The WEB! Dragons and a 'meeting' I think we did it!! :D

I got into bed and first it was images.. 

Lady -  Bird,  The Blue feathered eyebrows  & The woman covered in blue feathers.  (All from past dreams visions.    - This morning I'm remembering my 'cot' toy.. Blue Bird, it sung about angels 14 watching over me.  (This is shown at the end of the vid... weirdly when I put it on 2 vids start playing at once... one is about a 'Big Picture' Earth angels and a vow of invisibility.  (I think this is silence)





 I had in the healing dream... were the other me's didn't know I was there I'd not spoken till then.
This was wired, as them both together made my head go  'AWOOOGAAA!' 

I needed to step into my own power first...  Before I could teach/help I needed to know what and why!

It's time!  lol  'TIME' 


Soooo  tangent dealt with for now...   Back to the thoughts after the blue bird.   It was the poems I wrote last cycle around 2012.... I understand them now!!

A flower with many petals, A people with many hearts,
They've lost there own beginnings,
Feel alone from the start,
To bring them back together, and hold them all like glue,
Threw trust and hope, with love and light we all have Jobs to do.

The lotus, is the flower :D   Oh wow,  I understand all my old poems now...  my higersself was still separated by the veil... so I could communicate but not 'know'  

Soo many poems!!  I need to start to share them

Ok...Back to the bed thoughts :P  My Asthma is me expanding inside...    It's a transformation like the ladybird bugs.   
The occult/ hidden... it's not really hidden, we just left it behind the veil while we played hide and seek! Free will,  our totality loves us so much <3   The free will, we grow at our own pace.

School...   Has been top down,    if you let children grow they naturally will learn numbers and letters in the same way they use crayons and building blocks... as tools of creation!

Net works, branch lines, blood flow, trees, the web neural network our streets...    We are the same inside out :D  As above so below!

Next thought is 'mass' 

Blood of Christ body of Christ?  Mass...   noo   Weight?   Both & Quantum!
mass is a property of a physical body. It is the measure of an object's resistance to acceleration (a change in its state of motion) when a force is applied. It also determines the strength of its mutual gravitational attraction to other bodies. 

Ahhh the gravity wave then?   The pulling back together! Other body's - other hearts other minds.

I can't get this into words yet.  It's the spiders and blood from the crone dream, the net & gravity.  I think it's blood and breath.  One in and out the other round and round...  Prana.  

Also other words for Dryad...  Diad,   This also has 2 meanings  


DIAD....   Delivery Information Aquasition Device
The diad is a structure in the cardiac myocyte located at the sarcomere Z-line. It is composed of a single t-tubule paired with a terminal cisterna of the sarcoplasmic reticulum. The diad plays an important role in excitation-contraction coupling by juxtaposing an inlet for the action potential near a source of Ca²⁺ ions. This way, the wave of depolarization can be coupled to calcium-mediated cardiac muscle contraction via the sliding filament mechanism.



Soooo It's a  microscopic T shaped thing in the heart made of 3 membrains!!    (Triad)   in the heart muscle that de-polarises  !!   Made of light and dark bands.....    Hahahha   As within so without.   This is the Cross/Hanged man on a cellular level??  O.o  Who knows...  I've a feeling I can go look though :P

That makes sense too!  

Dyslexia is not a disability either it's a deep understanding language... a quantum understanding of word play!   We do not want to remember the spelling as it;s the meaning that creates and 'matters' 

The letters tools of creation.... the 'WORD' was with god.   Words are magic spells :P
 





Soooo,  the blood and the breath..  the expansion contraction of breath... this is yoga Pranayama  ohhh the Prana!  Breathing yoga.. the Prana is the energy!   The blood it goes round and round and round  via the heart... the Cycle.   The heart and the lungs..   the trees and the world or the tree and it's disk. 
Quantum, round or flat. 

I'm so wide awake,  Zak is laying in bed with us having nightmares...   He wakes and tells me 'Mummy, you can't take it back'   He won't say what.

He's always been unsettled, his nightmares the 'scared of birds' the Blue Monsters??  Is this the woman with feathers?? 

