Ouch

'Squeaky?' I wana come home, I see Leon first  'I won't dissuade you, Malico or me will find you after'  TY
I want to be near him, 'You're nuts Ren, but it's ok'  💜💜 'You know where you belong, it dosn't take you long to ping back now'

Death wish?  'OFC Ren, Also your make up.... You hate authority and control, love a challenge and a fight.  You need his wall'   I do hu? 
'Mmmm. Come jump to him, We find you after'

'Ren, as usual you have said and done much without meaning too, you know and are starting to understand what we are to you'

Not enough, but I need you too.   I remember the space where you went to hide and I burned up with the flame from thousands of eyes.

'A mask on a darth Dad? Tiki mask's that Inka made, The Leo moon mask, do you see how you've been played?'

OFC, I'm still learning but I'm impressed all the same 😏 I'm a willing participant in this game.

'Good Ren, you know well my mood with you, come find me if you dare Ren and I will Render what we do'  Lol sheesh... OMW.

___
That was Wyrd.... I was oofff  😵 🥴  head... 'Yes, Ren... See how I can break your mind?'   Mmmmmmm   'Rest of you next, dear'  lol great....

The dreams I'd had were so hard to put into words, not least cause my mind was in shreds....... Detached....
Like watching a world like a potato get pealed smaller and smaller...

Sticking, Splitting..  
Like a driving instructor but for a timeline/reality 😕  lol  

More and more and more was being restricted, stopped taken and no one cared.  
Just paying for it all fanatically and mentally. 

Caught in a trap, waiting and expecting it all... Being scooped up in a net.   'Come then Ren😏 '  ffs 😆

Next wake..

'Ren? You still in one bit?'   lol, yeh.

The One in All and the All in One..... The violence morphed into symbolic art.   😆

'It was that from the start Ren, we friction good, it's easier now the symbols are understood'

I was a singularity?   'Mostly yes, making a loop here to come back again'  Oh, why here?? 'Now' lol yeh, whatever..

'Dream more with me mouse, time to play' 

Every time I woke I had freaking hellish cramp in both calves that Inka just kept laughing at 😛  Shit head 'Warned you... 😈'

Next dream was whoosh!!... Familiar and yet the detail was hyper real I'm in a massive journey hub like a trippy underground station.

A Esher style maze of escalators thousands of people journeying many are Asian.  Me and an Asian female are trying to get into a covered conveyor  it's all metal... Familiar too I know I've had many dreams of strange lifts like this they are like Iron lungs / jest son art deco style but they have an organic component to like a membrane/air seal... Go any direction... Only this escalator was a tube for several.  As it was always moving it was tricky to work out how we were to get inside and we trying to open a metal hatch together to get in.

Inka?? 'I'm here to bitch, have been for some TIME, told you Squeaky.. You are mine 😛' 
Ohhh sudden recall of another massive dream...  a sensation of lockdown and restriction had featured in this space too, though it was highly symbolic a blue and red empty transport hub that was very windy.  Zak there to he was tired I was trying to find somewhere sheltered from the wind he could sleep.   There was what was like a huge stately home but also an old persons home, I was asking their feelings on restrictions, they were comfortable and they had space to be apart.  Virus I'd intended to sequence the virus ??   I'd been trying to wash my hands but when I try to use the sink the water that comes out is pond water alive and full of life I put the plug in and look at the life in the water.

There was wrapped gifts again and tiny infants who could walk on their toes and large waist Hight terracotta lanterns.

Ouchhhh!  'Take Mg tomorrow Ren it will help'  

Next dreams are the main feature was transistors and me wiring them up.   Firstly it had been a child.... Had a pack on his tummy a little like a laze quest backpack but it wasn't working.  Inak's in the dream too we were teaming.

there we connected to battries I don't know anything about this awake but in the dream It was what I did and came easy.  Again the dream is very detailed there is copper wire and then this stuff like white blue tac that I'm using to connect the bits together so the current could flow.   4 wire's needed connecting.  Once I'd fixed the one on the boy it was a female. 

