Ever bigger Loops

Pfff Didn't dream... just the herd voices!

So yday someone pointed out another name decode Andrea's Hell 😉 'Mirror's Ren, you didn't bother to watch Pan's labyrinth you asked for last Christmas'  No... I'm sure I'll have dreamed it one way or the other though 😛 'See your mirror?'  It's not just my mirror 'Yeh, but we are invisible Witch'💜 Hahaha yeh doesn't stop me loving and talking to you all though.

'You are not what you feel' ....   I recall at night, I wake and lay...   thoughts like birds fly threw my mind would play.... yet alone we walk in this wired place, our deeds and actions we have to face.... 'Ren, just come the fuck here, we are waiting to show you what you face'  😆 Haha  Yeh...

All was Hazy...This morning....  I'd been told I need to learn/Intergrate Malico next and Inak should go for a bit as we just bicker.....
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... I'd asked Inak about the adrenal stuff yesterday too....I feel Inka at the left Kidney and Leon at the right! ... but hadn't had time to contemplate his quick-fire answers while making dinner... so managed to find the links today.


Before cooking I was uploading images.. I added one and he reminded me I needed ctrl key.   I asked if you could help plx... Meaning the control of me as I have very little😛

He..told me I don't know the games I'm playing.... But I felt him there, in that kidney again but like your actually touching my skin!   'I may well be Bitch... Careful what you ask me for'  Hahahah 

'Yes Ren, I know that will only make you more curious'   😮  Hahaha  WOW...   'Weave Ren, we are all in Malico's house under your responsibility'  I recalled I've actually seen them in the lower astral of the room too at night.
 
Then This morning I manage to find the links...

That's why Malico and Loci next.    'Yep witch way bigger karmic fall out' pfff

 

'Won't stop us/you'  IKR.... You being my ego is a good idea cause?   'You've grown into me bitch'

 

Haha fair-nuff.

 

The dream of pulling reality apart from the inside?  'No idea when to stop'

 

Yes that one....'DW witch your the weaponised emotion, I'm the fail safe'

 

An A bomb 💣    AI / androgen Andrea????

 

'Boom!'   Hahaha 🤣🤣

 

'Let Malico help Bitch he knows and loves the big aspect of you that you have no idea about'

 

Lol   'yep all the book stories...  you get to live them'   I do??

 

Echoes ripples.  NOW?  'Jinya/loci Malico '😈😈 yes Ren there is a reason they drag Ren's stupid ass along'

 

Hahaha

 

'Yes Ren.. '      sorry took my mind a bit to make that leap 'DW its a jump that few but a flea can make'

 

Haha

 

The parasites them selves are mainly harmless... the irritating catalyst is in their offering??

 

'Yes'  saliva, bite, mucus in the case of worms...  

 

Its the alarm ⏰ to something up!   'Yup, its why its ok to be an irritating bug🦗🦗🦗'

 

'You bitch I'm afraid are our irritating bug'   Oooo  why I'm a bug in the logos system??  

 

Haha 😍  'DW bitch Malico will tell you why'

 

Cool 😎

 

OK... that was wired too.    Dog was in his bed, id told him come out, come out.. where ever you are.

 

'You finished my sentence with 'meet the young lady who fell from a star'   🐕nursery song??

'I'm serious bitch'   you are dreaming both awake and asleep

 

Yeah I fucking get that now OK...   how does it help anything? 

 

'Good question witch... as Leon told you asked, we are here to show ...'

 

Pfffff   ok.  Why not ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

I Feel like I'm growing porcupine spikes??

'Attachments'

 

Errrrrr ok.  'Its ok Ren you can send hurt home' I  errr   oh, this is like when you pulled me out?

 

Yes the leaving for astral from front or back of body.   'Yes'  

 

So what is with shoulder and adrenals... find the image.