My eye dust is really 'organised now'  I see a purple dream entrance so jump into a dream. 



I'm lucid in the dream.

First is a white castle/ school   I'm only one there and it's being bombed.. with 'REALITY BOMBS'   lol :P
The moon crone dream.   The reality bombs started here. 


So the bombs are dropping, they are cluster bombs with invisibility...  my family's there it's really unstable, we are at a brink.  We are in this school 'now' for a reason.  I get bombed...

New reality. 

This one is a real mess, houses are blowing up and people are vanishing as the buildings explode.   War-zone style.
We are split,  lots of us 'know' but some are still really scared of their shadow.   There are lots of people confused and in fear...  (It's amphibian reptilian)    We all know it's something to do with 'GOD' but some are still scared of the judgement.    This is causing the instability.

We are split, some are sending energy supporting the scared and anchoring them...  some are trying to stabilise reality.    I 'know'  I'm building up my power......   I get hit and get zapped again into another reality  'Dead' ... the bombs are a dead like in the other games. 

Connect with other's  we are such a bunch of weirdos!! :D :D   This time it's a space ship type place, but with a reality inside too, we can still see the players from the reality's below.  

Wizards, Mystics, Time lords, religious people  We look like a crazy bunch of nerds  the conversations we are having are amazing, they are doing same as me.....  time hopping, or tracking soul shards - messages.    I understand them and them me!!
Some are having to wear dark glasses as the light and flicker rate is to high for them,   I can still see (this is like screen refresh rate) 
Ian and the kids are there too...  I'm trying to juggle both..  no 'TIME' to meditate so I've been dragging the universe down here inside of me.   :P  (OOps ;)   ( I'm a singularity?? )

The reality's are flashing fast, one is tunnel...   me and the others brace  (OHHHH the Braclet??)

More reality Bombs..   We all brace together (me and the weirdos)
They don't go off again...    lol or do they??? ;)  Heheh

I zap again into a 3rd reality.  It's bright white light room, there are a group at a table only (9 - 12) We are from all over the world, we talk in riddles, we are laughing!   'WE DID IT'  
They don't recognise me or me them,   (But I know I've been with them in astral for ages)
They ask 'Who AM I'   I laugh and tell them,  'I am YOU'  We all laugh :D

We ask what we have been tracking...    Some people a Lizard, Frog....   mine was the gold  holographic frog in the 'Nephalim Elohim' Dream.  We got back threw the separation... I came from the Nephilim / Elohim branch.     (The Giants dreams... the Lucifer angel from my child hood) 

A red hair woman comes up to me ( I think she's the fire element I sometimes meet)   She takes my hand and crosses my palm with hers. 

On my hand ancient writing appears in amber raised bubbles (It's my name but I can't read it) Same text as the Elohim dream...   I can see my picture though it's a Dragon :) 
I gasp!  She laughs, as she looks up at my face it fades,  She is surprised I can see it too....   but I'm connected to over soul.     I can only see it when she's looking...   that is her gift <3    She tells me my name, but I can't 're'member'  lol

I wake up falling back threw layers of realities.   Am wide awake thinking WOW, and as I finish writing up the dream I reach the end of my dream book!!  Hahahhaa :D     lol  what a ride :D :D

I lay in bed physically trembling after this :P

But still it cycles on...    Both me and Ian are Dragons...  Chinese signs. 

I know how to fly, it's to do with vibration... I need to embrace and match the vibration of air.. or become lighter.  
Dragons are masters of the Elements...   also the Chinese star sign the bigger cycle of 4 x 12 years  -  this is the Zeitgeist the spirit of the age, there is only one spirit to share, but we express differently all a part of the puzzle.    Is the Zeitgeist the energy we bring in at birth??  The dates.. meby that links us to the groups/branches closest. 

The flicker rate in the dream.... different species see stuff at different speeds...   'Time... must be linked to heart rate and breathing and mass & the vagus nerve!     Bumble bees and there buzzzzzz  


The dragon dream

From 2012

I had a dream in a dream last night.
First part was a long night walk threw Northumberland (where I grew up)..
I was with a few people and we were walking from my old grans house to an aunts.
about 7 miles threw dark countryside.
There was a shop in the front of my aunts house, and then a dark back garden with lots of wired stuff the stars seemed to come right down to the grass.
In the garden were lots of other people, some awake and some asleep - it was fairly quiet and I whent to sleep there.

