Inner Children?

Was late to sleep. The early night was a little wine hazy woke at 444 with the image of a woman reading a storybook but she had stopped to look up at me her clothing was old fashioned 300 years past. A recall of old wooden greenhouse, plants with purple flowers and purple fruit. 

A massive line of female energy weaving back and threw time, it was huge felt meters wide and purple - was wide like that one at my main dream house going in the front door! Oh group?  'Yep'  ahh yeh! This wasn't twisty just solid and deep purple.  

After the purple, I'd jumped to the House hub where Malico is Inka and Kaylo are there still sleepy and I'm told to dreamshare so we do.  

It was more dream re-entry and I was being shown how they fitted with the dream from last night with the child's footprint in the sand! First was the dream of the missing sock, 2 kids had been beaten for losing it and were trying to find it and being helped by wired people. Wow.... I had no clue that was the same page as Cat you Inka!  'lol, you never do'  A German woman too?? The flag from the other night? Then I was taken back to this dream too where was trained to fight... There was another like this where I was preggy? Same place? 'Yes'   Ah yeh from this Jan. 

Oh is this the pattern of generational crime/abuse mentioned in the dream the other night?? Hummm Mel was in lots of these dreams too?  'Find her at the station tonight Ren ask her'  Ooooo! O.o I'd forgotten.  'We know'  Ok. Oh the Benny poem too 👀 Ok.  

This too I found the other day  Was that Kaylo that kept attacking me, and what was the puzzle?  .... The Crow totem? lol, collecting ghosts 😲

So the child soul in the sand... this is a male inner child? Your inner child? 'Yes'.   I didn't know there was 2??!! WOW, I found mine years ago... when you were concreated in the floor 😛

'Keep dreaming'   So go bk to sleep...

Also taken back to the garden dream  & the Data sorting story... Taught my Bro to read??.... Is this ancient Sumeria the writing? Clones, Writing, Ancients? Slave race??  

'We're still playing Bitch 😏, Sleep and chill you're getting warmer'.   So that was your inner child? I'm confused?  'I know you are.... It's ok your playing'  lol 

Go back to sleep I'm still in the house and Inka and Kaylo are still sleeping so I jump to find Malico. He's got his usual long dark hair and eyes and is in a smallish study, the room has floor to ceiling bookshelves made of the same dark wood and a small fire is lit in a grate.

The bookcases are filled with old-style leather-bound books. I sat on the the desk there, an old fashioned writing desk and was going to ask Malico questions but he just pressed his forehead to mine (Like the black dragon did years ago) and I ended up in a dream.
I'm a passenger in the back of a car on what is like a city circular road I guess, I can look down and across the unfamiliar city. The city looks tired and run down, the car I'm in is in an old-style too. I have my Queen and her kittens with me and I'm taking them to a vet, but when we get there the vet is Em's Mama..

errr she was in a dream the other day getting me breakfast??

Anyhooo there was a long black comb that belonged to her mother too with a long straight black hair in it, I took the comb to combe the kittens and then my queen was attacking and biting her own kittens and behaving really wired to them.  

Hummm, Blugh what the heck am I re'membeing now?? I've a feeling this is to do with that wired female matriarch dreams from earlier in the year.  

The kitten thing also reminded me of a dream years ago of attacking my own kids...... oh that was also tied to hot water? The instant hot water?? That's been in a few dreams too? '😈'   



Hummm... oh the baby, I had a baby boy and male me had a baby girl, more of the Yin-Yang born of eachother?    confusing!!

Character traits and flaws.

I'm falling threw what I thought I knew,
and I'm letting go of what I've done and so, 

I'm starting a new and my moment is now and I'm starting to accept that we all have this power.

To create what we want 

and play where we need.

Wild yet belonging we reap what we seed. 

'Come Ren' I want to play.... 'Then shut up and sleep'

Long dream, but my recall is just parts and bits. There was a box with small rodents mice, a big cardboard box I was moving the rodents. A baby in a sling carrier, it had a black and white swirly pattern on it. I'd been in a sack at some point too.  

A rave/dance is being organised.. there were some British MP's and me outside the building where it would start. I was getting a track-list we would be some of the first at the venue.  

'Symbols'😈 pffff, the other dance dreams? Energy shifting? Also the first on a level? That pops up too! 'Mmmm'

Next, I go in and out of the same dreams but not in order so was a little jumbled. I in the roundhouse hub dream area in the house dream-sharing with Inka, Kaylo was still there asleep too.

First was wired, I'm sitting in a circle of people like we were sitting around a large table but there was no table and we weren't 'sitting'. 

 It was more like a meeting of awareness but we had a human-like form/avatar. We were less than 20, 12-14 ish perhaps. 