 

 

 

'Adrenals look up name'
 

Ok.   Oh near each kidney is a Ren!  Lol more latin... Errrrrr

 

 

Androgen again.  From Andr meaning Man.   Like Andre's hell... Or the androgyne shell
 

'You will be shedding this dark moon 🌚 again vessel'

 

Whatever 🖤

 

'Eclipse tomorrow...   work your magi now witch we will take it home...'.  

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Sooo Then this morning chatting to Malico, He reminded me of this......

The book Chapter....   And the dream.  

Formless awareness she deconstructs her emotions pulling them apart like candyfloss, standing at the edge of the void half in and half out of reality, she allows herself to scatter an eye between 2 worlds watching her being and feelings fraying rapidly back into the chaos from which it was formed and loving every moment of it.  It’s Kaylo that calls her ‘Ren, enough now, please come back’.   She pauses between form and formless and refocuses allowing her awareness to anchor to his she stops her deconstruction allowing him to move her back to the hut where she rematerializes fully and pauses confused looking around her wondering why Kaylo and Inka are now here too.

Inka watches her knowingly ‘You don’t need to be scared Ren, you just need to control it’  he tells her.   She stands feeling way too big for the hut, everything hyper-real to the point of jarring, Inka passes her his pipe and she accepts sitting down.  ‘Relax’ he tells her, and she inhales trembling slightly ‘What’s wrong with me?’ she asks him, but his laughter is the only response she receives.  The pipe feels wrong too and she passes it to Kaylo who looks at her concerned.  

It’s Malico she hears in her mind startling her.  ‘Sleep Ren’ he tells her and she feels an unexpected wash of fatigue followed by deep weariness the likes of which she’s never known, she lays back grabbing a cushion and surrenders to the dreams suddenly lapping at the edge of her awareness like waves at the shore,  allowing them to carry her off.

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She awakens into a large and luxurious underground room, beautiful coloured silks and painted murals decorate the warm sandstone walls the stone floor beneath her feet is warm and solid, golden lamps emit warmth and heat, she turns to where Malico is watching her thoughtfully.   The form of Jinya floating cross-legged floating just above a silk embroidered cushion has just finished talking and Ren looks at them both concerned.

‘But we are nowhere ready being able to leave yet?  The repairs to the craft will take months still, the alchemists are even now synthesising metals for the parts.’   She tells Jinya who’s pale form looks at her sadly.  ‘The planetary grid is unstable my queen, if we continue using power at this rate it will not hold’.

Malico tuts, picking up a gold jug and pouring wine ‘We have engineers, stabilise it’ He tells the seer dismissively.  Jinya shakes their white head sadly and speaks again ‘They have done all they can. I must warn you nothing good will come from your continuation along this path’   and then they vanish.   

Malico passes her a glass of wine and she joins her awareness with him so he can experience her concerns and they consider each other's perspective reaching an impasse, ‘Jinya is part of us for a reason’ she tells him meeting his gaze and at the same time, she understands their inability to drastically shift there trajectory as to many are already relying on the plan set in motion.     She frowns at him not liking the direction they are heading in at all.  ‘We do our best Ren, that is all anyone can do’ he tells her bluntly.  ‘If you have any better ideas now is a good time to share them’ he continues refilling his glass and watching her intently.   

Meeting his gaze she shakes her head sitting down on the edge of the long bench hollowed from the wall, ‘You know how ugly this could get?’ She asks and he nods at her gravely.  

‘We could stall?’ She suggests knowing that will mean the untimely death of many of the elders in their clan.   ‘Rock and a hard place’ he tells her.  ‘Our responsibility lays with them who look to us to lead them Ren.  Do we sacrifice our own? or the planetary energy grid?’  She sips from her glass not liking any of their options.       

‘All the time you don’t have an answer I have to act’ he tells her.   ‘So we continue on our current course, we are storing additional power and even with grid failure we will still be back in orbit before the year close with minimal loss of life’.  ‘The natives?’   she asks him.  

