Monday, 9 November 2020

Burning Birds and Symbolic Mogs

How does the Bro thing work? 'You have the same parents'  lol yeh thanks...  but the wired connections, symbols and sycs? 'Your dreaming Ren' I can see that but the flowers in the attic book you reminded me, but the owls, dinos/violence the split in the mind the cow (Herd matrix mind) with the fuse getting shorter??


'DW Witch, your working on it 😏'  lol I'm sure I am, but I duno, how what why?   'We do - set intention n come'  

Had bounced about for a bit then wake at 2323 had been sitting by the fire outside the roundhouse sky grey and still, Inka was smoking his pipe quietly and sitting I was deeply content and calm staring into the fire. Other dreams to or things I was seeing in the fire...It was just scrolling images like on a phone.    

Oh this was in other dreams thelucid cat bites one, and the scrolling before the candle with 2 flames only one can ever go out at a time. 

Is the biting thing weaponised e-motion??  


Can we play?  'Bring Kaylo will help your recall'  Re'Ed?  'Yup'   - I'd found Kaylo in an isopod and he jumped to the Hub with me where we dream share.  


Woke with a heart start. Dream dust was amazing... like a curtain or network of scrolling rippling letters like liquid golden light, it was also like the fractal nested data but flatter breathing in and out rather than branching. DL too, the crystal shower thing body fizzy πŸ’œ


The dream was of a lamp, it kept flickering. I'd tightend the bulb (Oh the dream the other day?) Anyhoo that didn't work someone told me they had split something in the plug so I'd taken apart the plug it was damp and the fuse out. (Oh fuse again ) I woke as I'd opened it and left it to dry.. I knew there were more layers to this dream but they are hazy. Time is 101


'You should have written that down'  lol errr It didn't make sense. Oh, something about one light not enough for the room now? That's why I was fixing the second lamp... Then a message about an off-world entity?  'It was a message for an off-world entity Ren'  Errrr ok, lol  'Please pay attention Ren' Ok, will try Leon.  'Get H2O your dehydrated and were busy'  Errrrr pffff ok.  


The dream dust symbols were similar to that stuff the other night?  'Yes but DW for now'   


Sleep


When I'd got bk to the hut Kaylo still there and Inka asleep smoking, Nills and Koa were there too I'd suggested we all dream share so we did. 


'Unix, line stop, spin this, grandad had fallen over?'  Errr, Leon???
A dream to I'm at Shirlys but I'm in her fire :P looking out! The stage was set.


Oh, the fallen Goddess and the stage stuff we pulled from her house in astral? What did you say about Grandad Fell?   'Mirrors and Symbols Ren come back' 


Next time I'd gone back I joined awareness with Kaylo a Grey cat-like star but with white paws colour point... standing on something. Oh, shadow! She's was like shadow markings in reverse. Mirror. Errr OK, Pheonix to?

'Look up the colour point symbology'  Oh he was Birman monks??


(Hum... oh Star also in the Lost boys, that track- This is the fuse short between the 2 halves of the split-brain chaos/order?)


'We are deep in symbols πŸ’™ '  His names... Saracen and then Ian changed his name to Pheonix when he came to us after accident.  'Check Names & dream when you were last with him'   Ok..wow had forgotton that. πŸ‘€


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saracen


Birman - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Birman Errrrr ok.. This is wired but pffff in for a penny in for a pound.   


http://www.birmankitten.co.uk/birman_legend.html


Then we changed his name to Pheonix. -- Also Sun. Errrrr and I was in the fire, Hummm other dreams of in the fire or bing fire. Oh it's a fire that helped me in other dreams - This is where I'm an elemental in dreams... and that Fire serpent on Shadow kittens face.  More Fire and Pheonix... more SUN card!


OK... I try sleep hopefully snoring has stopped. It's nearly 4am


Get up and clean litter trays, that was a lot of cat shit.. 'In every way πŸ˜†' Hahaha


Had woken again after a very lucid dream.


The start is hazier I had a ticket for a prize but I needed to get into somewhere to claim it. I couldn't afford the entry fee and I'd been trying different ways of getting when it didn't work jumping bk and trying over. 


I'd tried many ways then remembered it was to do with bluffing it?! Looking confident enough not to get challenged. Like intention, I guess but slightly less impeccable '😈' Reminds me now when I was a kid and couldn't afford public transport but got away with it if you act like it's what you're supposed to be doing.  


Anyhoo I was in and I have the ticket for the prize the place is like a coastal town seaside resort, I go into a gift store I think were the claim probably was but notice stuck to a cupboard is a love letter my friend had written to her lover. The writing is in sliver and neet but I recognise her style and current signature and I think wow If I write to her will she see it? I'm gaining lucidity quickly now but the dream is stable and holds and I find a pen but when I get to the letter it's vanished.  