This was odd as she was sitting at was like a makeup desk and it was her earrings ( lol ear rings! 😆 ) I was fixing up, white bows... I needed to connect 4 copper wires front and back to each ear and ear ring... With the transistor things and batteries so it was taking some time.  We were chatting as I worked... Her face is unfamiliar as it was just the connections I was focused on and the work was fiddly getting the fine wire in the right place.

As I was working she was telling me how she had been a rep for board games (srrsly!)  She'd journeyed to conventions promoting different styled games but with the restrictions she was having to find other work as her other job was on hold.

In another space I'd been offered an early shift..  I needed to be there 8.30 daily I'd work 2 &1/2 weeks on then have 2& 1/2 weeks off, I was to hummm I was just in the space if anyone needed me.   It was another hub, this one had a warm golden light about it but felt below ground.

The only other bit of the dream I recall was being very, very high up on rocks... Vertigo!  Lol the people looking up at here I was standing for perspective was making me feel dizzy so I'd moved down slightly and sat on the rock side to take in what I was seeing.

Inka... Ouch, legs... And  my mind O.o   'Yeh Squeak, Leon really screwed it last night 😏  I wasn't a walk in the park either.. Just dream for for now'  

Another dream, this one also heavily visual I'm with Em so Em/Me.  We are in a toy shop owned by Ann & Michel (Oh Anu& El.. 'Mmmm')


In once dream me/em are leaving and clearing out stuff we have had... This is odd as it's stuff like duvets and blankets all kids of stuff we don't really want, but we realis we have a responsibility to take our crap with us.

The toyshop was amazing, like a wood paneld 2nd or 3rd story in an old Victorian building the toys were a mix of ages, from hand made dolls, to modern collectors cards... I'd also ordered some new stuff too.  

It was mine but I intended to leave it as I had to much to carry and it was new so would sell.... I wasn't going to tell them I was leaving it as I'd assumed it would get purchased and wouldn't matter.

It was a very tall hand made wooden toy crane, on the winch was a toy spider... There was also amazingly detailed hand sewn dolls outfits on small cardboard coat hangers that I'd left hanging on the winch of the crane.  

I'd checked with Ann if I could arrange for animal charity's to collect the unwanted bedding and this was fine. 

Oh another very detailed dream I was a errr lol a ring/hoop of light me and another one of us was pink the other blue/green.   We are white with light strips about a meter high - 2 meters diameter identical but for the coloured lights we floated and went up and up was a mission, as the mission as completed we turned back into humanlike shape floating back to earth... this me only had one eye functioning, it was odd but familiar too.

Everything hurts O.o..... 'May I?'   plx  Ahhhh blue centre O.o  'Hahaha, Just still for now your legs muscles are fucked stop moving and let me help'  TY.

Get up and only have one knot left but still hurts like heck.... 'You deserve it Ren, you were warned enough!'   Blughhh  'Remembering the dreams now too??'  Sort off.. So many.  'Mg will help, I'd not advise you try to run'  lol I can barley walk!! 





Row row row your boat gently down the stream,

We are eggs our life's a dream and what have we done!

We all made a mess, we made a big knot..

We made ourselves into something were not!

No way to fight it but flip the script,

Dance it and spread it and DL it.


In an Aquarion space, there is no want for rule

Leaders and bullshit were coming for you,

We are all going crazy to make this world sane!!

and recall who we are and why we came!!

To play on a planet and dance under the sun

He wants us to remember life is for fun!!!

Ripples, Wiggles and Worms

Amazing first part of the night. 

I'd jumped with Malico from his house to main dream area.
Roundhouse first it was cold dark and deserted and I was going to collect wood and light fires but he just manifested them all alight at once and asked what I wanted to do.

I'd not remembered being in my main dream house with him so wanted to go there, last time I was there was Imbolc With Leon & Inka when were driving a car downstairs. 

We decided to walk there rather than jump, he made me all white and tall again... and we walked there chatting.. Once there we went to my room and joined tantric but but not sex as neither of us where human was like astral yoga when I woke we had been energy lots and lots of it a massive vortext.