There was a discussion we were picking character traits and flaws for a president.
 

__ Then I'm standing on a seashore in the sea up to my ankles I'm looking out onto Kelp beds.
 

Then back in the President dream, I'd got there threw a portal and I'd been seeing lots of portals.

The portals in that room with Inka the other night... also other portal dreams I was seeing too... the ones from last week in the arches and then the ones we closed again, and the one from that dream that lasted lifetimes and generations.   

I was thinking of how the static in them was different colours. Anyhoo I'd gone threw a portal to get to that meeting where we were picking president traits I was formless and then I'd entered into the heart centre of one of the males there and I spread threw though the body and cells!  'Yup'  Oo? That's how 'I' was at the meeting.  

Next I'm in my gran's house again in the bungalow (Male ancestor stuff) There is a crazy storm outside the sea is wild and the sky is strange grey. We were there waiting for the storm to pass. I was laying on my stomach in the corner doorway where the 3 doors meet drawing a pentagram, I had cut it out and was folding it, it was also more than a pentagram the star points had attachments. Like the Sanskrit swastica but with 5 arms, not 4.  

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A female race, it's down a very steep hill like a mountain road but it's an athletics track I'm observing from above 3 women have collided and one is spinning down the track out of control on her head 😆The woman who crashed into her is following to try and help the upside-down woman leaves the track and crashes into a heard of black and white cows in a field! lol, upside down, black and white cows?? '😏'   Inka 😜

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Back at the meeting/roundhouse an astral chat about intention, honesty and motivations... this has been in a few dreams lately too. The layers of agendas Leon tells me Inka isn't always transparent either. No shit! 'Hahaha 😈' 

Then back to the beach again, my footprint was small on the sand like a child soul.... Oh is this the?? When I was asking yday about Jesus and his mirror? 'Find it' Errrrr can't....  Hahah found this instead.....    srrsly😆  

 

Tangly Mess.

First wake was wired, not really lucid or active.

Your dreams? 'Yep, and Leon' - I can't get a handle on anything feels like an errr push-pull 'It's only 2 let it filter' Ok.

Next wake... still hazy this time I knew I was with Inak and Leon's consciousness just free form.  'Parasite' 😈 .  Shhhh.  How come I'm a parasite and you possess me?  'Semantics 😏' lol 

Was a strange other worldly city, a huge city, we were wrapping something, up loose ends getting ready to leave. Doing something with systems, there was also a massive and very strange tower but it's so jumbled unfamiliar and wired that it's only the vaguest impressions I could hold onto.   

We were finding something to pull stuff together. 

I knew the experience was fun and interesting it was just not something my human mind could process. Shhhh!  

I also heard someone calling lower astral close for a hand with something and I split and whent there too possibly Ian.

Next dream was wired... I was sitting on someone's shoulders but also the shoulders I was sitting on. I could be in either awareness and the person was being arrested but I wasn't sure who I was in the whole scenario. It was a Dr, Medic, Pharmacist, chemist vibe - someone who had been 'prescribing'... I was aware it was a 'crime' going back 'generations' Also aware it's an abstract energy concept I'm trying to get.  

It was a long walk threw halls and forests sitting on this person's shoulders and yet being them too. Oooooo this is the filtering from the first dreams? 'OFC' O.o lol Ren... Mel was there soon somehow, wich Mel? 'All Ren, symbols' Errrrr

Next was wrapping/Weaving/Tieing in more stuff. A flag Yellow Red, Black stripe.  German?? I duno?? Ah yes... was German. This is tied to that Gunthersburg or whatever it was dream that I now can't recall??' Mmmm' Oh lol that dream...  Inka 💜 Oh yeh, the other dream that had popped in was you and the crazy woman shitting on your doorstep to piss you off.... Also my Dad and bro being Plumbers and you telling me shit sorting ran in the family!! 😆

Last up was just a vision of a small carved wooden clown - small like a plam-toy it was smooth and oiled from being touched but clean too. With a pointed hat, Peridot... Sad clown oh! Oh also that Peridot in the Steven Universe and whaooo??? The youtube post too??  

What... 👀 How are all the dreams and my book tied to 2017? Baby Rog, Cat you, wtf??   'chuckling'   Oh... Jan 2017 was also married to trump and the... proposing to the wired dwarf..confused !!




WTF Inka???  Do I even want to look at the dream the night before....??    Pfffffff  

This was before the void game?   'Chill earth side Bitch, Play'   👀  Did I ask you to marry me wtf??  'Symbols Ren.. it's a game remeber' 

Pond Life ;)

Had a feeling might be a wired night from how Inka was yday evening.  '😈'  It was...