In the dream, dream. I'm a dragon/dinosaur type of thing.
I have a long pointed face and 2 triangle shaped wings, a small pointed horn 2 clawed feet, scales and pointy teeth.

I can talk to the other dino's with thought. We have an underground city, with rivers flowing threw it - it's a bit of a dump.
Just a messy series of caves, mainly we live in a pine forest outside of the caves.

Our river is drying up, and we need the water to hatch our eggs.
We decided to dam the water flowing into the city with tree's and as one of the flying dinos I'm required to rip up trees and block the river as it flows to the city.

Some time passed and a lake built up at the city wall, but the city dwelling dino's got angry at us for blocking there river up.

I think they destroyed the dam causing a flood.... I do remember we have a big fight about it though - a huge dino battle.

I was fighting in the air, I discovered I could also heal other dinos using my horn - it was a bit like a my little pony horn :)

The battle is the last part of the dino dream I remember I fell from the sky with something I'd been healing and as I fell I fell back into the first dream.

But I was still a dino, but smaller - human size.
It was daytime and ended up going to a school/church type of place, lots of old school friends were there and were all dressed in long white robes, like school nativity angels.

I was still scaly and wired, they all seemed to be afraid/repulsed by me. I wasn't to bothered cause I could still fly and it seemed like a fair trade

The last bit of the dream I was exploring the buildings and watching people.

Sooo 1976 was a fire dragon year...  I've a feeling this fits with Zeitgeist.  (Spirit of the age) 

Humm....   Number 14.. from my blue bird song, 

The Zeitgeist, I wonder if that fits with breath??  Spirit?

Again from 2012

The flow of the rain into the sea, like thoughts from you into me.
As they join, become one, their work is done,
New to become,
for to be free, the breath enters me,
Did you breath it too?? cause nothing is new



Drifting apart,
The light that we are,
Lost from the start,
Empty of Heart.

Hollow inside,
With what can we fill,
the void that we are,
when we've drifted to far.

Floating alone, to far from what's home,
Who are you?  Why am I me?
When 'they' look at 'I'
What do they see?

A silence so deep so enveloping,
A hug from the place I found Home,
No longer alone, much stronger a zone,
a place of which I'm a part.

The trees as they grow into me,
The birds from who's eyes I can see,
The earth in my Breath,
The night takes my Self,
I'm lost in the beauty of 'We'

Ages all tied in your Web,
Caught in the green safety net,
Don't let us go, together we grow,Right 'hear' right 'now' we belong.   O.o  OOoo  Also from 2012...   :D

Fay's also just learnt to sing and play this...  lol  It fits too!




Sooo I'm wondering, what happens when you start to decode life in the same way you decode dreams?   Is that why I had the dream I did last night??

Possibly insanity??   *shrugs*  Hummm   'The fool' it is then. ;)


The bracelet I got... I'm sure there has to be more to it. The year it was made - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1806

Some of the births/deaths seem significant.. Start of the industrial revolution lots of significant people. It's 206 years old. I can't re'meber what DW said about cycles.
Hummm when I think more about it I get pressure on the crown chakra. My dreams last night, I could feel pressure on 3rd eye, then after on the crown.

Hummmmm  Intreasting.  -
Soo   arousing curiosity or interest; holding or catching the attention.   Seem worth trying then :)
Isambard Kingdom Brunel - born that year.. I feel this is significant for the bridges, trains, ships...  connection & network too.  Key player in the Industrial revolution. 

Braclet   Brace Let   -   In the dream I was bracing with the others to hold the 'reality'   
Sooo brace something that is used to support or connect things, or to make something stronger...    Also fits with the trains ships/tracks/network

Let -   to allow or permit....   Surrender then?    Other end of control? 

It's covered in Ivy,  So apart from the obvious tree reference.  Ivy seems quite symbolic too! 