It reminded me of my cat's whizzy coloured ball toy.

I could see the music inside a shell 😁

All the layers of cords woven so well. 

This was awesome 💜

We had after that gone back to the roundhouse then to the hunter's room, we found Leon at the roundhouse I knew I'd given him free access to my space we had jumped below and I kept waking there between dreams.

One of them nights that just seems to go on forever which is odd as I was listening to a live set till gone 1am. 'You want it to end?' Nah.....I'm good

Leon sighs 'Really?' Hahaha.

Leon was in the room now too and I invited him to the dream-sharing too.

Prior to that Malico and I had been sharing in a it was rippled we were in another space, so the dream is like splitting in another version of reality.

A wooden loft space, where we were doing the same dream share.

There is a rave and a game. Coming and going, but I'd wanted to dream.

The others were noisy and I wanted more sleep...

We ordered baby equipment the logo was Inkas name??

Wake at 616 Inka? He shows me images straight away. 'Taking back some time Ren' 💜 OMG that loft room!!
That space.. I know where it was my parents had lived there before I was born!

I'd been there a month as a newborn before moving into our house.

'Yep Ren it was' Wow.... I errrrrr??  

The images he's showing me are fractal branching but 3D, shapes embedded too - Line form colour very beautiful. 

😲

Wowweeeee!!
'As I said last night, I find your lack of faith disturbing' Hahaha 💜 Leon!! 👀

I'd woken again in the hunter's room and I'd been facing and sharing with Leon I'd woken with him staring at me knowingly... I'd said something about gods and he raises an eyebrow and tells me sarcastically 'Talk to me about gods Ren?' and shoves my awareness instantly into a dream.

Pffff the dream, long detailed and layered.

I'm collecting stationery (Solstices) again... Zak had been leaving it all over.  

Then plants, so many plants but they are small, ferns, mosses, air plants bugs and insects too. They are small and beautiful so detailed. They had been neglected and handed into my care. I was creating biomes, propagating, water too and various moisture levels creating tiny but flourishing spaces the insects were amazing colourful some were like underwater ladybirds. The ferns, mosses so green, plants Sundew and other carnivorous unusual bog plants that consume bugs.😆

The moon was amazing, the light kept changing... an old friend Rachel 'Sheep' lol 'Yeh' she was showing me a male with red hair 'Rog' lol yeh, He was in an adjacent building the buildings were like wooden chalets the living are on the upper floor, large glass windows and verandas.
He was with his children and his wife who looked unhappy, he was observing me and Rachel threw the window... We wanted to talk but we are both observed.

Then the last bit a live interview with a GP and politician or presenter she had wanted to talk about vaccinating but kept getting shut down she was posing some really good questions 'She askes him pointedly 'You got your role from a Christian did you not? But then the volume is getting manipulated and the then the broadcast quickly pulled with a 'sorry that section is unavailable at the moment'

'Behave, bitch!' lol Oooooo...👀😯

'Yes, Ren, who has perspective?' 

(As I'm typing this the tiny fly that has been here all winter is walking over the words in the dream diary and the sun comes out on the monitor from an all grey sky! 'We are watching you bitch😈' lol IKR 😆)

So I'm back in the Hunters room again Inak is there too now or his awareness is and he's still laughing.
Leon then comments casually 'I'm still going to beat the crap out of you Ren'
I'd grinned at him laughing and he'd added and no Malico will not stop me.. Malico replies 'No, but Ren could' Leon sitting up tells him 'Even Ren has more sense than that' 

Which makes me laugh and tell them both I think how much sense I have is up for debate tbf... and I'd rolled over to dream with Malico.... as I do that Leon adds more recall from the previous dream!! 😲
Haha😆😆

Where I'd been talking about my credit with him and how I'd pay him bk 😜 I'd agreed I was open to burning and destroying stuff .....💩😆 ...

Stop laughing Inka!! 'Your funny bitch, I did fucking warn you to avoid him for a while!' Yeh IKR but Meh 😆 It's amusing!!

'Idiot!'

Oh... 

