but didn't feel at all sick, just burning but pain rather than normal energy flowing.

Wake 707 and the pain is gone and I had been taken/shown tones of stuff!   Thanks, guys.  

Am reminded this is the integration of the yellow of the blue & yellow from here with Malico.  Blue still to do...  have pain in my neck today.

They had taken me to a dream or more I was just watching stuff..   Oh yeh, they had been 'us' we were one group shared awarness, I was still seperate too but within them. 

I was told it was a wedding/funeral/christening/ceremony hearing.   There isn't really a word that fits but I understood it as 'yellow-ray contracts'.    I'd agreed to help/transmute. 

Told must observe watch and that is what it was, it was scenes from many ages (reminded me of this regicide dream in some ways).
I knew this was female timeline stuff - though I have no idea how it's related to me or DNA or even if it is or I've just agreed to clear it(It's stuff I'd seen within dream/symbolicly but more much more) .... it was female side though.

Vast profit from wars, Spanish stuff/war crimes including royalty/ smuggling really heavy shit I think this is the point I wanted to 'switch of mentally' but am told need to hear & see so keep observing

I'm looking at images from last 300 years mainly large well-off families & royalty theft/manipulation.

Male line is Norse/Germanic/Ural mountains but didn't touch on that was just aware it was..  

Wake up and feel profound love & gratitude💜💛💜 and also the pain at Yellow centre has gone.   

Christening I'm told again... I know there is a link to my fairy godmother (I'm reminded of an image my Aunty betty sent of me in the dress all our family wore on a deep purple bedspread my Nana's bed by the church)
 
Also the inheritance dreams and contracts I'd signed in the dream at her house back in 2006... lol dowager & Implant/Enclosure?  Croft also means Enclosed feild too ??

The Church where I was christened... Ohhh I'd forgot the Lewis Carol link!

O.o WTH his Dad was Church Rector there..   The WORMWOOD??  Inka?  😛  wtf??    The looing-glass/rabbit hole??     My Nana's house was right next to it/grave yard and church... closest house, I used to play inthe grave yard too  😆😆    'lol Bitch it's funny yeh?'  😈


What is the worm thing? Oh the WORMWOOD and the worm/dragon/snake DNA too pfffffff


lol why you ass hats so cryptic 😏  -  'Cause you like games Ren, it's more fun when we play this way'   😆   Hahahah

 So the Female Ancestors  timeline and the original dream at the bottom from 2010. (Fox again too)

Gaia Ancients and Duality. 



Inheritance dream from Oct 22 2010
Setting is an alien type of planet in a beautiful forest. 
I'm with the male half of me (I think twin flame/together we make whole) - this time he is in the form of a shaman, he is big and blue , we both have blue skin.  
We kept holding each other as I am going somewhere I'd not be able to see him for a very very long time.
It's heart achingly emotional, we walk and talk holding each other..   it's a beautiful forest and lake were we walked with huge yellow butterflies the size of dinner plates that would fight in the air and these sweet fuzzy animals.
In the forest is a big Victorian house it looks very out of place it is full of old relatives on my mothers side.  Lots of food is laid out and the atmosphere in the house is serious almost like a wake is going on.    Before I leave on my journey I have to sign an 'inheritance deed' that is held in the house.