'Ivy, being an evergreen plant, represents eternity, fidelity, and strong affectionate attachment, such as wedded love and friendship. The ivy plant is also a strong plant which can grow in the hardest enviroment. Another association of Ivy as an evergreen, is perennial life and immortality.'  
Silver too again in alchemy the connection to the moon.  

Heheh,  If we can go down the rabbit hole and land in looking glass world....where else is there to play??

Earth is an Elite School for Them Game Enough to Play?!?

So what you asked yesterday.  WORMWOOD More Weaving. 

 

 https://www.homeopathycenter.org/medicine_finder/absinthium/

 

 Treats, delirium.. hearing voices jolts 😆

The herb is an antiparasitic

The first time you told me this year...

Snakes and Slides... Oh that was before I tried to slide into Hell



The Etymology of the Herb

'Yes Ren.... Arctic Skur like we told you this is what you wanted to learn' O.o Wow!

 

This is the soul aspect retrieval - 'and your heart lead hunting 😈 'Cupids bow... Loves lil sis.  

The European name is also worm - Northern speak for wyrm too...

And the Wormwood and Screwtape books from an old Devil to a Young!!  Also Lewis Carol (The Worm story too)

 

What was all them paintings 😛 Clipping cupid's Wings?? 

 

Why everyone clipping cupid's Wings??

 

 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cupid_and_Psyche  Oh!!  

'Shooting your self in the mirror bitch?' lol  Ohh....  😆

 

I'm getting a good aim though!! 💜

CBA to read it... I don't need to hu? 

'Data plan Witch, you know as you've been there!'  Haha 

 

So why folks wana clip loves wings?  'Time of the Mind Ren, wasn't loves go'  lol 

😆

Oh... Also cause the split-brain shit! 

If we go looking for the other half of us in 'other' then we end up projecting our own internal shit on them!  

'Yes' So they all got pissed off with love and desire as they were looking for fulfilment outside not in? 

 

As we are looking for the rest of us!  'Mmmmm'   

Shooting the messenger?    'Like blaming the scape goat bitch'  Hahaha 

 

 

Inak, what you doing... 'Coming in'   Any reason?  'Cause I can'  lol Ok then lord n master, time and my ass hat twin... My vessel is your vessel.. Got for it

 

'Bitch your nuts'   Woooo 😆  'Plough pose quick, your spine needs a crack'  lol Haha.. Plough Harvest and agriculture yeh?   'And you know it Ren 😈'

 

 So... Esoteric spiritual awakening, Shamanism taught by dreams, Witchcraft from the inside out and now astrology taught by the planets?     'Earth's an elite school for them game enough to play!'    lol dick... 

Oh.... That's the fucking time-hopping for a perfect crime dream!!!     'Who hops better than a flea bitch?'     WHAAAA 😆

 

It's like having 'The gods plugged into your head Ren? It's sure is bitch... Don't tell me it's not fun though' Ok.. but quit butting into my conversations! Shoooo 

Where is Malico, 'Busy'... 'I'm still keeping an eye on you Ren so please behave' 

Hehe 😂 Yeh any other requests?  

 

 'Do what you want tonight within reason, just remember to set intention' 😜 Haha cool... 

__ 

First wake at 1ish. I'd jumped to find Inak who was smoking by the fire outside the roundhouse and sat next to him, asked to dream share and in a dream fast.. 

I'd been something? 'You're usually something'  People were asking what? 'You were asking what' Oh, lol errrrr I was emmmm  'I know 😈'.   lol so tell me?  'Dream more Ren, it's more fun to show'  

Still here, 'Roundhouse unless you want to move'   Nah, I'm relaxed here..

'Dream here then mouse by your strange roundhouse'  

Next wake 2.40ish. Oh, lol  

I'd been dreaming on 2 layers....
One I'm with you guys awareness chilling and chatting and someone saying 'Let's not fuck this again while everyone's watching' and I was thinking of when Inak was saying 'Let's not get caught with our pants down' after the Moon -Sun transition dream where the sun was coming and I was half-naked.... and then I'd been laughing cause I'd wondered what Uranus was doing 😁 and someone shouting juvenile 'That would be me Ren'  lol sorry, sucks to be a visual thinker 😆

TBF when you guys said I needed to learn a bit of astronomy next I wasn't picturing the planets with archetypal personality traits talking in my head 😛

In the other layer of dreaming was a crazy puzzle game. Strange people all coming together to play, all with different bits of the same puzzle. I was rendering it wired... A church, an investigator, some kids a music festival, random clues/parts bits we'd all agreed to add.  