He closes his dark eyes to reply to her. ‘You know that as well as I do Ren.  If we don’t take this opportunity to leave our fleet will be gone and we will remain here indefinitely’.   ‘I don’t like it’ she tells him standing and joining her energy with his again.    ‘Nor me, They will still evolve Ren, think of it as a set back rather than an extinction’.  She sighs dropping their connection hating they unavoidable road they find themselves travelling. 

The dream jumps to the day of the inevitable explosion deep underground when their equipment shorts out the planetary energy grid.   The chaos of moving their infirm elders deeper into their inner earth systems, the energy fluctuations making the whole process infinitely more difficult and the rage of the surface dwellers an increasing threat, though as yet they have no idea of the extent of the damage that has taken place. 

She meets Malico briefly amid the confusion as they are transferring their people deeper into their complex, hiding and planning their swift departure.  As they spot each other and then join there being he realises her intention, instantly trying to dissuade her from visiting the surface while at the same time realising her will is unshakable, they embrace briefly sharing their regret before parting again her flying to the surface and him leading their people deeper underground. 

Her guilt is all-pervasive yet she knows she owes it to the world they have messed up to at least observe it and she leaves their facility on foot where she’s initially jumped and attacked by the locals who beat her badly and then leave her.    They instinctively know the power outage is their fault, her kind has been grudgingly tolerated on the planet, the natives suspicious of their ability to fly and manipulate matter in a manner very alien to themselves. They had been suffered as an inescapable pestilence.

On their crash landing on the planet Malico and her had retreated, leading their crew under the surface of the planet where the 2 races had mainly ignored each other. 

Yet even in their anger and violence the locals still have no idea at the severity of the outage and extent of the damage they have caused them.   She weeps knowing they have set the natural planetary evolution back by tens of thousands of years, she reforms herself flying around the nearest community, looking down into their dwellings and then in on their homes and family.    She sees them using torches and running down batteries with no awareness that there will be no recharge, she allows her being to drain away with the last of the planetary energy in the devices.  

She’s glad it’s the isopod she wakes in, the buzzing shock of her band recalling her into a form both alien and home at the same time and she stands despite the increasing weakness in her limbs.  Stumbling into the wall and sliding her hand across the glass plate she welcomes the sensation of the infusion and even the nausea, then she rests her head on the wall above the scanner and shudders experiencing Malico’s being both inside and around her.   No longer afraid she welcomes and allows his arrogance, guilt and shame to merge into her being feeling him strengthen her limbs as she weeps aeons of regret into the smooth white wall her forehead is pressed into. 

Finally, board of the emotion, she forces her forehead into the wall pushing off and moving over to the bed plonking down on it and scootching back to lean against the wall.  ‘You don’t hate me?’ she hears Malico ask making her laugh ‘No!’ she replies out loud wondering how she could or would hate him and yet at the same time integrating the 100’s of dreamlives where they had fought, killed, hurt, harmed, healed and helped each other.   

She sighs wondering at her sanity and feels his reassurance.  ‘This is wired’ she tells him yet recognising a familiarity that feels like home.  ‘We fragmented what appears to you as a long-ago Ren.  If your set on completing this contract then I’m bound to assist’.  She can’t help but laugh out loud ‘Were fucked you know?’  she states and she feels his amused acquiescence to their plight, ‘Likely’ He tells her, ‘but as I have told you already you serve little by being small.   It’s your lack of form, direction and cohesion that makes you unbreakable while ironically also equally ineffective, if you are to help anything, you need all the assistance you can get’. 

What are you Malico?  'I'm a dark star to Ren, another you that you need to integrate'

A planet? 'We will show Ren, you stayed with the humans when we split... You took on guilt and responsibility that I did not.  You felt responsible for not acting' and you? 'I know I acted in the interests of our people - I'd fulfilled my role as their leader'

That's why Flo in the story told me sometimes you just have to forgive yourself and move on?   'Yes Ren' ahhhh

What was the thing where I inter-feared.   'Egypt, also with us... We will learn together'  ok.