Hahahah Leon gives me even more recall!!

While I'd been making the bug-eating plant biomes I recall I was also overhearing a call of Josh talking to a friend James, James had been complaining that he was in Christian Daycare!!!

lol Josh had commented oh yeh 'Your Mom's working, Right?'  😆😆😆

 'You can't wiggle out of this worm' Hahah I know, it's still fun though.

I jump bk again Leon had warned me the longer I avoid fighting with him the more he will hurt me and I tell him sure, I wanted to dream with Malico again first.
I was dreaming again fast of coffee and warm raisin and custard pastries and there is a knock on my awareness 😆 I open the mental door to Malico who plays me the WHAM last Christmas song?? 'Yes' I'd already swapped hearts with Inak end of the summer. 

Oh the dream from Solstice 2019 was about a twin I didn't get on with 😛 Ohh, then me and Malico skipped lockdown.. then Christmas was with Benny, and another detention space for unhinged bruised bananas... Not to mention the utter insanity of Christmas just passed 😂

'Ren, you are my betrothed again, I told you to look it up yesterday but you didn't bother, I'm staying with you for a bit'  .. Oh yeh Inak had wanted to hand bind us for a time when we were playing with blood again the night before last. 

Oh.... This symbolic, Narrative, Astrology reality is wyrd.    'You could always study it?'  

Hahah yeh right 😜  'I assumed as much Ren'  

Haha, IMA get up and make bread, I'll fight you tonight Leon 😏

 

Shapes and Time, Dancing a Line.

Poooo!
'You're the grown up Ren?'  Hahaha said who?  
This life is not my dream, I'm just surfing threw.
Many layers of wyrd shit,
waiting to sleep/death to land back where I fit.
'Death Squeak?'  Inka you know well that drive, why bring it bk up of all times tonight.
'Time Mouse? YOU want to talk time to me?'   
Mmmm why not, we are friends... let me see... What's with the time cube? and why the blood?  What's with your Ring? I only offer love?

'Ring around a planet is no bad thing, only the attraction of smaller things :P'  Hahhaha
'Yeh, Ren that's what I'm saying, I'm attractive bitch see how I hold you in sway'
Not good enough... show me, please?
'Mouse, your credit?....'   take what you need ;)
'FFS Ren you're as big as your Dumb!' Uranus lacks reason, we are free to become!
'Bitch?'
You know what I said, lack of restraint is not what I dread.
I go all in with love and I fuck of fear.  I don't plan ahead it's insight I hear....
'You can't hear sight bitch?'
Are you sure???  
'Squeaky?'   
Inka...   can I just fight you?  
'Sure'   💜  'Bitch just come here I'm a wall for your fire'
TY!  
'Avoid Leon Ren, you're not out of his shit radar, we can only shield you so far'
What did I do?
'We are teaching fast, now though... here bitch you wanted to scrap?'
Hahaha, Yeh, I do.... Astral wild?
'Crazy Ren Mouse... Wind it up and let it go?'

I want you crew, I'm hard I know,
we team as I'm an in or out.
And I'll bite you hard when it's not ok to shout.
Stupid pen... 'I could ram it threw your eye 😈'
Oh, how very Odin 😏
'You want to die?'  
Mmmmm well, a little... enough to say yes.
'Good news then mouse I will gladly oblige'
'Your bounty will arrive soon, in your space and your time, much like Leon you will not want to renege   - This is not just credit bitch you will bleed my life away'  

Errrrrrr   'Just STFU ren & 333... enough over the head shit, for now, come to me'
....
I errrr just revisited.....

 👀 also a Ren-ege.... allways with the Latin...






'We don't get pissed like you do Bitch 😈 DW, you owned it as usual'  lol!!



Hahah  'Should have DL'ed earlier Ren, I've told you we are on on'
 
Wish I had...  'Just record the dreams from last night n come here again Ren' OK..

Last night......

Woken at 505.. 'Hey Lazy'    I'd been lost for so long in dreams,  Trains/Tracks/ journeys and prisons

I'd been with Inka we had 👀  Been fighting hard...

