Animals and a Fish Selection

Ouch... Just realised I made Shadow my cat the scape goat.

The other cats told me it's ok, but making pantheons is a serious game O.o

I'd needed to untangle a lions mane.

'Yes witch...  Shells'   Inka....  'It's ok Ren, I'm taking you back home'  
Thanks...  I don't know them names....   'I don't expect you to, we work within our own framework'  kk

You were... 'Yup, enough'   ok.... 

'Wow, bitch your learning to shut up!'  Hahaha  so it seems, thanks.

'You'r always welcome bitch'  Hhahaha  <3 
I CBA to learn shit 'I know Ren, leave the rest to us'  ok..

 

Oh!  So Earth and Illith! She was in the AI... Mycelium..  'Your Sealy Mum?'  wait up...

'I have time Ren' 
Ok, Michael and Ann..   'Feel good to be off someone else's tracks Ren?' 
Pfffff woosh... Suppose it dose.  

 

Ok.. Teach me how to ground me please? 

'Ok Ren, feel me now'  Yeh.
'Good'  humm...'DW about down bitch, you did that first.... We are bringing you back home out of trouble' 

lol I feel it....   But Inka?  'Trust me this time Ren?'  ok.

 

'You are not an aspect, you are the structure'  I know...

'Your fear is holding you back'   I know mate... But

'Go in'

 

Wow.. 'Better?'  Just wow

 

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I'm sleepy..  'I'll be close while you watch this'  🤨

'Go on'  mate...   'I know bitch, try it?'   you are a shit....

'Trust me?'  ok...

 

Leon came to us in my main dream space.  He had wanted us to sit upstairs by the fires, but I wasn't comfy so we all went below ground.  I was dreamsharing mainly with him until closer to morning.   All the dreams were long and detailed. 

 

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A secure school or prison.  It reminded me of a Lego arena with rooms around it.

We were being watched by staff who were increasingly terrorising us... Freedoms were stripped one by one.   I got the feeling it was linked to Lewes by Brighton. 

 

Sandra and Chris place... The Shogun was parked in their garden, I watched it being stolen... No one cared.  I was sad that I'd left my kindle inside.
My dad turned up with a strange woman that was his wife, there was a group of them.

They were going back out into the town and the pubs, it was already late. 

It had the feelings of a time before I was born.

Old fashioned clothes... I'd wanted to go with them, but I didn't ask.

The next dream was very vivid, my brain felt odd, I duno if I accidently took 2 of them mushroom supplements yesterday. 

 

Next dream was long.   My main dream area, we had arrived via a strange departure lounge with many animals and were stopping of there mid way threw a journey.

A room full of people were doing yoga, I was watching my dog was with them.   Scribble my cat with me.  Another guy had a cage with errr I duno they were like fluffy bush babies.

The setting changed and we are once again in that space outside the Farn and the links, 60's dinner style tables are on the street and old fashioned cakes are served on stands.
 

I was holding a soldering iron for a guy... I'm not sure what he was doing... There were wires and he had pliers too.  It was strange as I was laying down covered in my blanket that I was actually sleeping under.  My arms were getting tired holding the things and I was at risk of burning myself.. At one point I burnt my blanket... I was trying to stop burning my face, yet he didn't offer to take it off me.

Just watched me as he worked.  He was friendly.  When he'd finished he put on some novelty glasses and heled up a finger and said '1 song, 1 song'   It made me laugh.
A bus pulls across the street going way to fast and just misses some tables were people are sitting.
Oh the guy with the solder iron had rats, 2 of them in his trolley thing filled with tools.   They were sleeping on their backs with a little blanket, just their little feet poking out.

The next dream was also very vivid.  Sheila had taken a massive delivery of fish.  She was preparing a meal for a large group of family to eat and apologised she hadn't thought to get any beer or wine in. 

I was wondering if there was a way I could get some for her... But it was a Sunday afternoon and the local shops were all closed.

The meal wouldn't be ready for some time, and we were on a schedule. 

I'd considered asking someone for a lift someplace but it was a bus pick up we were expecting so I'd gone for a walk instead.

I duno where I'd found myself it was like a marquee were people had had a buffet, I'd not joined them for lunch but there was food left that I decided to look at.

It was unusual, also fish but laid out in blue, white and pink packaging - it looked more like a selection of chocolates or cupcakes.   Rows of prawns, smoked fish slices and some thin bright blue sticks.   I'd decided to try some,  it was small and cut up really fine.  When I read the label it was eel.   I've never eaten eel, it didn't have a distinct flavour but was fishy.  It had looked more like a pipe fish.
There was more food, another cake stand with squares of carrot cake.

I'd left the food and now found myself on a gravel track in the dark, fields of people to the sides. 