'I know you love Inka Ren, as twins the pair of you are a storm so please let us all help'   Ok... TY

The Ariadne, Ellen, Web weave?  'Yes Ren, to me you are my white queen, to Inka a dark twin'    I don't understand?  'We are showing, the lives with me underground'

Yehh  'Archetypes, planets, Myths, pantheons they tell of the repeating patterns and story's'

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You're Inka too? - 'he is me Ren..   you are me we are all each other a mind complex'

 

Errr?? 'time now too'   More errrr??

 

'Its ok, I will stay and help'

 

Where is Inka, 'He is fine Ren you just need to work and learn from me at the moment'

 

OK..  

 

The listen to luminosity (Mix's)  that you told me in the summer the luminosities... Starts and planets?

 

Wtf?   (DL of emtion)  'All symbolic Ren. Crying in the rain won't help 💙'

 

'Listen and run, we know you want to be home'

 

 

Wich home I love them all? 😄

 

Can't I just bring home here?  'You are trying Ren'

'Very bitch so fucking listen to him'  Lol I thought you were meant to stay away from me Inka?

 

'He has all the sense you do Ren, neither of you know when to stop' lol 😆 Great 👍

 

Oh.. If your Leon's shadow are you the holly king too? 

 

Oak/Holly.   You told me I'm your white queen that's the Birch tree the first moon of the new year, too?

 

From24th Dec??..  'keep playing with concepts Ren.  The patterns of your weave.'

Dark star 🌟   winter.. death of the old sun 🌞 rebirth of new year

 

The dreams with Inka walking people- own personal Jesus's ??

 

The death of a female in 6mnths--- this is the matriarch energy??

 

 

Mama home by Christmas is the errrrrr

 

The child dreams child foot print is the innocents..

 

The teddy dreams too...  The love of a mother transferred to an object.

 

Oh..  Also the dark crystal 🔮  female objectified abuse of children

 

The Maya forest.. we as a family have the key.

 

A new picture into the box?

 

'Good Ren, keep playing'

 

OK......

 

When the women told me Jesus's has moved.

Moved In. we are our own personal saviour or prosecutor

 

Under the Birch (controlled) or be the Birch

The fly agaric grow under the Birch... the flying mushroom

 

The myths- 7 times the fairies take..

Robert Graves states in “The White Goddess” that the message was a warning to the Irish Sun God Lugh about the fairies – the Sidhe, who were planning to kidnap his wife.

When I'm dreaming as a planet ... Birch dryad first.. .....and I'm pretty sure I fly just fine with out mushroom 🍄s these days! 😄

 

The Queen is the other myth too black white polarity-/+ charge   The chess game and Queen/King.


Also the British Isles Celtic.. Folklaw??

 

So when you told me I'm gaming with God's

That why I see a different reflection of me in each of your archetypes? 

 

'Yes  you do the same to other its why you prefer kids and animals

Or others like you'  Oh.. the mirror army? In the wood?

 

'Reflecting the soul of the world'  👏 🌎 wow.

 

I still don't get what I am?

 

'Everything and nothing Ren, your questions and your answers'

 

I think i preferred being a 🌳 🙃🤣 or the Re'Ed station..

 

'You know where your story is going now?'  Sort of but Ren's Earth has gone...   'but Jinya is teaching her how to time hop'

 

Oh.... lol yeah pffff   'The cathedral/school Ren? The living one? You guys are the new caretakers remember?'

 

Ohh  🤯  The transfer of 'Find it please, read it both the dream and your story version, then Nap and come straight to me' 

The dream version and the other dreams! 

https://mousedream.blogspot.com/2017/08/school-renewal.html  -  WOW!  And the dream before!! 

'Now in your story please, then Here Ren. Come to the library'

-- Story Chapter...