Then awake an, I was just back at Malicos space with Inka too in the odd small room, in the dreams

I'd been with Chris's house again odd rainbow dwarfs - I'd shut my dog out all night and he'd been attacked by to Scottie dogs.  

We were shapes too
What's with the shapes???  'TIME WILL TELL' lol Inka..😆

We were manifesting like the void but we were just in the room, So our astral forms in the small space laking coherence as our minds joined to form.

We made shapes... Sphere, a Cone, Cube too, and a pyramid we swapped and changed and played as 3 fitting inside each other to see what we could be.   

'Blood to squeak' Oh yeh... our forms were playing with blood....
At first, we were white light but then we played with blood too, sharing it and seeing it....

Splitting our awareness... Brown, and grey, Black and white we coloured the shapes we made... we were weaving angles with light, colouring them with recall and blood awarness. 😯

I'd fallen back to sleep fast there too.  Into dreams.
What are hormones??

Leon appeared and knocked on the door, 'I know you are harbouring a mouse in your house!'  He had told Malico while watching me looking amused.  I'd waved...and told them to let him in.   
Inka wouldn't let me leave with him?

The dreams I'd had before Leon appeared...

Were the same house..with Chris and oh... they are my other godparents as well as alternative parents for this life??  'Mmmm, Symbolic ren-dering Ren'
Pfff
We had.. party sandwiches all rainbow.. Oh it was Sandras bday yday..
Fairy god Mum too.. we had a bell tent, the same shape as my roundhouse.  I see it multi D.   

Godmum wanted to put windows into the canvas.. but it was pitched badly.
I was telling them the shape it should be, and the windows needed to work with the structure... the roof would leak, the sides let in light when pitched right... the door was the best place. 

This was the geometry too?  'OFC'

My cousin would put them in.  Oh his also Aquarius birthday soon??

Chris was also telling me of something that had happened with my Dad. 
I know this was all symbolic, someone had come to his home. 
Not happy with his work and a job he was about to start was voided.   Then the person who had fired him left the role.
'We' me and crew were also not popular we were in a supermarket in the freezer aisle.  Chris is with us ranting about us. 
It was to do with 2 counties and their sports clubs... how we are disliked and pissing people off as we would play for either team ... Hahaha 😆

Ok... this is to do with why Leon is annoyed?  'Yes, Ren it is... and you owe me at the moment, I lost a gig because of you'  

Pffffffff

Berwick also border.. the sports club, border boundary 'The last dream there Ren, you made tea uninvited'  Ok... Blugh, Malico and Leon need diffrent colours.   'Make Leon more Yellow, I'll keep black'  Haha ok.


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I just found the other dream in that house.... 'Rodent teeth Ren??'  Yeh, baby rat bite tonight 😛

'See the loops, you've got stuff to weave Ren.. behave and come in'


Yeh... 'Also Ren....  I find your lack of faith disturbing'  Sheeseh.. 😆

Lithium Dream Loops

'Ren, you're in trouble now bitch' lol..... yeh what's new?

'Reality rendering since you've been fucking with it hard, seen as you ask... Go to Malico and stay with him OK?'

Why? 'Leon has it in for you and he's pissed ok? Just do as I say till he chills out' Mmmm

I'd been dreaming of Lithium again.
I'd gone to check in on my Dad. It was a wyrd. An astral take on his house at night... layout normal but that perpetual dark sky that some spaces have.

He wasn't making any sense taking in riddles almost paranoid most unlike him, his partner told me it was Lithium he was taking for epilepsy? mixed with alcohol that made him like that. I was cooking in their oven too, cubes and rings 😏....

'Jump Malico Ren please.. dream there'  

When I next wake I'd woken into the room with Malico... oh we are in that small room in his house, he was sitting in a chair I was on the bed sleeping and waking and looking into the small fire there I feel Inka may have been coming or going but my recall there is vague the dreams much clearer. 

The dream had been of a dark concrete area, I was clearing some cushions and blankets as rain was due, a storm and lots of water/flooding.
While clearing I'd been considering the periodic table Lithium again I was focused on the first column the Alkali metals.  'Find the other dreams Squeak'  Ok.