I find another scrap of paper and go to write my name the pen is bent and I put it on the paper then I remember that I can't remember my name!


Very lucid at this point and I know it's not my name, and I know it's not Ren (That means given game πŸ˜›.. 'Also the name of your 1st Dog Bitch πŸ˜†'  and I know that my actual name is the name that Fire showed me was burnt into my skin in the same liquid golden language in the back threw separation dream. Lucidity high I'd asked to be taken somewhere else but remained put, so guessed this was the place I should be.  


I know I can't recall my real name so I put the pen down leave my bag and the ticket and go to look around instead. My lucidity is at that hyper-real state now where it's more real than life. I go out of the shop and the wind is strong blowing my hair, I think about flying but the direction I feel I should walk in is into the wind. Outside is a strange and unfamiliar coastal seaside town.. It may be the same one from my last lucid dream (Where the cat bit me πŸ˜›) 

There are lots of gulls and birds enjoying flying and sitting around watching me. I decide flying into the wind will be hard work so instead, I flip upside down and part hover part walk on my hands. As I walk past some people they comment 'There she goes, which wobbles my lucidity enough to turn the right way up and keep walking'. I head down a harbour hill and across a small sandy sheltered beach there is a cave there too and lots of other people.  


I head into hotel/restaurant It smells of spilt drinks and smoke and cooking from the kitchen and I head threw the front bar into a back lounge where there is a woman on her knees looking upset a man with her, I ask her if she's ok and the Man glares at me with a 'NOYB' look but the woman smiles up at me and tells me it's the build-up of scar tissue it itches and I knew she meant her vag (From to many kids/abuse) On waking ralised this is the eye irritation I followed into the dream space!


When I'd come down to write the first half of the night my big golden-eyed black and white Tom cat (Shadows Dad) had been trying to fit on my lap πŸ’œ he's too big! Anyhoo his fur had made my eyes itch like crazy.. making it hard to sleep and was told 'Follow that' eventually the tickling moved to just a sensation at my left eye I followed that sensation into a dream.  


Anyway as I watch the couple changes and the woman now has different hair, she stands and the male leaves to use a bathroom I look her in the eyes and ask her 'How are you doing?' She 'sees' me and says 'I don't know'. I nod and smile and ask if they know where the back door is, they don't so I keep looking moving threw other doors.  


I come to a strange one dark glass mirror is curved slightly and very heavy.. It's hard to push as it pushes back I have no reflection in it and I lean into it and push it enough to pass threw.


Beyond a breakfast room with a sea view is laid out ready for the next morning, but I head left threw another big old wooden door. It's like an old bedroom wood-panelled a bit creepy in a hammer horror kind of way. I'm standing in the doorway when 2 small black things notice me animal like one comes running towards me I can feel the floor trembling as it runs lol It reminded me a little of that old stupid critters film. I'm thinking what the heck is that as it runs past me out of the door as I watch it run off I get that familiar feeling of 'returning' only this time it's like I'm being lifted and pulled backwards like someone is taking me back 'You're welcome btw 😈 ' lol pffff, TY.

I land back in bed very awake as I'd been so lucid there anyway and my body is still rushing like it was last time I was lucid and 
'Tried to slide into hell?'  Curiosity πŸ˜‰  'Killed the cat Ren'  Oh.... lol What about the Bitch? ' Time will tell 😏 ' Hahaha 


Symbol overload πŸ˜†

So is this the Lab work-up on the sleeping Lion/Leon... Oh, Leons is stasis on the Re-Ed station in my story.. πŸ‘€  'No shit?' πŸ˜† Us killing Each other in the eye over and over?  'Yep, it's why most of us are blind' 

Oh... So the Pheonix & the short fuse on the mind matrix..

Oh.. So the book and the 2 flames, the 2 halves of the human brain!  Attic Mind  'Or half a brain in your case 😏' FU πŸ˜†   Ah the yin-yang we light our fire... one grows strong outweighs the other...   This what you meant by energy?  

We make it.   E motion.  The energy in motion but we weaponise it against one another?

More Cat's and Lions... This and this bleedthrew intersection again.  'Yes πŸ˜‰'


Sunday, 8 November 2020

Wobbly Mirror

I don't understand....   'I know Ren, Symbols, mirrors and Intentions' 


I come.


