Marmalade Trust Processing

Lol 😆 high noon was 12.02 

Was still there n bk when where i was supposed to be.

This track is awesome 👌

 

Just back flipped from Moon shine and prohibition to my own black hole..

 

Where 🤔  next?  'I'm enjoying watching you dodging your own bullets bitch'  Hahahhahaha 

 

Lol 🤣 listen to indecent noise live from war-saw-  why the fuck u make a shocking shell a ww3 warlock Inka!  'Cause you're as toxic as me, good fun to blow up in people's faces'  lol 😆 the bomb 💣 u put inside me.

'You're on fire n ignited'  love it tbh.  Thanks 😊

Elp..  no chance..

So being in the pub felt safer than being here.  
Was a good night, people were really nice, Barman Michel looked out for me & the landlady. 
Guys shared there vaps and cigs.

 

Inka..   'Fuck off Ren'

Phahaha

Inka...  should I go home?  'Your home is in your heart Ren'

Fuck U i know that..

But 'suck your ribbon n scrounge bitch, I'll keep nicking your vapes'

Lol 😆 seriously

Ffs

U bend?

Will you hit me up with my smokes...

'Toot toot your self bitch' 😆

Seriously..'Deadly'  Pffff

Here now? Up 2 u.

I duno its warm here.warm in your bed n head 😴

Yup...  true Dat.

Oof

"Navigation?'  Mmm  

Where too.    'Trust your heart'  i do.
 

I was schitso as fuck, could here peoples subconscious in my mind rating me.

Then realised I was surrounded by toys..  And Inka had made me into Mama Laid after I'd tried to turn my Bro into a jampot at my back door.
The pub is a safe space.. Marmalade trust pub 🧡💛💜💛🧡
 

 

 

Sometimes reality provides you with everything you need if you trust an allow.
 

 

Was time to head home to bed... 'Come then  bring your glass your a shit class act' Lol  😆 ok.  ;) 

 

Inka?  'Pre-tensile testing, you are hard as fuck Ren'  Yeh, but I just want company friends and a place to be.  
'I know, sorry Ren, if you can be my psycho sis' 🙄 Inka I think we've firmly established that 🤣 'GG, I got you now, relax & let me hold you'  

Thanks, I don't like pissing my Dad off.

'He should be more concerned about you in your home'  IKR...     'It's all right Ren, it will B all Right' 

'Ren, sleep now .... Plx.  I'm sorry too'  for nicking my vapes?  'and the rest - TRUST your self'  ok... You going to fuck my head?  'Only as much as you want me?'  My frens?  'Just Relax' 

I Follow Rivers - Lykke Li (La Vie d'Adèle/La Vida de Adele)

 

 

Was a horrible night.  Processing, hurt, emotion, loneliness, guilt regret.. and forgiving myself... But I've done it so many times...  
Inka had punched me in the gut and made me do a U bend.  Him n Leon staved with me in our latest hub while I felt shit n deflated.  After dawn he asked if I was 'All that's left again'  I was..  I was ready for him to turn me off n on...I was ..   Felt fine gain and he stuffed something in my guts and reinflated me. 

 

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks (Official Video)

 

Dad's allready forgotton 🥰  Pleased we got his permanent residency at future care sorted 

Toploader - Dancing in the Moonlight (Official Video)

 

It's pretty magic round here 'When you can stay in your own lane n let people pass'  Haha I'm trying!
'It's ok Ren.. Just use intention' 
I just need to be with people who can see n look at me.  'Not easy when your Me Ren2 , let us all help'

Kate Nash - Foundations (Official Video)