It wasn't easy to understand each other as we all rendered the same puzzle our own way.  'Childishly in your case bitch 😈'  lol Inka, if it works who cares!  

Anyhooo - The puzzle was getting close to completion, and everyone is heading to the target loci..

Dino fancy dress suits, walking mushrooms, a field and a city, an odd house in a lake... Tents a strange mishmash It reminded me of you guys trying to help me in the other moon card and people watching hoping we didn't make to much mess fall out.

'Get up a while then lazy mouse..'  yeh ok. 

Nearly 404 come back to sleep Ren.

Chilled a bit before sleep.. very fizzy again.

Wake later... Errrr Star-shaped cookies? 'Dog treats bitch?' Haha

A wired dream it was a version of my house I sometimes dream in... it's here but different the hill is steeper, and the houses larger.. I know the people in the street, but they are not my neighbours here.

It was my house and people were delivering stuff a huge white lorry had arrived and the driver was inside with the delivery.. the cats were scared of the big lorry with white 2 unmarked containers. It was dropping stuff off, a small boat was parked up outside too 'Vessel'  

On my driveway was a stall for 'Transition town' with flyers and some people at a desk handing out leaflets and samples...I realised they needed to budge one way or the other a bit for the lorry to get back out as it would be a tight fit. I was checking the location of the cats & kittens as they didn't care much for the huge white lorry.

A female friend was walking past... and she starts pointing out that my driveway is littered with apple cores! She tells me she is making a note of who is making a mess.. lol a mess of apple cores! I think a food recycling caddy had been chucked or squashed. 'Find the food recycling dream Ren....... and take better care of your apples eve!!!!' Phahahah   -- 

Oh, lol TimeWalker!!

What's the lorry?? Hu?? 'Find Uranus bitch your heads in the clouds'  Hahah wtf??😆 HAhaha Inka what?? From where?   'Here/Now'

lol ok...  'Find your star-walker app'  I duno where my phone is use your lazy legs then. Pfffff I was curious enough to get back up it was 0550

I looked at the skywalker app... all the planets, the systems and constellations above and below.. Then considered birth charts and looked at the sky now, not much going on and then at my birth chart and woosh!    'Ren, 707 come bk to sleep, see why your you now'   lol, sort of that's wired accurate so much info... 'Like all the stuff we told you?' Yehhh 

Our birth charts are a form of agreed parameters? 'Yes'

Ok, these ones are harder to change from ingame?
'Yes, but still changeable - they will help offer a trajectory and also how an entity perceives the aspects of the archetypal system logos' Mines busy...... 'Relentless? Curious? Violent? Extremist? Stubborn? yet loving and revolutionary?' lol yeh, kinda Ok, it seems accurate for sure...

'Try looking at others for comparison' Who? 'Start with your bro, you can find his time of birth your mother's old stuff' OK... will try him later.

So lots of the planets are dominant in my sign,  I have my Lillith in 8, and a pice of fate in 12 house Saturn..... Saturn is a calming influence... 'Yeh when you're not going psycho Mars on me' lol 

I wake again wow!! I was inside a brain 'and a mind' 👀
I'd been looking threw the brain from inside, the different structures and connections and eye of Horus that's the pineal? Anyhoo also the thalamus was connected to the horn bits. Oh yeh, I remember now!!

I'd jumped back to you and we chatted planets and archetypes how they were rendered differently depending on each entity's chosen and current parameters..  'Like I told you, Witch, I'm whatever you need me to be'

Then I'd wanted to go back into Leons/Leo/Sun awareness.