He hands her a mug he’s holding, ‘Here, drink something’ he tells her the liquid is warm and bitter and Ren drinks in silence puzzling what she just experienced and more importantly why?                                                    
She finishes the drink handing back the mug Loci watching her, ‘Is that enough or are you ok for another’. ‘I’m full thanks’ she replies thinking he means the liquid.   Then realising her error as he laughs at her.   ‘Oh!’  

 

Shrugging she laughs,  ‘Loci, I have no idea what is going on any more,  so show me what you need too’.  Grinning at her he replies ‘Ok sit next to me this time we dream share but again don’t expect to be lucid ok?’.  ‘Am I even lucid now?’  she asks him suddenly thinking and he smiles at her ‘That Ren is a very good question and only one you can answer’.   Great bloody help that is, she thinks laying back and preparing to be further confused. 

 

She wakes outside curled under the canopy of a large tree, She’s laying on an expansive well kept lawn, looking across the gently sloping grass and above her the night sky is the deepest blue she has ever seen, so she lays captivated for a time looking at the tiny dots of lights which she assumes must be stars, and then she grones realising that she’s in yet another education setting.   All though from what she remembers this has been her home for as long as she can recall and puzzlingly she can recall being here for what feels like years and years.  

 

She looks around wondering where her friends are.  She is unable to see any of them and can’t sense any of them nearby either and then she remembers their rooms are up in the attic and recalls how hot and stuffy it had felt up there earlier and so she’d decided to sleep in the garden, she must have nodded off again as when she next wakes its morning and she is watching the first arrival of the latest intake of pupils milling around ushered and herded by the teaching sect that currently run the place.   

She yawns and stretches noticing a windfall apple not far from where she’s sitting,  crawling over she picks it up wiping it on her dirty blue tunic and she crunches it considering.     

She’d finished all the lessons and graduated from every class here years ago her and the few like her still live in the dusty attic rooms, the teaching sect irritated by their continued presence and inability to evict them.   Looking at the bored expressions on some of the pupils she crawls about under the tree for a bit collecting a few more of the windfall apples and bunching her tunic to hold them she heads across the grass towards the beautiful living college.  She greets the building and feels it’s welcome as she heads inside following a line of infants being lead into one of the teaching rooms by a Dean where he stands at the front,  facing his students,  all self-important in his flowing purple and red robes.   He scowls at her arrival and she grins at him impishly wandering the tables and passing apples to the children who notice her,  then enjoying the ensuing chaos that follows when some children suddenly have apples and others don’t the noisy crunching confusing the other students and infuriating the overly serious Dean, the last apple she offers to him grinning in his face but he grabs her arm instead leading her from his classroom and back into the vestibule, ‘Your rooms are being repurposed’ he tells her ‘you're continued presence is no longer welcome here’.  She laughs at him summer saluting out of his reach and walking on her hands across the mosaic floor tiles looking at him from upside down.   Sighing the Dean turns returning to his class and closing the door behind him.

‘Hey Ren!’  looking up she sees the form of Nills above her sitting in the beams of the large hall and she floats up to meet him tucking herself into a corner and sitting too, her legs dangling and she realises she’s also blue.   Her memories are jumbled and she doesn’t recall much outside of her life here.  ‘They want to see us all later’ he tells her.   ‘They’ being the college Deans and admins that run the place like a religious sect and ‘us’ being the few left like her that considered the school their home.  She laughs at the futility of their continued attempts to move them on making Nills smile, ‘They're getting persistent now’ He tells her ‘They tried to catch Mel and me last night but the door vanished behind us so they couldn’t get into our room, then this morning they have taken our beds out and burnt them’.   ‘They did what!’  she exclaims her temper flaring quickly ‘Dose Loci know?’  Nills nods at her, ‘Don’t do anything stupid Ren, Inka says we go together later, ok?’    Not entirely trusting herself not to do something stupid she wonders where Kaylo is and he appears beside them also blue and looking as angry as she feels.  ‘You herd?’ He asks her but her expression is all the reply he needs.   ‘We can’t leave’ she tells them and she knows they agree.   They all share the same pressing obligation, they’ve been here so long they have forgotten what it is they are supposed to be doing, but they all know they have to stay and she feels the building agree with her too.   ‘What time?’ she asks and Kaylo replies  3.33 after lessons.    