A cars headlights behind me lit up a weasel on the track and ahead I could see a large farmyard and 2 puppies in out at night by a puddle.   I entered one of the large barns, it was lit by a blue light... Like one of them fly zappers.  

The corner was a strange store, unbranded drinks and a few veg and packets.   Some old chest freezers.   A guy with grey hair was at a counter and I'd stopped to look at some of the bottles... They had been refilled with hand written labels. 

Round the back was a table with some expensive looking bottles, 2 looked like a spirit and 2 like a wine or fizz. 

2 young girls come threw a metal door into the shop, one is waring a taffeta and tulle party dress.  It still has the tag on and she's come to show her father, her sister is in her pants with a silk dress up cape.   I'd picked up the tag on the dress, a black triangle with gold around it. 

Their dad calls 'Put some clothes on Andrea'  and I realise the daughter has the same name as me.  His accent is Australian he pronounces Andrea in a strange way. 

I'd smiled at him on the way out.. Said I thought you were speaking to me for a moment there, I'm also Andrea.  He smiled back and I'd asked him if he was open for business.

He nodded and I'd told him if I could find my way back here I'd bring some cash... He thanked me and I kept walking.

The next bit was amazing... This barn had triangle shaped stone doors that looked out into worlds.   Time was running differently there and I was watching buildings be erected used, abandoned and decay... Some of them were being destroyed in what looked like battles.  The skys red with fire.
At one portal I passed a woman had commented how terrible and I wondered if she was perceiving the same as I was....

I woke up pondering this in front of one portal where I was watching amazing fractals unfold. 

 

Last dream was an odd collage dorm room that was more like a long dressing room with rows of mirrors.  Strange people in unusual clothes.  Mystics and seers too, I was chatting to one person who could see spirits, I could only feel and hear.
Other people were getting this pattern burnt onto their skin, it was like fractal lighting.

Others patterns like scarification.. But intricate like bands of flowers.. They made raised tattoos.  I felt oddly out of place and then I recalled I wasn't supposed to be there, i'd already taken all the classes. 
 

Ekstasis

 

A Visit to Rue

 

I miss our discourse 'Then meet me when I saw you last'  The car?  'You were eating my chips' 

They weren't that good tbh.  'Yeh but you liked my gift'  I suppose, 'You did Ren'

Why?  'Just laydown' I want to remember more.  'IN TIME' ??  'Relax'

Inka I've been 'Ren, I know all you will ever say, just come here and play' 

 

Family of rich parents, journey threw villages and towns north.  Stopping off at little houses.

Silver jewellery, small silver bird charms on a fine chain.  An orange toy seahorse too.

Next dream I was in a class, we were taking a break to go to a town in Germany we travelled by a very fast underground train.

It only took 20mins... At the station I was unable to get off with the rest of the class.   The seats were too plush and I was stuck.

They tried to hold the doors for me but the train moved on...  I'd been supposed to get of at 'Rue'
 

I made sure I knew the name of the stop so I could get of at the next station and go back.  The next place had a name that began with C.  The train had travelled in the open for a bit past some green foothills and then into a town and past a cinema.
I couldn't read the billboards but the language didn't strike me as German.   I could understand what people were saying too, but it was obvious I was a foreigner there.

the train stopped in a large multi-layered hub.   I'd got off at the Northbound platform at level 14, so needed to find the Southbound platform on the same level.

Rue was a dark transport hub. undergrond. 
The people their friendly but all waiting.  I found the rest of my group who were just mostly hanging about waiting for the transport home.   One had left a quiz for people on a small table and passers by had been filling it in.   I put a bit of my own art work with it for a while.   It had a picture of the small red deamon babe in my care and also some other stuff on.   I'd written the words Scapegoat on it, a local pointed to the word goat and told me that was a swear word their and I shouldn't leave the image up.
I was puzzled and thanked him for the info.
I'd tried to make a call to Ian to tell him I was in Germany but would be back shortly but the phone he'd given me was like a toy.

I'd been wandering back and forth pressing buttons trying to get it to work... Instead it was like an automaton.  
The buttons would just reset themselves...  I recall thinking how it was like them dreams I had where phones never work :P  TBH I can't believe I didn't go lucid in this dream.
I'd been playing with the phone and had accidently wandered down a slope and out of the transport depot. 

Finding myself in a service yard. 

A machine for washing trains and huge equipment was in this high dark space. 

I could see people heading up and back inside so I followed them but instead entered a errrr meby a mine?

It was dark and damp cave like with strange yellow machines.   I realised this was also dream like, and these huge automated machines are often sinister.
I had no idea how to get past them as they were scraping out tunnels and seemed to have no way of seeing that I was on the ground in the way... Massive excavating things. 
A guy who was local and had appeared beside me saw I was uncomfortable and took my hand.