He's easy to find cause he's still asleep under the roundhouse. I'd gone to ask if it was ok and you'd all agreed, I'd wanted to join your awareness to get your mind's perspective on it! I remember joining you then waking up from inside a brain 😆

Is that like when I was dreaming of being inside a system shaped like a uterus? 'Find it Ren'  Also horns? 'Yes' Oh is that like a mirror of the 'Find the dream 😏'  

The dream of the brain the horns are also the GPS I was told to look for in the dream about the guys from Jupiter and other planets! 'Yes, and others' 'Yes 💜' Rodent spacial awareness 😆 lol

That's also how humans can learn how to read magnetism to locate too then? 'Yes' - Nice one!     

Oh when I get up and right/wright that is the spinning top!!!

Earth with a wobble or flat earth when you are observing reality from a perspective in the centre of your own event horizon and the aspects of the planets around you!   Also the Celtic cross and the East and Celtic Chakra system! 

'Told you you were a big bitch 😈' Hahahah  💜💜💜

'So get up and write/right' lol yeh ok 2 mins at 808 😏 'FU Ren' Heheh I do love you... 

I feel like a yo-yo 'Shuttle 😏' Hahaha yeh that too! 

'You knew your adha was something you were working on in many concurrent reality games' 

Now I know why!! It's to orientate and navigate inside the earth game 😁

The birth chart describes my ADHD mind too!!!  

 

https://horoscopes.astro-seek.com/astrology-chart-shape/locomotive

 Haha Train 😆 you're at the back 😛  'Fail-Safe Bitch & the Guard 😈'  Haha ... Who the hells driving?  'Not you that's for sure'   

 

 Oh that's the other time I time hopped!  'Yeh, you were meant to be in the back carriage and a bunch of you fucked off to the front!'

Hahaha... Oh we had to come back...  'After you'd fucked it!'  Hahaha Yep 💜 Ok this astrology stuff is kinda fun, especially from inside out!! 

Why pluto and Neptune have such an influence then?  'Zeitgeist' Oh yeh... 'Told you that over and over and over'   So I'm riding the Zeitgeist train... 'Skipping from carriage to carriage Ren'  'Crashing it now and then too'

The wired thing is that this isn't even that wired anymore!  😆  You were not wrong about a wild ride though!!
_______



Oct 2018 Uterus  dream... Oh wow, lots of cool dreams then too.  That's the hopping then 😏 

Go for a run.... and the Fun dosn't stop.

The dream with the people I'd been one of them??.. The controlled/controll people, I'd been one but wasn't with them. Taurus age? The minotaur -- 'Ariadne the moon crones Witch' :)

 

What are the other's Loci is he another larger aspect too? 

 

 

The train wreck...... dream I had years ago. A carriage on its side burnt out in a forest. I had to call spiritual regression and go back in time.....👀  I dodn't need a regression, I needed to go back! 

Last time we barely made it?   'Yep Ren' 😏

 

I'm going back over from the fucked up futures.. the front of the train! Trying to stop the borked trajectory where we are at the end of the line 👀'There is more than one Ren'

 Wow, all my childhood nightmares.. stuck on the tracks.  

 

Blood 2 spiders an ancient birthright... knowledge and spirit are not for sale. Not fucking paywalled - Neither should health be.. we are all sovereign if we want to be that is.... free will.  

 

 

Catalyst, friction, heat, pressure cooker, boom!  'Yes, Ren... Duality..... free will too' 

 

 

 

I Don't want out I want in 💜

'You know your trajectory then Bug?'   Hit the stasis? Neptune? Moon? O.o errr 

🤨😐😶🤔🤔🤔

 

'You can't help yourself bitch any more than I can'... pack it in I'm thinking 🤔 

 

'Hahaha GL with that Ren 🤪'  FU😆

 

 

 

The larger cycles are they like the bigger Chinese star signed 12×4 ? Also on moon times??

 

The station's dream..... The multiple layers waiting for the train
The complimentry earings!  ringing ears... You put a flea in mine 😃  'I did'   That first dream...WTH bug armour!!  All them dreams, the Elen of the ways pee... Santa/Alignment/Bug earing.  Inka...... 'Souldn't play to win Ren 😈'  Hahaha 💜  That's why were teaming 😏 

 

 

Oh The minotaur dreams with controlled people, I went in to rescue a female... With grey hair, an older me.  