What?? Pre-midnight I'd been in space/void and it was like errrrr playing football with code there were 0's's and 1's the 0's were like balls we were kicking and the 1's made stuff. Only we were just awareness no form - like a code binary game?!?!  'Haha Yup Bitch, come play!'  😏  Ok.

Next wake up was wired too!.... Lower astral here or close to waking level and I was in the house and it was like loads and loads of things coming down, down into the house... chasing, scrabbling, skittering, brining. Dark and clawed, teeth and smokey all scrabbling and chasing down and round and round and down funny dark creatures running down a helter-skelter or wired spiral stairwell... felt sort of giggly too 😁

Next long dream was in my main dream area.   A wired dark version of it around the main house.  It's still busy there and there are people with strong agendas.  

To start with there had been a meal, I was handing out wrapped gifts (Is this the hiding gifts from the other day) the wrapping paper was ugly silver with deep blue stripes and I had no idea what was in the gifts it felt like a Christmas type of celebration but it wasn't Christmas. 

Silver, Dark Blue = Earth Wisdom 'Mmmm'

I'd also given a male cousin a cat crossword book, it was a joke book too all the clues were really funny. It was £1.99 with a soft back green cover and an old fashioned price sticker on the back... the kind of old book that was just photocopied with a sugarpaper paper cover. 

I was with old friend Marie (also my mid name) so with a version of me? 

The estate was wired, lots of dogs and people, someone's pet dogs two chihuahuas had been pinched, killed then cooked (I think it was barking and pissing someone off) We didn't know who had killed cooked it but Marie and me found one still warm in a roasting tin. It smelt pretty good and she'd decided that we may as well eat it now so it didn't go to waste and die needlessly. We were taking it to my main dream house when we realise that we are being watched by a private investigator this woman has hired and we are going to cop the blame for killing it too!
Marie went to shove the roasting tin along with cooked dog into someones black wheely bin but I know it's too late now and it's going to be pinned on us now,  the whole dream was fun and bizarre. 

Hahah...where are you guys? 'Playing 😏' lol.. 'Told you Ren, come bk to sleep' 

I jumped to him... There is me Inka and Kaylo and we are in wired clothes.. it startled me to splitting and waking again. Kaylo was in a brown boilersuit with a wired lettered logo on had a K&I - I was in that wired stuff from this dream, Inka in similar, there was that feeling of us being unpopular again... It was a roles/mission game 😀 'Ren! come bk and stay' lol ok.

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Dream of Aunty Sheilas, where Trump was the other day waiting for phone calls on a wired phone. There is more lockdown we have a woven plastic sack of red lentils and some frozen smoked fish.

There was also that big old ceramic bath from this dream the other day only it's bigger and I've just finished washing a dog-person. They are tall and with black & white dreds like my dogs tail but they stand upright, it was more like washing a dog than a person as they were all haired and the water I'm rinsing is very dirty. They are taller than me I'm standing in the bath too, the water is filthy brown more like pond water and as the hairy entity gets out there is lots of pond life left behind, tadpoles, newts snakes.. swimming around my ankles. I was asking someone to get me a bucket and net to get them out so I could empty and clean the bath, I was baling the water out down the sink first so it was easier to scoop out the smaller creatures.  

Next dreams I was startled awake by the kittens crashing into stuff I'd had lots more dreams.

One it had been of a performance at my main dream area but was hazy due to confused waking... 

Before that dream I'd been fighting with Inka - Kaylo, Him and me had jumped somewhere together in the strange clothes.   

Inka hit Kaylo to trigger me, it worked!  'lol, not shit Ren!' 😈 Haha was fun though, you could have just asked to fight.  

'You fight better when you're angry Ren' .. was a fun fight, I was mainly formless only manifesting at the last moment before slamming into Inka...  

'You fight like a rabid bitch' 😈 lol still kicked your ass! 'Lol Ren, you have no idea when to quit'.. Hahaha, where would be the fun in that 🤣 Oh! Was the Kaylo thing like when you got me to split the other day? The Clone thing?  'Yep!'  wow!!  

The performance dream in main dream area there had been a VIP/Queen thing and then a basement with a butler type guy but can't recall much more.  

Last dream I woke confused... 

I was in the roundhouse I'd jumped bk there and was sleeping on the straw bed thing there. Inka arrived asked me to dream share we did and he was digging tunnels under the roundhouse! Oh yeh, a board with a rug to cover where they went down, I was helping we were in different places but chatting telepathically while we hollowed out spaces.. 'I was telling you fairy storeys, Witch' lol!!  😂

We made tunnels and rooms using thought. Oh they started looking like the rock-cut ruins and other dreams, oh did we make all the tunnels under the main dream area?? From the other dreams?? 'Yep Time doesn't have to go forwards, you know that' - lol, I'm nuts... 'To most yes you are!' 