He was a similar height to me with short blond curly hair. 

It was safer with us both looking out for the movement of the machines so we could get out of the way.
I'd realised there was a gangway above and so I'd called up, asking how we got threw and back to the transport hub.  
A woman appeared to our left.. Showing us a way to climb up... It was a strange white structure with plastic coloured gems in it.   It was a little like a climbing frame or wall but could be used as a ladder to reach a white corridor.  

The blond guy climbed ahead and I woke when I moved my real arm to reach a handhold she was showing me.

I'd been with Inka and the red babe thing on another layer.   I'd taken it from the crib into my main dream area for a walk.  Inka appeared before the dream to see what I was up too and I'd asked him about feeding the little thing - Milk seemed wrong, he suggested some raw meat and it's teeth were pointed so I'd got it some stake cut up for stew from the butchers at the top of the street.
We were sat by pinnacles where I was feeding it.  I'd asked Inka which of us was the scapegoat now,  as we scapegoat each other over n over.... He asked me what I though and I'd guessed it would be me again.

I'd wanted to take the babe to see the ducks and we walked down to the beach on the harbour. 

I'd fallen asleep on the sand into another dream.

An outdoor market, cheep looking shit and stalls covered with tarps.  I was there taking part in an experiment, we had a kind of xray scanner...  I keep dreaming about these?
Anyway it was hidden at the back of our stall and we were scanning stuff.  

An image of a row of hearts.  Em was there too.

They weren't aligned properly but a guy with us said it didn't matter, he could sort that after with software.

I was a little worried that people were being exposed to radiation.  It was something we would get in trouble for if we were caught.
I'd left the group to take Zak who was with me to nursey.   It was a one run by Disney, it would be his first time and I felt very out of place in the huge que of posh mama's and infants.
We'd waited till everyone else had gone in, apparently there was a huge process to get into this place and I was thinking how stupid it was and we'd need to find something simpler.

We were lost on the way in too.   Couldn't find people just deserted rooms and rides, strange steep steps and stairs and pirate ship styled climbing frames. 
When we did find people it was like going into a cinema or boarding a plane, hostesses rather than nursery staff and plush waiting rooms. 


 

Coloured Infants and Talking Statues

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A military like magic school.  Tall tower like buildings where the lessons are held.

The people had unusual hairstyles and piercings.  Lesson lists like menus.

We had cute pet creatures that we worked with.

second dream was similar..   I'd been enlisted to create a drug or medication that was illegal but we had a license to create and study it.

 

The facility was all underground.  We had lockers with our equipment and worked in big fume cupboard things.

I could also turn into a dragon.  Some of the staff were smuggling samples out of the facility and I was being asked to help with this.

 

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I suppose my concept of self is blurry at this juncture. So the collective self, who is still afraid of what they don't understand rushes to my aid like a night in shining pharma '

 

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Talking statue.  It was a beautiful woman with a long scar on her face running down her forehead and left side of her nose. 

She was carved from marble. 

I'd first found her in a museum were the articles were a portal to their past. 

She'd been moved to an odd kind of hospital and was on display there.

 

I was talking with her about soul retrials which we had both done and vulnerability. 
There is a strange scanning or xray machine which has a seat then 2 sort of doors that close around it.

 

There was also a competition to win a brown speed boat, it was a strange looking thing shiny and new.  The colour made it look like it was from the 80's.

Next dream I'm in a car with a bunch of people.  Inka is with me and everyone but me got burger and chips at a cheep take away.  

I had a few chips that were fairly average. 
It was the end of a year...

We had another strange infant with us, this one was green.   I was being told it was time to pass it over soon.

Inka was telling me it didn't serve to get to attached to them as Morgan le Fay was coming for it.   She would take it to it's own kind to train with them.  It was to late as I already cared for the infant.   I was recalling when I was a baby Bogart thing, I looked a little like these things but I was blue, it was green people who raised me and then took me back to my forest.  

Then Inka made me into a purple similar creature in the Church yard in another dream. 
 

Last dream was in my main dream space. 

 

The main street was blocked off again, this time by chipboard that had been built into a sort of gate.

The nat trust shop was an ice-cream and popcorn shop, and another shop next door was in conflict with them, I think the conflict was something to do with the gate.

Zak was there as my brother... And My mum was still alive at the main dream house although I didn't see her, Ann was alive too and I was heading to visit her but Zak was taking a bath in a building and I was waiting on him.

 

I was on  skates and dancing while I waited... No cars as the street was blocked, few people too so perfect for skating. 


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The skin colour on these entitys we can change into was linked to levels, nodes and chakras I think.  Inka was showing me it telepathically.