The controller.... Did he try to give me a jug?? .... and I took out a water squirter!.... That was so obviously Aquarius!! 😵 'You're an ass hole Bitch...' URANUS!!! 😜😆😆🤣

'and Juvanile Ren'  HAhah 😍 , it' works 😁

 

Aquarius poking the dreamers... 'Yes bitch now hit the fucking stasis, please?'    Hahaha 🤣 🤣 

 

Haha 😍' track timing 'your god's a DJ '

'Come to your brother I know your trajectory and I'm a fucking good aim too. 😆'   Lol 😆 

 

Who did you fire me at last time? 'Look it up dreamer'

 

My between lives regression there was no place to go they were all in me. 'I Am' and my thing was a winged heart ❤

 

'Are you sure this is a good idea?' 💡 

 

'Leos asleep in your house bitch we can do what we want' 😴 😌

😆😃🙄

 'Oh it was Leon that asked Ren to hit the stasis power' 😲😲🤯🤯🤯🤯

Ren wakes sitting upright she turns staring down at Kaylo who yawns rolling and looking up at her sleepily.   ‘What now?’  he asks exasperated at the look on her face.

‘You don’t remember that?’  she asks him equally exasperated, his answer an unconcerned shake of his head as he closes his eyes again.  She stands up.  ‘Ren?’ he asks sighing.

‘I need to find Leon she says.    He sits up too considering her.  ‘Now?’ he asks her.  ‘It’s always now’ she replies.  ‘Fucking hell Ren, your starting to sound like them’ he mutters pissed off, but at the same standing up, taking her hand and porting them both to Leon.

They find him sitting with Jinya on the wooden benches, it’s evening again and the lamp catches her eye, but she heads directly for Leon.        

She feels Jinya drawing Kaylo close to them and she knows he’ll be fine.    

Leon stands to greet her and seeing the force of her intent motions that they should walk.    It takes her a time to order her thoughts and he allows her the space as they walk the grass together in the dark silence.    There is so much she wants to express and Leon’s acknowledgement helps her put it aside and focus on talking.   ‘I didn’t get it, but I’m starting too’  she tells him and remaining silent he walks with her. 

‘You know have to try this?’  she asks.   Giving her space he remains silent waiting.  ‘What if it doesn’t work?’ she asks him stopping and looking at him.   He smiles at her ‘Ren, you know better than anyone no one can make you do something you don’t want too’.   ‘My responsibility then?’ she asks.    ‘Of course’ he replies.   

‘I think we can get in she tells him’  watching him nod she pauses to think again.   ‘How do I wake you though?’    He stops and turns flicking his fingers a lamp appears hovering beside him she looks at it watching the rainbow light illuminating the area where they talking. 

‘You can’t’ he tells her simply with a smile.  Frowning she’s lost, if she can get into the system but can’t wake them how can she help.  Then she knows, and she really doesn’t want to know and her eyes pop wide.   ‘No!’ she says out loud to no one and everyone.   Leon looks at her waiting for her to put the bits together.   ‘You want me to drop the power?’  She asks.  He remains silent watching her the two of them alone in the rainbow glow of the lamp.  

The shock hitting her like a sonic wave she explodes.   'Leon, you're asking me to kill you!  Illeth too and how many others and in permanent stasis?  You know that's mass murder, right? '   

Leon watches her.  Her mind and emotions on fire ‘Didn't you, tell me the reason you’re in stasis is due to the spiritual repercussions of terminating you?   What are you asking of me?'   

He looks at her deeply 'I'm asking you, to free us, Ren, you’re the only one that can'. 

Reeling and realising, the weight of the responsibility crashing down on her like landslide she blurts out 'Shit, Leon.  You know this is fucked up right?'   

He watches her battle her conflicting emotions, deciding fast she glares at him  'The others will never go with this?'    
'I know' he tells her and she looks at him searchingly.  'Leon they read my mind!' she tells him starting to think he's as crazy as she is.   

'No Ren they read your intention' He states patiently looking at her expectantly.    Her mind recoils from the direction her heart is pulling her in.    'I can't lie to them' she tells him as the implications of what he is asking sink in.