Ren ports up to what was their room to find it now filled with old boxes of books and storage trunks, the dust is still familiar and she climbs up onto a storage chest where her bed used to be to look out of the small round window not wanting to look at the space that had been their home devoid of there usual belongings.  She feels Inka before he speaks his anger simmering similar to her own.   ‘Hey,’ she greets him making space at the window.   ‘We can sleep in the woods’ He tells her and she nods in agreement.  ‘They burnt everything?’ she asks and knows the answer from his rising rage.  ‘They can’t keep us out, the building protects us’  she tells him and it’s his turn to nod they stand in silence together looking out into the woodlands that surround the college.   Mel and Flo arrive next Flo’s is still sobbing and Ren hugs her looking at Mel over her shoulder, ‘You ok?’ She asks Mel who smiles sadly at her.

By 3.30 they are all making there way to the Deans' refectory in silence, Ren not trusting her self to speak focuses on walking instead and Flo beside her takes her hand.    They enter the archaic space where the controlling sect is seated around a large table waiting for them and the friends enter joining them at the table.   It’s their leader that addresses them ‘You are being evicted, there is no more for you to learn, and your continued presence here is little more than a distraction and distortion from our purpose’.   ‘We are not leaving’ Ren hears herself speak and the leader glares at her.   ‘We will stay as maintenance, we will work?’ she offers speaking for all of them.   ‘That is not acceptable, the new intake is on route you are no longer welcome’ they are told. 

Inka stands first and the others join him walking away from the table with no intention of leaving,  the door opens for them as they approach it and close softly behind them.   They hear the raised voices of the Deans arguing as they walk back threw the corridors and hallways and then out towards the lawn at the front of the building, they sit in the doorway together watching the first infants who had arrived only days earlier play on the grass.   None of them speak, wondering what to do next,  Loci manifests some butterflies flying them over the grass to where the children are sitting.

Standing she looks at Inka frowning before heading back inside ‘Ren?’ he asks but she’s already through the door again.  She floats up sitting in on the wide stone ledge of one of the large stain glass windows the sun at her back, looking down to where the sunlight is fragmented into coloured patterns on the floor the outline of her shadow looking back at her she apologises to the building and it sighs with her feeling her sorrow.   She must have fallen asleep as when she wakes again there is only moonlight.  Ren floats down from where she’d been sleeping moves around exploring she’s aware of the amount of work going on in preparation of the new intake and she wonders again if they are wrong to stay. 

Standing on one of the walkways over the vestibule she’s startled by a noise behind her and sees a group of the admin looking at her and then more approaching from the other side,  registering that she’s trapped on the bridge she keeps walking anyway wondering what they want.

To her amazement, the bridge she’s standing on comes alive fresh wood growing quickly from the carved rails, forming bark that cuts her of firstly from the Deans on either side and then continues to grow encasing her completely and unexpectedly in a wooden cocoon.   Struggling would be pointless and so she relaxes listening to the raised angry voices outside growing fainter. 

Tuning out the shouting, instead she greets the wood around her, it’s sentience is exploring her and then she feels it’s changing, almost like a shedding of an old skin she feels the peeling away and shaking off what was… and the new growth beneath sniffing and exploring her mind and body reminding her of a wiggly puppy and she laughs in remembrance that she is part of the bridge and part of the building, they all are.    The cocoon much like the dryad tree her and Kaylo had experienced is reminding her this is why they can not leave, her friends and her are the new caretakers now,  the balance of power has passed from the old order into our group and the building is awakening their connection as it’s renewing its self.    

