Ball's and Cubes

'Just hold this for now Ren'  you ok?  'Always Ren'  What are you doing? 
'Just do you'   OK
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You are a waterfall down my back?   'Slip stream Ren'  Hu??
'It's better than trying to carry the world on your shoulders'  

Feels like a shimmery cape 🤣  'Then let's let each other past mouse n meet in the middle once again'   Okkk

You want me to kill you?  Its that season or flow again 🤔

I'ma going to take your silence as yes

 

So I cook n eat you?

Saturn pudding?  Sheesh... Where? 

Ok.. Ddad's hub and you come back how?  

Wdym don't worry about that?  Ffs..

 

Ok...   I feel you.

 

Blugh...  I don't much like this just so you know.

It's been a while since I killed you? 
You were sad then too hu?  Like a sad blob.. 

Sheesh...  Ok..

 

Leon?  'Yes Ren' I duno how to kill Inka.

'That's not true Ren'  Ok, I don't much want to kill him and I duno why or where. 
'Then you would like guidance?'  Mmm yeh, suppose.  I'm out of my depth here.

'Then why not try Poseidon?'  Errr I'm not sure I'm lucid enough to find him.
'Hey Ren'  Loci, I need your help plx

'Why don't we meet in your space?  You can think and feel this out'   Thanks.

I'd met Loci and we'd walked and sat on the wall by the burn looking towards the sea.
I could feel Inka's heartbeat at my left adrenal... Was week and irregular.
Hummm didn't I once have a ticking clock there?

Anyhoo I'd asked Loci do I kill him in then?  'Why don't you follow his HB Ren'  Hummm Yeh good idea thanks. 

Wake at 212 I'd been far.  My dream dust was organised dots.  Like polka dot fabric. 
Life evolved the same way twice?  No one expected that, same way same place? 

 

Did I kill Inka then?  'Sort of Ren, you tried out how'  Oh we met at the bridge? 

'Yeh Ren and went out to sea'  Ok..  Off on One? Two?  I went way far.....

'Yes. Ready?'  Mm think so.

Hu?  That was odd.  Leon came too. 
I went into Inka he offered no resistance was just sitting in Ddads chair... I spread into every cell then smaller and smaller and asked them to stop.
Switched them all off.
Then I was on the floor stirring a tin of bright pink paint!

Sad and mixing.
I'd woke as I'd decided to paint Ddads chair.

'The pink shoe dream Ren'   Hummm ok, that was ages ago? 
https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2020/08/wake-at-252-i-know-id-been-in-story.html

Is Inka ok?   'He will be'  kk

Odd.. 

Void.....    Alone

Purple smoke    then pink purple spark/imp, 

Threads like pink spun sugar.

I'd recalled the equations from the other night.

So woke back up where I was now laying with my head by Loci and feet by Leon.
I'd asked Ddad to join my awareness in the void where I was lost in an awareness dance.

His observation gave me a point of reference.

A space where I could begin to remember.

 

Colours and light?  I duno I know Inka has to reform himself...  Was a polarity thing.

Re-Member Re-Call

The reference.
Inka could BE as he wished.

Re make himself as he wanted to be.

 

A place to be in my heart.
This was odd as I had no heart... Or anything else.
Only recall.

A ball,
Like love birthed a heart-ball. 

It was dense and reflective.

I showed Ddad and the ball expands like a bubble.

Concept of within and without.
 

It pops making colours. 

Nothing and all.

I'd asked the others to join me
Heads pointing in 404

My watch light woke me before we could begin.

Eh?  Wtf is going on why dose the plastic globe keep ticking?  And Inka did you just pop out of me?
'Kinda Ren'  Hummm that hip thing?  I forget now.

You guys came here.  So many strange noises in the room were keeping me from sleeping. 
Knocks on the wardrobe and odd tapping sounds startling me just enough to keep me liminal.

I was feeling for you here.  Loci was both adrenals, Leon was across my heart space.
Ddad and Inka I could feel by my head.
Inka has asked if I wanted him back again... I was seeing some crazy shit.  It was like the tunnels I can jump into but the noises in the room keeping me in that state were they were turning into things.  
A crazy rainbow space tic 🤣 Or water bear or something.
'Navel Ren'  Oh yeh... 
I was in a cathedral looking up at an amazing ceiling.
St Johns?  I'd asked you what John.
You'd told me basilica  ...   Was something to do with John the Baptist again.

I was about to object to the religion thing when the floating rainbow space tic told me to shut up and listen 😆

Ah yeh... When I told Inka yes he could come back the noises in the room then stopped. 
I could feel him inside my mind again making him self at home 🙄 was like the other night where we were in him and we were sharing the middle eye.
 

As I'd woken It was like a shadow jumped out of me and again the globe at the other side of the room went ping. 
'The blobs Ren, all the places you were dreaming at?'

Then he was back inside me again.

 

What you doing??  'Cleaning'  lol it feels like memories are being tickled and then combed out... Like tangles on a longhaired cat.

The one that had been hurting in my hip was connected to a recall of being locked up....

It turned fizzy then left threw my head 😆 like I had invisible hair connected to everything.

I saw such wyrd shit, trippy space bugs and 'Didn't put you off though mouse'  True that.

'Lay still, your energy body's a mess'  Ok.

'Oh and Ren?'  Mmmm   'You made a piss poor job of painting Ddad's chair'  🤣

 

While my energy body was fizzing and tingling and the room crackling, knocking and pinging I'd fallen into a dream with Inka, only he was my brother.
Jack & Ray again and Em.  We were all on an island in a storm.

Not a bad one but enough to stop the boats crossing so we were staying in a guest house called 'The Stormy Night'  It was number 71 on the street.
Jack & Ray had a PC, my bro kept tickling me.    I also had a doll 😂
When I was looking at it had a real face that no one else could see.
The doll kept making me laugh it was really funny, the others all thought I was fucking bonkers.

Last night feels like it lasted forever!  'You could get up?'  Nah.. I'm good here.

More dreams, pool locker rooms and tiny pink purple and blue crystals, someone had left them round the corners of the walls with glitter sprinkled. 

I was crawling round looking at them.   Costumes and Cosplay, Masks and stage makeup.

2 females jumping threw time between the 40's n 50's one telling the other they needed to support each other.
 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Archbasilica_of_Saint_John_Lateran

https://www.rome.net/basilica-st-john-lateran

Humm Yeh... I was laying on the floor seeing that!!
 

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Navel was this night... Narthex
https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2021/01/tiki-tummy.html

So the Earth Navel chakra is in AU...
That was another night you died! 

Hu?  Also the night with the purple smoky thing... Same purple Smokey stuff from the void last night too, that's what I'd recalled you as? 

https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2020/09/earth-chakras.html


I was a pink spark.. Oh that Poseidon made me into after another occasion I killed you!

'Serial killer bitch?'  Serial?? That was something you told me yday too.   I'm seeing circuits parallel and that I helped you with as a Subprocessor? 🤔
'I told you I'm an upgraded head teacher now'  Haha  my heads confused though  
'Run Ren... This stuffs easier to show'   I need to be in the right space to recall it all at once too.

The John the baptist night was the Halloween full moon...
I need to reread that Apocryphon of John  thing you told me about hu??  'Run'  Yeh ok...  😆  Ok I'm going.... 

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Hummm last year this date we also met in the middle!  I know a lot more about bugs too 😆