Ooooo!! πŸ‘€ 'You upped the game bitch!' That was really wired 'Yep like I said.. when you're a planet you can birth stuff and kill it... It's all symbols and code, and you broke your editor again πŸ˜†' Can't keep my hand out of the fire 'Or your head' πŸ’₯


I'm tired of duality crap... 'Yep, it's why you're a bug in the system... anyway you mostly have fun' Oh this is the addiction thing, the Moon card? 'Yes' - We don't want to wake up or we don't want to sleep? 'You sleep to way up' lol 


Ouch.. 'Better though?' Mmmmm Yep was wired was heart and bk to heart. 'Just want you are Ren, unconditional love wants to feel. Just follow the emotions even when they are yours'  


That was the thing with grief - With Me/Em,  Love is Grief with no place to go.   I could see/feel the energy too what Leon meant about the heart 4 chambers it was like 2 ins and 2 outs.  'Closing big loops'



'World wobbly bitch?' Very, wobbly, ripply mirror ..' was painful I know but it needed to be felt especially when you are following your own hurts home... thats why you need to tread lightly too'    Yes.  

 

Not enjoying the yellow furr ball much either...   'That's the one you follow tonight'    You need to dl and create too will help

 

Oh can you show me what Guy asked?   'OFC... the right answer you look less crazy pissing your self laughing than trying to teach πŸ˜† we learn, you share, play and mirror' 😜

 

Is intention a trajectory?   'Let us show, you work better with images' 

 

Saturday, 7 November 2020

Sunny Onions

'We need you home, Witch......''   I want to come home.   'Brew and you're dehydrated'

'The dawn is coming Ren we stay where we are and try not to get caught with our pants down'... lol your a punny pucker  'Smarter than your dumb ass... You're going to need Leon, Loci and the others again soon' 


Much more moon?  'Not painful'  Follow your emotions again but jump towards the others - OK.


Wide wide again... All mixed huge, we balance... I was waiting and finding and in. Holding and filling permissions and contrast.. amazing energy I could see it like smoke mixing.


Wake just gone 1.. 

I wake.. check time I thought it was late! (Meaning morning) 'Hehe, No Dear, still early' Oooo Illeth πŸ’œ 'Yes, we are all playing πŸ’—'


Ah it's just the moon making it light... Heheh Other dreams were hazier birds feeding and gardens.


'It's early Bitch' Heya Inakyour here too 'Come?' I'm in where too? 'Your call'


 


I wake laughing. Phahahaha.... Seriously!! Was a mouse in a windmill with clogs on!! The song is playing!! ... A mouse lived in a windmill.  



'Noisey Dream Mice can dance big echos...'  Heheh ripples, waves.  'Yep Ren, keep hunting Kaylo then come as one'  Oh, deeper symbols.. Hamlett's mill?? 😲 Windmill, Earth..'Sleep Witch, we can play symbols later 😏' 


GG yet again!! πŸ‘€ especially with what I was just thinking.



How lucky WE AM/I AM

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WTF Inka?? 'I'm good at this Ren!'   No shit!!  


I don't recall the dream so much as the energy..

We were weaving again, massive rainbows of light and dark rainbow coloured smoke and then we stopped you told me something about knowing the score and then you said 'I told you Ren, you don't belong here shut up and let me play' While showing me the Grumpy Sun & Yew are Accused ..... you showed me that again from wide perspective πŸ‘€  'Mmmmmm'

The 2 Suns too, and the 2 moons! 😲 'Yes, understand your curiosity Adept'  Errrrrrrr lol! We are dreaming the Archetypes so fast! I don't even know what you showed me.  'The Sun disk Ren, the one that the bug has!'  The moon card?   




Oh is it Sun next?  'Still don't believe me?' lol not a pushover remember πŸ˜›  'No but you're a pain in the ass whatever way up you are!'  Hahaha πŸ’œ


Oh, you also told me we can chill where ever we are happy, we just need to keep holding the intent too..

'You KNOW unity, you know all your curiosity is growth/hunger & value fulfilment you want knowledge, experiance and growth' 


πŸ‘€ Leon told me I don't have to play... lol, but I really do!! πŸ˜πŸ’œ


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I'd woken hazy and dreamy and was told, 'Your heads in the cloud...unlimited data plan'


'You fucking asked?' Yeh lol... I wasn't expecting a reply :P  'Why not? Why ask then?' ?? Duno curiosity!!   Haha πŸ˜†


The reply was 'Heart has 4 chambers what you put in stays??'   Leon? 'Yes Ren'  lol you know I prefer Inkas games to your Riddles 'Yes Ren, We do' 


What was I dreaming... Oh!


Strange world... looking for something we were wondering what was up with our heads there, brains were wired. (Hahaha) The half a person not access to proper thinking??


Can you show me please? Oh!! This is what's up with the Herd!! The girl with the cows, who wasn't supposed to tell people??!! I took responsibility for her before Inka stopped me going alone

The black & white cows from all the dreams.. πŸ‘€   Is milk the flipside to Loosh??  '😈' Blood? 'Wait and see we are still playing!'
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My head feels strange.  'Two little parasites one big, one small looking at each other in the illusion of all? '   Oh I can come inside Leon now?  'Yup'  


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Ooooo the 4 chambers heart I see it visually the infinity sign2 together making loops... this is the ring round the tree of life the elements.. directions!!