Who's dreams were we in anyway? 'Our Crews' is that cause I offered?   'Yeh but were not shy about asking either and you never say no 😏 '   Phahah I guess. 

---Wow, just did the dream links and 👀👀  'You'll still forget them, dosn't help your doing it after cider either'..  I'll still play though too.

😆😆😆  Is that an upgrade or a downgrade from Northern Scum? 💜

Languages, Portals and Dragons.

Had spoken with Inak and Leon lots yesterday. IOU 'Just come here' 

When I wake I'd had a really long dream!  

lol Loci in my main dream area but we were in Bamburgh to the west of the castle where the cricket field is there was an outdoor restaurant. The area is still so busy there were people all along the coast, all kinds of people entities ages/history.  

I was meeting him, we had booked a table for a meal for 6 but there was only us and then Em too so Me/Em. We were arguing in Japanise!! 'lol yep'  Eh? 💜 'You wanted a push back, you didn't stipulate you wanted to understand'  Hahah, we were arguing about a comic book and other things too. Guys 👀  

I'd felt bad we had booked a table for 6 for a meal but there was only 3 sharing drinks as the restaurant needed revenue.   

'Come bk Ren, Round House' - Jump there and am gone instantly.

Wow, just wow... wow... where was that? 'Hehe' 😈 I'd been with Inka in a lol was like a portal room, I've not seen anything like it before there were walls of lights and various coloured portals drop-down tubes ones too like I've used before.  

I'd had another dream too a long one... there was a circular flat stage with a wide audience around it, more of a wooden round dancefloor set in a colourful, other worldly market place.

There are dance acts using it in either solo or pairs. Amazing beautiful dances, I watch but the boards of the performance floor are being removed. The last dance I watch is a solo woman balancing on a few remaining planks it's more like gymnastics.  

Dream hopped and I'm with Em So another Me/Em. Em has a serious spine injury she can't walk and is strapped into a strange metal trailer.  She is going to be pulled along behind a vehicle. I was covering her with my duvet and blanket and tucking her in she was warm as it was going to be a fast ride......👀 lol

'Bk again Ren'   

Jump to Inka 'You're crazy to challenge me Ren'.  IKR , Can't be any other way though 😜 'I know' we hug and join into one entity. 

Then just WOW!... We dive inwards into us and turn into that bonkers demon/goddess thing from last night holding the wooden dryads and then we go outward projecting and we are a massive black dragon dark like the one who shared dreams with me years ago but huge and winged. -- That was unexpected! It's 515 😲  'lol, straight bk come'

The dragon we are stretches afar and away becoming all things. The dragon was also code, the bones 1 and the joints and articulations 0 .....Just wow!! 

'Want to go in now?' Oh, ok. I jump bk.

When I wake again lol well I'd been haggling bartering in another language possibly Hindi. 2 females I'm in colourful clothes. I was in a dark wooden shack buying unfamiliar Veg. The woman didn't have what I was looking for and was trying to get me to take these small round and hard brown veg with a rough skin/peal... I was speaking the other language fluently and the exchange was fast and friendly.
I'd agreed to the other veg and she went to her own cupboard and brought me some opened jar with a few of what I wanted in. They were in a rind/water the lid was red and the label in a language understood in the dream. Inka wow!!....  'Back again Bitch' 

Wake again and it's 616!  'OFC' 😏Venus outside looks amazing. In the dreams I'd had a book with a blue and cream cover, inside was another portal tunnel.   

The last dream had been dream re-entry.  bk to the lower astral where I was in Inka's mind in a dream... crawling down the road my knees bleeding... 'Told you last night Bitch to get off your knees'  

lol you did too.... and then this morning, I totaly flipped out at Ian PMT style shouting my head of cause I wanted to shout!! 👀

'Careful what you wish for Witch'    Hahah just wow!! 

-Part of the discusion the night before....

'So are you helping?'   I'm being 😁  'Bingo'    Thanks, why are you doing this?   'Why are you, you?'  Cause we give a shit? But we.. 'Yep, play the dark mirror, it doesn't make us what people need to see bitch'  Deep... 

 Lol 

I'll drown you later if you like'   Haha fuck off, ask me when I'm sleeping.

 

 'Off your knees bitch, you know you love a scrap'  😛 Inka... 

Pfff 

 

 'It's ok to bring a wall.... It won't be liked sometimes but you're also offering what you want too'   Oh the line to the flow

 

 A wtf dl.  'You asked for help bitch, it's incoming.  

Don't fight them they are not you'   👀  More DL Feel weired...   'Wind out your sails Bitch? Good, listen up and for once and pay attention.... There is a reason people hate us. Fucking fine line and we are course - Don't expect to be helpful.... It doesn't mean you aren't'