When the cocoon splits it’s her friends she finds waiting for her outside their memories restored along with her own and she shares there astonishment at how they had forgotten.  The old order had been trying to evict them to prevent the change but they can already feel how the school is different, vibrantly alive and playful, and excited at the arrival of new pupils.    

She walks closer too her friends when she hears a summons,  Loci and Inka meeting her gaze and she understands that they hear it too,  puzzled the 3 of them respond together telepathically to the call allowing themselves to leave the dreamscape where they materialise in a jarringly different space one Ren recognises instantly as an astral hub, there astral forms glowing brightly here,  Ren is astonished to find the collage admins waiting their forms identical to her own.   They greet them warmly wishing to discuss the shift of power and it’s smooth transfer and then she’s back in the dark on the dirty sofa, stretching, Loci moving beside her. 

‘What the heck was that?’ she asks him sitting up quickly.   ‘Easy’ He tells her smiling and manifesting some water for her to drink,  she frowns at him not knowing where to start with questions and he shakes his head.  ‘Just remember Ren, you don’t have to understand or put the bits together yet’ she watches him trying to make sense of how everything fits together and failing miserably ‘Where are we now?’ She asks instead.  ‘It’s just another astral hub Ren, there are many of them’. 

‘How come they know you here?’ she askes next making him laugh ‘They know you too Ren, you just don’t remember them yet’  She rolls her eyes at his response, ‘Is it outside the cage?’ she asks and he smiles at her ‘No Ren it’s inside’.   She sighs exasperatedly ‘This shit isn’t funny you know!’ she tells him and then smiling at how much she sounds like Kaylo.  

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I do as Malico asked and nap, jumping where he's waiting and it's more story.....
But I still not sure.... how to weave it. 

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 As requested Ren jumps to directly to the library where she finds Malico waiting for her.  He places his hands on her shoulders changing her avatar back to the horned tall white smiling at her he asks 'Please use this form when you here for now?'  'Errr ok'
she tells him wondering why.
 
The room as always is hot. They weave threw the tall book cases until they are directly in front the coals and logs burning bright in the wide gold grate cocooned in it's smooth stone surround, catching her attention he looks at her embracing her for a moment before walking to the table and opening a smooth wooden box that glows as he opens it.
 
 He returns bringing what looks like an impossibly thin long crystal wand or rod it glows with it's own bright white light.  She watches fascinated the white light twinkling in her wide white eyes.
 
 'Ren, show me your hand please?'  'Hu?' she replies frowning at him confused.
 
'Where Leon cut you and I handfasted you'
Oh, she says suddenly recalling the other dream where Malico had bound Leon and her bleeding palms.
 
 She lifts her left hand looking down at her palm where the jewelled gold knife had cut across it, Malico takes her hand in his then fast and with no warning hits the centre of her hand hard with the glowing stick causing a bright white flash and her to jump and shrike in surprise and pain, Malico grabs her hand instantly kissing it and the pain is gone as fast as it arrived, then he takes the same hand pressing it to his forehead the smooth glowing rod vanished with the flash.   'What the hell are you doing' she snaps angrily 'Undoing a spell' 'But it was you that performed the binding' 'So it is me that must undo it'.
 
 'I don't understand'.    'Blood magic Ren, the recall in the DNA you needed to share'
'Why bind me then?' she asks puzzled
'You trusted us that you should integrate and understand what Leon symbolises but you are sovereign Ren, you do not belong to any'.
 'Oh...'  'I'm sorry it hurt he tells her embracing her again and she feels his very genuine remorse' 'Dream here please?'  She considers him and then sits on the red sofa before laying back and rolling to face the fire.
 
 Staring into the fire her awareness quickly leaves her sleeping form looking down upon it, her vision changes and she observes amazed at her avatars skin becoming patterned like shattered crystal, a rainbow coloured harlequin,  the fires flames dance reflected in her fractures.  
 

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Wow... Ok... You undid the binding??   I did queen, now shed plx, you know what we need... Wiredly Yeh...

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