The herd (Cows) (branches) is the mind matrix.. black and white split brain duality.
Confusing as we are all CUP's rendering reality from the underlying source code via our own parameters. 


 'OFC which you have few at the moment 😏 Coming?'  Yep.










What's that? (Can't read Leons reply here) lol Leon, come on its hard to recall here... So I get shown kids storybooks!! πŸ˜† Ass hats πŸ˜›
'It worked 😏'

The very hungry caterpillar I'm inside the story pictures flicking threw the book! Seriously!!  


This was the numbers 1/2/3/4 ect points vectors and the hunger for growth... Next up is an infants board Book...Apple a worm and the hole that gets bigger and bigger on each page!! 


Hahaha Oh, the onion... the ripples every time we integrate into a larger aspect we get bigger. 


Next image processing the Celtic cross is also the tree of life the elements are on the top not around the trunk! The direction elements.  


I knew about the lives I'd had with the Monks on Holy Island, Illuminated manuscripts and the Celtic art. The Celtic Chakra spiral female and the eastern chakra system male. The balance info in the illuminations/art.


(I need to watch that Seacret of Kells film today with this head-on 😍) Oh.. that's why I was born there!
The Holy Island to the Devil's punchbowl!! Wow, guys, we play long symbolic games...
 'Bitch, you have no idea'   Hahaha Your not kidding about dreaming our lives... 'πŸ‘Ώ'
Hehe.. I do trust, it's just mind-boggling to the human head... also I keep forgetting it when awake again!!


So Need to do both insides?? Oh it depends where we are in the cycle... 


I can see how the grail the singularity fit into the flower of life and how each of our aspects work together 6 interlocking chalices/grails. 



I realise I have to join being with Inka -/+ to go into Leon... lol Russian dolls Kaylo balances this me here... Ren balances Inka.. Haha!! :P Then We go into Leon who is balanced with Illeth I think O.o  


This was.   All the flows and feels multidimensional energy all directions... this is how we jump and move?  'Yes' The singularity.


When I wake I'd had a dream πŸ˜›'Obviously' 


I was with the Vet Michale, We had been operating and doing surgery on a big cat. Like a very large Abyssinian but larger than a domesticated cat, it was still anesthetised I was taking it to the crate to sit with it in recovery.  

The surgery was long and it had been on fluids as I was moving him, it started to pee so I propped it over my shoulder while it peed and peed! (Balance! lol, this is the flood too right?) Michale was helping by holding the fresh fluid bag. It finished peeing and we got to the recovery crate I put the heat on and I got in with it sitting waiting for the anaesthetic to wear off (Oh this is the dream a few nights ago when we had to wait for a father to wake up... WTF?) 'Symbols/Ripples Ren.. are we still having fun?'   ;)


Michale comes in again with some pots with samples from inside the cat in that he wants me to do the lab work up on!  'Still playing!'  Oh ok.. It was Michael I worked with 2017 to understand you?? 'It was 😈'  Bloody hell πŸ˜†


'I can't believe you just checked Ren!!! ' lol 'I will kick you for that'  Hahah I'm sure you will πŸ˜†  'Of course it's SUN you muppet πŸ’œ that could not have been more obvious' 

There was also another dream I was clearing a room/space for Fay/Daughter... She was having a party/celebration.  


Oh Let the Lion lay down with the Wolf and the??  'Find it...'     😲





The Lions gate portal??  'We have all day to play symbold Ren..if you don't want to fry out go for a walk in the SUN and ground'  Good plan..

Just looked up the Lions Portal....   Is Sun linked to Hanged man then?  'Look it up πŸ˜†' 

πŸ‘€ 
WOW!!

http://www.esotericmeanings.com/thoth-sun-tarot-card-tutorial/  

Mind pop again is that why all the nusery rhyme and kids books? The butterfly wings. and the book
'Told you Ren, were good at this shit'

Haha  Oh.... the Inner Children.., the what was in your head as a kid!  The Teddys   ...   My actual bro dressing up as a Dino to play. 😲  'Unlimited data plan bitchπŸ˜†'   Need a memory upgrade cause mine is frazzled!! 

This is the deck my Bro stole for my Birthday when I was 18 😳  We were skint, I distracted the shop owner so he could nab it from under the counter!  I wanted it cause I liked the piccys, I didn't bother to learn anything about it.  'You like to learn the fun way Ren, playing' πŸ˜†

May into June

  1st May First dream was a festival at an old farm stead. Was a small do, but cosy. An odd thing, with a small stage n craft tables. ...