Had been another dream too a huge strange building.. again I was focusing on chemistry. I had a room in the building it was a type of dream hub too, I shared the room with a very unfamiliar male but we'd been paired to dream & data share. Atomic structure was a thing.. looking at soft silvery liquid metals too.. recall of the explosion all over that male where I was awareness in the space. 

Then another long dream.  

This is a strange arena with many hubs, aspects I was visiting it was almost like a desert space but on different layers too.

A carpet store and tile shop, this was to do with reality/fabric weaving and the times were geometric and coloured - reality construct stuff.

The school, tiles, fabric rugs, standing on my head by a map. while 2 men did some complex maths.

Fires, Explosions, some dogs I'd had to kill.  

An angry mother I wouldn't talk with,

Children playing barefoot on ice,

Teachers and Vaccinations,

I was not playing nice.

A birthday, A garden, so many things.

'You've been dreaming the night backwards you ended to begin' 

I was with Malico? 'Mostly yeh, Leons annoyed with you.  Don't go there 😈' 

lol 😆 I duno why? 'You will in time, for now just avoid him, keep dreaming it's fine'  

Oh a stolen something too, a small trailer/generator/vehicle. It had been connected to a larger vehicle coupled like a train locked too but now removed and gone.... I was washing glass lab equipment and polishing it too.  

So many things all muddled up and lots of people angry about what I'd done.  

The map with red lines on? South Africa? A curve a line, there was an important arc some complex equations, a line and flow.
Some energy like a pendulum it was building up quite slow.

Fauci in the dream arena too, he was a cause of friction with the matriarch .. I didn't want to speak to Mama we stayed well apart.  

Fauci in the dream space, he was with the Matriarch Mum, long blond straight hair again like this one... 

Who told me about a jumper dress.. Jump address! Oh the upside-down shoes too - again I was standing on my head like I often seem to do.

She was also my Mama this time though we were very much estranged neither liking each other but playing a similar game. 

It wasn't until the morning I'd recalled the half-asleep convo's the night before with Inka. 'You ask you get Ren 😏' lol so it seems 😜

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From the night before... 

Inka? 'Bitch?' 💜

'Come here... you've said and done enough in that layer'

Mmmmm ok, where we play? 'Your call Ren you get more naughty by the day 😈' 🙄🤣

Hahaha 

Could you take me somewhere fun?  

'Do you care what you do?' Tonight I just wana feel close to you. 

'Squeak?' Sorry, I just feel not empty when you're close.

Can I go home to the space where I'm blue, where I'm telepathic and whole and not split in two?

and if not, bring it here. 

If we can't go back then what I want is to be like that.

'Intention Ren, Then me... We go, crazy. You wana see what I can be?' 

Yeh.. I still love. You keep trying to scare me away.

Whatever my mind says, my heart wants to play.

'Come to me then Ren, yeh I'm like your bro to you I know. I'm the black to your white, the surrender to your fight' 

You feel like the thumb on my hand, the sea to my land.

'I know Mouse, like I told you we gamed this tight, what's wrong is tricky it's not left or right 😈' lol tricky?  😆

'Come here Squeaky...just let me show you FFS'
OK... 'Now' oh? 'Yeh, now, here' lol Ouch... 'Here, Now Ren, get out of your stupid head and follow your heart to me fast'  

OK... omw... 'Page to Ren, and get some decent pens FFS' lol yeh...

Oh, just checked the other Lithium dreams, Woooo we do game this tight  👀😲 'Stupid Ren 😈'  HAHahha

When I'd realised that Lughnasadh (Harvest/Corn/Saturn) was the opposite festival to Imbolc -Bday.! I'd wondered about the loaf house dream but couldn't find it! 'Magic'  Hahaha


1st With explosions and nicking it..


Then the clones.. more of the same looking blond female.. Oh, I'd forgotten that was Germany too like last night 👀


We also jumped Germany last summer hu?  and the other times..

Then this time was to do with my ship n free energy.