Leon walks to her holding her.  Thought seems almost stupid in the vast flow of knowing they exchange, and she knows she’s agreed.    

 'You won't need to lie Ren.   Inka understands, Kaylo too and Loci they all know deep down'  She cries hugging him his arms still around her 'I don't want to lose you' she tells him. 

 

He laughs at her but not unkindly 'We are part of each other Ren you can't lose us'    

‘Remember Ren, with your impulsivity and trust come connection, you won't be alone and you never were.    You can't understand this yet, but your impulsive decisions are taken collectively, by allowing, many contracts can be completed.'

Her mind and temper fires up at his last sentence as the implications of what she is agreeing to hit home.   'Good contracts or bad contracts?'   she asks him abruptly.     

He pushes her back to see her.   Looking down at her quizzically he pauses.   'Now that dear depends entirely on your perspective'.  

She sighs glaring at him 'You could have just said good, you know.' she tells him sarcastically and he hugs her again.  She pushes him away trying to process the enormity of what she’s just stupidly agreed too, and he gives her the space backing off and leaving her alone with the glowing lamp.  

Plonking herself on the grass she sighs enveloped by the myriad of emotions, thoughts, implications swirling about her, and as her awareness spins the strange beautiful lantern that has joined her on the grass dances her conflicts in light around her.

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'You could have done it with Kaylo if you weren't so stubborn...' 

Fuck Malico and Inka helping. 😲

‘Loci will take you, but you’ll be on your own for the first bit so just let the body consciousness drive, Ok?’.   ‘Take me where?’. 

Inka looks at her frowning, ‘I can’t really explain Ren there are just a few more things you need to see and know before we get started.   Nill’s and Koa are trying to find a way into the systems we need, then you’ll have to piggyback either Me or Kaylo inside with you to navigate’.    

Shaking her head she tells him ‘No, I said I’d do this, I can’t ask y’….  He cuts her off smiling and shaking his head ‘Ren you couldn’t do this alone even if you wanted too and believe me you don’t, so just accept what we are telling you ok?’  Ren looks at him considering.  He laughs, ‘I can see it’s going to have to be me then, Look Ren, like I told you you’re in service now, you don’t get it, I do.   Listen up, and it will be ok’.  He tells her smiling.  She hasn’t got a clue how, but she knows his intentions are pure and accepts the pipe he offers.   ‘Loci is going to dream share with you later’.

One by one the others start to arrive; it feels like lifetimes since she’s seen them then she remembers how upset Flo is going to be about the meeting with the overseer and feels horrible.  

 

The pool game with the planets fuck me!! 

 

'We back on Aeon cards... ready player one?' Lol

 

Jinya? Is the mirror you

White profit and dark assassin 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯😵😵

 

And Satan's asshole 🙄 . . 'Knew you'd like it'🤣🤣 ... pfff gg mate, fucking impressive!! 

'Epic?'  Lol yeah...

 

The night with Leon and Ren chat.. my speakers all wired...

 

Then the thunder writing the void game part and the heat wave breaking .. was like the Never ending story and I was writing time.

'Nah bitch times, mine.... I was writing it you're just the bug hopping it!'  Lol 😆 

 

 

Am I not just going to be shooting myself again? 'Yeh But I promise it will be fun, and your payload is love 💘' 

 

Taking Vits I asked if need A today 'How's your vision?' err its good 👍 'Its 2020 Witch!' 😆

How.....  'Told you there is no such thing as fiction Ren'  Yehh..   'Don't freak bitch... Your to curious not to do it anyway'  Hahah  pffffffff

Oh the other dream... with the walk-ins!! 'One of our fucked up trajectories Ren...  We are trying to avoid them so please trust'  Pffffffffffff   'Anyways Witch, you've allready baptised the new Leon night before last, he's not going to be happy you tried to freak him out'   Oh...   here, lol  Yeh he was all Golden.   That was 2 nights ago... 




'Have a kip Ren, Come here... you need a wider perspective' 

'Better?'   Yeps TY  'You're welcome Ren, love and emotion are pretty formless, we have perspective let us be your walls and trajectory for now. As always your intention is impeccable hold it'